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We’ve all had relationships with living things: people, pets, even plants and trees in our yard. Yet even inanimate objects are made of energy that we can relate to. Sometimes we’ll have that sort of connection with an old car, or an art object, or a painting on our wall. Does that seem silly? And is it possible that such attention from us helps the car run better, or charges the art object with good feelings, or that we can draw happiness from a favorite painting? All these things are possible, and happen, depending on our awareness and intention. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So you’re pointing out this quality of oneness in this way. In my particular case, it’s like I’m being absorbed into things, and drawn to being absorbed into things, or taking on things. Going into, taking on, seeing the vibratoriness of a greater heartfulness, or something, that does all of this. 

And the seeing takes out the vibration of the heartfulness, but the expansiveness quality, that takes all of that in, can take it in to the degree to which the feeling quality is there, as opposed to some reactive or self-limiting linearity, or something. 

So it’s this kind of dynamic that one’s playing with, it’s on an in-breath level. I tend to take the meditation dream and even try to apply it to what’s going on into a scenario in order to try to exude out of it the aliveness that’s embedded in it.

The meditation dream is on the same sort of subject of something with greater spaciality or capacity. In other words, to begin with, the way this sort of thing starts is, I’m able to kind of perceive an object in the distance. And I notice that it has kind of a bit of a spiral, maybe Space Needle look to it, in the distance. And so, in that regard, it’s intriguing. 

But to begin with, that’s the most of it is just kind of a curiosity item. But the more I come closer to it, out of curiosity, the more I realize that I’m able to make out that the object, first of all, it draws you in. Second, it has a quality about it that needs an embracing with a greater capacity. It’s actually kind of working with two colors simultaneously, which is really interesting, because the object is either green or red – and I can’t tell you for sure because it seems to have switched, or changed, when I get real close.

But the dilemma is, even though I knew it was green and red, was the features: I can’t tell you whether it was green turning to red, or red turning to green, or maybe both ways somehow. What I do know is that whatever undulations existed, when up close the object just surprised me with having an aliveness about it. And that it could speak to me, I could relate to what it was about, or wanted, or I could touch it, or it could touch me. 

So what is going on is this is a dream vision in which I am making a connection relationship to that which is an inanimate aliveness in life. As I come closer to the object, I find myself, at some point, drawn into it. It is as if a switch occurs in which there is a red green interplay. But what I can’t tell is if my first glimpse of color was red, or whether it was green, all I know is that those were the two colors that were involved. And all I can say about that is that when I am up close, it’s opposite what maybe I was initially perceiving and thinking. 

And what’s odd about it is if I was to try to sort that out, and said, well, I think I initially perceived it as red, then it would have been green up close. Or if I would have said, well, I think I initially perceived it as green, then it would have been red up close. 

So, either way, it has an oracle-like effect over me as I find myself able to hear it as if it’s an aliveness. Or, to put this another way, red is an immersion into the outer, with a value orientation, and green is an immersion into life with a heartfulness. Both ways somehow coexist, depending upon the aliveness at the time. 

An aliveness meaning whether you’re looking in a state, or trying to understand it, or grasp it, or see it and make some headway that way, which has a different use of light, a different color, more of a red, or whether you’re trying to feel what this is all about, which is more in the green. 

So this is akin to the rhythm of the breath, in which I am in life and in a heartfelt capacity that is absorptive, but also with a combinational flicker sort of capacity in this absorptive, and yet there’s both, somehow, simultaneously – as I try to get my head around it in terms of a seeing. These differences, if you were going to call them differences, are more like a type of coming together – between definition and feeling – that coexists in a way of oneness.

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As we learn and grow, we set people and things aside to fully embrace the new that we are entering in on. Sometimes, when we find ourselves again in a time of consolidation, rather than expansion, we may want to revisit some of the aspects that we have let go of, both in the outer and on the inner. Some connections may naturally still be there, others will no longer apply, or be too difficult to make work. These are all natural patterns in the unfolding of our journey. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Well, in my sleep dream, initially I’ve gone to a restaurant to meet a man who actually comes from a foreign country that I knew a long time ago. He wants to make love, but he seems to want to make love like on a banquet table at this restaurant. And then he’s not sure about it, so he promptly gets up and leaves.

I start to get up and leave and the restaurant owner comes over, because he’s not sure things have been paid for, but we haven’t even eaten. And then I help point out to him that there is some money left on the table, although it’s left in Latin American money. That seems to satisfy him. 

And then I leave there. And I seem to be looking to connect in some way with people that I’ve known in the town where I’m living where I grew up. And I walk down and there’s a trailer that one of my ex-classmates is living in, and I seem to go in through a back window of the trailer and go the length of it. 

