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tarot-4 copyIs there any experience more common, or more shared by people, than doing things that we know are not good for us? And, of course, this is something we do on many levels, from eating a chocolate bar when we want to be on a diet, to spending time with people who upset us, to more life-risking behavior. Yet it can be just as true when it comes to our spiritual life and beliefs: we can still allow simple personal involvements to pull us away from our connected state. The problem with that is, higher connections need consistency, and constancy, from us, to know that we are safe for them. It is our actions and intentions that woo them, but they can’t stay with us if we are unreliable.  (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Well, in my dreams, I had to put it all together because the bits and pieces went somewhere, but there was still something so much more. And so even this meditation dream and the bits and piece is part of a much larger component of an unfoldment.

In the meditation dream, I am noticing that the identifications I have towards a myriad of outer things is actually an unnatural condition. In other words, it’s not natural to have all of the orientation to the outer, because my natural state is one of silence and stillness. That’s what the God essence is all about.

However, my being is on tilt. I beat up on myself senselessly over and over again with outer indulgences. You would think that I would eventually get it: that in order to feel whole one needs to be still, that my deviations are taking away from the experience of who I really am.

I know deep within from the stillness oneness that is natural to my being that everywhere I look, and everyone I see, is carrying a suffering when they are not able, or capable, of properly listening to their heart – and instead are weighed down by outer conditions. The thing is we all know better, everyone knows better. It’s just a matter of how much the outer has control over you, but we all know better.

We all recognize inner beauty when we see it. We all know the joy of being able to be innocent, where a letting go stillness naturally reside. Well, we may know that but being able to get out of the complexity is another thing, so consequently I am always cheering for others to break free and relate naturally to their true condition, which is an inner condition, because deep down we know that this is the fiber of our inner beingness.

Nevertheless it pains me to see people suffer, just like it pains me to suffer with them. Because that’s what happens: when I see them suffer, I suffer with them. Some part of me always does that. I mean that’s how the silence and the stillness works. That’s where the inner connection works. That’s why it’s good to keep a certain separation, or denseness, so to speak, that’s the positive way of trying to flip the stupidity into a meaningfulness, because when it’s like that then you don’t necessarily identify so closely to kind of an amnesia pain that predominates.

So within my heart… and, of course, I call it an amnesic pain because on the other side of it is the greater wholeness. Well, within my heart there is compassion and admiration for the inner bravador, in other words, that’s something which is trying to wake up. And when I am touched when something bleeds through the projections and, in doing so, sees our condition as one of connection. If not for this inner bleed through bravador, I would not be able to share a beingness with others. Instead I would spiral out of control and go irreparably insane. So to put it in other words, control is a holding on to a deviation, and oneness exists when the wayward projections we each manufacture fall away.

So the meaning is, that in my meditation dream, as I let go of the mind ego relatability, I find a wholeness within. As I come in from the outer malaise, even if just for a moment, there is a heartfelt quality of healing. The fact that I go right back and purposely pick up the mind ego sense orientation, which pains the heart and veils the soul from its unlimited natural nature, is bizarre, and I am seeing it to be so as I keep doing it.

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Todd Allen

We have spoken before about water images and fish images as being representative of the unconscious. Sometimes it can be a small body of water, or an ocean, or a small fish or a big fish. Here we see a human-sized fish that’s following our dreamer around and trying to communicate with her. And, as you might expect, that makes her a little uncomfortable. Sometimes dreams try to communicate subtly through their symbolism, and sometimes the symbolism jumps out of the water as a huge fish and flat-out says it’s trying to communicate.  (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Okay, in the second dream, I’m living with a group of people and at one point I leave the house and I discover there’s been a huge snowstorm. And I’m trying to make it down the hill and back in a snowstorm.

At one point it feels like I even really slide and come right to an edge where I could go over, but I seem to stop, and I’m studying out how to go down and around. Then it feels like I’ve come back and I’ve gotten my sister and we’ve left, but when we want to make our way back what’s happened is we’re kind of almost like flowing uphill, and everything around us is in upheaval.

Whole buildings have just kind of either fallen, or gone up in the air and turned over, or whatever’s going on, and what used to be the road that we took downhill it’s become all like a muddy river almost, and we’re trying to make our way kind of against the current and getting back.

And there’s even things that look like alligators on the side and underwater, or you think like they can be after you, but they don’t seem to bother us. So we make it back towards where we’re going, and I’m even going somewhere towards work, and someone notices these big fish in the water to the side. And there very unusual fish with kind of tentacles a little bit like catfish, and someone had once said there were no big fish in that water, and I’m thinking, well, you know, these look as big as a person.

