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heart66.jpgIt is easy to forget that humans are designed to connect to the guidance they need to be in service to what created them. We may not know exactly what we are doing, but we can connect to things that do. We have all experienced an instant knowing when we are under some sort of pressure, and that type of knowing can be there for us much more of the time. But we have to quiet the noise and distractions, and the emotional yo-yo-ing, to be with it. It is a stress on our entire system when we deny using our faculties the way they were meant to be used. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: My meditation dreams have been miserable for a number of days, but they do set the theme so I have to go along with that. And when I come to sleep I’m always concerned that anything can happen, or if I can even fall asleep or whatever. Last night wasn’t a problem of falling asleep, but the difference in my sleep is I’m hearing cues, and getting kind of directives, even though I’m not very good at paying attention to them, or following them, or holding onto them even.

And, as a consequence, it seems to be like a kind of reverse going on in that my meditation dreams are the epitome of being cut off a little bit; nothing comes through with the kind of clarity or loudness that it used to. It comes through the dreams louder, and it’s as if I have introduced a confusion or discombobulation that I’m having to sort out, and don’t necessarily know how to put my finger on it, but it is getting sorted out.

So in my meditation dream I was looking at ways to better connect. I was trying to feel those means. The idea behind the flow within was to oblige a connection I felt was necessary in order to serve a purpose.

The problem I am having in doing this is when my heart is heavy, like it is now, I am struggling to see anything at all. The significance is I need to have an inner guidance, but dialing this in has its problems. One, if there is a heaviness in my nature I am too groggy and burdened to get it. I do not have the open space in my nature that I need. I am dulled on the burdened heart as a veil, and am not able to pull out clear images.

Two, when I pull out clear images I am struggling, I have the opposite effect, where I can now then go from a denseness to an over transcendent expanse, and so I’m struggling to not be so cavalier and transcendent such that I can’t take the heartfelt meaningfulness needed into life, to change the surrounding, and open up its capacity.

And three, when more internally collected or put together, so to speak, so that I’m able to get it, in other words, first I went to one extreme, and then I went to another extreme, and now I’m kind of going back to kind of a middling. So when I am more internally collected so that I’m able to get it, I am not able to hear this in an interconnected way, in other words, not loud enough in an interconnected way, so that it becomes readily obvious. Things still quibble and fight it in their denseness, and there’s a way of sweeping through and absorbing the denseness.

I have to do it in a way that doesn’t overpower or short others out. I need to better know how to embrace the space within. In other words, this is a quality of the way you carry an exuding auric nature to facilitate, to smooth the ready acceptance and experientiality of the intended touch.

And then four, four goes back to kind of like, okay, if something is still off then you’re not actually physically at ease, which means then that the heart is having trouble embracing the soul in terms of an intended focus, which means that the heart is still overburdened.

For example, in my meditation dream, I wavered about noticing myself sitting there having to struggle to connect to an experiencing from within because a loud body sensation was making it hard to set that effect aside. The process has to do with letting go of the heaviness inside so a remorseful and self-indulgent nature doesn’t get in the way, or overwhelm. There has to be a joy and a grounded optimism going hand in hand, as well as the undifferentiated, intertwined heart. I remain shielded not able yet to properly bridge a gap.

Observation: What I am noticing is that a breakthrough shift involves the in-depthness of a human being. In other words, you don’t do it through skimming along in the outer. You have to do it by having accessed something really deep inside and brought it into a being that aurically transmutes.

The process occurs when a human being sets aside the misaligned impediments, is a way of saying it, so that you don’t have the crisscrosses that short out your effectiveness. It is the sole role of a teacher to provide the space needed for this occur. And see, the interesting thing about it is, this is all the teacher does. The teacher doesn’t go out and make the changes in the world, the teacher makes the changes in the human being because it’s the human being that has to do it, not the teacher.

The teacher must remain somewhere else and cannot come crashing down like a human being. Therefore, when a teacher goes out on a limb trying to influence something in the outer in a subtle way, that is asking for trouble. Most teachers know better than to do that, and those who do do that it’s part of a teaching to get others to try to see something – because the inner teacher reveals in a quiet way that doesn’t violate free will.

