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Uri Dushy

Sometimes a dream provides the perfect metaphor for our spiritual journey. Here we have a father searching for lost children – parts of himself, because we are all the characters in our dreams – who are so estranged they may not even recognize him. To find these parts, and bring them back into safety, requires following a river, with water representing the unconscious life within, through a difficult landscape. Yes, in development we sometimes have to face some of our personal issues as a way to regain aspects of our lives that have been shut off from us. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: In my first dream, which is extremely hard to pull out, I feel like I’m a man and I’ve been separated from my family, particularly my children. I think there’s three of them, who are traveling some distance away, and I’m trying to get back to them, or find them and bring them back. So I have to travel a lot of distance over rather difficult landscape.

And then I’m concerned that when I find my children they won’t remember me so they won’t know to come with me. But I do find the children, you know, but then I have to get back, and it’s almost like trying to get back following the Mississippi River or something. It’s a very difficult landscape, in a way, with some concerns about bringing the children back along that landscape.

I can’t have a lot more details than that because it just was one of those dreams that was extremely hard to pull out. It kept fading away on me.

John: Well, it’s one of the qualities and aspects of the soul is that it has to be able to take in everything that exists all around us, all parts of ourself. And it’s unable to do that if the heart’s afflicted in some fashion and, whatever that fashion is, always then is a fashion that has a renunciating quality towards something that is us.

In this case, you have a dream where you can’t catch up, or find, who you are in the wholeness of things; in other words, your children and such. And the Mississippi River is like a thread that goes through existence, through manifestation, as if it’s the means upon which you can resurrect yourself.

Well it is kind of true – on a symbolic level. You do have to be open and receptive to all parts of yourself and, if you have some reaction, or some huge woundology, about some part of yourself you’re going to shut it off. And, if you shut it off, then you’re not going to remember where it’s at. You’re not going to be able to find it, and then you find yourself having to follow the Mississippi, follow the thread back.

And that’s the nature of being in a human body: we come in with this dilemma, having shut off our connections to parts of our self, and that we have to realign and acquaint ourselves with those parts of our self – back in to the wholeness again, or otherwise we sit and we juggle things that are reflective, and we just juggle, and juggle, and juggle, and juggle and go around and around and around and around.

And the theme, and the key element, to the dreaming is the vibrational thread behind all of this that has to do with how it is that the heart is resonating. The heart can resonate with a certain joy. What’s interesting is that the feminine note of the soul is to try to have a comfortability in terms of the environment, and the thing is that’s like a materialistic thing in that you can never get it balanced, and it goes on, and on, and on, and on and on, and it can get to the point where you throw yourself into a whole other neuroses and another spasm about the whole thing.

But because it is pointing and aimed at something in terms of a wholeness to the huge overall, to all there is, so the feminine nature is always trying to find that cadence, that recognition in manifestation. And, as that is going on, is realizing that there are relatives, or parts of one’s self, that are missing, that you can’t find, can’t tell where they’re at anymore.

The key to understanding or recognizing that you get to a point where you can’t tell where something is at anymore is correlated to the fact that one takes and puts into their heart a reflective condition. And when that is in the heart, and in the way, then you can’t see the big picture. You only deal with the here and now in a physical sense, reflective way, of the reflection and so when it’s like that what you can perceive is very, very little, and thus you haven’t a chance at finding the missing parts of yourself when you are responding to the reflection – and answers for the reflection – as opposed to going back to the depth inside of yourself to see how it is that you generated that event.

It is also a barrier because you can take whatever is a little uneasy and try to just throw it in the hopper of that greater family-like balance and not confront certain conditioning, and certain mannerisms, that you have in your nature. And if you’re successful enough at that, then something really big can hit you and knock you for a loop that is a real blindside. So I think our themeing of our dreaming and the actions and mannerisms have to do with going back and contending with these sort of things almost as a biofeedback mechanism.

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blue-angelWe could consider the whole of our spiritual journey as a process of getting a more and more detailed view of what is going on behind the veils of outer life. And, as we make that journey, deeper and deeper within, or higher and higher up the energetic planes -depending on your perspective – we get closer to the essence of where it all began. Or at least we can get glimpses of what that can feel like. And perhaps that is what our true feelings of love are a reflection of, the sense of completion of being with the merged state. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So I’m explaining that I let my mind wander when I woke up, and he’s explaining why I forgot it.

John: I can tell kind of why you would forget something like this because of the nature of the way the theme of the dream was. The tendency, whenever you go back, and the theme of the quality of the evening was going back into kind of a depth of one’s self that was outside of time and space, in which there’s kind of a merging that takes place.

Now ordinarily we live in the outer in a way, and in a manner, of diversity. And so whenever you experience the merged essence, it can almost be embarrassing. In other words, something that is that wide open is almost so vulnerable that some part of us, ourself, in trying to sustain some diversity, has to obliterate it in terms of holding onto a separation.

So when you take and you have a dream, or vision, that goes into a place in which everything comes into a quality of an overall vibration, that takes in everything, that absorbs the diversity of one’s nature, it’s very, very hard to remember that. And, to remember that, you have to hold onto, at a great, great, great depth inside of yourself, some subtle reflection that is in there yet.

And then, when you can hold onto that subtle reflection, you can take that subtle reflection and recognize that that subtle reflection is also vibrationally absorbed, and correlated, and intertwined with the essence of something on a universal level that permeates all that there is.

