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When we say “yes” to something, everything changes. Yes, I’ll take care of it, yes, I can help, yes, I’ll marry you. The acceptance sends us a down a path that continues as long as the “yes” we offered still applies. Our relationship with the physical world is like that: whatever we allow in to capture our attention, sends us off on a different path. The idea of inner stillness is to be in the physical experience, but to not take the detour. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In my meditation dream, I seem to be repeating what I did in another meditation dream, it’s like having to go and take another look at it, or something. And so, because I could sense that it’s like that, I’m going over it as if I can just go over it in my deep meditation, and not have to bring it out and come out with it because it’s just a repeat. 

Nevertheless, somehow or another, I’ve noted before that that’s a poor attitude to take. I have to compel myself reluctantly to come out of this inner world, and hold on to this when I open my eyes, and write it up.

Because even though I know that there is nothing that’s that noteworthy, other than it’s going to be a story of plight, I say this because, in this dream, the commotion I feel upon the heart is correlated to an identification upon the breath. That is intensified when there is an identification from these outer reflective conditions that have me spellbound, or my nature is spellbound. Or, you might say, stem from my being spellbound.

And these spells curse the heart. They hover over the heart, they’re like a pain upon the heart, which I guess you could just say is an identification from the breath. Which, when it hits the heart, limits the wholeness of the heart, the stillness of the heart – so it’s like a sensation of stabbing. 

I know this wouldn’t be so if I were in the all-abiding stillness, but instead, this is my purgatory; I have to contend with some flip-flopping around in the breath. Thus I am out of the stillness and into what is a type of futility, in other words, where things are reflective instead of brought back to a wholeness, or a completeness, or a oneness. And I’m struggling in this, that’s a reflection, as if it’s real. 

Only in a letting go to the stillness do I actually go anywhere. In other words, I just yo-yo in this sort of thing because this is not a depth of realness, of wholeness, completeness, of absoluteness, it’s a bifurcation that haunts me.

So I do my best, in the dream, to accept the fate I know that goes along with a breath projection,

understanding that anything that is caught on the breath is lost in an ever-changing outer, or the purgatory of what appears to be like an outer, which is manufactured based upon projection.

So, in my heart, I am realizing that there is a deeper echo of stillness, which is pleading to not be diluted by a breath because it knows that if I allow the struggle that is in the reflective outer to be there on the breath, vying for the heart, that I will be compromised and end up more or less under a heaviness outside of the stillness, or an exhaustion, even.

So, under the scenario – again, because you go back and forth until you’re worn out – so under the scenario that I am in my heart is heavy from an identification. And so I am in a bifurcation that is upon the breath. I am especially saddened because I know that there is no answer for such a state with its endless hallucinogenic yo-yo reflections.

Because I know better I have no right to pray. Because I know better, I don’t just do that and then go begging for mercy. How can I do that? So I must hope others that are a part of me, do so, as they yearn for the stillness. In other words, because I’m supposed to know better. Their crying out for a letting go is my hope to not be permanently lost within a delusional outer projective neverending spell.

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When we create something, we can say that it is a reflection of what is inside of us. It’s not exactly what is inside of us because it’s not the whole of us. So it reflects just a certain aspect of that whole. A human life is just such a reflection of the whole, but we, having consciousness, can reconnect back to that wholeness while still being only a reflective part. That is the beauty of the human journey and possibility. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, in the meditation dream, I’m confronted with an image of how it is energetically forming in manifestation. By that I mean, I can denote, or recognize, or see that I am like an energetic that sensates, or floats, or hangs with the human body so that there are the outer experiences. And that what I’m really doing is setting up a reflection from a subrogated, inner essence way – that is so much more. 

What I am noticing, that is actually disturbing about all of this, is that the energetic that I see about myself, that it is tied to a heart breath, and it is this heart breath that is the perspective that comes down, or comes out, or hangs out from the all-pervasive stillness that is somewhere else. 

And so, to be speaking about it bluntly, this is kind of the state that exists for a human being’s experientiality, in terms of when the out-breath is astir. In other words, you notice that there’s a substance, then, that is around and about and part of like a journey that vies for the heart, from some sort of projective, or objective even, or whatever you want to call that, that has a density to it, and it can have a lightness to it, it can have all of that because it’s the in-breath and then the out-breath. 

And it’s where and how we are, we are projective, and all levels of beingness, that are in manifestation, exist in the breath, that has come out of a stillness into a flow. 

So, we learn to talk about this play referencing and looking at what’s called Kundalini energy, which is how this bifurcation is described. And you can get into the archetypes and everything else about the Kundalini energy, it’s all an aspect of looking at the compositions of the breath, or the Kundalini energy as denotable on the breath.

And such experiences correspond inflectively, in a back and forth way, because the breath is both out-breath and in-breath. For example, when an ever expansiveness exists from the in-breath, this is like a flip from the contractive outbreath, it’s like flipping it. In other words, it comes down as a contractive out-breath, and then flips to an expansiveness of the in-breath; we go back and forth like this. The correlation in the outer from the in-breath expansiveness is the out-breath’s contraction back into a density. 

