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4rigHere is a very clear example of how our inner psychologies operate. The dream image shows the dreamer in the basement, the depths of himself, where there are zombie-like creatures. After making a breakthrough to open a window and bring in the purity of snow and young children, the reaction of the zombies is such that the dreamer reseals the barrier and shuts out the young, more pure energy. And so it is with the traumas we repress: we may think we are ready to face them, but it can often take a few approaches to succeed because what is repressed has its own fears. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: I feel like the dreams we had last night were pretty much kind of a direct breakthrough to things. I’ve been struggling for quite some time, in terms of my meditation dream going anywhere, because there was some big dampening effect that kept the flow from going through. But this time something changed.

In the meditation dream, I am in a basement area of a building. I see myself scaling along the top of the walls. In other words, it’s like a daylight basement kind of thing in which there’s one window that’s at the very top, but the window is closed, meaning there’s a sliding thing that closes the window and there’s vines growing on the inside of it that protect it from being broken into from the outer.

And I’ve seen myself doing this sort of thing before, with a little bit more dexterity at least in the climbing and attempting to stay off the ground, only this time it’s as if I have one arm incapacitated, whether it’s tied behind me or whatever it is, I’m only able to use one arm to try to move about up there, to dig my fingernails in or whatever to climb at this height.

In other words, what I’m doing is hard enough with two arms, but I just have one, and I have to gauge each movement carefully because if I were to slip I would plunge to a great depth below that… well, yeah, I just can’t be doing that. I don’t know whether you plunge to your death, or you lose the position where you’re at, or just what that all means.

I don’t know this at this point in time in the dream, but I come to find this out later, that at the bottom, if I were to fall to the bottom, they’re unconscious at this point: they’re like dense zombie-like creatures. You know, they’re actually kind of like human beings, but in a creature mode, and they are trapped in the darkness of this room. I do not notice them because, like I say, I am placing my attention at scaling along the wall.

Apparently they do not feel it is worth their time to pay any attention to me either, or that I am no threat to their well being, because I’m not going anywhere. And I come to a point where I’m kind of at a corner, and across the way a wall, in which there is a closed window that’s slid shut, you know, like boarded up even, and there’s vine growing there that helps keep the window from ever being used.

And I can’t reach over there to it, so I’m going to have to leap. And so inside myself I’m gauging whether or not this is going to work, because those vines and various branches and whatnot, and if I do this, will they just break away and down I fall? Will it be able to hold my weight? You know, I’ve only got one shot at this with the one arm, and if that doesn’t hold, and down you go, there’s no way I can try to regrip things, or to get another hold on things with the other arm that’s incapacitated.

And so it’s almost as if I can perceive, even though I haven’t quite done it, that that part won’t hold, but perhaps this main stalk that comes straight across the window that is slid shut, you know, kind of like a side blank thing that keeps even the light out, I suddenly guess that that’s as good as it gets, that’s my best guess. And also it’s the only chance I have.

And this is the only thing that I perceive in the room, in which where I’m at that there is a possibility of trying to get out. So I leap across, grab this vine with my one hand, one arm, the vine bends but doesn’t break and supports my weight. Somehow I am able to steady myself from the effect, from the leap, and I’m not sure quite how I do this, but I’m able to slide, whether I’m using my head or just how I’m doing this or shoulder or something, I’m able to slide the window door open. And I’m able to somehow or another steady myself in a way so that I’m able to reach out and pull the cold snow that’s piled up on the outside into the room.

And so this cold snow falling down below is what awakens this ghoulishness down below, because they’re fearful of something now. And yet, in doing this, I’m seeking to extricate myself. As I pull the snow down so that one can possibly crawl out into the outer on the outside, suddenly there are these naughty kids who want to get inside. But until this happened, they couldn’t figure out how.

And then when I pulled the snow inside I reveal them on the outside, and then there’s the exposure to that which is inside the room, which emanates as a loud groan from the ghoulish creatures below over what I’ve done. These kids seemed to know about these creatures and are interested in coming from the outer to where they’re at, in other words, to torment them or something. That’s the view anyway of the ghoulish creatures, but these are kids that don’t have their best interest in mind.