So to have an experience of something to where everything falls into the vacuum of an absorptive state is very, very hard to remember because it’s going back to almost the original, it’s coming back closer and closer, in fact it can go all the way back to the original vibration from which everything then breaks free into its multiplicities in outer life.

So the closer you come back to something that is of this absorbed, subjective, inner essence, the more you have to put up with the diversity dichotomy of thoughts that want to go the other direction – back into the multiplicity – because it’s hard to uphold one’s self in a livable way in this mannerism because your control is not there. And the way you are able to let yourself be doesn’t correspond with how you’re mental sense nature would like to portray yourself.

So it is always creating a reflection that gets in the way. And what you have done to get there, is you have taken whatever the reflection is, and caught up with the vibration behind it, and got swept into that essence. And then, if you’re lucky, you’ve come to learn that where that vibration say at 70% effect, and to the degree to which the outer senses vie for a space in the heart, that when you take and recognize on the subtlest of levels, we’ll call it a 5% that is like a reflection, and can also find the vibration within that that ensues from somewhere else, that is when you make great depths with yourself.

And that process of doing that is called polishing the heart. Now when you polish the heart you create the lens and the mirror to see what a human being really is, somewhere else, in a totally merged oneness.

So it’s unusual, it’s not unusual, it’s just a fact of nature that when one falls into a merged essence state the intensity of the energy is like too much to handle. And so whatever is still sitting there as defense mechanisms rise up to try to take one outside of resting and being in this uncontrollable way of being.

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Out-of-ControlIt still amazes us when we make a decision that we feel so strongly about, and yet a few days or weeks later we have a relapse and it doesn’t seem as important. And that is what we mean when we say there are many lives in us, because parts of us like the old ways, and parts of us want to change. That’s why we need to get all of ourselves on board with any great changes we seek to make – or else the other parts can rebel and mutiny. And it can rarely be done by force; it’s best achieved through consistent talking to our systems about what we are trying to achieve and why.  (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I just have one brief dream. In it I’m living like in the countryside, and it’s kind of a bright, sunny day. And then down the road there’s a house with some friends in it. One of them is visiting from England, or somewhere.

And the brother of one of the women who’s down the road is staying with me. We’re not really in a relationship, but he’s just staying in kind of an inner room in my house. Well, I have just sobered up. I have been an alcoholic, and I have sobered up. I’ve been sober one or two days.

But, her brother, who needs to sober up, is still drinking and I’m trying to get him to stop drinking. But he also has a gun and, you know, I feel like he’s now going to plot to kill me because I’m sobering up. And I’m trying to figure out what to do, like can I get him to sober up, too?

So, when his sister and my friend, who live down the road, come over it’s like I tell them that I think that he’ll have to move out because he comes out, and I look around, I see he’s got all these things on his belt, but I don’t see the gun right now. But he still isn’t sober, so I feel like unless he sobers up that, you know, I tell them they’ll have to take him out of the house before he gets violent. That was the whole dream.

John: I don’t know what that means. That’s a good one alright, because the direction of the dreaming had to do with something waking up from anew, waking up anew from inside.

But this doesn’t indicate what it is. It just indicates that something’s sobering up, but doesn’t indicate that there’s something waking up anew and that the indication is, if you’re waking up, you’re going to be… there’s something associated with waking up and being killed, or losing yourself.

Well, waking up into what? I mean it doesn’t point to anything in particular. It doesn’t direct your attention in any regard. It just indicates a condition, and that that condition has a treacherousness in regards to how it is that you’re able to be accepted.

In other words, you will be killed, or you will lose your way of being accepted if you come out of being asleep or drunk. The thing is, as I’m beginning to look at these things, I don’t know if that’s quite true. It’s true maybe from the sense in terms of your attachments and your addictions and such, that you learn to get free of that, or you become more freed of that.

We see a bigger picture and a greater overallness to life. So in that sense, I guess, you’re killed or you die in relationship to the narrower way of looking at yourself – but it’s not true that you actually are repulsed necessarily by society. I don’t think you have to be. I think you can figure out a way of creating a relatability. I think there’s always a way of tweaking something deeper.

When you don’t know how to do that, or you don’t figure that out, you’re taken in as bizarre or strange. I think it can be done. But for those that are in the outer world too indulged, that’s not possible, but I’m saying that it can be done.

The quality of dreaming last night had to do with various ways of waking up or becoming something. And the waking up, such a waking up, causes you to relate to things differently. But by and large, I’m not sure I believe that. I think that what also wakes up, what also comes up at the same time is a way of knowing how to communicate, or to correlate, the way you are.

Most people just go hidden, but I think it’s interesting to be able to figure out how to twine, how to tweak, and I think that’s all possible. In your dream, though, it kind of seems to suggest that you’re apt to become something so different that there is a degree, a lack of relatability or something. I don’t think it has to be that way. I mean I think you can be fairly open and communicate, too. I think that one can be in a waking up state and pull it off, and be okay. It’s around others that are totally entrenched in what they’re doing, and adamant about it and overly righteous about it or something, so that this is all that they’re able to see, and that they have no fluidity in terms of looking this way or that way. That is when you hit the grand rejection, but that isn’t very many, and you can sense and you can tell that sort of thing vibe-wise. It’s fairly straightaway

So I’m not sure I totally agree with the fact that when you wake up you put yourself into a condition of where you’re shot. Yes, you can be rejected by those that refuse to wake up, and parts of yourself that refuse to wake up, but I think you get to a point where something just flips and it has to be, and it kind of is catalytic all around you then. So that’s what I make out of that. You can’t throw it out; it has something to it.

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