A Pattern of Things

When we find ourselves in an inner stillness from our meditation, how can we retain that connection? There is something in us that wants and can even seek a distraction of some kind and, once we find it, the cascade of distractions will continue unabated. Partly this is because of old patterns we have established and repeated in our life, and partly this is a trick of the brain, which likes, and seeks, ongoing stimulation. This is where we want to remember, again, to let go of all that. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: The meditation dream was pretty straightforward, I think. So it was interesting that I had simple sleep dreams that came off of this, portrayed it, too, in their own little way. 

Because in my meditation dream, from a place of letting go, it’s almost as if that gets old or something and so you need something to contend with. In other words, what I’m describing is I’m situated in a void, a non-being void, in which everything is still, quiet, and empty. 

And just like something is better than nothing, all a certain vibration that exists that’s on a feminine level, or it likes to deal with, needs to deal with, a certain energy that’s coming through and to bring it into the Godhead of things in matter, so to speak. So I’m kind of sitting in a place where it’s all gone back to an emptiness, and yet it’s almost as if this wants something to go on.

And so, at first, when something like this comes about, it’s interesting because in the area that I am at within there is nothing. So to have something vibrationally going on was kind of exciting, I guess, and I accepted it. Having done so, it started a process of this, and this, and this, and this continuously. How do you turn it off? 

And then, all of a sudden, I realized that whatever that had done had thrown me around in some fashion so I couldn’t get back to where I had once been. I didn’t know the way. I saw myself in kind of a delirium. And I had ideas of where it was at, but I would go in the opposite direction, so I was unable to make it happen. 

Not only was I unable to get there – it was the opposite direction – because there were thoughts, yet. You’re trying to do it with thoughts. And not only was I unable to get there anymore, but I progressed at such a slow outer pace that I was bored and nauseated. There was no reprieve, and anything I noticed along the way had no meaning to me. I already knew this had no value. 

So in this meditation dream I was like in a daze. So what is going on is, out of the demerge I had come into a quality of being. At first, this was like a new experience that was exciting. However, I had created a pattern of things coming at me that I couldn’t shut off. 

When I attempted to move away from this, I didn’t know how. In other words, because I was still working with the shotgun of all of this stuff, which is the wrong way. You can’t solve a problem with the same mind that created it, would be an Einstein saying. 

The place I had been at was now just an echo; the howling wind was my longing. Everything I saw in the outer, where I had gone, no longer held my attention. I felt trapped. I could not get out of this and that. The vibrational images were so slow it just left me exasperated, frustrated. And, however I looked, this went nowhere and held no meaning. 

To pause led to exhaustion. In other words, the pause to try to make it work, you would just get exhausted because I knew better about anything and everything. All of a sudden I had reached the rope’s end of all of this kind of activity of thought, or whatever. So I yearn to get back to the emptiness.

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