And she’s taking care of plants and things in her trailer, and I ask her about other people that we graduated with, is there some way we can even get together once a month and connect? And she’s not sure who’s living there anymore. And somebody else has come by that we knew, that I graduated with.

And then I’ve worked my way to the other end of the trailer where she’s watering some plants and where the door is, and I look out the window and I remarked to her, and another person that’s shown up, that I’m kind of upset with what they’re building on the hillside. Because I look out and on the hillside there’s a home that’s going up, but it’s really big and they’re using these large logs. 

And I look beyond it, and further on the hillside, up near the mountains where there’s some kind of industry going on, they built everything out of those huge logs that have the bark stripped off them – and it just doesn’t look right for the area. And I comment that I just don’t like to see that kind of building going on because it’s kind of like a blight on the landscape; it just doesn’t blend or look natural. 

And I leave there and I seem to go over to somebody else’s home, and I notice that my dad and his friend are there. And she seems to be taking care of them, so he seems okay. And then I leave there to try to find some other people that I’ve known before. 

I’m in a building that must be connected to the restaurant because my cousin comes by, with my dad and someone else, and they’re going back into the restaurant. And they want to know if I want to come with them. And I say, no, because I don’t want to go back to where I’ve been. And they say, well, you know, Bill Gates is in there. And I’m still not interested, but I’m glad to see that dad’s being taken care of. 

And then I go out into the street and run into maybe somebody that I knew, but I’m beginning to realize that most of the people that I knew, that I graduated with, have kind of left the area. And it may be hard to get something together where we meet even once a month to make a connection. That was the dream.

John: So it’s the same kind of energy in terms of a sense of trying to exude or expand out. And what you’re pointing out, in terms of this, is that when it comes to aspects of yourself that you’re kind of familiar with, like those that you had a correlation to as classmates or something, that have, over a course of time, you’ve just kind of let go of that form of yourself. 

And then in an extended, expanded, space, you’re finding that it’s important to come back to that. Familiarize yourself with that. Because it’s like you have a different dynamic going on, where you have the recognized interest to take in more and more of that.

But what your dream is also pointing out, that’s a little bit different, is this is an approach where you are working in conjunction with something that still has a relative degree of awareness. In other words, something that once upon a time you were around, but your dream is pointing out that this mannerism that you have is causing you to look at and see if you need to contend with all kinds of other things that are in the atmosphere

And then you identify a couple, and, as you identify them, you’re wary about all of them because they seem extraneous to how it is that you are. And because you don’t have the familiarity that you can identify, like you can with catching up and meeting other classmates, this sense of exuding that you have is something that you are feeling you have to be a bit careful and wary, in terms of how you’re able to contend with something more like this, and how it can contend with you.

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When we are young we go out into the world to make our way. Later in life we may place more importance on inner experiences. Things burst into life in spring, and go more quiet in the fall. We have the Big Bang, and we have stars being vacuumed up by black holes. There is an out-breath and in-breath process going on at all levels. In our journey we try to subjectively understand life and the universe, but, later on, we try to integrate ourselves into the energetics of everything. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Because my sleep dream will probably correspond to yours, before I forget it, the sense that I had in my sleep dream was seeing things that I would have to try to take in, or get close to, in a kind of bringing into oneself kind of way. 

And because this is more of an inner trait it’s harder to remember dreams like this because it’s not like there is a type of affliction, or something, or out-breath conundrum. It’s more of a taking-in expansiveness, on an in-breath level, which is one’s way of permeating; it’s a way of working with kind of a pulling of something into oneself, as opposed to an energy that is constantly projecting out – like in an out-breath way. 

And, when it’s like that, it is a sensation of taking in and going into things. And it’s expansive. And it’s done almost as if it’s a ravenous need, in that, over and over again, like that state was such in which I was continually seeing this sort of thing going on so it was a little awkward or odd, I guess, to think that I would wake up and write it up as a dream because it had this different semblance to it.

And it’s something that, when it’s like that, because it’s kind of absorptive and soothing, even, to do something like that, maybe soothing isn’t the right word, you kind of go along with getting lost in all of that, just like a going into matter, or something, or getting lost in all that as an expansion of oneself. It’s another kind of grogginess, in a way. 

In other words, one’s inclined to kind of be swept in, pulled in, and so you’re inclined to sleep more. When the dreams were different, that had to do with out-breath stuff, it was like they quickened something that kind of had you at a point that was, well, even though they, too, were difficult, and could be also something hard to see and pull out, there was an animation, a vibratory animation, almost a kind of momentum, to the vibration of that. As opposed to this being something that involves a type of sweeping up and sweeping in.

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