Archive for May, 2021

Why are we continually surprised by the way things unfold in life? Is it because our imagined ideas, and preferences, for the future are at odds with the reality before us? It is a common trap we fall into, whenever our ego expands beyond its scope. We have a brilliant system of senses and faculties designed to read and process what is happening in any given moment, and to help us navigate whatever is unfolding – but we have to let go of our ego control and allow the system to work. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: And then I have something else going on in which I then go: the theme of the dreaming is about coming down in a way that pulls things together, energetically, in terms of a focus of directed attention. 

In the dream I am using myself as an example when I talk to two women about why something is important to contend with. I say to them, I can see why that isn’t done, and that I, too, have let things like that go – so I understand this – when I used to have to take such things like that into account, and didn’t. 

And then I cite an example. The back seat cushion I sit on over there, like in a class or something, occasionally breaks. And I put up with this broken chair, even though it is an inconvenience, when I could fix it in 10 minutes and be done with procrastination. 

And so then I write up what is going on energetically. It’s an energetic confusion, I have a sense of a pulling-down energetic that is causing me to open my heart up to accommodate a greater overallness of nature. Ordinarily, when I see something in the outer that strains the heart because it is something my nature wants to ignore, the heart has to adjust, and, when it adjusts it contractively winces.

That is in accordance with staying separate. I am now looking at the flow differently, almost as if I’m going to now try to reverse the polarity: instead of an outward polarity, I’m looking at how it is possible to take a coming-to-grips with my dealing more with appearances in the physical by shifting the energetic for the purpose of freeing up a denseness that I am inclined to ignore.

That’s very, very shamanistic oriented. In other words, it’s a type of view and it’s a mannerism in which it says that whatever is happening in the outer is not of any surprise whatsoever. You know it, you’ve experienced it, it cannot catch you by surprise. 

And so if there’s anything that is new that comes into the environment, you work with it; you shift it, you shape it, you work with it. That’s very shamanistically oriented. It’s a different stream of attention and direction, as opposed to the direction that has you going into a greater soul depth somewhere else, which is more in-breath oriented.

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How quickly things can change in the dream world, shifting from idyllic images of yachts and fjords to suddenly finding oneself in the bad part of town, interacting with crude characters, feeling trapped and hiding in a closet. The idea of a hungry ghost is a representation of some aspect of ourselves that we are leaving behind, or outgrowing, but it should be understood that anything we have ever fed, energetically, will cry out to be fed again – most particularly just when we are about to get on that yacht and sail even further away. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So what I did was a lot like taking a journey to come to see more. Now we’ll pull this together more in relationship to this thing that I had.

I leave the comfort of my place that I live, and I go to a store. No one is coming in, and no one is there, because it is a holiday. And it’s at night. And why I would go there, I don’t know, I kind of have some companion walking with me. But that’s kind of like a shadow or something, because it’s not something that’s the dynamic in the dream. 

And the place where I was at, it’s at a point in time where normally I have a chair that I would sit down and meditate in, but I’ve actually gone out at that hour. Initially, I’m with this guy, I run into this guy who tells me something or another on the street; there’s nobody else on the street. He then turns off and goes into and opens up a barber shop he owns. It’s all dark, but for some reason he’s going into his barber shop. 

That’s when I realize that, why am I even out here because all the stores are closed? But there is kind of a type of grocery store or something that’s open, at least the lights are on, but no one is in there. And I go into this store as I’ve walked on. 

And they have a massage chair. I sit down, as if I’m going to use this for meditation. I don’t quite fully know how to operate this chair, and as I push a button it starts shaking back and forth real hard, so I can’t get comfortable in this. And, as I get out, I realize I’m in a horrible part of town, the vibe of this town is just terrible. So I start wondering, what in the heck am I doing? 

And then I see three guys down some sort of corridor in the distance, anyway. And they’re really crude guys. One of them attempts to talk to me from afar, and I realize, boy, I’ve gotta get the heck out of here. There are dangers in whatever it is that is their habituation or mannerisms. So I go upstairs. In other words, this is a place I’ve been into before that I actually stayed there ages and ages ago, when I didn’t know any better, didn’t have any place else to stay. People live up there. You kind of feel bad for them to have to live up there. 

I know this place, too. So I don’t just go outside or something, because if I went outside, you know, these guys could catch up with me – they’re crazy types. So I go upstairs. And then I realize that there is a point about halfway up that they’re not likely to go, they’d be inclined to think I’m going to give them the slip and go down. So I do the opposite. I go all the way to the top. And there’s an open area or attic area or something up there. And there’s actually a kind of a type of closet spot to hide out at. 

