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New-Heart-of-the-UniversalFinding privacy in a dream is an interesting concept, for we can look at it as an attempt to be with ourselves – to find that inner place where we know and understand who and what we are. Which raises the question: is that what we mean when we say we want to “find ourselves”? Being alone, Me time, regrouping, are these some of the words we use when our systems are telling us that we are too far from our true home, the home within, that is connected to everything? (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I just remember one dream last night. It was like I was going to see a man I had gone out with from Lebanon, and he was visiting me at my dad’s house, so we had gone upstairs to be private. But it feels like a cousin that I had came up and peeked around the corner, so we kind of shooed him away. And then we were upstairs together, and then I decide we have to go down.

There must be relatives of the house, so we have to go down and visit because my family’s there, and my cousin’s visiting and his family. So we don’t really find much privacy to just be together, because we hadn’t seen each other for a while, and then he has to leave.

Then a time passes, and I’m going to Seattle to see him off because he’s flying to Lebanon. I go there, and we’re at the airport, and I seem to have one of his bags that has a shirt in it. I think there were two shirts and he’s got one of them, but I’m holding the other. And then there was a girl that comes that had wanted to see him, but he sends her away. It must have been someone he knew from over there.

And then I go with him to the airplane, but then suddenly he’s gone and he’s gotten on the airplane and I realize that I still have a bag with one of his shirts in it, but they’ve already closed the gate so there’s not much I can do about it.

The dream had the whole feeling of there wasn’t that much time to really try to complete being with someone, or seeing them. What’s odd about it is that I had a feeling that the whole dream was trying to show me something about one of the Tai Chi movements where you kind of go down and come up, and make a hit, and then back off and go down and go forward again. It’s a little sequence of movements, and I had a feeling the dream was trying to explain to me what the movements were about.

John: The dream was about trying to get you to recognize that everything that you’re doing is a projection in some way, shape, form or another. In other words, what you were seeking in that situation, over and over and over again, was a state of stillness. Even the Tai Chi movement itself is, the epitome behind all of that is, to get a stillness to come out from inside of yourself.

But we don’t seem to know how to let go. We seem to constantly have an intrusiveness. So, in your dream, with regards to trying to find a projection space, you find that you can’t have a projection space without somebody peeking around a corner or something, so you can’t find a stillness, or an aloneness, whether it can be a quality of a kind of merging. And then you give in to the collective consciousness of things where you go down and you start trying to relate to others.

Again, this would be a relating that has to do with the projection of yourself in some way, shape, form, or a capacity, for the edification of others. And they, of course, then would be projecting for your edification. And all of that, all of that keeps veils in place, and the dream points out that within all of that comes possessiveness. A possessiveness is a type of defense mechanism.

A defense mechanism per se is the breath. The in-breath and the out-breath per se is all just one great big defense mechanism. The fact that we have to breathe is just a condition of the way we are in a duality, in the way we relate to things being a duality. The stillness is the interval, the interval both in the out-breath turning to the in-breath, and the in-breath turning to the out-breath. This is what we all want. This is what we all seek. It’s what we all know, and deep down, in that regard, there’s nothing to be learned. We already know this. But we are caught in this in-breath and out-breath, in-breath and out-breath, in-breath and out-breath that causes the sorting out delusionality to continually exist.

What we all seek, what we all reach for, is when we’re really, really touched by the principle of love and life, our breath stops at the interval where the out-breath turns to the in-breath. And that awakens what is needed as kind of a propelling magnetism, even though it’s a split second, to starting the quality of journeying back to where the in-breath to out-breath interval, which is the essence of all that exists is located, from which then you come down as your thought.

And, again, you have this yo-yo effect of in-breath and out-breath, in-breath and out-breath. It’s the only thing going on, in-breath and out-breath. You take that away and there’s nothing going on. Nothing ever was going on. There is no journey, and it is just a matter of stillness.

So what you dreamt is you dreamt yourself in this amnesic condition of deep down probing towards a stillness, but never able to find the stillness because there was always some nuance, or problem, or dilemma that was affecting the situation. Either you hadn’t given something up that you needed to give up, or something was being projected upon you, or you were trying to do some sort of projection, whether it was possessive, which is not giving up, or however it was, the situation had the common theme running through it that there wasn’t really a letting go that needed to happen, and that needed to happen from some level inside of yourself that you already know.

And instead you were probing about, seeking about, trying it to be this way and trying it to be that way, instead of just letting go. So the process of, if you were to call it like as if it is a process that involves the system of breath, as if there is a system of waking up, the process is not to take and dwell upon the breath, the in-breath and the out-breath, per se, because that in the end falls away.

