When we are with something, we are open in ourselves and that allows an openness in others. Often, however, something a person says or does triggers us, even in very small and nuanced ways, and we begin to recede into our interior life. Here we begin to make comparisons, or judgments, or any number of inner calculations that put up a barrier between us and the person. It can be automatic and unconscious, but it can also close down the possibilities of what can occur. We may think we are protecting ourselves from an intruder, but what about all that we lose in the process of shutting down? (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
Jeane: I just remember my last dream. In that dream, I’ve gone to work in an office as a counselor. But it’s actually kind of a busy office. It’s not an office where people come for counseling, it’s more like an office where people are busy working.
And there’s a woman who’s recently gotten a job there, she’s pretty good at what she does, but she does have a kind of complex boss who actually likes her. But I can see that I could help her out with how things are going at work if we can talk about it a bit.
She and I get together and we’re looking for a place to sit and talk. And, normally, the office where I could sit and counsel somebody, somebody else is sitting there, and I go over to another desk with her and it’s too crowded, there’s people all around. I open up a door and go into a room where we could talk and there’s people already sitting there. I walk her over to the other side of the office and go into a room that’s usually empty, and people are having a party there.
We get down to the far end of the office and I sit down at a table with her, that’s like a lunch table. We start to talk and suddenly there’s a woman there who starts talking herself so we can’t really talk to each other. So we get up and I tried to walk and talk but it feels like there’s too much furniture and stuff crowding us.
So I know that her new boss likes her, it’s just I’m trying to give her some support, but I can’t find any privacy for us to talk anywhere. So it’s kind of feeling really frustrating.
John: So the scenario that set this thing up is the fact that Kai was here. And it got to the point where, even though you really like her and everything, and can recognize an interconnected quality of yourself that can work and be in terms of her. You have, which is the theme of the dreaming, you have an intolerance barrier.
And the intolerance barrier causes an energetic to be there that stands in the way of the kind of connection that you would normally be able to have, and would have, if left to how it is that you really are. But the intolerance level gets in the way and creates barriers, over and over and over again, that keep an effect from coming across as you would like, or would intend, or mean it to be.
This whole subject of what we carry as a type of intolerance inside of our self is a very, very interesting subject because the intolerance levels keep us from transmitting, incarnating, inside of ourselves a greater quality of natural beingness that we have at our disposal. Oftentimes this intolerance mannerism is something that we took on as some form of defense mechanism, or modality, that we felt was important based upon a past that, in many cases, we don’t even remember. And it can have a righteousness bent to it.
It’s basically a shrinking and shutting down quality that we’ve taken on in a way that has to do with an adaptive nature that has become superimposed over our greater beingness. If you were to take that out you would never actually be that way. And that, underneath that is an intent to try to make a connection where you go from place to place trying to find an empty space in which this variable inside of yourself isn’t echoing in the atmosphere.
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