Sometimes we can be the script writer for our own disaster movie. Our fears, worries, obsessions all are generations of energy in our bodily systems, radiating out from our brain. These energies circle around our energetic aura, which is the sealed bubble in which we live. Over time, the energies that occupy that bubble, that are generated and produced by us, can have an effect on cellular formation and genetic replication. As it has been said, we become what we think about. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Well, since I’ve had this bad cough it’s interfered with my being able to really go deeply in meditation. And it seems to have disrupted my dreaming a little bit, too.

And all I remember of my dream last night is it felt like, because I’d watched some disaster movie, then my dream was about a disaster where there were shifts in the earth. And I’d been called to become part of a group that was going to work, we’d go sit in a circle, and we’d be consulting about what we’re going to do to help with the changes during the disaster. 

So I’ve gone to this building, I note that one of the people that’s supposed to be there hasn’t arrived for the meeting. There’s a sheriff at the meeting; there’s other types of officials. I notice that someone is pleased that I actually know the name of someone who isn’t there – he’s the son of someone I knew in high school that is going to participate because he’s part of the local community. So even though he’s not there, I seem to know his name. And I’m still trying to figure out what people’s roles are, so I’m being a little quieter.

But I’m also realizing that there’s some disagreement, or maybe what I’d call lack of awareness, among people about like, during a disaster, that there’s going to be movements of the earth that disrupt people being able to communicate with each other. And some people think that’s minimal and are ignoring it and not planning for it. And other people seem to have some awareness of it, but they think it’s going to be more controlled or manageable, like it is in the movies. 

And I’m kind of sitting there and thinking, you know, they just really have no idea because that will be a major disruption to even being able to meet. And I seem to want to go out and explore that a little; I want to actually go out and look and see how much disruption there is to the travel and communication with whatever disaster is going on. And that’s the main dream. 

John: It’s like a type of flickering back and forth, too, only in this particular instance it’s kind of like you’re carrying some sort of answer, or question, rather, a question in terms of this or that. 

I can’t help but octave and wonder what it would be like if your sense of looking at what’s going on here was such that you couldn’t really make any significant identification. So, in other words, you’re still trying to identify and rationalize in something, but what if you can’t make any strong identifications of this having some sort of significance in terms of what something is going to be like, or whatever? 

What would that be like? Would you suddenly then be able to let go of a certain way that something is intensified in terms of having to unfold? And, by letting go, would you thus be able to take on a greater overallness, or wholeness to things, as opposed to the commotion of stuff that’s going on, the antics of stuff that’s going on? 

So it looks like you’re playing on some sort of margin of which, you might say, you have the question, and then you have the 60%-70% margin of whatever it is, that’s propounded out there for you to be looking at in terms of paying attention to. And another way of saying it is that I can’t help but wonder how you would ponder this if it was flipped the other way? And that what’s going on out here is like 40%. And what’s going on inside it’s like 60% or 70%. And that you realize that attention, too much dwelling on stuff out here goes nowhere. If anything, it tears something down. It helps to perpetuate a fabrication of something that isn’t properly balanced or correlated to what is simple on the inside, which is just the stillness, just a real interesting quietness. 

But the word stillness doesn’t quite catch it. It’s a peacefulness. And the peacefulness doesn’t quite catch it because what it really kind of is, it’s as if what’s going on in the outer is some aspect of something that has gotten detoured, or lost, that’s broken away from the whole, that’s gotten misaligned. 

And so it’s like a disease in the body’s soul, and that it has a way of being infected and staying infected, and infecting at the same time, but this is only so when the attention is placed upon the disease. If you took the attention off of the disease, everything goes into kind of a very soothing state. The disease is a manufactured fabrication of a tone, or a mood, in which something is scrambling to get its act back together or something. 

And so as long as one’s attention has to be so much so in terms of the outer and what is going on in its whiplashing this way, and that way, and that predominates, then, how do you keep from always contending with some sort of fidgetation game? Because if you’re kind of coming out of some other deeper place in which none of that exists, this all seems very strange. 

And it seems very surreal. It only seems to be possible when you imagine it to be so. And we imagine it to be so with our kind of neurotic mannerisms or whatever that we buy into, so much of the time, that it’s the other that is strange to us, it’s the other than is foreign to us. And that this seems quite common to us. 

We’re meant to be connected to this other, and to bring this other in, and through, in terms of what is real, and we’re not doing it because we’re caught up in this deviation.

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