I climb out and do my best to honor the wishes of these ghoulish creatures that are moaning inside as I close the window, and reseal it, so these kids can’t get in. The kids step back watching me because I am of no interest to them. In other words, they’re sport is just to terrorize the ghoulish creatures in the room, or to come to where they can play with them or whatever it is that these kids are up to doing. In my particular case, they don’t affect me so I have no trouble crawling out and stepping back and then resealing the window.

Well, the meaning is that the ghoulish creatures represent the repressed aspects in the solar plexus, or the gut, in the area called the Hara center of a human being’s energetic makeup. The ghoulish creatures represent this. In other words, it’s hidden, it’s in a darkness, it’s in the depths below, and it is something that you have to contend with. And if you don’t contend with this quality that’s hidden, and repressed, and been there for a lifetime, you can’t go beyond a physical condition bondage.

A human being must find the emptiness of this illusionary state of physical being, and of course to do that you have to face it. And you also have to contend with the emptiness of a merging heart that exudes love and a transcendent overallness in which an empty space exists with other levels that take in all there is.

In other words, thus the whole process penetrates the distance of time and space. So this is an image of rising from my seemingly hopeless conditions to a freedom not deemed possible given the circumstances that I was in. It is only when I broke through the barrier that I realized the incredible illusionary bondage of my situation. And so I’m sitting, you know, as I’m resealing the window so that the kids that are probably well meaning and just playing, but to honor the Hara center inside that maintains the outerism of, the outer quality of time and space, I come to the conclusion that those ghoulish creatures I need to honor their wishes. I can’t do anything about them if they’re not interested in making a change.

So to honor their request to remain pent up in a permanently long-lasting Hara center way, I reseal the barrier as I have climbed through. So the potentiality for those who wish to yearn and seek is revealed, but in doing so there’s more that needs to be taken into account. In other words, one has to contend with the fear of change and exposure.

I know the kids and their playful human nature means no harm. They are just being kids enjoying their play, which is something I can’t tell to my physical psyche that is steeped with a repressed hiddenness it elects for itself. The self cannot get to a no-self, a dying before you die, as long as a Hara condition presides.

Significance: This is one of the loudest dream images I have ever had, and the image describes the plight I am in. The images indicated that even when I reach the emptiness of the greater overallness an emptiness of a heart center, in which love exudes, there is still the need to absorb the Hara center of my physical beingness. There may be transitioning that occurs, but this is not the same as reaching the station of absolute consciousness.

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ur-absIn this dream image we see a coach who is training the dreamer, and we also see the dreamer being asked to coach someone else. In the world of our dreams, because we are all the characters that populate the dream images, this shows how the unconscious tries to awaken and incorporate aspects of our inner lives that are at different levels of development and different levels of hiddenness. A spiritual journey must incorporate the whole of us, with no parts left behind. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So in the second dream it feels like I’m in high school, but at night I go out and I train with a coach, and I’m training in a particular way. And he has other people that help him, like there’s this one bus driver that kind of is in a bus or some kind of a vehicle that’s parked near a curb at night, and it’s a tall curb, and I go down and I lay down below the curb and there’s some structure they’re teaching me how to climb around, or get out of or, you know, develop a certain strength from dealing with.

And so he has other people at certain areas around town at night that are helping me with this training that I’m going through, and something that I’m building up from doing the training. But then at some point he wants me to help train this high school kid also, or train others, and the problem is the high school kid is pursuing me and kind of trying to dominate, or chase me, as opposed to be focused on what the purpose of our training is.

So this creates a dilemma for me because, on the one hand, the coach wants me to be training him, and on the other hand it’s like you’re training somebody who’s pursing you in a way you don’t want to be pursued. And so it’s really frustrating for me, in that way, because I feel a little caught in this dilemma and it interferes at times with the training, or what I feel that I can do.