But then one comes out on land and I see that there’s something actually like they’re actually manmade on some level, or alien.  There’s kind of a plate near the back of their head that’s almost like you feel like they’ve been manmade or manufactured in some way, but they’re also intelligent. It’s like they try to communicate with us, and so we hurry off to work. And I start hiding from the boss that I even see or knew anything about the fish, but I break something so he knows I was in the room overhearing a conversation he was having about them, I think, but I try to act like it was the cleaning lady that dropped something on the floor and not myself and my sister or whoever I’m with.

And then to make our way back but, when I leave work to make my way back now, these alien fish-like people, I guess is what they are, are trying to communicate with me all the time and following me around or showing up where I am, and it’s like I’m a little freaked out by it. I don’t know quite what to make about it, that they’re doing this, because I don’t know what they are or what they’re about yet.

John: You’re using an image to try to portray how the breath works, and in the out-breath you come down and, when you hit the interval to where the out-breath turns to the in-breath it’s like being on the edge of a cliff in that you’re at the furthest point, so to speak, from the crown, and it seems that in this particular zone where you don’t have a lot going on for yourself in the outer, because you’re at this edge, nor do you have the inner on the return working, that you could’ve cracked up. You could’ve gone into a state of despair; but you didn’t. You didn’t go over the edge.

And so then you made the return back, and you’re making the return back, something comes out or opens up for you, and it’s these fish, and these fish have a kind of consciousness. In other words, who would guess that in the like in-breath coming back, going back to where you belong to a home, going back, that there would be such amazing consciousness.

And each time come to realize more and more of an intertwined linkage, or awareness, of what was opening up inside at some depth inside of yourself that is represented by these fish that are attempting to get your attention.

So you’re portraying the path. In other words, the first time you had to be rescued by kind of a grace because you were really under blizzard conditions, and you couldn’t see your way, and it was only fortuitous that something kind of worked out. And then the next time you started to recognize all of the plight of things that were there. And the third time you started to realize that there’s an awareness that is trying to get your attention.

What you’re basically describing is the awakening of the soul inside of yourself, in other words, the overallness of that. You’re portraying it just as if you’re discovering, as if you’re going through the various levels from beginning to end, like a one, two, three, three breaths, with the third breath getting to the point that you have a sense that what no one believed was possible is possible. It’s big, it’s there, it looks a little scary, but it’s trying to get your attention.

The fourth would be more of an aspect of completion then, because you would be allowing and accepting yourself to be carried away in that condition. And if you were to allow yourself to be caught up and carried away in that condition, what you would find would happen is that everything that you would be doing would all have to be oriented towards this quality of illumination – which means that you would be outside of the physical, outside of the emotion of things that tries to sort something out with the heart. You would be taking everything that is happening to you into this other zone, into this part of higher self. In other words, you’d be awakening to that realization that that’s what you really are all about.

Instead of quite coming to that full recognition, you came up to the point where you were aware that the consciousness is huge and that it was trying to get your attention, and that it was a little unnerving, and shocking, to see that it was like that. You got up to that particular point.

The next step after that would be to accept and be able to take and go into that. The problem that exists when you come up to this particular point where you now have to accept and go into that, is that as long as you’re still kind of in awe of it, or noticing that something like that kind of exists on the other side, you’re still in a position that is relatable to the lower-self elements of things where delirium exists, and where you can delude yourself.

But when you get to the point where something like that otherness takes over, so that everything about you is in conjunction with the soul of the whole, then whatever it is that happens in the physical, or in the outer, however it is that you are affected then, you have to take that affect and flip it as if, in order to see what it really is about in terms of something on the soul level.

Now when you start to function like that, you’re not going to make a lot of sense to a lot of people because people are still caught in their mind and their senses, and they’re going to have to perceive things in terms of how those things correlate or relate to them. And you’re not going to be effective like you might have been before when you are caught in belief systems. You’re not going to be effective at upholding the various stories, the storybook nature that people have, and that you have.

It gets to the point where even the physical ailments of yourself are not like physical ailments anymore, they also somehow or another have a meaningfulness in terms of the world soul. In other words, whenever you’re going through something that is affecting you physically, where most people would be dwelling upon their aches and pains, you would be inclined to look at that in terms of what is this about on the other side. How do I take and turn this into the big picture?

It’s a whole different frame of reference that almost looks crazy to a person who’s caught in the physical, because it’s almost like a type of denial from the perspective of something that’s caught in the physical, and it even can look like a denial to yourself because you are in the physical and you’re going to have these aches and pains, but these aches and pains and mannerisms to which you’re perturbed and upset, you kind of come to recognize that they point to something else and that something else that they point to is outside of a personal mannerism that you have been accustomed to seeing yourself under. They point to something in which you subtract yourself out and you start to see this being about the whole, or the soul, about everything that exists, and everything kind of goes into that as a quality of what’s really going on.

