We know what happens when we try to clean out an area of our home: we go through drawers or boxes or cabinets and we have the garbage bags by our side because we’re really going to get rid of everything – this time. Yet, no matter how well we begin, at some point we stop and look a little more carefully at a certain object and recall some memories about it, and then we set it aside to get to the rest. By the end we have a brand new pile of things we’ve set aside to save for another time. This is why letting go of our psychologies and mannerisms is a gradual step-by-step process, most of the time, because part of us still isn’t ready. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)
Jeane: In the next dream, you and I are in one building, which I think is with a religious group we’re affiliated with. I never really see them clearly, but we’re next to a church. And, for some reason, there’s a point at which we want to go over to the church just to get baptized.
So we go over first to the church to look in at the church and the minister and the people that are there, check it out a bit, then we go back to our own building and people. And then when it’s time to get baptized, it’s like I go over to get baptized but I’m not sure quite what’s happened to you, we’ve gotten separated, or you’re coming later, I don’t know. So I’ve gone ahead.
And when I get over there, first I observe that the way that the priest there baptizes people is he takes them from the church building across the street into another building; these are all wooden buildings. When he goes into the other building, he goes past the public area and then has them crawl on their hands and knees through this bathroom. And inside the bathroom somewhere is the water he uses to baptize them.
So, since it’s my turn, now I’ve observed this once and then I’m going to get baptized, I crawl on my hands and knees following him over these wooden floors and through this funky bathroom to this back room. And then I see there’s a basin there that he’s taking water out of, and he pours it over your head to baptize you.
Well, when he pours the water over my head, suddenly, this auxiliary building is filled with people, a whole group of people that are related in some associational way are suddenly there, whole families. The priest takes this as a sign that I’ve created this or brought this, or attracted all of these people there. I think he’s been superstitious, but I don’t say anything.
Because I’ve been baptized, but I’m still leaving the building, it’s like I’m still crawling on hands and knees. And when I want to leave the front of the building, what I realized is I have to go through these whole crowds of people that have suddenly showed up, including moving aside for a minute before I can get down a bank, because a mother and her daughters – who are all celebrated and dressed up – are coming up the bank, and then I can get down.
I still don’t know quite what’s happened to you because I’ve gone on ahead, in this instance, but I’m actually headed back to the building where we normally go.
John: It’s interesting that you would use the word baptized in the deepest meaning of it. In other words, the word baptized has a very, very deep meaning of itself, in that, to be truly baptized you let go of all things. You’re going over to where you’re going to absolve yourself of everything.
You started off involved in something which is familiar to you, that is your way of trying to do something, and have come to the recognition and realization that you need to fully let go of everything. In order to be complete, in order to be whole, you have to let go of everything.
And that’s what baptizing really is. Baptizing is something in which it’s symbolic to the idea that you have truly transformed from holding on to some aspect that you’re carrying about your nature.
Well, as circumstances would have it, that may be the deeper meaning of what baptized means, but you’re not able to do it in the fullness in which it is, where there is the emptiness and the oneness and the wholeness. And you still are harboring over the idea of where am I at? And also having to crawl or go through a whole process to so to speak get there. And because you are still trying to take all of that with you – this crawling or quality of whatever it is that you think you have to go through.
You also then, after being baptized, as if you’re able to come back into life with something, think that you have to go through this whole deal again, crawling and this, that, and the other back to contend with what is still harbored.
So what you’re doing is you’re creating an interesting image in which you see yourself as not truly able to let go in the full sense of the word because you still have these aspected, bifurcated mannerisms or qualities or characteristics that are harbored in some fashion upon the breath, that you are thinking that you can take with you, because the true definition of a baptizing is to let go of all such vibrations, to let go of all past, to let go of all kinds of things that condition you to having to be in some bifurcated energetic way from the essence of a stillness and a wholeness. So, it’s an interesting way of looking at it.
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