I even go back at some point in this dream and I’m examining the prior dream, and I’m looking at the white cap but I’m also looking at like I feel like they got stuck in that dream in terms of what they were able to do. In this dream, whatever I’m able to do, or not able to do, gets represented by a black cap that at least has a certain vitality. And it’s again an animal of some kind that is kind of like wooly and you wear it on your head, but it’s black this time instead of white.

And I do feel like it goes a little further in terms of being able to accomplish its mission in the world, but it really feels like I’m looking at both and not satisfied with either.

John: So, in this dream, the outer world, the world in which your senses and the world in which you have to cope in as best you can, that is the external world, that is the collective, is represented by the high school.

And then the teaching that is awakening at night, on the inner level, on a higher-self level, on a level that is awakening in some small aspect, is causing you, is enabling you, to make a transformative step away from the day-to-day.

In other words, that is causing something to find motion and clarity from the usual collective. Well, the problem, or the issue, is, like I said at the very end of your last dream, that transformation is not where it is really at. In other words, it’s not like making a better widget, or making a better person.

You have to hit an absoluteness of clarity of beingness, that is an emptiness, that isn’t affected by conditions of closed heart, or conditions of not being able to experience through you the greater expansiveness of all of the various levels that you are meant to have access to, which tends to be ignored by many teachers the understanding that there is this, in the gut, Hara center of your nature, which needles away at you so that even though you had created a bit of transformation in terms of what was going on in terms of this night class or whatever that you were taking, in order for that to be meaningful, in other words to get to something that was more than just a temporal transformation and then you would fall back based upon the pent-up Hara center of your nature, you have to go back, and you have to contend with the loudness inside of yourself that creates the confusion and creates the blur, which is in the outer, which is in the day-to-day.

And in going back to that, you go back to a particular loudness, or characteristic, or quality that you need to get beyond – and that is represented by this one particular student that you’re directed to bring across. And that one student represents a Hara-center quality that is repressed, and has a fluctuating dynamic, that keeps you from going to more than just a temporal transformative energetic vibration. It keeps you from reaching the wholeness.

And so you’re meant to deal with that. And so, in dealing with that, you are finding that this particular thing, this particular Hara quality, that’s repressed, suppressed, unconscious in your nature, is casting out images in which it is in some sense pursuing you or, in other words, the confusion that you have, in terms of being able to incorporate an emptiness that goes to this area as well, in the physical, is that there is this quality within – on the physical repressed level, or the Hara center – that’s in the gut, that carries and holds onto things that have been pent up and stored there over lifetimes. You’re having to break the spellbinding illusion of that because it’s effect upon you has created a defensive blur in which you see it, instead of something that can be absorbed and redeemed, you see it as something that in terms of trying to contend with it, it is stirring up your well being. It is pursuing you instead of being properly accessed and absorbed.

So, the difference between this dream and the first dream, is that in this dream you are trying to do it in a feminine way, thus the black hat. In the first dream you were trying to do it in a masculine way, the white hat.

In the first dream you were trying to come across with an effect with the diplomat that caused a bringing together of things, a closeness of things, plus dealing with peculiarities that are pent up in the Hara center of things. You were trying to address that in a direct way, that had to do, then, with opening up things so that the whole embassy effect, or the overallness, was there in its emptiness as well so that you would have a completeness in these three areas, we’ll call them, of wholeness.

In the second dream you were using the principle of the feminine energy to try to contend, to try to be surrendered, to dealing with something that is affecting your nature of being. In other words, it’s like you have had these insights, epiphanies, inflections inside of yourself to what a greater closeness is supposed to kind of be like, theoretically speaking, when it’s blurred by a Hara center, so that it is conditional to the Hara center. And you’re not going to have the greater transcendent quality that is offered in the teaching, in the connection that you’re having, within, at night, on the various levels – unless you are able to take all of this into the outer.

