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We’ve all heard about houses having panic rooms, or of people running to the basement during a tornado, but we are mobile creatures and what befalls us doesn’t always happen in our homes. So, where is our safe space then? The only possible answer is inside. And what makes that space safe? We make our inner space safe by determining, consciously, who we are, by choosing the fundamental principles that we will uphold in the face of any challenge, by knowing what is truly important to us. We may be born with these inklings, we may be taught some of them, but until we, ourselves, consciously choose them, we will not even be safe to ourselves. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Last night dreaming and meditating was all about a connection, like a stillness connection, that was reaching for my attention. In other words, instead of me going into a stillness, the stillness was coming out.

If what is going on in the outer doesn’t have any way of feeding something, or being in a particular way that is meaningful, I can easily drift to this stillness space. In other words, because the stillness has come out, I can easily to go back to it. 

Apparently, I have established a recognition to this part of myself that is not as apparent. It’s not as affected. It’s not as affected in terms of what is going on in the outer. It’s not able to touch me like it normally does because this stillness is able to engulf the outer whims of things. 

Consequently, I have developed a proclivity to drown projected images that waft in between the all-engulfing stillness and the outer magnetism. I can drown them back and forth. I can go back and forth, I can drown them now. Which means I just kind of slip into a deeper stillness, or a letting-go into this state has become more natural for me than it is for the average person who is affected and haunted by outer projections that terrorize an inner aloneness that extends from an all-pervasive wholeness. 

So, in other words, it’s like what flickers, the Bardo stuff that flickers, it’s not like that flickering world is where one sits then and tries to look at that, and tries to go back through that, and finds the stillness behind it. It’s not like that’s in-between anymore. It’s like coming out of the stillness, going into that, and then from that into the waking world, now.

In other words, the process has become reversed. It’s not finding a remembrance, it’s coming from a remembrance into the flickering of things. The whole process is getting reversed, it’s like it’s tipped. It’s gone over the threshold, or something. 

And so, as a consequence, I can actually say things about things. But nobody really understands it because, when I say things about things – I can see this happening now – I can say things about things, but when I say things about things, deep down, where I’m at, has a slant to the other side. As opposed to saying things now that has a slant towards that side. Now it’s from the other side. That’s different.

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Sometimes we can be the script writer for our own disaster movie. Our fears, worries, obsessions all are generations of energy in our bodily systems, radiating out from our brain. These energies circle around our energetic aura, which is the sealed bubble in which we live. Over time, the energies that occupy that bubble, that are generated and produced by us, can have an effect on cellular formation and genetic replication. As it has been said, we become what we think about. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Well, since I’ve had this bad cough it’s interfered with my being able to really go deeply in meditation. And it seems to have disrupted my dreaming a little bit, too.

And all I remember of my dream last night is it felt like, because I’d watched some disaster movie, then my dream was about a disaster where there were shifts in the earth. And I’d been called to become part of a group that was going to work, we’d go sit in a circle, and we’d be consulting about what we’re going to do to help with the changes during the disaster. 

So I’ve gone to this building, I note that one of the people that’s supposed to be there hasn’t arrived for the meeting. There’s a sheriff at the meeting; there’s other types of officials. I notice that someone is pleased that I actually know the name of someone who isn’t there – he’s the son of someone I knew in high school that is going to participate because he’s part of the local community. So even though he’s not there, I seem to know his name. And I’m still trying to figure out what people’s roles are, so I’m being a little quieter.

But I’m also realizing that there’s some disagreement, or maybe what I’d call lack of awareness, among people about like, during a disaster, that there’s going to be movements of the earth that disrupt people being able to communicate with each other. And some people think that’s minimal and are ignoring it and not planning for it. And other people seem to have some awareness of it, but they think it’s going to be more controlled or manageable, like it is in the movies. 

And I’m kind of sitting there and thinking, you know, they just really have no idea because that will be a major disruption to even being able to meet. And I seem to want to go out and explore that a little; I want to actually go out and look and see how much disruption there is to the travel and communication with whatever disaster is going on. And that’s the main dream. 

John: It’s like a type of flickering back and forth, too, only in this particular instance it’s kind of like you’re carrying some sort of answer, or question, rather, a question in terms of this or that. 

I can’t help but octave and wonder what it would be like if your sense of looking at what’s going on here was such that you couldn’t really make any significant identification. So, in other words, you’re still trying to identify and rationalize in something, but what if you can’t make any strong identifications of this having some sort of significance in terms of what something is going to be like, or whatever? 

What would that be like? Would you suddenly then be able to let go of a certain way that something is intensified in terms of having to unfold? And, by letting go, would you thus be able to take on a greater overallness, or wholeness to things, as opposed to the commotion of stuff that’s going on, the antics of stuff that’s going on? 