So do you dwell upon it, and by dwelling upon it will it fall away? Yet that seems to be what every process does is it dwells upon dealing with the depths of the breath. It dwells upon it in order to accentuate a recognition that is in the breath, per se, of the in-breath and the out-breath component that is reflective, that there is the bifurcation.

And so we have dream after dream after dream volleying about, and if you look at these dreams you’ll notice that they all reflect a certain state, or point, of where we’re at in relationship to the breath, to the in-breath and the out-breath. And when there is a getting it, when there is that stillness, there is nothing to be said. There is nothing to be figured out, just something to sit with, something that sweeps over.

What keeps that from being known, that keeps the time and space domain going, is this breath of in and out, as if it is a sorting out, in which there is then the heart that sits there with everything being poured upon it in this in and out breath. When the heart itself knows the stillness. The heart itself is the mirror.

So you have to learn, and you have to figure out, how to relate to the mirror. And the mirror that you have to relate to is the heart. The heart mirrors everything, and if you come across in a way so that the mirror or lens of the heart cannot see what it already knows, then you create confusion. And when you create confusion, that confusion can be like on an outer thought-upon-thought level. Any motion along those lines gets in the way of that stillness.

So there’s just the stillness. In the end you come to realize that it’s an awkward position that we find ourselves in, in that we have the in-breath and the out-breath that is our means of trying to sift and sort out – as if we’re trying to find some sort of cohesive balance – when it can never be done in that way if one doesn’t somehow catch up with the stillness.

The stillness is in a state of amnesia in every person, and the key is to break that out of its amnesia so that it comes out on its own. When it comes out on its own, that is when a person becomes real. It’s a process of mirroring is what it always is, not a process of attempting to educate, or wake something up. Everything that is known is already in the individual.

The process is in facilitating being able to be open to who and how they are, and the art is to be able to mirror the letting go and drop the defense mechanism reactions.

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LemniscaatIf we think of the human as a mirror of creation, we can understand that there is a realm of energy and a realm of matter; i.e., there is the physical, and there is the unseen. Since we find ourselves in the physical, we come to believe that we are separate from the wholeness. But what about Creation? How does She connect the seen and the unseen? Through the process of out-breath and in-breath, the manifestation of matter, and the return to the source. And we humans can connect to the whole through this same process – if we do it consciously. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: The meditation dream had me noticing the flow again, how things flow, in terms of inner into outer, and what that means again in terms of looking at it in a slightly different way, because it’s easier to say inner into outer, but there is a step-by-step process in that.

And, in the meditation dream, I kind of notice that in terms of there being a conundrum when you don’t notice it. In other words, the first thing that happens is you go somewhere deep within, and it’s kind of like you are connected to the essence of all essences. And, in that place, you’re soothed in the stillness beyond time and space – but you don’t stay there.

And then, at some point, you start to make a return into the outer, or you return by way of a vibration starts to come out of that stillness. And then the thought, which is connected to that vibration, begins to formulate, or formulates from what had been an unconstellated firmament, that being just the stillness that’s the overallness of everything.

And then as the vibration comes more and more to the surface, that’s when projection starts. That’s when you take notice. That’s when you start to try to grasp it or something, or try to quantify it. Before you take notice, though, everything makes sense and is wonderful, and you’re able to abide in the empty, all-inclusive stillness.

But then, as the thought-upon-thought comes, and becomes more of a projection, then because it grabs your attention in terms of utilizing it in a plane of thought-upon-thought of sound, there comes a point when the vibrations make themselves known in a way that grabs one’s attention contractively. Projections are contractive.

What I mean by contractively is that you are focusing, from the overallness, in which there’s the unconstellated formulator of essence, and you’re taking it into a formulator mode, which is like a type of creating, and although you think you’re making it more real, you are actually hurting it. By trying to funnel it down you see that as a momentum, but you’re actually demagnifying it in terms of its overall permeation.

And then, ultimately, as you come to create by these thought-upon-thought vibrations that get concretized into what is manifestation, you come to notice that the vibration comes out of the inner stillness. It then causes the sensation to become more noticed, and more projected, and flows in a way as if it is seeking to awaken, and do so by pulling itself into a process manifestation.

In other words, it’s our way of trying to pay attention to something that is delineated, as if we can reconcile the inner into the outer. Yet by contrast, when we’re more in the overallness, or you might say the inner, where the essence predominates the outer manifestation of thoughts that concretize, you realize you don’t need to come to grips with them because they decolorize the true inner.