And the outer, in this particular case, is the high school, which is the school of where the real teaching is yet to be done in terms of the Hara center that has to either lived out, which will take forever, and isn’t the way to get to a transformation that leads to an absolute state of being. You’re not able to make it whole, or make it constant, or make it real unless you take and contend with that.

And so, in your dream, you were dealing with an aspect of something that had a particular definitional mannerism to it that is an illusion that you keep purporting as a kind of spell that you place upon yourself, that is the echo coming out of this unconscious state that is there having developed over millennia of time, and it is represented by the energetic and vibration of this student that is in the outer, basically, this thought seed or quality that is you in a physical sense, that as long as that continues the duality continues, because this will keep coming up to blur the potentiality.

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i9999esIt’s not easy to see the things that resist us as we try to make progress on our path. Yet what we discover is that we end up fighting the prints and patterns that our systems developed in our early years as a way of managing the absurdity of life. Those are strong prints, and the way they served us all those years ago has now become a hindrance to our freedom to let go and to be with something greater. That’s why we progress in small increments of recognizing and letting go as we proceed. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Well, in my first dream I seem to be a therapist. I work with diplomats, and I’m trying to work with a family of a particular diplomat. And I work with him in two ways, one is I seem to go into wherever the embassy is and I’m trying to work with him and people from other countries from the Middle East.

But the problem there is that they don’t always want to speak to women so that you’re kind of blocked in how you can interact with anyone. Plus he seems resistant to the whole fact of getting counseling anyway.

And then I go to work with him at home with his family, except the problem there is something’s happened so that the house is no longer safe; something political has happened. And the family has moved to the second floor of the house, but it seems like they can’t go down to the first floor.

So I have to find a way to get into the second floor of the house to work with them. And he’s still resistant, but his wife or the rest of the family is around, and they seem willing, and it feels like I am trying to find some way of breaking through so that I can talk to all the people involved, including people from other countries and such when I’m at the Embassy, as well as with him and his family.

Although I have to find some way to get into through the window of the second story of the house to do that, which I do, plus I have sometimes questionnaires that I wanted him to fill out that he doesn’t want to fill out. So it’s not really easy, but whatever does occur finally gets represented by this cap. It’s reduced down to a white cap that someone can wear, and the white cap looks like a very soft animal cap, almost like an ermine or something, or it’s wooly, you know, but it’s more like an animal shape and head.

But I don’t really feel that’s gone that well. You know, it’s almost like there were too many blocks to what one was trying to accomplish, especially when people, you know, like even when you’d go to where the embassy was and the diplomats and the people from some countries don’t want to talk to a woman, so there’s only so much you can do. So that was kind of my block on the first dream.

John: What you’re doing is you’re looking at the limitations and, of course, when you look at the limitations that also means you’re looking at the effectiveness of how it is that your overall spatial presence, and nature, is doing in relationship to affecting a clarity that is to be carried as a natural quality, and penetrative beingness, in your nature.

And so what you’re seeing is you’re seeing part of yourself having to exude into a greater overall station, and state, if it is able to reach a particular diplomat part of yourself that seems kind of singular and uneventful in and of itself, but will have an effect that is pervasive on many, many levels.

In other words, it’s not just this diplomat, but it becomes the embassy, and the whole process of what is kind of recognition, realization, and coming together is all about. So to the degree that it affects the overall embassy that’s a transcendent or transformative overall effect.

To the degree that you’re able to reach the diplomat in a way so that he can come to understand something, to the way you’re able to access through a connectiveness that touches the higher state of it all, this pulls together something that is separate. In other words, this leads to a closeness.

And the diplomat, that is being treated as something that is in the outer, in other words, there’s three aspects here, is the third aspect. The first aspect is the transcendent, the aspect of energy that affects and goes into and awakens the agency of it all.