And one light is all there is in this area, it even shines a little bit into the closet area, but I think I can hide there. Just in case I’m wrong, in case they come up. And I’ve got this figured right, they don’t come up, but a couple of old grannies come up and seem to be aware that there’s a problem that I have in terms of those characters. And they say I can come down to the ninth floor and hide out in their apartment where it will be safe. 

I don’t like that because I don’t like what that suggests in their hungry-ghost mentality. In other words, this is a very otherworldly kind of dank, dark place. So I’m feeling trapped. I would like to go home but can’t seem to get out of this strange environment. Whatever caused me to come out on the streets, at such a strange hour, thinking I could be anywhere. It’s just a strange denseness.

And the meaning is, I am of the opinion that subtle energy is able to be directed to permeate the surrounding environment. I am spread out but able to affect the outer vibration I am here to transcend. What is even deeper is I’m meant to be able to shift vibrations, in the outer, and do so in a split second. I can’t do this from a hungry-ghost aspect of myself – or it will prevail and the projections will pull me down from the inner stillness. 

Yet somehow I have to do this. I find myself always having this, where way deep is a kind of ancient past, or something, too. So, if I don’t, then when am I going to do it – next lifetime?

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In dreams, like in movies, the impossible seems to happen all the time. Things appear out of nowhere, do improbable things, and then disappear again. Mountains grow up from the ground, fjords open up, and people go swimming by. Sometimes it feels almost like a beckoning, asking us to follow, because, if we were to join that journey to that unknown place, what might we discover? Something beautiful? A deeper creativity? An awakened sense of self? (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So my last dream was a little bit like a vision, and a little bit like traveling, or journeying, which would be more shamanistic; this is a little different than a regular dream. 

In this dream I own a house that is high above a raging river. It’s way up and I look down on the ground below. And even this place that I own is quite isolated. It’s like a type of retreat that I go to – and it’s huge. This is big, and it feels very special in terms of getting away from things. 

It’s like I’m by myself there. But then suddenly, I notice a place that I hadn’t noticed before, which is on the other side of this raging river – it’s kind of built in because it’s a mountain that shoots up from the bottom there. And I look out again, and see, to begin with, it looks like a dock and a boat, and that the owner who owns this place has arrived. 

It’s a long kind of white boat, like you’d see a yacht, except it sticks out into the river. It can’t be sticking out on the river, this is a raging river, but somehow it is at the moment. It’s kind of a beautiful sight, but, still, I thought I was isolated and nothing was around. 

So the spot, and the energy, and all of that across the way is really raw, so I don’t know how he got building materials there to even erect such a place. And then I look out again, and a fjord has opened up. In other words, something has opened up that goes into the mountain, a channel. And there’s a little bit of the river that’s flowing into that, and the boat goes down there and out of sight. The dock disappears, the whole thing. It’s going somewhere there. 

And then, as I’m watching, there’s like four people. One guy is a big-bodied kind of guy. And then there are a few others that I didn’t pay any attention to; I was staring at this one bigger guy trying to figure out who and what he was because maybe he’s a bodyguard, he’s a muscle guy, you don’t mess with this type. And he swims into the fjord with these others, and they disappear. 

Well, you know, I’m observing all this, but I can’t talk you into going over there, but I need to explore it. But I make this agreement with you that I won’t go into the fjord. So I go over there. 

And what I hadn’t seen from the other side is, on one side of this building, is kind of like an artist shed or complex. And there’s a whole bunch of vases, but they’re gorgeous; they’re being painted. And there are other things being painted, but it’s the vases that stand out. And I’m kind of impressed by this creativity. 

Then in the next image I seem to have laid down in this area, and I haven’t seen the artist or anything yet, but suddenly laid over my eyes is something with something written on it. And when I open my eyes, it talks about a particular quality of something. 

So I lay back after having read it, almost like I’m in kind of a little bit of a stupor. And then when I move to read it again it says something different again – it’s progressed. I don’t have the time to figure out quite what it says and what it means, although I’m pondering it. And it would have been nice, I was close to actually remembering it in the dream, what it said at the beginning and what it said in the end, but I couldn’t quite pull that out. 

The meaning of this is this is a dream about access to more waking up within that hasn’t been noticed before. Last night I felt like a type of download was hitting, in that I now know why I can hear things every now and then. I actually can hear this stuff almost as if there is a language in the grounding of things, as if there’s a language in the matter of things. 

I mean, it woke me up. But the thing was the whole thing started really early. And then, after writing it up, I went into kind of a trance zone and all night long I was somewhere. And I was just enamored with what I was seeing, and I wrote up a little bit of it. So it was like getting a whole huge downloaded input in terms of a sudden waking up of an awareness by being able to pull into this shamanic zone of something in-between, in order to see and look at things that I hadn’t been paying any attention to before, but had been purposely shoving aside.

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