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OumDo we realize that we are energy processing beings? If we feel restless it is because we have energy that needs to be expended. If we have anger or other emotions, those are energies that are in a state of being processed. And when we have a hard time of it, it’s because we are unable to process the energy quickly enough to prevent it from becoming toxic to our system. It’s not a mystery, it’s the way it works. When we are healthy and rested, we process energy better. And, best of all, when we are conscious of this process in us, our systems can work even more efficiently on our behalf. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: I’m looking at what is a kind of evolvement in which there are aspects of kundalini. And I started off exclusively looking at it from the masculine standpoint, and then it flips to the octave of the feminine. But the subject is perceived from the standpoint of the other side. Kundalini energy perceived from the perspective of the other side.

And so my meditation dream involved the schematic as being impressed upon a sense of tangible experienciality, that was before me, as a condition, but not quite reachable; in other words, it’s off the ground. Or, in another way of saying it, it’s like an image that I’m seeing myself that is inside a container, and I am outside, or not able to touch this state. 

I’m trying to contend with everything therein that is going around and around, and I am unable to touch this to cause it to be still. Consequently, because I am unable to quite reach and touch the projected outerness, that would be still if it was pulled together, by being in-between like that, my kundalini energy is racing, and I am unable to shut off this synaptic-ness.

The way you could recreate this, in this kind of effect in a physical way, is if you take magnets that oppose each other, like a type of opposing of each other, they really attract, but that requires another flip at something. If you take two magnets that have a like kind of vibration, they tend to push each other apart, and that is a reactive zone that’s pushing like that. They really attract.

And so there’s always the apprehension of something more. And then there’s that repeller, and then you end up with going through, when you’re experiencing it in an outer way, you’re going through repeats and repeats and repeats of patterns, as you’re continually trying to break this trance – because there is a wholeness; we are all same same. There is just a One Being, and you pull the likenesses together; the magnets are pushing, trying to keep it separate. You gotta break that, and that’s breaking the kundalini entrapment.

So because I am unable to quite reach and touch an outerness to be still, my kundalini energy races and I’m unable to shut off this synaptic-ness, because you’re striving to have the likenesses. It’s an awkward way because it’s the condition of manifestation to have something set up that way. To not be able to stop, and be still, is to be restless.

This is more or less a description of how the masculine struggles to bring things all the way through. They run into that. And the feminine pulls something. So the masculine energy is like an “I need” energy, and the feminine energy is like an “I want” where it pulls something. Again, as if there is an opposite between masculine and feminine, and thus a magnetism. So when something is seeking to absorb, it’s an “I need.”

So, because I am unable to ground what lies as an image before me, my efforts to touch the reflectiveness so it will go – poof! – into a letting-go stillness, is a bewildering state. You’re ever so close, yet just out of reach sensation is the effect of kundalini racing.

The stillness is to stop, or go through, to let go to hit the stillness of this outer condition, that’s reflective, where there is that zone in-between. And that, to do so, is a letting go that is naturally quiet and still. For me to meditate is to be able to come to an inner stillness. That’s transcendent energy.

So, as a raciness inside that is just there, which was the scenario when I sat down to meditate, is to be caught up by an energetic, and from the perspective of focus, thus, unable to be quiet, unable to be still, unable to dream.

So it’s interesting, the idea of letting go leads to the quietness and the stillness because you you take in, or you absorb, something comes together there instead of repelling and creating this peculiar thing –  and that condition is kundalini, it’s a power there and you pull it together. It’s pulled together as the masculine is trying to come down, and it’s pulling together as the feminine pulls something in.

To be swept up energetically, yet unable to bring the energy into a reflective dream, is a condition the masculine complains about it when it knows it dreamt but isn’t able to pull out the dream when it opens its eyes. This is the want, and the need therein is to be grounded. And the feminine is to pull it to a closeness, i.e., to bring the transcendent vibration into an immanence.

So you have the subjective, embedded knowingness that isn’t quite accessible, because getting it to come out requires almost like an objective something occurring. And the objective something has to occur in order in order to see the subjective embedded knowingness.

And, to repeat, the energetic out-of-reachness is the condition more prominently experienced by a masculine trying to come down in an attempt to be complete. And the mood and subjective rootedness is the condition more prominently aspected by the feminine unable to break free – so she longs to be free.

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i0032sWe associate relaxation, and vacations, and the beach with being in the south. It seems as if things are easier there. And our dream images can reflect this, too. Here we have an image of heading into the cold, up a mountain, where it’s harsher. Yet it’s also a place where fewer people have made the effort to journey. This is the story of a spiritual life, where we must go, inside, to a place where few people have consciously chosen to aspire, but where the experience is magnificent. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: In the next dream, I seem to be joining a group of people who are going on some kind of a trek and this involves going up into the mountain, and there’s snow and ice, and two or three of us finally make it up to like this ice cave.

There’s some people that have gone in ahead of us, and there’s the guide, and when we make it up kind of crawl up into this ice cave. And you almost feel like there’s no going back; you know, we’re going to have to continue the trek. But there may be people that don’t make it that far, too.

