Safe Space

We’ve all heard about houses having panic rooms, or of people running to the basement during a tornado, but we are mobile creatures and what befalls us doesn’t always happen in our homes. So, where is our safe space then? The only possible answer is inside. And what makes that space safe? We make our inner space safe by determining, consciously, who we are, by choosing the fundamental principles that we will uphold in the face of any challenge, by knowing what is truly important to us. We may be born with these inklings, we may be taught some of them, but until we, ourselves, consciously choose them, we will not even be safe to ourselves. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Last night dreaming and meditating was all about a connection, like a stillness connection, that was reaching for my attention. In other words, instead of me going into a stillness, the stillness was coming out.

If what is going on in the outer doesn’t have any way of feeding something, or being in a particular way that is meaningful, I can easily drift to this stillness space. In other words, because the stillness has come out, I can easily to go back to it. 

Apparently, I have established a recognition to this part of myself that is not as apparent. It’s not as affected. It’s not as affected in terms of what is going on in the outer. It’s not able to touch me like it normally does because this stillness is able to engulf the outer whims of things. 

Consequently, I have developed a proclivity to drown projected images that waft in between the all-engulfing stillness and the outer magnetism. I can drown them back and forth. I can go back and forth, I can drown them now. Which means I just kind of slip into a deeper stillness, or a letting-go into this state has become more natural for me than it is for the average person who is affected and haunted by outer projections that terrorize an inner aloneness that extends from an all-pervasive wholeness. 

So, in other words, it’s like what flickers, the Bardo stuff that flickers, it’s not like that flickering world is where one sits then and tries to look at that, and tries to go back through that, and finds the stillness behind it. It’s not like that’s in-between anymore. It’s like coming out of the stillness, going into that, and then from that into the waking world, now.

In other words, the process has become reversed. It’s not finding a remembrance, it’s coming from a remembrance into the flickering of things. The whole process is getting reversed, it’s like it’s tipped. It’s gone over the threshold, or something. 

And so, as a consequence, I can actually say things about things. But nobody really understands it because, when I say things about things – I can see this happening now – I can say things about things, but when I say things about things, deep down, where I’m at, has a slant to the other side. As opposed to saying things now that has a slant towards that side. Now it’s from the other side. That’s different.

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Caught Up

Sometimes we can be the script writer for our own disaster movie. Our fears, worries, obsessions all are generations of energy in our bodily systems, radiating out from our brain. These energies circle around our energetic aura, which is the sealed bubble in which we live. Over time, the energies that occupy that bubble, that are generated and produced by us, can have an effect on cellular formation and genetic replication. As it has been said, we become what we think about. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Well, since I’ve had this bad cough it’s interfered with my being able to really go deeply in meditation. And it seems to have disrupted my dreaming a little bit, too.

And all I remember of my dream last night is it felt like, because I’d watched some disaster movie, then my dream was about a disaster where there were shifts in the earth. And I’d been called to become part of a group that was going to work, we’d go sit in a circle, and we’d be consulting about what we’re going to do to help with the changes during the disaster. 

So I’ve gone to this building, I note that one of the people that’s supposed to be there hasn’t arrived for the meeting. There’s a sheriff at the meeting; there’s other types of officials. I notice that someone is pleased that I actually know the name of someone who isn’t there – he’s the son of someone I knew in high school that is going to participate because he’s part of the local community. So even though he’s not there, I seem to know his name. And I’m still trying to figure out what people’s roles are, so I’m being a little quieter.

But I’m also realizing that there’s some disagreement, or maybe what I’d call lack of awareness, among people about like, during a disaster, that there’s going to be movements of the earth that disrupt people being able to communicate with each other. And some people think that’s minimal and are ignoring it and not planning for it. And other people seem to have some awareness of it, but they think it’s going to be more controlled or manageable, like it is in the movies. 

And I’m kind of sitting there and thinking, you know, they just really have no idea because that will be a major disruption to even being able to meet. And I seem to want to go out and explore that a little; I want to actually go out and look and see how much disruption there is to the travel and communication with whatever disaster is going on. And that’s the main dream. 

John: It’s like a type of flickering back and forth, too, only in this particular instance it’s kind of like you’re carrying some sort of answer, or question, rather, a question in terms of this or that. 

I can’t help but octave and wonder what it would be like if your sense of looking at what’s going on here was such that you couldn’t really make any significant identification. So, in other words, you’re still trying to identify and rationalize in something, but what if you can’t make any strong identifications of this having some sort of significance in terms of what something is going to be like, or whatever? 