So the wish is, hopefully, what I will experience at a program this weekend will bring me back to a heartfelt connection of inner to outer more succinctly. The digressions are exhaustive and violate the connective flow. It is a hard lesson for me to realize that a digression always involves a personal transgression. To realize this appropriately, I must be attuned to a connective process within which keeps me safe and properly aligned.

Again this is a quality that you carry, and it’s really about a type of listening center, and the fact that you’re not quite pulling it in and you have like little deviations one, two, three, and four like I explained. Close, but deviations. In other words, it’s like everything is talking all the time to a human being. They just need to get to the point where they recognize what that is as an energetic that is outside of the mind; and everyone else just hears and sees the basic minutia of things.

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stillness-300x260Here’s a way to think about things: what if we stayed the same, and just let everything change around us? Of course, nothing is static, but we humans do change to suit the situation we are in, or the people we are around. But to be a developed person is to let go of all those personas and to become one person, a person who processes everything that is come in contact with, yet at the same time is steady in the way an equilibrium is always sought out and found.  (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I slept pretty solidly last night, and I feel like my dreams were a little more on the dull side.

The first dream I remember it’s like I’m working at an agency. I think there’s at least a man and a woman that I work with, and then at another building is a supervisor, or at least another area of the building.

For some reason something must have changed in my status, because I move to a desk that nearer to the supervisor. And I feel like I’m even going to have some different responsibilities. But this causes a little bit of estrangement with the other workers there because maybe I’ll be doing some things different than what they’re doing.

And so that dream seems to be more about trying to figure out how I’ll be doing the procedures, the same or differently, and just noticing that this is creating some stress with the other workers because there’s so many unknowns. That’s the best way to sum up that dream.

John: The theme of the dreaming, and the image comes around to it, it isn’t easy to see, is how is it that you progress or unfold in a way that is smooth, rhythmic, and doesn’t disturb the surroundings?

As you were telling the dream, what I was looking at was how that notion can look when there is an imbalance in one’s nature. In other words, you can have a shadow effect. And so, as you move up, or as you progress forward, it’s like a shadow herky-jerks with you, and you jerk along and that jerks with you.

In other words, it’s an image of a lack of cohesiveness, a smoothness in the flow. That wasn’t your dream though. That was the image that you created when you told the dream. I could see this going on as an energetic.

Instead what you were dreaming is that you were in an environment in which there were a lot of other people around, and that you were moving up, you were moving closer to the main office desk. And, in moving closer to the main office desk, you have to evaluate whether you’re doing this naturally, or not – which means with an evenness, with a consistency, without any herky-jerkiness.

Because if you do it innocuously, and especially if you can do it invisibly so it’s not even noticed that you’re doing it, however that is possible on an energetic level, then you don’t disturb anything. In other words, what is wrong in life is that everything has an accentuation about it. In other words, either something like this needs to be done, or something like that needs to be done, or if something breaks down it’s going to have this kind of affect. Everything has a loudness, and an overtness, and a lack of evenness.

And when things are like that, and when things are taken in and experienced like that, in other words, there’s a lack of harmony and equanimity in one’s being, and how they experience the surroundings and environment, when it is taken in like that, when it is addressed and denoted in one’s nature like that, then there is a tearing down or rubbing off that distorts and unbalances.

Completion involves evenness. It doesn’t involve jerking first up, and then jerking first down, jerking first up, jerking first down, although that seems to be the process by which one evolves and sees themselves having a dynamic experience. It’s not what opens up consciousness in a steady flow way.

Consciousness that’s opened up that way has extremes to it, has an imbalance built into it, has something that’s a little on tilt built into it. And you are looking at the rhythm, the steadiness, the non-chaotic unfoldment, something that isn’t loud, that doesn’t have to see itself in a noticeable way – that can just be there.

