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crashWe may have learned how to pack for travel in light of the new airline fees and regulations, but do we understand the baggage limitations of our spiritual journey? If we were to fly away tomorrow, and we could only take a few things with us, what would those things be? Our need for safety? Our fears of the unknown? Our hesitations to trust in what we can’t see and touch? It’s an interesting consideration, because those precious things are the ones that will hold us back at the last moment, and keep us from making our next elevation and development. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Initially, I’m with a group of people, men and women. We’re young; we’re like college age or something. And we seem to be trying to make decisions about where we’re going to live, like whether we’re going to live more in a group setting, or get our own apartments. It’s as though whenever someone talks to one, you know, they’re trying to sway one, one way or the other.

And then we’re all going to get on a train that goes a little more into the country, I think. Now, as we leave for the train station, I have this sense that I’m not sure that I trust the whole system around our bags, but we’re supposed to leave them all behind and then they’re going to be loading them and they’ll catch them up with us.

And we seem to be taking these empty carts, like a grocery store cart almost, up to where we’re getting on the train. And I see that some people had grabbed some of their stuff, and I do have this sense that I’m not sure I like, or trust, the system, but it feels too late to go back and try to grab bags – so I just have to let it go.

I don’t remember the train ride, because it suddenly seems like we’re just in this house in the country, and different people are arriving earlier, and some are coming later. So there’s kind of a mix of who one’s talking to that might be different than before, and I feel like that there would be some pressure from some people when they arrive because maybe they’re interested in a relationship, so they would be pressing me to get my own place. And other people I’m there with are just fine with us all living more communally.

I’m standing over near a window at one point, and it feels like the young people I’m around are kind of having this conversation of having some confusion with their sexuality, because they feel like as they talk, and they get close to people, even if it’s someone that’s the same sex, they may feel more attracted – but that’s not normally how they identify themselves.

And then I go over from there, because I think someone arrived that I feel a little crowded by, and I want more space. And so I’ve left there and I’ve gone over and I’m standing on this stairway where there’s a bathroom above. And there’s a woman waiting for the bathroom, so I start talking to her. It’s like I’m waiting my turn for the bathroom or something; she feels like someone that I can talk to about what I’m noticing going on around me, and I think that was when the phone rang.

John: Your dream, if you follow it energetically, seems to be a progression towards more a complete breath. To begin with, before you get on the train, you’re kind of in the world, or in the city of things, and those indulgences just kind of have a way with you that kind of keep you in their trance.

Then when you get on the train, it’s like traveling towards God, or trying to travel towards God. You’re caught in kind of this period of time that yo-yos back and forth: do you have everything with you from the city? And yet are you traveling in the right way? And then you have the illusion kind of hitting a type of destination.

In other words, you make a distinction with it, in that you point out that one arrives at a place that seems okay, but isn’t actually really quite okay, either, because you’re still trying to sort out. You’re now able to look at things a little differently, and able to sort out what has a magnetic pull, or attraction to you, and what doesn’t.

When you’re initially just in the dumb outer, the natural physical world of things, you don’t have any sense of anything more going on, you can seemingly enjoy that because you don’t know any different or any better. And in a way that can even seem like that’s all that there is. But once you start on a path of looking for something more, and trying to see what you can take with you in terms of that something more, that’s when you start playing in this in-between zone of trying to sort things out.

And in that sorting out, you’re making a distinction that there really is something more, that there is a quality of a home, and in that quality of a home you reach a point, where, on a magnetic level, you’re looking then at what you feel you need, which is still a type of indulgence. In other words, instead you’re even subtler with this in terms of what you’re looking to sustain, or maintain, in terms of the outer in your home, or as an innerness. And that is the realm of the spirit.

In other words, it’s able to reduce things into a really, really fine sort of state, but it’s still caught in that, and so you can have a certain sense of balance, and completeness, but it’s still not the original breath. The key is a recognition that goes to a letting go of any kind of buying and selling, even on a subtle level like the spiritual illusion level, or when you’re yo-yoing.

And the key is to let go of all of that, in order to hit the magnetized breath, that encompasses the wholeness of everything that there is in all of life. And the way this develops, or the way this helps a human being, is that the original breath kind of becomes a sort of magnetized naturalness that is charged with a more all-encompassing, inclusive energetic, and that the indulgences, that had been in the city, you really do see as nauseous now, when before you didn’t necessarily see them as nauseous.

And thus you were still sorting things out, in terms of what bags to take as you were attempting to do something anew. And you were still trying to then take those bags, reduce them to something of a subtler need, and still keep this subtler need in a place that was more like home, which is a spiritual illusion, because those bags had now turned into a type of spiritual essence quality, brought with you to a home.

But you make headway against this middle area, the subtler second breath, you make headway against it only by holding the original breath and thus you see the nausea of experiencing in the outer.

When you’re able to see the nausea of experiences that are just strictly in the outer, meaning with the mind senses only, it becomes more and more difficult to try to take some sort of mind sense orientation with you, or baggage as you would call it. And then from baggage to something of a subtler essence spirituality, into your home, which again is just a finer substance of the baggage, and the baggage being what you are reserving your right to hold onto, that is quasi-personal, still personal, but an aspect that is not totally indulged, that you are attempting to travel with.

