The unconscious is a powerful force, but it should not be seen as a dark and dangerous place – although images that arise from it can appear that way in our dreams. These images are telling us a story about us, and about our relationship with ourself. When a new aspect of our inner life is awakened, or re-awakened, it can seem as though it is a bomb about to go off. Yet perhaps that speaks to a level of suppression and resistance rather than any intrinsic danger of what is arising. Sometimes it is our responses to things that reveals to us the most about our inner processes. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
Jeane: So I had this long dream. In it, I seem to have a house that’s like one of the very first houses we lived in, that sits back. And then next door to it, a young man that I met in college that I went out with, is living with his mother, and maybe a brother.
And the setting is more stark than it actually was in real life. Between the two houses is a little hut, a little storage unit. It feels like at first I come from where I come from, which is more to the left somewhere where I seem to actually be staying because I must come down and check on the house. And it feels like I’m going out with him.
But first in almost a playful way he constructs something that’s in this little hut between the two houses, he constructs something on the floor that I deconstruct, but I realize it actually could be a bomb. But I seem to know how to deconstruct it without setting it off. It’s almost like he thinks it’s a joke or something, but I know it’s also a bomb.
Well, at first this is kind of playful, but then it seems like it becomes less playful; it’s a real bomb. I still seem to be able to deconstruct it; I deconstruct it again because it would blow up the old house as well as his house. But then what had been playful before becomes serious and wicked looking, more metallic bomb that I don’t know quite how to deconstruct that one. I have a feeling I might be able to do it, but it would be very tricky.
And he comes and stops me from doing it and takes me to his house and locks me in the back room. Well, at this point, I’m not sure what to do, because I might be able to deconstruct it, but if anything disturbed it everything would be blown up. And then I think about, what can I do? Well, if I call the bomb squad, I’m not sure how much it would really blow up. But I realize that could actually be irresponsible because if they don’t know what they’re doing, they’re just gonna make it worse.
So then I find a way to break out of the back door of his house. So now I figure you know I might just have to try to get as much distance as I can between me and what may blow up. But he finds out and he starts chasing me.
Well, I feel like I can get ahead of him, I have a really good head start, and I’ve gone down through the town, I’ve gone down to a little canyon area, I figure if I can get across this area and across the water to the other side I’ll be okay. But one of the problems is we have this little dog, and she’s been following me and she’s old now. So she can only follow me so long, and then I have to pick her up. Especially when I get to the water, it feels like I’m gonna have to carry her, and he’s found a paddleboard or something so I feel like he’s gonna catch up with me.
So I have to let myself go out into the current, because I’m trying to save me and the dog at this point. It’s kind of gone down into an area, but I don’t know if it’s going to actually go over a dam, so I have to kind of divert us a little because I really just can’t leave the dog to her own fate. And I don’t know how much of the town he’s going to blow up if this goes off. It feels like that’s when I wake up.
John: Well, the interesting part of the dream starts with your old house. And it’s a place that you don’t really carry a present day memory or association or connection with, as far as you know, other than that it is something in your distant memory past.
That’s an assumption that you shouldn’t be making. The reason why that old house is there is because the pattern upon which you’ve unfolded is meaningful. The pattern which you have unfolded in the outer tells its own story. And, in that story, in the way something has unfolded over the course of time, there is something that is revealed there, in terms of that, that indicates the responsibility and a quality in terms of how you are and who you are.
Now, because that is so old or ancient or took so much time or is so far in the past, you’re not inclined to recognize that it is all reflective of something more, something at a great depth. However, because you went through this, and were there, this has caused you to develop a sort of understanding or recognition. The recognition you’ve developed is that if something that is unconscious goes off that it will destroy everything.
So you are finding yourself in a situation in which that unconsciousness can possibly wake up. And the go-between or in-between is this little hut. And when you come to know that that little hut, that things are going on between what you went through ages and eons ago in terms of development and understanding, and where you’re at right now, that in that little hut, something is coming into focus that has to do with making the situation bigger. It causes the blow up, in which the situation is bigger than who you are.
And yet, you’re required to fix it. In other words, you can’t call the bomb squad, you’re required to fix it. And yet you can’t fix it, given your current condition, because you also have the responsibility of making sure that you don’t hurt anything. In other words you’ve got the old dog that has to be taken care of. Plus your means of moving about to try to cause something to break free, you just don’t seem to have the acuity tools to make it happen. But you are shown that the whole process involves following a flow, a guidance of a flow. And if you can get into that flow, then you can maintain an unfoldment, you can start working with an unfoldment. At least work with the unfoldment to the point where you blow yourself up in another way if you go off the edge of a waterfall.
So the theme of the dreaming last night had to do with being able to realize that everything about oneself, and what one has done, is meaningful. If you go back and you take and you look at that, you can see that as if that’s all a type of dream. Something has changed as a result of an inner awakening understanding so that you can go back and you can pull all of that together and say, oh, okay, that’s what’s been going on.
Or, another way of saying it, that you’ve been under the guidance and influence of forces from within all along – you just didn’t know it. And now you’re getting to a point where you can recognize how something is interconnected and intertwined over the space of time. And in doing so you’re seeing how something that may have occurred over the course of a lifetime, or a prior time or whatever, is meaningful in the here and now.
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