So it looks like you’re playing on some sort of margin of which, you might say, you have the question, and then you have the 60%-70% margin of whatever it is, that’s propounded out there for you to be looking at in terms of paying attention to. And another way of saying it is that I can’t help but wonder how you would ponder this if it was flipped the other way? And that what’s going on out here is like 40%. And what’s going on inside it’s like 60% or 70%. And that you realize that attention, too much dwelling on stuff out here goes nowhere. If anything, it tears something down. It helps to perpetuate a fabrication of something that isn’t properly balanced or correlated to what is simple on the inside, which is just the stillness, just a real interesting quietness. 

But the word stillness doesn’t quite catch it. It’s a peacefulness. And the peacefulness doesn’t quite catch it because what it really kind of is, it’s as if what’s going on in the outer is some aspect of something that has gotten detoured, or lost, that’s broken away from the whole, that’s gotten misaligned. 

And so it’s like a disease in the body’s soul, and that it has a way of being infected and staying infected, and infecting at the same time, but this is only so when the attention is placed upon the disease. If you took the attention off of the disease, everything goes into kind of a very soothing state. The disease is a manufactured fabrication of a tone, or a mood, in which something is scrambling to get its act back together or something. 

And so as long as one’s attention has to be so much so in terms of the outer and what is going on in its whiplashing this way, and that way, and that predominates, then, how do you keep from always contending with some sort of fidgetation game? Because if you’re kind of coming out of some other deeper place in which none of that exists, this all seems very strange. 

And it seems very surreal. It only seems to be possible when you imagine it to be so. And we imagine it to be so with our kind of neurotic mannerisms or whatever that we buy into, so much of the time, that it’s the other that is strange to us, it’s the other than is foreign to us. And that this seems quite common to us. 

We’re meant to be connected to this other, and to bring this other in, and through, in terms of what is real, and we’re not doing it because we’re caught up in this deviation.

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It is easy to dismiss things from our lives, and we do so for many reasons: lack of interest, lack of time, outside pressure, etc. But one of the worst offenders is pre-judgment, when we think we know, or understand, something and close ourselves off from further exploration. If we understand that we are constantly changing, and things themselves are constantly changing, we will realize that often we dismiss something because the timing isn’t right, not because the subject has no place in our life. So, it is wise to learn to look anew at the experiences and possibilities that we come across. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: A second image is I also am seeing that I own a lot of land, in other words, as an inclusiveness in an area, but I hadn’t noticed as existing before. I hadn’t noticed that in this area there is property that is part of this estate that I haven’t placed my attention upon, or hadn’t noticed – and I’m now suddenly able to kind of see it for the first time. 

And it’s about 80 acres. And I’m in shock, because I was sure that the property area that I am in, I’ve taken into account everything that exists here. How could there be more, because this property goes right up to the water, and yet, this acreage suddenly has like a peninsula, or a quasi-island or something that has emerged that’s about 80 acres that is in this area – instead of it just being conscious as water?

So, in noticing this, I need to see this for myself because maybe this is property that was ignored by me before because I had come to the conclusion that it wasn’t important, or was inaccessible, or not occupiable. Could I have been wrong? Or is there something more going on? 

So, then, to sum all of this up, in terms of both images, what is going on is, I am looking at these two dream images as an aspect of self-examination to see if I have been selling myself short with conceptions that have veiled me off from aspects of life I have summarily dismissed to be unimportant, or limiting in some capacity, based upon my perceptive conceptualization.

I have come to know of the existence of these areas as being something others are taking in to be important. So the question I have is, is that something I should look at? If not, why not? And the issue is, by ignoring this sort of beingness am I veiling myself from a greater overallness I have inadvertently shut off? And further, has what I have stepped away from resulted in a veiling off a frame of reference important to life, or is it an extraneousness, which is kind of what you might say, I think, sort of contending it to be?

The meaning is, to answer the questions I posed in what is going on, I am reviewing what is important in life in terms of interconnection, and intertwining, keeping in mind that the perspective has to be to a greater outer able to reveal a greater inner.

I do not want to be an insular person cut off from what is important to a greater beingness of the soul. So, in the meditation dream, I am wondering if I am inadvertently taking myself away from a bigger picture, or, you might say, a frame of reference I’m vicariously connected with unbeknownst to myself. And to cut myself off from it, or to dismiss it, am I deceiving myself by not taking this into proper consideration? 

And, in the dream, I’m realizing that one needs to be careful to not cut off aspects of life in a bigger picture. And so the meaning is, the dream is not saying that I have to be this way or that in terms of a possessory identity. In fact, any identity is a problem. Instead, the dream is saying that there is a greater identity in the overallness that I am not appreciating, or catching up with.

And I’m using the word identity even though it’s a stigma-fied word to mean that there is something so, so much more in an overallness, or of a let-go overallness, because it appears that I’m being asked to witness more, and, in doing so, denote a much greater consciousness than I had realized that exists, and this exists in terms of the inner coming into the outer.

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