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doad2As humans we are born with a unique set of skills, and each one of us can be the answer to a need in creation because no two people will take the same path through life. For those seeking to fulfill that possibility in their lives, doors and pathways will open up before them. Yet we also always have our freedom of choice: we can take those opportunities, or try a different way. This discussion follows the dream analysis from A Greater Vista.  (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: It reminds me of a dream in which Siddhartha, when he was born, or before he was born, he was born into a wealthy king family, there was a dream that occurred in which the interpretation of the dream was that this boy had two possibilities. One is he could become a really, really great king and effect a lot of changes in the countryside and in the kingdom. Or two, he could become a person that would be exalted in his renunciation of the physical, and thus a realization of some deep, deep inner depth.

So the parents were aware of this. They were aware of this dream. They believed this dream, and so they sheltered Siddhartha from seeing anything that could disturb him and cause him to want to trip into another depth world of renunciation or something – and he remained like this. In fact, he even submitted to an arranged marriage when he was like 28 or 29 years old.

And somehow in that whole process he came to realize that the world outside of the castle, and the world in the castle, were completely different. In other words, there was strife and poverty and death and all of that which, somehow or another, he hadn’t really come to grips with. So once he got married he was totally enamored in the marriage, but he now had this other that was plaguing him. And this was hitting in a way that was quickening what obviously was one direction or the other that he could turn.

He could stay in the wonderful marriage that he was in, and go on and become an exalted king, or this other, he could turn his attention to that. He chose to turn his attention to coming to grips and dealing with and understanding the plight of everything. So he did it in a very, very confused way. He deprived himself of everything. He just disappeared from a wonderful marriage that he was in. He went out and he got so gaunt and so thin, renunciating things, and eating one grain of rice a day and whatnot, as if that was going to cause him to realize something.

He fell in even with a band of renunciates that were somewhat like that, except he always took everything to a greater extreme, and he even took himself to the verge of death. And suddenly he had this realization, or recognition, that in terms of another kind of clarity that he needed to rise up and be strong with instead of the weakened condition that he had gotten himself into. He needed to eat. He needed to bring himself back into life.

So the renunciants he was with renounced him because he was now betraying of the cause, and out of this evolves what became Buddha. But for quite awhile while he was doing this other, he had to go through this whole process of a type of purging before he could come to realize what the inner process was really all about.

Your dream reminds me of that because it points out something that’s kind of like that. It points out that you have a natural inclination to shape something that can be part of a process, in which something is shaped, that has a real shine to it, but you do it in a subservient way where you do not project yourself to where you are able to function in an independent capacity from with inside of yourself.

You rely upon the guidance around you, and the time comes when you recognize that you have the insightfulness, the key inside of yourself, to take a step forward and be more effective straightaway, instead of dependent, that you can reach those levels inside yourself or open that quality of a guidance seeing and hearing from within, and shape accordingly.

And when you do that, and when you take that push forward, you stimulate the Kundalini energy of your nature that’s necessary to go along with that unfoldment. When you do that you’re then presented with two options, two different ways of being. One is you can hold the presence of what you’ve realized and recognized and maintain that in the space of something more that’s opened up. However, it is defined. It is something that is now visible.

Or you can take it into a greater outer, into a greater soul, world soul or something. You could soar with that. You could take that quality that’s shaped and, so to speak, dismantle the gem in that it becomes a type of pervasive nothingness that goes into the outer, into the whole.

In other words, the option is to hold a space that has a recognized brilliance or, upon accessing it, going into a way of carrying this into a greater overallness. It’s something that isn’t defined because where that kind of expansive realm goes is hard to denote.

In other words, if you’re looking at what you were doing with the energy is you were taking the life force and making it loud in a physical world sense way, in conjunction with having achieved and awoken a clarity within, that then was more greatly grounded by bringing it through, bringing it into a foundation.

The loudness of that kind of swallows you up from the standpoint then that the life force that goes into the soul of the world, you can’t find yourself necessarily in something like that because you don’t accentuate a quality of passion in life that is apparent and obvious. The passion in life is visible, it’s obvious to others. When you take it into the soul there’s an illumination that is only accessible to those who have reached a point that they can gain or glean from that. The illumination extends out. It’s almost like a ray of sight. It’s like an example of something with that illumination would be a teacher that can kind of see the soul of things, and their sight touches out, touches things in terms of touching out into all that exists.

It’s like you’re at a crossroads, one to be lived, and the other is something else; it’s what is intended.

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