The Turnaround

We’ve all the heard the mantra that challenges and setbacks are opportunities in disguise. And, when we ponder this idea, we can see that it is only when we are in it, when we are feeling the emotions and personal involvements, that we can make a new decision to change our way out. Many times we just let the intensity subside and eventually fade away, but it is when we are fully triggered that there is the most potent opportunity to make a new intention. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, in the next dream, I am in a place where there is no light. I go into this dark and dire atmosphere to try to find more life. What I find is that the duress is depressing. But, even so, there is still hope. 

But a hope for potential change has been discarded in a bathroom. I take from the bathroom garbage, to a place where I can be by myself, three eggs that are so dirty you can hardly recognize them as eggs. I found these eggs in the bathroom. I was in need of finding some eggs because I needed something to light my lantern. And I came across these eggs, and because I desperately needed something to bring out some light, I guess I had no choice but to resort to these inadvertently thrown away filthy eggs. 

So I rescue the eggs from the trash, I take the eggs through a restaurant outside, I’m looking to find a place where I can be alone, where I can sit and be with the eggs. It’s recently rained outside, so I still have to contend with that factor where I can do all this comfortably. Or quietly. 

And what I’m doing is I’m seeking light within each egg, or what I’m doing is just trying to put the eggs into like a type of flashlight – to power the flashlight with these eggs. It requires, really it holds four batteries, or four eggs, but the fourth one was so bad that I just took three of them. I figured I can make three of them turn on the thing even if I had one bad battery. There was a degree to which, how low I was going to stoop, in terms of these filthy eggs? 

So the dilemma is, in this dream, the wayward conditions I find are lost from who I am, but there’s still hope. In other words, I have my concept of who I am behind it, because I don’t like certain things when they come out – but sometimes that’s okay. 

The hope is based upon accessing from a depth within an energetic clarity that awakens my beingness from an intolerant stinginess, maybe even stinginess isn’t the right word. But it’s an attitudinal thing. And so what is that? I hadn’t really fully sorted this out yet. Maybe there wasn’t anything wrong with it. A person finds that if they go into a certain state of bewilderment and confusion, and allow themselves to go into that, that they have access to something inside that will turn that around and flip that around and make something more out of that. In other words, we have become so compartmentalised that all of the stuff that affects us is actually positive, even though we perceive every time something throws us off a bit it’s negative, because it is an opportunity to take on more. But we have defined ourselves to such degree, we do this in ways that aren’t apparent, we have to be able to accommodate everything. 

And then there’s another dream I had, which is to find my way wasn’t easy. There initially was no place to go. I somehow felt my way in an area where it was so crowded you couldn’t move. I stumbled upon a blocked off place where no one was allowed because this area was volatile and could slide again. I was desperate enough to take a chance on this unstable and slippery slope, having nothing to lose, because there was nowhere else to go. 

Where I went along with others that followed me, all of us hoping for a second chance, is a place we all knew was a gamble. That’s another way of pointing out a certain kind of, well, you have to have a certain kind of courage in terms of being able to confront things because there’s a whole bunch of things that you have to deal with that don’t make sense to you, necessarily, in terms of how you are inclined to see yourself. And these things come up as you’re breaking out into the open in terms of realizing and coming to grips with more and more that is going on. 

All the fragments are significant and interesting. What’s not interesting, what is a problem, is when some fragment owns you, and you can’t move, you become linearized. But if the fragments hit you and then there’s something always more behind it, so one has to be careful what they annihilate again, in terms of even the negative fragments. It’s kind of a common thing to have certain areas about what you can and can’t do, and will and won’t do, or look at or however, and you carry that to too great of an extreme and pretty soon there isn’t much that you can do. You’ve isolated yourself, you’ve put yourself into an oxygen tank of some sort.

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