And then also what I noticed is, along the way, when maybe something has come out of a firmament or something and becomes noticeable as a projected thought that’s coming down into life, that along the way it’s as if there is a spirit energy flow. And you could say that spirit energy flow is something that rides the in-breath and the out-breath, per se, and in riding the in-breath and the out-breath per se there are all kinds of things that can touch it, both coming in, as the breath is coming down, you might have a centralized aspect to yourself, but then you pick up on other things as well, as you’re coming down, because of the collective nature of consciousness. And that’s as an out-breath; and then as an in-breath you have to let go of all that.

So that’s why one can see the thought-upon thought as kind of a collective consciousness, concretized manifestation, in which the singular vibration is affected by other vibrations which clung on as you go into this kind of crash mode out-breath that concretizes. And then you come out of this concretization with the in-breath. Without the in-breath you would remain as a dense concretization.

And so then, from a prior dream, I come to know that the spirit energy breath is what I perceive to be the journey. The spirit energy invokes spiritual illusion. It does so with the up and down breath that actually does not really exist, yet that is the condition we are in. To be in manifestation, and yet to be something so much more, we have to breathe an in-breath, out-breath, in-breath, out-breath.

And yet the beginning and the end is all there is, and that beginning and that end is actually captured in the bliss of the in-breath to out-breath interval, and the sweet longing of the out-breath to in-breath interval – and that’s where there is an all-abiding stillness, in that brief interval moment. That’s where the stillness is.

Yet the spirit energy, the energy that goes up and down as breath, is where the spiritual illusions lie, and where the ideas that I am on a journey and that I awaken, that’s where that comes from, in terms of my sense of something going on.

When the up and down condition is removed, nothing exists. There’s just the stillness of the beginning and the end, the interval point on the down breath and on the up breath, the turning point. And then we fight all this other in between that we drill down, and that’s how we live it, in terms of our sleep dream. This is kind of like a presentation of the big picture of it all in terms of a set system, so to speak. And then, how do we handle that? Not very well, of course.

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trompe-arch1Sometimes the images in our dreams get straight to the point: here, a barrier has been erected in front of a doorway.  So, where there was a flow, where movement was possible, it has now become difficult or impossible. And because the setting is a home, or apartment, the dream is speaking of the inner life of the dreamer. So the structure that is being put up is between one aspect of the inner life and another, pointing out the resistance to what is being found, or a fear of what might be found. Still, in the dream world is the safety of finding a resolution in a natural way.  (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I had one of those deep dreams that was hard to pull out, so I just remember parts of it. It seemed like I think I was with you, and we had an apartment that seemed to be partly underground, or a house.

And, at some point, while we were doing something, like in one room, a repairman had come and he was fixing something up towards where our exit was – because we had to go up to exit. Although what he had done was pretty, he had put this really thick board with bolts across there.

I’m then mentioning to you that I don’t think I can get out now, because I go over and I have to jump up to even grab onto it. And then I try to see if I can haul myself up, and roll over, and that would be how I’d have to get out – and that doesn’t seem like a way to really kind of come in and out of the house. He needed to build it so that there was more space, or not quite so high.

And then I can’t remember the other things that were going on in the apartment, but it felt like in the background I could see somebody that was holding… it’s like they were holding energy, in a particular way. And the conclusion I drew from this was that change is a lot harder than one thinks, because of these traits that get kind of held strongly. And that was the most I could tell you about the dream.

John: Well, it seemed like you had an image, in terms of whatever was built, or constructed, as an outer idea, it was done in such a way so that you couldn’t come and go freely, right?

Jeane: Mm huh.

John: And so what you’re describing is something that’s put in place based upon ideas, concept protocols, essentially projected ideas, of the time. And what you’re finding is that what has occurred is in the way of a natural flow. Isn’t that what you’re describing?

Jeane: Yes.

John: And so your dream is attempting to direct your attention to the intertwined, connective flow, because that’s where your heart can naturally relate, and that’s where you find yourself to be at ease. And your not at ease having to try to contend with the conceptualizations, and the mannerisms, and projections, that are in the environment around you.

Now what you’ve done, with this dream, is you’ve taken the thought-upon-thought, and you recognize that that becomes concretized, in terms of the outer, and that certain man-acted-upon, or projected, thoughts-upon-thoughts have led to a structure, or a barrier, that makes it difficult to come and go. And the coming and going that you’re talking about is a coming and going in terms of the inner essence of yourself.

And so these concretized thought-upon-thoughts have imposed barriers to the natural free flow of a quality of heartfulness in and of yourself. In other words, your dream jumps you ahead from the standpoint that, in the physical, what you see around you is an accentuation of thought-upon-thought, or in the mindfulness of projection, concretized into the outer.

And your dream is jumping you ahead to a sensibility that comes from the heart, that knows that that sort of thing is in the way, and just needs to be set aside. That’s an interesting dream, right?

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