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tmclIf you watch a video that shows a pet dog or cat seeing snow for the first time, usually the animal is tentative at first, getting a read on what it has encountered using its senses of smell, touch, and even taste. Then, once it feels that there is no threat, it can play in the white wonderland. Our interior lives behave similarly when we open up new energetic pathways, or awaken a dormant part of ourselves. And this wariness often arises in our dream life, as fear, or the feeling of being chased, or of the image of an animal we can’t control. It can merely be the process of feeling safe in a new, internal place – that really is a great playground. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Then I had a dream that’s pretty complex. I don’t know if I can pull all of it out, but I’ll do my best.

It feels like, at some point, I remember when I left my dad’s store I went looking for my car, and I wasn’t sure where it was anymore. And then I and then I almost wandered down into an area where the earth started to fall away, like a ravine, and I saw that I could get close to an edge – and it was pretty dangerous.

But I look and I see people coming up from that way that I have a sense might be after me. So I have to climb out of that area. Then I’ve left that area and I’ve gone into this building with a group of people that seem different. There’s almost an elfin quality about them, but it’s subtle. Kind of like in part of the Rings, you know how they just looked a little different, the elves.

And, as I’m there, and I’m getting acquainted with them, then I have this sense that something’s coming. And it’s a little bit ominous, And at first I think that the elves want to hold me there, like hold me prisoner. And I start to go out; when I go out I start to get in contact with the force that’s coming. And I go into a hallway, at one point, and I run into this large, strange looking man. And it’s almost like I feel like he has something that will help me with the force that’s coming, that you feel like you might have to do battle with.

And he’s made me these earrings, but I’m not sure how to put them in, yet. But I take these earrings, they’re unusual earrings. Then I go back into the room where the elf-like people are, and they seem to be a little kind of focused and almost like they’re preparing for some kind of conflict.

At first I don’t know if they mean to kind of hold me prisoner a bit, but I feel like they can actually help me. And I go over to one of them that seems to be the leader because he’s suddenly in this high, thrown-like chair behind a counter. I’m asking him for something. And he brings different things and lays them out in the counter. I kinda keep looking until I see what it is I want.

But then the forces are coming. And it’s like I actually go into a room where it feels like he becomes heat becomes like a large cloth, almost, that I pull to my back, both so I’m protecting him, and then as though I pull him around me, and there’s other forces, some of them I want them to stay out of the way of what’s coming. And others it’s almost like I seem to pull from them something that’s spear-like, or something that will help me with whatever I feel I have to do battle with.

And even the forces I thought might be against me it’s more like I pull them into me. And then I leave the building and I’m traveling towards whatever it is; I’m not even sure what kind of strange vehicle I’m traveling in. I come to a college campus and, at first, I see what’s almost like a prehistoric bear, much bigger than a normal bear, lumbering along like a bear – it’s night – coming from the area that I’m going towards.

But this huge prehistoric bear, it must be the size of a truck, it’s to my right. Just as it gets near me, and starts to go by me, it’s like it looks over and just says something like, “hello,” and walks on by. The sweetest voice, too.

Then I continue traveling on, and then I get to an area and it’s almost like the whole earth is opened up there. And when I look in the distance a bit, because I seem to suddenly pause, but I feel like when I go into the air, I can even suspend in the air.

And it’s become daylight instead of dark. And the distance I see this huge almost like prehistoric tree, but there’s something that was formed and alive, almost like a being  but then they turn themselves into part of the tree trunk. And I’m absorbing other things, I’m seeing other things like that where they’re a huge force, but then they just absorb themselves into some form.

That was a dream.

John: The first dream, which gave an indication, that first you had to get to a particular point in order to catch up with something deeper inside, this has you also coming up to a particular point now, but, as a consequence of coming to this particular point, you draw the attention of other energies.

And you have a quality in your nature, a reactive quality in your nature, this energetic that you’ve drawn, that is coming about, that’s like a presence or a force, that you’ve gotten close to as far as access to, this sort of thing initially strike’s you as way too much. But, but over a course of time you come to realize that energy is just kind of energy, and that any negative spin or quality about that is some nuance that you’re projecting.

And that even though it’s more than what you’re used to contending with, that you just need to hold the power and it’ll all sort itself out. So, in taking and holding this spaciality, as opposed to having to to distinguish whether this is acceptable or not, you eventually get to a point where everything then is absorbable as you move about into the atmosphere, everything becomes you.

In other words, you’re not going around distinguishing anymore things as this, or that, you’re no longer venting some sort of reactionary-ness or fear about it. You’re able to be comfortable and realize that it was only a kind of ignorance, or something, a trauma misconstrued, or as a result of something maybe that had created like a trauma inside of yourself, like a type of rejection or something, that got overly misconstrued.

