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How do we find our balance when we get thrown off by people and events? Usually we choose something that soothes us: we may cook some comfort food, we may call a certain friend, we may sleep more, we may exercise, or meditate, or knit, or read. We may view such activities as “things we like to do,” but they are also among our strategies for coping with shifts and changes in our life environment and its flow. If we are consciously aware of this, we then can realize that we are trying to process something, energetically, and that knowledge increases the capability, and the speed, with which we regain our equilibrium. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So in this last dream I was in I’m living in some kind of an apartment house. I think my sister and somebody else is visiting near there. And we start to go out to the car, and then I realize they want me to ride out to the airport with them, and that it’s going to make sense because I do have to come back. But you’ve already gone into the apartment, like you’ve gone back in like you’re staying there, and I’m riding out to the airport with one of them and then I’m coming back.

Well, then I realize that I left my purse in the apartment, and somebody hops out of there and says, no, no, here’s the purse, but it’s another purse, it’s not the purse I need. But I take that purse, plus I take my sister’s purse for some reason, and I go towards the apartment. And first somebody comes by me and they push some button and go in.

I go over to the door, which is an entrance door, and I realize, because I don’t have my purse, I don’t have my key. Then I realize that because my sister is staying with me and I had grabbed her purse, too; she’ll have a key. And, sure enough, I open up the pocket in her purse and find a key. 

And after I get in through the door there’s another button I’m supposed to push, that rings maybe an elevator, or something. I can’t figure out which button it is because it’s all kind of confusing what I’m looking at. But I’ve just seen somebody else do it, but I still can’t find the right button.

But somebody comes up behind me and they seem to know where the button is; they show me. So then I get in, and I go up. I’m not walking down my usual corridor because somebody had ridden up with me. Then I go over to the right, past this blue furniture, I go over to the apartment where it would be my apartment, now I’m suddenly kind of worried about if you’re there, will you be there alone? Or will you have gone somewhere else all of a sudden?

So I’m just getting ready to go in the apartment and then the alarm rings and it startles me out of this space, in a way; disorients me.

John: Well, I would say, as a scenario, that we’re both reacting in different ways as something has broken the general, overall mannerism, or motif, in which we’re accustomed to functioning. 

We each have our own way of facing an identity crisis. In your particular case, this is one that has to do with a spaciality of balance that leads to memory problems, in that your key, or sense of attunement, has been disrupted and disturbed, kind of shattered or something by the imbalance, an imbalance that permeates.

And it has affected by a sense of tranquility, or balance, or harmoniousness as a general overall expression of self, it has affected that such that it has made you herky-jerky, in terms of your spaciality, in terms of your sense of balance, in relationship to your environment and in terms of how you’re able to function in terms of the ordinary day-to-day. When one is affected like this, what gets lost is their connection to an auric stillness that is able to be okay within the schematic of a greater outer, that’s able to kind of flow with that. 

See, the nature of a human being is, a human being tends to do practices and tends to do orientations and whatnot in order to try to get to a sense of self that is inclusive, and is able to let go, in terms of a greater overall. And that a person who is in balance doesn’t need to do any practices, or be rescued, or redeemed, or whatever. 

And when you’re in balance, you’re in sync. And when you’re in sync, you’re in flow, and when you’re in flow you properly mirror or inflect what needs to be inflected, and reflected, and you don’t have a spatial disorientation, or scattered nature, to have to contend with. 

So you’re experiencing this sort of thing, as a dream, in order to acknowledge and recognize that you have to hold a certain kind of witnessed balance within the schematic of a greater overallness – in terms of your sense of spaciality – that can be disrupted, or destroyed, or fractured by the consequences of things in the environment that infect you in a way that breaks you from how it is that you’re meant to be.

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How often do we experience something that is upsetting to us, and then, at another time, experience the same circumstance, but, the second time, we don’t let it bother us? It can be felt in varying degrees in many situations. Sometimes we’ve learned and aren’t bothered anymore. Sometimes we’re just better rested, or less stressed, so it doesn’t get to us. We become more an observer of what is happening, rather than being entangled in the emotions of the events. These reactions may be mostly automatic, but this is another aspect that we can increase our conscious awareness about. When we do, we can stay neutral even in complex, emotional situations, which is better for us and anyone involved. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: The sleep dream got really interesting because it threw it into a whole other curve of putting me into an absentee state from everything.

In other words, in this dream, I am introduced to be a person who has no idea of what is happening, and, thus, I am not biased by what is taking place in front of me because I have not noticed, or have anything to do with, what is happening. 