By letting go of that, you are put in a position to where the yo-yoing and the spiritual illusion aspect of things is something that you’re able to make headway with, even though they’re subtler, and harder, to work with, because they still have as a foundation of a substance the shell orientation, not the essence orientation, not the orientation that’s one of light.

It’s easier to come to grips with the yo-yoing where you’re taking baggage back and forth, trying to take baggage with you from the city to some place that you’re going, and it’s harder when you get to what you think is a home and you still are holding to your spiritual ideals, or images, and that is a subtle personal aspect. It’s harder to let go of that, but it is made easier, the recognition is made easier, when you have taken and died, so to speak, to the idea that there is something in the outer that can be utilized, or experienced, in some edification way.

So the more grounded you can be, towards the density of that outer breath, and not caught in any of that, the more you’re able to truly adhere, or in that more holding on to the original breath, that is the only means by which you’re able to see the limitations of the other quality.

When you go into the original breath, which is magnetized, you sort out the two. In other words, as things get subtler, and you’re carrying your spiritual illusion up, and things are brighter, they cannot get to the total stillness of where the in-breath turns to the out-breath because you’re still holding on to spiritual illusions. It can have a real angelic quality to it in terms of how you can convince yourself that this is meaningful.

On the flip side of that, is where that energetic that can’t be lived in a stillness, is trying to come down into manifestation. And so it is only the holding onto the original breath at the top that you pull those two together.

When you let go of it, when you hit the heart breath, or just let go of the mind sense orientation, then that is when you have the deeper realization of something in terms of what you really are all about, in terms of this complete stillness, or in other words devoid of spiritual illusion, and devoid of the need to try to steer something in some capacity.

When you are like that, then, this other vibration, which is the only aliveness that there is, the magnetized vibration is the only aliveness that it is, it then is able to play in a way through the human being that is really quite magical. And change then can happen, and shifts can then happen. And to the degree that the human being is still functioning in life just like everybody else, no one notices, because their mind is caught up in having to sort out and make sense of things.

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i990esIt seems easy for us to determine what is important in life, and what is unimportant. But those decisions are usually based on whatever agenda we are pursuing at the moment. On the other hand, if we are pursuing spiritual connection and flow, we may have no idea what is important to the bigger picture of what is unfolding. Only by letting go to the flow, and being open to what it may show us, or to where it may take us, will we discover what the unseen, energetic worlds are trying to make happen. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, in the meditation dream, I find that I go on a detour while pursuing to a point of myself that is meant to come out. The end effect is what is meant to be.

This circumstance process ends in a surprisingly wonderful way, in other words, this is a deeper part of the dream, as I learn a trust and deeper connection to the inner breath. What I mean by inner breath is that there is a charged energetic I have found to abide in.

So I guess what I am seeing in deep meditation is, if I don’t have that connection to something that is charged, I go on detours as I rotate about without the big picture taken into account on a greater overallness of vibration.

And then there was a prior dream to this, in which the issue repeated to me, but this was softer. It repeated with more intensity, this prior dream. And, in this dream, in other words, I’m slowly breaking through to where I had that realization that was my answer to, and correspondence to, what your aspect was. Now I’m flopping around in the imbalance of the masculine.

And, in this dream, it starts out with me needing to take an overnight flight. I’m trying to reach an intended destination. I stare at the flight board, trying to figure it out. I can’t even read the dang thing. What is it that’s there? You know, I’ve got a ticket in my hand and I look at my ticket, I look at the flight board, I look at the ticket, I look at the flight board.

I mean I’m struggling and struggling, and, after all of that, I end up taking a one-way flight to a far away place where English isn’t even spoken. But at least I’m recognizing the dhikr, somehow or another, in spite of all of that – because ordinarily I would be freaking out – but this time something is different. In other words, I’m sensing or dreaming how there can be a completeness, or connection, somehow, to the vibration. Or, saying this another way, it is different, you know, the fact that I, oh my gosh, you know, probably made the worst decision I could’ve made.

Any of those other flights would have… the one I took… there was only one flight even. There were multiple flights on this tack board to other places, and I take this one. How I could do something like that is just literally ridiculous. You know, I pondered and pondered it, and probably made the worst choice that I could make.

But, even at that rate, instead of freaking out it’s different, because I am okay energetically because I am connected to a wholeness, you know, something in the breath, a magnetized breath, and I trust in abiding in that as a vibratoriously charged breath, as okay. A trust, in other words, that is okay wherever this takes me in the outer. Or, to say this another way, when the situation is like that I am content with the well being within, as I know that as long as I am able… in other words, I am content with a deeper, inner well being, even over the outer, you know, we’re not corresponding to imbalance here with the feminine. And so I know that as long as I am able to sustain this heartfelt magnetism, everything is unfolding in time, what’s meant to be, even though I don’t know where I am at, will sort itself out.

Or the meaning, you could say, is I am being guided by an inner energetic process, which is a meaningfulness that I trust in spite of mind/sense appearances that I don’t understand in a straightforward way. Or in a straightaway way.