And when you quit doing that, you realize that you carry something about your nature that is then able to just be in a greater wholeness and expanse, able to absorb everything around you. This whole idea that things come, when you get to a certain energetic, that there are things that come and check you out, or take a look at you, it’s kind of a cute way of saying that

the way you’re carrying yourself, and are used to carrying yourself, in an amnesia, that when you break a degree of that amnesia you come to see something more about yourself. Initially you are inclined to not know what to make out of that, and are inclined to think that it could be good, bad, or whatever. But you just don’t know.

And so you’re inclined to see it as something that’s coming to check you out. And so you have a certain wariness about all of that. And that wariness that you have about something like that is based upon your denser, more limited way of having been thrown around, and have developed certain reactionary-nesses, or nuances, that you haven’t completely let go of.

When you completely let go of it you realize that all of that is just there for you. It’s not something that is, in any capacity, fearful, I mean, the whole concept of that is a defense mechanism based upon having been in a situation of density where you went through the heat and burden and got affected this way, or that.

But when you get to a particular point where you can let go of the attitudes and the mannerisms that that you are using to afflict yourself with, you come to realize that, deep down, at the core of things, everything is intertwined, and everything is connected.

And it’s not some sort of battle of this versus that, it’s not meant to be something like that. It isn’t something like that, and the only reason why it appears to be something like that, or has the sense of being something foreign to you, is based upon the nuances that you had carried so long that to suddenly catch up with something more, and something new, leaves you in a kind of wariness, and a wariness that’s based upon prejudicial qualities and traits that you picked up when you were in a denser mannerism.

So when you drop all of that, and as you drop all of that, you then find yourself in everything – you take from the wholeness of all that there is in life, you absorb it all. You don’t have the need to to distinguish this being different than that, or lesser, or anything like that; it’s all you.

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Simon Richardson

Do we ever stop to consider how amazing we would be if we let go of all our inhibitions based on how people might judge us, or based on how we limit our expression to fit a certain norm? Our psychologies skew the total possibility of us, and our development journey wants to bring those aspects back into consideration and inner connection. Not necessarily for us to dramatically change, but because we are designed to have a tool box full of possibilities for any moment or situation that arises – rather than having just a few dozen that we trot out for everything. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I had kind of the strangest dreams. Trying to go back to the earliest one I can remember, which it feels like I know at one point in that dream I went down in my hometown, at night, to the store my dad used to have. I don’t remember a lot more about that, other than going over to a school building. And, in this school building, it feels like there’s a performance that’s supposed to be going on, and there’s going to be a lady that’s going to dance, that I know. And she danced really beautifully.

But there are some nuns, or some conservative people, in the community that don’t want her to dance because she’s kind of dressed like a little sprite, or something, and they don’t like how she’s dressed.

So they seem to distract her, and she’s disappeared. And it’s right before the time that… like I think they’ve directed here somewhere, or locked her outside, I don’t know what they’ve done with her. So I go looking for her because I know her number’s coming up pretty soon to dance, and they just don’t understand, the other people. So I go looking for her and I opened up a door and it’s all snow outside, and I’m concerned that maybe they’ve put her out there and all she had was that skimpy dance outfit on.

And I go seeking her because I feel like once they see her dance they’ll understand better; there’s  something that she’s going to bring to everything when she dances.

And then the dream shifts.

John: So to start off with you’re dealing with, first of all, having caught up and gone through your dad’s store, so that becomes like a base. Other words, that has to do with you catching up with a certain part of yourself that’s necessary for you to access, or to reach, in order to have enough of a quality of nature to be able to go even deeper, then, or to take another step.

In other words, everything goes step by step. And the part that’s the little girl that has this ability to dance, that can do this stuff that nobody else understands, that is an expression that is currently being dismissed, suppressed, and who knows what all else, is a quality that you can’t access, or you can’t reach, until you have gotten to a particular point of development first.

And so the first level of development was for you to come into a whole sense of yourself in relationship to the store. Once you had accepted, and absorbed, that, then, as a base from that, you’re able to recognize something subtler, that prior was not knowable. And that something subtler is repressed within.

In other words, when you are beaten down, or have yet to develop a certain kind of spiritual connectivity, a certain kind of magnetism, prior to accessing that, this part would not be able to come into being. But when you get to a particular point, it’s just like the whole process of awakening is such that it starts off slow, and then, to begin with, it’s something that no one knows which way it will go. I mean, you could always fall back.

And then, at some particular point, something more catches and it would be very, very difficult to fall back. And then you can reach a point where you can develop a certain kind of glow, or quality of light, that you can hang out in.

And then if you don’t hang out in that, if you don’t stay there, if you keep needing to go further, then you open up the subtle levels of yourself that aren’t ordinarily recognizable in life, you open that up and are able to bring that through for others to see, and appreciate. And they don’t even know that they need to see and appreciate it. In fact, if anything, they would be inclined to dismiss it.