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24776441Sometimes the images in a dream can be very clear in their meaning. Here we see the old and the new, together. And no matter how attached we may feel to the things that have been important to our journey thus far, a time will come when we need to let go of that past and embrace the future. Because everything has its role to play in our unfolding process, but our attachments must always give way to what offers our next growth and possibility. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In my dream I’m standing with two others in a driveway area of a yard. This is a circular driveway to this place. In the center there are two trees. One is old and perhaps dead. It seems like it could fall over but it hasn’t.

The other is a vibrant young tree that I haven’t been paying much attention to because I feel it was placed there as an afterthought. In other words, it doesn’t command my attention. Because I feel it is not genuine, I tend to have a rather cavalier attitude about it.

I’m pondering the old tree that I feel must go, however, and a person there sings the glories of this new tree that is straight and pure. There are no knots in the trunk. The person is saying that, whether this tree was part of another tree, was placed here in some other manner, all of that is irrelevant. What is important is it is here, and it took a lot to be a tree with no knots. He finds this to be quite remarkable.

And as he’s making these comments, it’s like he’s looking at this tree leaning on the old tree, and as soon as he steps back from having leaned on this old tree it falls over onto the circular driveway.

And these other two are just nonchalant about what just happened, and I’m looking at this tree that fell over because they’re enamored instead about this other tree that I am, through what they are saying, realizing that maybe I’m not properly appreciating.

In the last scene, I’m trying to mobilize their help to get rid of the dead tree and free up the driveway so we can go as we need when we need.

Meaning: My attention is being diverted to that which is anew, and away from that which was. That which was has nothing further to offer. It is now in the way of an unfolding process; it needs to just fall away. And it may be in the way of a person properly flowing because it falls across the driveway and needs to be removed.

And that which is new is what is anew. It didn’t get the respect it deserved from me for the longest time, but something has changed as I am finally figuring it out. The old patterns, notions, and mannerisms and ways of expression are no more. This new awakening is where it is at now.

This is not as new as it seems. It took a lot to make a tree trunk that is straight and true with no knots in that whole trunk. I am not appreciating it because I was attached to the gnarly branches that this tree has dropped.

Now there’s one more thing, too, in that their attention and focus is upon this new tree, and I’m realizing that this other tree, which I kind of liked even though the branches were dead, gnarly, and sticking out, and this other tree doesn’t really have a lot of branches so it’s just kind of a straight tree, you know, having dropped the lower branches, but now that this old tree has fallen away I’m feeling that we can’t properly eat or do anything unless we get this out of the way.

And so I’m debating, do I just do this on my own, do I try to solicit their help? But we need to clear this out of the way so that we can come and go.

So you might say the old tree and the new tree that something new is arising and that thing that is new is, just because it doesn’t look old, is ancient in its own way as a newness – because it took a lot, and even though no one knows where it could have come from, it had to have gone through a lot to be able to be a tree with no knots in it, meaning having dropped its little branches.

It’s a lot like a ponderosa pine, which is a real knotty tree that can look good and everybody can like just stand under it for shade and whatnot, but when it turns into a yellow pine it drops all of its lower branches and becomes a very regal tree, and takes on a yellow hue even. In the West, it’s the best, and most valuable, and most useful tree in terms of making certain speciality things.

So that pointed out an unfoldment process, a shift in one’s attention, in other words, that there was something in the nature of how something had to be taken on in terms of how it encompassed a greater whole.

Enough had happened that you just needed to be, and you just needed to catch up what it was in your nature that just needed to be, and, in doing that, you would drop all of the other attempt to figure something out ,or to jerk something through, or to push something, or to try to shape something and whatnot. Just the way of being did that naturally. It caused everything to take and adjust accordingly, to glance, and to see, and to be able to feel in a new way.

You have to know how to approach life in terms of putting things into a proper perspective. But in the presence of a pure essence, a surrendered pure essence, there is a whole other inflection that is possible, that can take you outside of the knottiness of all of that waywardness, that one has in a world in which one’s senses and mind are correlated in a lower-self way.

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