This is an interesting position to be in. I’m introduced this way, I keep my mouth shut, but, technically, as a witness, I am seeing the distinction to being able to be totally let go and free, because then I see that I’m not defined in some capacity or another, and am able to move about and appreciate the overallness by not being caught up and having to go around this way, or that, with some posture or another. 

Thus, what I see, and how I am able to come across, has a freedom that is able to open up to the in-breath. Otherwise, you’re just caught in the out-breath of things that are definitional. 

And the significance is, this is a dream about being able to let go of inhibitions and prejudgments, and, in doing so, in other words, this is a higher octave of the meditation dream in terms of using it. In other words, the meditation dream was the thrashing around. And the octave of being able to function in a world that has all this stuff going on, and able to let go of the types of inhibitions that one could possibly take on this way or that, or prejudgments that one could have this way or that, is the ability to accept the world as is.

To be able to do that enables a person to access a greater depth and freedom within, and to do so without having to go at this in some sort of confined, or defined, or oriented way to some sort of out-breath demeanor that biases the perceptions. 

So that’s the significance, and what is going on is I am describing the means of being able to witness and take in a larger perspective in life – than ordinarily possible – because I am not caught up in the situation before me, beforehand. 

Deeper meaning is, the key to experiencing the expansiveness of an in-breath is to be not lost in some out-breath abstraction. I am in the outer, but that doesn’t mean I have to submit to outer identifications for my reality. To be able to let go of such abstractions is to have an inner connectedness and overall spaciality that definitions preclude.

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We can drive for 10 minutes and hardly see our surroundings. We can be in a conversation and have no idea what was said. We are not always fully present, we are not always conscious of what we are doing. When people talk about awakening consciousness, one aspect of it is this: to be present and in the moment, to be aware of what is happening and what we are doing, to be available and in the flow of things. So, being in the flow isn’t a “whatever” state, it is an actively alert state that is sensitive to the movement of energies at a personal level, a local environmental level, and, sometimes at a planetary and a universal level. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In my sleep dream, even though I didn’t have the best memory, so to speak, because it was more or less a banging around to get to the meditation aspect of a process that was skewered, the sleep dream drilled down on it. And, again, I almost lost the sleep dream. 

And so, in the next dream, I am shown that things can’t move too fast or there will be collateral damage. Now, what’s interesting is I figured this out before the dream popped in. In the dream, I’m assisting a person who is adjusting something.

In other words, he’s got his screwdriver out, he’s fixing it, he’s the repairman. And there are three kinds of regulator screws that are involved in putting this back together, or fixing it, in some fashion. And one of them he drops, but he is able to find it right away and put things back in place. So it’s okay. 

And then two other screws fall. And my attention is such that I can see where they went flying. And not only do I find each of those screws, but I find this lockdown washer that tightens, too. All of them fly out into the grass. And my attention seems to block really quickly with my eyes, and I’m able to detect where each of them went – because one little deviation and I would have lost it because they’d just become invisible in the grass, ordinarily – they’re just small screws. 

So I pick those up, and it’s about that time that the main guy, and I’m just the assistant, decides it’s time for a break, we’ll come back and finish it. And not much to finish, the bulk of the work has been done. So it’s time to take kind of a break and then just kind of tally the whole thing up. 

So I’m holding these screws in what turns out to be a greasy hand, when all of a sudden, the time comes, I open my hand, and they’re not there. The only consolation I have is that when these screws went flying, I got a really good look at them in terms of remembering. Ordinarily, that’s not the case, ordinarily, I don’t carry that kind of focus. This time I have enough focus, so if I were to go to a hardware store, I would know what screws to get to replace them. 

But that, again, is going to take time. Again, it’s a regulator thing in terms of going at a particular pace. And then in order to help see that, there is a little flash image, like a closing image, in which there are people, it’s like maybe you could say it’s a type of American Idol. And they’re coming out, and they’re receiving their acknowledgement. And then, finally, at the very end, there’s a last batch that comes out. They’re kind of swept in, but they’re in the last batch.

And they don’t say much to this last batch, they’re kind of like accommodated in some fashion, as if they are generic, but they’re recognized for whatever reasons, but nothing that is really specifically identified. 

So that image is thrown into this whole thing. And the meaning of all of that is: I can try as I might, but I am still going to screw up. But, because I try, I have a focus and attention that will keep me on the path, even though the accommodation for me, in this sort of category of things, is of a generic otherness.

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