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phoaWhy is necessity the mother of invention? Because a true need brings energetic potency to our ability to fetch intelligence from our energetic connections. The answer can come to us when our petition, or prayer, for it is strong enough, or potent enough. This can be true for an answer to a problem, or for the discovery of something never seen here before. Our intelligence comes from energetic connections – and our need calls it in. But, of course, the universe is designed to give us support for our struggle toward our human purpose, not to help us become rich and famous. The reasons why we have a need for something make all the difference in terms of what kind of response we get to our request. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, in my sleep, I too was looking at all of the various variables, and ways in which a person goes counter to the mind senses, or the action projective modality of things, how you could step back from it and find some sort of stillness echo, or some sort of quality that arises within you to service a question, so to speak, that you carry as a need.

Most of the time a person takes and they have something that they feel makes sense, in terms of living in the outer, and you just embark on it. But if you listen really quietly there are a whole bunch of things that you don’t embark upon, or can’t do, that aren’t coming from, and aren’t properly servicing, a need, but are only servicing some sort of mind imagination of the senses, and with the senses. And so this is kind of like echoing you to recognize that there is something more going on, that something more being something that’s outside of the in-breath and the out-breath.

So my meditation dream came out of that very quickly with some interesting insight, and then in my sleep dream I appear to be going really deep inside, going over and over the catching up with the need, from which there is a beckoning down of a grace, and a stillness. And, at one point in my sleep dream, it’s like a strange sound goes off, like an alarm or bell or something, and it brings me to the surface – but I don’t have anything there, and so I fall back in. And so when I woke up this morning this stuff was sitting there just ready to pop out, and, had I responded to that, the other would’ve infused its way through.

It’s because within the stillness is the absorption of all of our needs. That’s what the stillness is all about. It’s when we go off tangentially, thinking that we have to fulfill something, that we get caught in the reflective and, therefore, are in some aspected in-breath and out-breath modality.

So my sleep dream kind of corresponds to what you did, in that I just kind of go through example after example. Basically the way I put it, in terms of trying to grasp what’s going on, is I went over again and again at how letting go to what appears to be a weaker condition, at some particular point there can be like a type of weakness, or going over the top, and when it gets like that, instead of you just falling into something, that’s when it can get into the indulgence of your poverty as opposed to just being in that state as a need.

So looking at what I would call in a weaker condition, for not knowing how else to call it, and in order to point out that it’s not something that one does with a sense of kind of trying to control a streamlining, you do it with a graciousness, not with a mentality of trying to make something happen. When it’s like that it’s an aspected, still presence, and the systematic inner effect draws the consciousness down for connective purposes.

So I go through examples. As an example, inside one’s self there’s a special insight or consciousness a person has when he is naturally resigned – and that is often times deemed to be kind of a stillness, weakened condition, in that there’s kind of a humble dignity because the person’s not putting on airs and is near to their soul, or their true need, which is this stillness place somewhere.

Another example is this quality resides, in terms of a person whose soul is racing towards a completion, as you tend to see, for example, in advanced old age. In other words, when a person is preparing, so to speak, or has the need to ready themselves to go to another loci of the soul as an abode. And so it’s almost as if whatever one is holding onto here, there is kind of an added sense to just let go of it because something is about to happen.

Often times a person may seem more feeble-minded, and forgetful, and everything else, but it’s coming from a greater echo of a soul that’s ready to transition to somewhere else. And to see that, and to note that, and to really know how to look at that, is to recognize that there is a quality of need being served.

Another example is a person who is truly humble and gracious, invokes grace as a stillness gift; or, put another way, to serve the need of life is to awaken an inner guidance. The essence needs our need, so however we touch it there is a specialness quickened within.

And that happens when you take and go on even Hail Mary missions, you know, crusades or whatever it is, or ideas towards what there is as a peace or need in life. You do draw something to you from doing that because as long as you’re doing that with a certain focus and attention – even if it’s misguided, but is sincere – it draws something to service the need.

It doesn’t mean it’ll work, but it does still draw something. Whether it’s enough to contend with the collective is a bigger issue because the tendency is to still be trapped in some aspect of the in-breath and out-breath, and, therefore, you’re caught in the modality yet.

To not get caught in some reflective, inner vibrational thought upon the in-breath/out-breath, or both, whether you’d call it a thought, or mood, or whatever, and the sensation was with everything that could be denoted, everything that was denoted, it was like it had a negative charge, is the only way I know how to describe it, because it was toward what I am not able to reach as a stillness. Just the need to do so being invoked has a way of beckoning towards that stillness, which is a need – even though it is beyond one’s scope-ability.

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