This is what happens when you’re out of the stillness. It’s kind of like counter-reflective in-breath. In other words, you can look at the in-breath as counter-reflective to the out-breath, or the out-breath counter-reflective to the in-breath because there just is this yo-yoing back and forth. 

So the subject, then, is the subject of the breath in terms of what it is like to be outside of stillness. So, then, what is that that’s outside of stillness? And you come to denote that, instead of talking about it as Kundalini energy, use another word now you talk about it as spirit energy that’s upon the breath.

So there’s a fine line, I mean, as a way of saying spirit energy and Kundalini energy. And the in and out of the breath are pretty much just ways of saying the same thing. It’s just that you might get a little slightly different sense descriptively, when you try to use these other words as well. 

So when you go through the states of breath, you’re yo-yoing to and fro, reflectively, you’re vying for the heart as a stillness mirror because the heart has a stillness somewhere within it to mirror – in order to break the spell of the yo-yoing – so that you can settle for the stillness.

What I’m talking about is a dynamic that exists in the stillness has given way to breath. The reflective experiences upon the breath, that we denote as a Kundalini energy, again, back to another way of pointing to the same thing, is just the spirit energy going back and forth. And upon the inner in-breath there is an expansiveness, repeating again, and upon the out-breath a contractiveness. 

So, as an in breath, there is a letting go that’s like an accentuation. And then there’s the coming together magnetically, and in Kundalini energy is considered the birthing force, that’s the out-breath’s predominant quality. 

So when the journey upon the breath is transcended, if you could use the word transcended, or when you just go into the emptiness, or the nothing-but-nothingness, therein lies the stillness, which is outside of the spirit energy. Or, to say this another way, is outside of manifestation which involves spirit energy breath. 

So, the significance is, every effect upon an individual with regard to action/reaction is breath work. To extend to all levels, from stillness to presence, is an interesting effect. Or, to put this in another way, a human being has access to all the planes, from the states of manifestation, i.e., in sound, to the states of light, often called the other side, and also beyond the light to stillness.

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Regret, and guilt, are powerful energies that we should learn to process – consciously. It’s natural to experience these feelings, but when they arise it is a signal that we must process an energetic through our system – to let it go. If we instead dwell upon them, we are actually feeding them, allowing them to stay with us longer and, ultimately, cause collateral effects. Humans must process all energies, just like our digestive system does, separating the nutrients from the expendable, and being conscious of this process can make us more efficient at it. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, in the meditation dream, I was unable to reach a stillness because the reaction that I had during the day was so intense that it left a scar upon my molecular nature. In other words, I can feel it as a vibration that tingles yet, which means that because I’m a wholeness with everything that this also, then, affected the molecular structure of life. 

And it was such a spell, that I’m still carrying the vibratory projection, tingling with me as a poison to the overallness. The doing of something like this, the price of having done something like that, is not worth it, even though you might say that it’s sacrificial, and maybe shakes things, and tries to cause something to catch up or whatever, because the reaction does the opposite of what you might think you want it to do, it instead imposes this spell-like reflectiveness that misses the point. It keeps things in a trance. 

So, as a result, the stillness is veiled from doing something like this, which is counterproductive to why one may have done it, which was the idea that this could fix or heal something. But it never works that way. 

So what am I seeing? My reaction has set off a negative effect, which is permeating into life. I still feel this as a loudness. In other words, it’s not on a subtle channel, it’s on an overtness in my nature, and, in order for me to be in a more appropriate spaciousness of myself, it needs to fall away. 

So to redeem myself from the spell I imposed, if I’m able to do that, I would access the stillness. That is, the stillness is mirroring. Because I caused a reaction upon the psyche of myself, and everything around me in the outer, and the condition is something that isn’t yet absorbable, the result from something like that is a pattern laid in place to have to be repeated again and again, with perhaps other forms or conditions in the outer that reflect the conditionality reaction.

In other words, until one gets it, that this isn’t how it works. This isn’t how you solve something like this. Well, the problem with continually being bantered about like this, and still not getting it, is that there is a greater danger in that continuing off on this motif, staying off on on a motif like this can lead to a breakdown, an even greater breakdown, in terms of the outer fabric because instead of it getting it, it goes in the other direction, which would be a type of long-term effect that destroys for a longer period of time and creates a extenuation of a veil from the stillness, which means it will take a long time for such a deviation spell to run its course; that’s the danger. 

It sometimes is interesting to have something that’s really this intense, that really stirs things up, including oneself and everything around, because sometimes, if you’re lucky enough to be redeemed a little bit within, and able to drop a little bit of righteousness, you can come to notice that you carry all kinds of subtler levels that you just pass the buck on. So even when my conduct is quieter, and my actions seemingly harmless, because I still see myself in a particular way, or still have conduct that I play with, my agitation and stuff, I’m still imposing a spell every time I take such a mannerism or pattern on.

I’m not here to do anything that is projectively meant to be spiritual, or that’s to try to shift or change that way. You just mirror. I’m here as an essence to all there is. Thusly, I am removed from the this and the that of things – because the real realness, or aliveness, is just an empty space.

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