A Step Ahead

There is a saying: wherever you go, there you are. So, we may think our avoidance of any particular issue or inner psychology can save us from a certain discomfort, but we will surely meet up with it again somewhere down the road. This idea is expressed in this dream image, where the train awaits the dreamer at the next stop. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, in my meditation dream, there is a vibration that comes up repeatedly and influences what I go through. This trait is deeply embedded in my nature, and because I have not worked it out, or rooted it out, it’s an archetype force, an archetype vibration is a sensation vibration that possesses a person to the point where it affects the actions and responses to other stimuli with its vibratory projection, which lives in me.

Last night, I put this vibration directly in a dream. In the dream, I’m in a place experiencing the sensation of being in danger. In this public place are those who have issues with me that are pent up. In other words, I’m speaking of vibratory energies. In other words, I carry all that inside that has yet to be lived out. I realize that the time has come for the sensation of an embedded reactiveness to act out in the outer. It will be too much for me to handle, so I create a distraction. 

And while there is a chaos delirium that is intended to absorb the energetic’s attention, I slip out the back and make my escape into the hinterland. But because I carry this as a plague, like something that was like archetypal vibratoriness that haunts me, I know I will be pursued. In other words, I can’t escape forever. 

I also know that they will have a good idea where it is that I will go. And I know that there is a train that will get there easily before I do. And so this energetic sensation will be weaponized in this environment again; in other words just basically re-engineered just for me. Knowing all of this, I am eager to change this embedded schematic. The vibratory entrenchment vibe, the image that perpetuates it, is that rather than pursuing me on my own, let me go around with my freedom of choice. It just takes a train knowing where I’m going. 

And so I see the train go by in the distance. And I know that that vibratory is harbored, the vibratory part that haunts me is harbored there, one step ahead of me. And so I have a defined way of being; you do these defined ways over and over again. So I have some notion, okay, I’m going to try this, or that, or the other. You’re always trying to break the box that you’re in. So I’m in a sheltered area, in transit to the repeat pattern, when I get there from the shelter. In other words, it’s like being along the stretch of the path there that’s in the wooded area, so I can’t be seen or whatnot. It’s not out in the open. 

And so if I follow that out, I can stay ahead of whatever pursues me because I’ve had the freedom of choice, but I haven’t dealt with it, and when I go somewhere else it’s just going to come up again. So in an attempt to break the pattern, I decide to come out of the woods, cross a meadow to go over the top of the train tracks that are gone by, knowing that you are out in the open and you’re vulnerable. And then when I get to the other side, I’ll find a wooded area and can go, then, to conceivably a place where I elude the archetype. 

The danger is for something left behind or waiting, because I’m in the open, or if something actually is tracking me, too, because then I’m out in the open and can be visibly seen. But I know I’m okay because I saw the train go by without stopping. So I’m making a calculated guess to try to break this trance. This buys me time to unfold in another atmosphere without being plagued by the archetypal entrenched mannerism being readily present as well. I also know that this reprieve is not forever. The archetype is a fate energetic that I carry. 

So, in the future, I will have to come back this way. And so I’m pondering whether I should set up something along the railroad tracks to kind of have a little room there, you know, as I go deeper into the woods, to keep an eye on things so when I come back I can go across into the open back into the other side where the density is even worse with the archetype – but I can’t get caught too directly. 

So in the future I will have to come back this way and, because I avoided it, or set it aside, or repressed it, it is apt to be now accentuated and perhaps even re-invigorated, because once you wake something up, you know, you can’t really turn your back on it anymore. That’s the problem with the spiritual path, once you see stuff you can’t shut the door anymore. And it will be waiting to come back with its pent-up mannerism. 

When it is said that the archetype controls man, this is an example. I can run and I can hide, but not forever. I have to redeem this haunting nature, or be plagued by it forever.

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