I’m talking about an abiding in the heartfelt breath, a washing through me, which is meant to wash through me at all times as my condition, as an inner guidance beyond the personal outer mind/sense orientation, that has its indulgences that strip you away. Like in your case you’re stripped away by something’s breaking into the house and all of that. I mean you’re stripped away, and then you’re dealing with it because you don’t have the cohesion.

What I’m talking about also is this inner presence that makes everything going on good to go in life – when that corresponds, when I am in this natural inner, connective, vibrational state. When I’m not in it, that’s when you’re also lost, or veiled, or have defense mechanisms.

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i22esSo much effort is expended in trying to control things in the outer, yet what we overlook is the concept that if we control ourselves on the inner, the outer will proceed accordingly. This is not control in the way of suppression, but in the way of letting go, and being with, the energetic flow. In the same way that our anger, or stress, can affect the environment around us, so too can our inner calm, and groundedness, allow for an improved unfolding of events. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: The meditation dream I had had the effect of something, in terms of a quality being somewhat different, in relationship to the heart breath, in that I had access within to information that I could use – and I don’t readily access this information.

And so, because I don’t readily access this information, what I was seeing was like being in a vehicle in which, as I’m relating to others, I suddenly fall back with my vehicle, or start going slower, as they continue to keep going at their pace.

What causes that is that I have a tendency, the tendency that I have is I’ve developed this sensitivity that speeds up, but isn’t grounded, because it doesn’t hold, or adhere to, the ability to hold that quality in an appropriate heart breath, and so it doesn’t hold the presence.

And so when it doesn’t hold the presence, it speeds up. It has an insight that seems to be flickering, but it doesn’t bring it through in a succinct way – and so the insightfulness that I have always seems out of reach. It seems out of touch.

It is out of touch as a result, in terms of bringing it through. So what happens is other people who don’t have that kind of quickening to the same degree, as they are going through something can, in terms of a certain way of balance that they see in terms of themselves that they know to be important, they can take and hold to that better – because they don’t have this kind of inner, overly sensitized awareness kind of quickening.

And so the way this continued like this in the dream was, as I energetically would fall back, I am able to focus as an “I am.” In other words, my beingness, groundedness, imbalance, that I know, when I settle back takes the vehicle that becomes disregardable because it speeds up and whatnot, or goes over the top a bit, and enables it to drive right back up to where they are at, and I can, actually, at that point when I am more stabilized, can give them something, can exchange something with them at that time when I am by them.

And then I proceed by and, in proceeding by, holding this condition, I’m able to mirror even more. Isn’t this interesting how that’s done? By holding onto an inner acuity wholeness of being, I can take what is awkward and imbalanced energetically, that is a falling back from others, because even though they might be more speeded up and affected by what’s going on, they are able to handle it, or fall back into a space that handles it, so I catch up because I do somehow or another go within and let go.

And so I go beyond their appearance of a wayward bifurcation, and, in this way, I access more of the natural, soar to heights with inner connective acuity, and propel beyond such a quality of the collective. Apparently this is possibly because I assimilate imbalances in myself, in the environment, with this process which is with the breath. So that’s the meditation dream.

So what is going on is the access I have to a depth within, if you don’t have the magnetized breath over the top of that, it’s unstable, it’s ungrounded, and seemingly imbalanced. And so consequently the energetic flow doesn’t come out into life in a way that others can handle, nor can I pull anything together when I am in this kind of askewness, which is like a shattering because you don’t have the heart breath there.

The reason why you can’t pull anything together and that it is like this is that the vibrational energetic lacks any magnetic alignment to a flow. The kundalini, which is what it is, to put this in another term, comes across as if out of sync.

What was happening was an attempt to cause the heart breath to go deeper, to hold onto something deeper, and we have learned how to take and stare at those various states that one’s in, and, when the heart breath is inclined to go deeper, and you don’t know quite how to hold the abiding, aren’t catching up with it, aren’t sustaining it, you can be askew, not able to sleep, let alone dream.

So also the meaning of the dream is it’s saying that I have an access that affects life in a casual way. In other words, I fall back if my over-sensitization is such it doesn’t come through, but if I hold that quality of the breath then it can affect in a casual way. In a casual way what it does is it enables everything that they’re going through to come through and be okay, and then there is something that tweaks it.

However, that casualness loses its hidden knowingness, and direct access, if I become energetically overwhelmed, in other words, overly speeded up, over the top, and do that as an easibility and fail to realize that that’s just being overly sensitive and mutable – and then it doesn’t ground things.

So the deeper meaning is, when I am able to hold the magnetic of a, we’ll call it dhikr breath, this being a breath that lets go of outer energetic influences, what opens up for grounding purposes, what opens up is this dhikr breath, we call it grounding purposes, accesses to the all-pervasive wholeness in that there is a meaningfulness I am able to reach in an inner into outer way, as a mirroring from within. In other words, you don’t have to say anything if you hold the space. Something in the energetic of your being kind of touches that whole space. It’s done very, very invisibly. You can just sit there and your presence can cause something to be incredible.

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