What would that be like? Would you suddenly then be able to let go of a certain way that something is intensified in terms of having to unfold? And, by letting go, would you thus be able to take on a greater overallness, or wholeness to things, as opposed to the commotion of stuff that’s going on, the antics of stuff that’s going on? 

So it looks like you’re playing on some sort of margin of which, you might say, you have the question, and then you have the 60%-70% margin of whatever it is, that’s propounded out there for you to be looking at in terms of paying attention to. And another way of saying it is that I can’t help but wonder how you would ponder this if it was flipped the other way? And that what’s going on out here is like 40%. And what’s going on inside it’s like 60% or 70%. And that you realize that attention, too much dwelling on stuff out here goes nowhere. If anything, it tears something down. It helps to perpetuate a fabrication of something that isn’t properly balanced or correlated to what is simple on the inside, which is just the stillness, just a real interesting quietness. 

But the word stillness doesn’t quite catch it. It’s a peacefulness. And the peacefulness doesn’t quite catch it because what it really kind of is, it’s as if what’s going on in the outer is some aspect of something that has gotten detoured, or lost, that’s broken away from the whole, that’s gotten misaligned. 

And so it’s like a disease in the body’s soul, and that it has a way of being infected and staying infected, and infecting at the same time, but this is only so when the attention is placed upon the disease. If you took the attention off of the disease, everything goes into kind of a very soothing state. The disease is a manufactured fabrication of a tone, or a mood, in which something is scrambling to get its act back together or something. 

And so as long as one’s attention has to be so much so in terms of the outer and what is going on in its whiplashing this way, and that way, and that predominates, then, how do you keep from always contending with some sort of fidgetation game? Because if you’re kind of coming out of some other deeper place in which none of that exists, this all seems very strange. 

And it seems very surreal. It only seems to be possible when you imagine it to be so. And we imagine it to be so with our kind of neurotic mannerisms or whatever that we buy into, so much of the time, that it’s the other that is strange to us, it’s the other than is foreign to us. And that this seems quite common to us. 

We’re meant to be connected to this other, and to bring this other in, and through, in terms of what is real, and we’re not doing it because we’re caught up in this deviation.

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Absentee State

How often do we experience something that is upsetting to us, and then, at another time, experience the same circumstance, but, the second time, we don’t let it bother us? It can be felt in varying degrees in many situations. Sometimes we’ve learned and aren’t bothered anymore. Sometimes we’re just better rested, or less stressed, so it doesn’t get to us. We become more an observer of what is happening, rather than being entangled in the emotions of the events. These reactions may be mostly automatic, but this is another aspect that we can increase our conscious awareness about. When we do, we can stay neutral even in complex, emotional situations, which is better for us and anyone involved. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: The sleep dream got really interesting because it threw it into a whole other curve of putting me into an absentee state from everything.

In other words, in this dream, I am introduced to be a person who has no idea of what is happening, and, thus, I am not biased by what is taking place in front of me because I have not noticed, or have anything to do with, what is happening. 

This is an interesting position to be in. I’m introduced this way, I keep my mouth shut, but, technically, as a witness, I am seeing the distinction to being able to be totally let go and free, because then I see that I’m not defined in some capacity or another, and am able to move about and appreciate the overallness by not being caught up and having to go around this way, or that, with some posture or another. 

Thus, what I see, and how I am able to come across, has a freedom that is able to open up to the in-breath. Otherwise, you’re just caught in the out-breath of things that are definitional. 

And the significance is, this is a dream about being able to let go of inhibitions and prejudgments, and, in doing so, in other words, this is a higher octave of the meditation dream in terms of using it. In other words, the meditation dream was the thrashing around. And the octave of being able to function in a world that has all this stuff going on, and able to let go of the types of inhibitions that one could possibly take on this way or that, or prejudgments that one could have this way or that, is the ability to accept the world as is.

To be able to do that enables a person to access a greater depth and freedom within, and to do so without having to go at this in some sort of confined, or defined, or oriented way to some sort of out-breath demeanor that biases the perceptions. 

So that’s the significance, and what is going on is I am describing the means of being able to witness and take in a larger perspective in life – than ordinarily possible – because I am not caught up in the situation before me, beforehand. 

Deeper meaning is, the key to experiencing the expansiveness of an in-breath is to be not lost in some out-breath abstraction. I am in the outer, but that doesn’t mean I have to submit to outer identifications for my reality. To be able to let go of such abstractions is to have an inner connectedness and overall spaciality that definitions preclude.

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