The second is a closeness that is needed to get something to come through, which is from an emptiness of the heart. And the third, the ability to catch up with the agent, and the fact that the agent is perceived to be something separate from yourself in the dream is an exemplification of that which is on the Hara level, or in the gut. In other words, that’s where something is so repressed and needs to be brought out into the open, that its influence, when suppressed, when regressed like this in one’s nature, its effect and influence from this unconscious state continues to precipitate the energetic quality of there being a separate reality – meaning you and what you have to do – and the diplomat that is as if he is something else; the diplomat represents this repressed Hara state in your nature.

In other words, what you dreamt took into account there being an emptiness space that had to be reached in both the greater overallness, or transcendent side of one’s nature, that permeates through all of life through the heartfulness that has to do with a connective clarity and emerging, and through the ability to absorb the signature traits of the soul that has gone off into the way that it goes off into trying to make the best of living in a world of denseness, being a quality of physical manifestation, in terms of its external aspects that seem everywhere, and a time orientation that seems to keep one in a spell.

The signature quality of one’s nature, this being the person that you’re meant to reach, the diplomat, that is the illusion that comes up from the gut in terms of the blows and the mannerisms that one has taken in that haven’t been resolved. It’s the physical level. It’s something that is inclined to be mistreated in terms of its importance in a spiritual process of awakening – in which you can have the top-down approach of trying to come from an overallness and expanding the auric presence and sensation awakening to various other realizations of levels within, and doing that in accordance with recognizing that there is a love principle that functions as pulling something into a closeness, that is also part of the overall equation.

But because the outer is technically deemed to be an illusion, a kind of a denser loci to all of that, the tendency is even, though the statement is that one has to keep getting more and more into life, the tendency is that this is more of a pontification or something, not actually something that is truly done, literally done, and yet on a physical level schematic you’re not going to access the Hara center of that which has been pent up from eternities of one’s soul unfoldment, that is pent up and is coming up, and being lived from the gut against one’s will. This stuff keeps surfacing, keeps affecting one. Whether it’s an effect in terms of negative energetics, or wayward emotions, this effect predominates on the physical and effects the way the mind is able to perceive the world. It is there, it predominates, and yet it too has to go away, it has to be let go of, it has to become empty.

So, this little part seems to be where everything keeps getting clamored up. It’s where teacher after teacher take and work with the student and can take and heighten an atmosphere and awareness that can lead to a bit of transformation, that is obvious in terms of the effect and presence that exists, that can quicken something, that can arise up out of the student, but the confusion that predominates comes from this physical element which is rebuked even though one knows that you shouldn’t be rebuking it, you shouldn’t be stiff arming it energetically.

Much like the statement, when it came to Gandhi, he didn’t oppose British rule, he just supported Indian independence. In other words, it wasn’t a matter of fighting something, and because he realized that that tended to predominate, in the gut, the Hara aspect of things, he went to great lengths to try to show that it was a little like a Zen koan. It may not make sense to make a statement that looks like its got a dichotomy like that in it, but you have to actually be that way in order for you to be empty of the effect of this kind of Hara energy that will continue to perpetuate itself in its mannerism, that is on the physical level. And so it doesn’t matter how high the ideals are, if the ideals don’t take into account the way things are in the physical, and somehow rebuff it, or push it off, then something is amiss.

So your dream is dealing with these traits of which, in your dream, you have the embassy, which is the overallness, the transcendent quality, that gets the memo of something when something opens up to the various levels in an empty, open way. You have the diplomat who you have to get closer to in order to effectuate with something of a knowingness to take place. But you have this diplomat as something in the outer, as an image in the outer, that has to be brought into a wholeness, or otherwise the Hara center of that sort of physical beingness continues to predominate.

You have to work with all three, and you have to work with them kind of simultaneously, or otherwise there is a tone, or a mood or, you know, something that sits contradictory to the awakening, that keeps getting in there and nixing things. That is why it’s not about transformation only, it’s about reaching an absolute consciousness or, in other words, a station of things that doesn’t lose it.

It’s like everyone who went to the program experienced transformation, but over the course of them going out into the outer, to what degree is that transformation going to get swallowed up, or impacted, by the Hara center of their nature and its signature effect upon their beingness?

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