I feel like I’m excited about going on this trek, but that’s really all I remember of the dream. It’s almost like there’s no going back at one point. And I’m glad we’ve made it to the takeoff point where we are.

John: It’s an interesting way of trying to catch up with a quality of a vibration. In other words, it’s kind of like kind of like being introduced to a type of letting go, and, at the same time going in the direction of a kind of spiritual inner North inside of yourself, where it’s cold and the conditions are harsh.

And yet there is something there, even though it may seem more barren. Barren on one level, but relieving on another. So what you’re doing is you’re trying to find what that feels like. In other words, you’re trying to come close to that quality, to soak up that quality, in kind of an inner vibration.

In the South, things are comfortable, and your senses are quickened to all kinds of things. When you go to the North, there’s actually more going on, in one regard, especially if you looked at it in nature. But it’s at a depth within.

This is hard to describe, other than to maybe compare the traits of North and South, as they are in nature. In a southern slope, for example, which gets the sun, that condition is never as fertile, it’s a little more barren; always is a little bit more barren. It’s almost as if something isn’t quite protected, or fully properly embraced, or something. It’s like something is a little too harsh, transcendent, or something.

And that the importance of the evening, to the South, is where you get your dew, and something really sweet that can descend. Harder, of course, when the conditions of something of a fire energy so prevalently prevail.

Now, the experience, again in nature, of the North side is quite different and profound, in that the trees grow much, much better there. They’re more protected. They that’s where the water source is hidden, it’s latent. Everyone likes the feel of the wide open spaces of the South. Yet, in the North, it’s a greater closeness.

Those who are in the business, we’ll say, of husbandry, which is growing trees, timber business, know the value of northern slopes: that’s where the trees are the best. They also know, that from the perspective of man selecting things for himself, the South is what is chosen. You have your better views, seemingly, there. But the nurturing, the uplifting, comes from the North.

And so even in nature you have this whole imagery of going to the spiritual North. North is going to the spiritual side, and South is going more out into the outer of things. And so when you’re going into the ice caves, and you’re trekking, it’s an interesting compacted effect, in which the quality of the sun, and its overall transcendence, it’s not an overriding condition. And it’s really neat, too, in that there’s such a stillness in it. Even in the full daytime of things you can find a stillness, in nature, on a North slope – much more so than on a South slope.

Somehow or another, what you’re doing is you’re seemingly needing to bring to your attention something really, really deep last night that was operating on a level that was not apparent, in terms of dreams, that was kind of a training, or a teaching, a kind of adab kind of teaching where one is meant to come closer to the subtler levels, as if there is a system, so to speak, on an inner level, to the letting go.

And so you are being shown this quality, only you’re being shown it in terms of ice, a way of going and looking at that. In other words, there’s an impingement in there that is for you to see. It’s the going to kind of a North side of yourself, but still doing it with an aspect of putting yourself into things. And yet, somehow you’re meant to see the difference. You have to see it that way.

In your case, how do you experience the essence of the ice cave? You’re kind of doing an interesting tandem: the ice cave and the spiritual North simultaneously. It’s a tiny, subtle alignment that’s required.

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d616We live in a world that makes it very easy for us to take our life for granted, to think that there is nothing special about us or our possibility. But if we could see ourselves from the perspective of any other living being in the universe – flora, fauna, energetic entity – we would understand that we are royalty among all things. We have the greatest gifts and abilities, and, on this planet, we are only at the very beginning of that possibility. The universe awaits us to take up this crown, and the responsibility and service that comes with great power, and lead the way into the future of the universe. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Well, my first dream ended up being more of a strange experience, in that you and I were doing something, talking and doing something, and I was very involved in it.

And then you came to bed. And when you came to bed, I realized that whatever we were talking about or doing wasn’t real, that I must have been dreaming, but it was much realer to me than the sleeping, you know what I mean?

So it was like I was in this state of shock that it wasn’t real, and that I was actually in bed and I was actually dreaming. And so I don’t remember what the dream was because I was so shocked that that wasn’t the reality.

John: We’ve been doing a little bit of that, and it’s kind of increasing in crescendo, and I was told what that was in my sleep. Let’s see what the word is; it’s two words.

It’s a quality that has to be brought out into the outer, or retained. In other words, you hold that and bring that out into a knowingness. And that which you bring out, which is like the lucid state of the soul inside that creates the reflective dreams, and the ability to hold on to that, to pull out the amnesia, to go outside of the veil – normally you have a veil of something that kind of is your mood, or trait, or whatever that holds something in check, you know, just literally said in a point blank way, sounds like the ego.

But it is the trait referred to as catching up with what is, inside of oneself, the place that’s called born noble. Born noble. And one of the things that has been kind of constantly theming is a type of revelation, that is becoming more and more readily seeable, is the nobility of things, the more noble aspect in each human being.

And that opens up, that is the state that is behind, as a quality of essence or beingness, is behind every person. This quality in which they are connected to this emptiness, or space, within, which is who they really are. Or, to go into that, outside of the veils, outside of the mood, outside of an ego, is to go into the born-noble quality.

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