A Magnetic Aliveness

Russell Kightley
Russell Kightley

Sometimes our dreams provide a symbolic snapshot of what our internal or external struggles are about. Other times, as in this example from Jeane, our dreams seek to lead us to understanding or connection. In this image, Jeane is in line to get a dance partner who will be a stranger to her, and she is thinking about how to time it to land on her preferred one. But if we trust the universe, and ultimately we must, it will make the right internal connections for us. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.) This post was originally published in August 2015.

Jeane: My first dream takes place in a bar. It’s like I’m sitting and looking – there’s a dance area that’s next to a pool table, and I’m sitting actually a little distance from that, kind of opposite where the head of the table would be, kind of studying things.

People line up around one side of the pool table and then as they come to the other side they get a dance partner, and then they dance until they’ve gone to the end of the pool table, and then they get in the line again.

Well, your partner is determined by where the line has moved when you reach the dance floor. And I’m studying out this whole system and I realize that of all the people that I see waiting to kind of pick up a dance partner, there’s only one man in the line that I might actually think it was okay to dance with.

And so like how would you actually figure that out? How can you get your timing right? Because I’m not sure I’d really want to dance with any of the other characters I’m seeing around the dance table or the dance floor. That’s the first dream.

John: What you’re doing is you’re looking to find a connective focus and flow that is something that you’re able to let yourself go into. Which means that you’re experiencing the oddity and awkwardness of activities, per se, because you’re sensing that there is something missing in terms of how you are in terms of your ordinary connective focus and attention – because you are recognizing how it is that that touches you in some specific way inside.

And so because you have a sensation sense over how it is that something needs to be, in terms of you having an overall well being in terms of it, this is like recognizing from somewhere deeper within a magnetic aliveness that is pulling you to something more real.

Because you don’t know what that something more real is, your mentalness or synaptic nature is inclined to look at the activity that is going around and around and attempt to factor into that activity that which would give it a greater meaningfulness.

In other words, you’re experiencing something that is trying to pull you into a greater realness, but the best you can do to denote that in the dream image is to take that back in terms of the senses, of your senses, of the situation, of the image, and your mindfulness in terms of what you’re able to perceive and think about that, and attempt to make it come across and seem better so that it corresponds to that which is attempting to pull you into a greater state of meaningfulness, of realness.

And this is a realness that you can’t put your finger on, per se, that is in motion inside of you, that then affects your attention and the way you conduct yourself in the outer, and so your dream has created this perspective, has created a storyline, that is symbolic to this process of unfoldment – even though the storyline dream that you portray, as if that’s real, it is instead depicting something else that is out of reach, and out of touch, and unknown to you that is having an effect upon the situation to which your mind, not knowing, and even in your sleep not knowing what that is, puts together this image, this dream image.

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What is it that attracts, or distracts, our attention? We seek to be in the energetic flow of life, responding to the signals and essences moving around and through us, and yet, we can also flit like a butterfly from one thing to another – and be completely unconscious that we are doing it. As we awaken, our systems begin to understand that we want to stay connected – and will support that effort – rather than seek the quick entertainment that we have gotten it so used to in our life. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So the only thing I remember about my dream, it felt like I was going somewhere like getting on a freeway, or traveling on a freeway, actually, with somebody else who was supposed to join me. 

And I was trying to communicate to them that it seemed like there were bars along the freeway, and there were different exits that you could take. And I was trying to show them the right way to find an exit. If you went one way, you actually wouldn’t get where you were going; you had to go the other way. One gate actually was marked red. And I was doing it more than once, communicating to them the right way to get to where we were going.

John: Well, it’s kind of a standard understanding of establishing a sense of direction. I suppose you might say this is a direct same thing, as in the meditation dream, my focus is upon accessing the vibration that is most natural to my being. 

I know that ordinary day-to-day reactions are personality oriented. So I can’t react to something that’s normal, I have to go back to another sense of something. So that just indicates I have to go to something that’s consistent to some sense of my evolvement. 

And I’ve identified a soothingness, and a soothingness that is associated with kind of a longer term manner inside of myself. But it sits kind of like backed up in that in some fashion. It permeates, you might say, or is behind the long term inner flow in keeping with the journey. So when the natural unfoldment is compromised, when something affects it, compromises it, I look to see what is causing the veiling, see where I can’t pick up the sense. 

And I found that most of the time, the issue has to do with a vibratory manipulation of my nature. In other words, something is more pressing, something else is louder. And such manipulation occurs when I fail to surrender to the inner overall essence that is emulating inside, because everything in the outer has self-directed limitations, because that’s where your senses go and so everything’s going to have a limitation because you’re going to be forming opinions based upon your outer perception. I seek to experience the subtle essence behind all of that.

If the essence leads to an identification, I know that I am being influenced away from who it is I am meant to be as an overall essence. Whatever influences me to be this or that I have come to know to be where I am still holding on to an identification that is reflectively separate from the whole. So when I’m not in need of being this way or that, I am receptive to an inner essence that just exists. 

And finally, when I let go even further, I come to know that there is nothing going on that interests me other than this essence that permeates. And this overall essence, then, through deduction, just seems to be who I am. Which means then that I’m just a vibratoriness that is continuously unsettled by identifications that separate me from the empty space overallness, which you can feel has this nurturing quality from somewhere.

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Confirmed for Liftoff

When things are about to change, we often feel worse than ever. This can be because our unconscious has already sensed the changes ahead, but the rest of us is still struggling through the old ways. This can make us feel as if we aren’t getting anywhere, when the shift is closer at hand. This is why it can be important to listen to all the signals we are picking up: on one level we may feel disheartened, but on another level we may have a knowing that better things are just around the corner. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In my meditation dream, to portray what I’m able to remember, it starts off in a flashcard way. It starts off with me observing a little guy who’s staying at a urinal, and I’m standing maybe three or four feet behind him. And it’s like the guy is, say, four feet tall, and I’m six foot tall. He’s not paying any attention to this as he’s standing at the urinal.

Well, I already know what this dream is supposed to be about, and it’s starting out with that as the initial image. I know that the dream was about a transformation and change. So I’m curious to see what’s going to happen next. 

So this little guy, who no longer seems to be such a little guy when he returns to the workforce, you know before he was just like really wimpish, is talking to other colleagues about something that is afoot, that is about to happen in his life. So as I am realizing and recognizing, and I’m knowing – so I’m needing to try to watch to see if I can see this more – from the inner dream that I couldn’t pull out images from, but knowing that something is changing, or is afoot in a soothing way. 

I listen and watch knowing that something is shifting, and I’m going to have to see this like in kind of this whole side show flashcard way. In other words, I know from the sensations and aspects that I had been feeling, plus other events within that I don’t pull out, that it bodes for something to be happening.

In the final image – and what I have to do is block out everything else that’s happening around me, it’s almost like I’m standing off 12 feet away, or 20 feet away or something. And he’s talking to someone, and there’s other noise and stuff going on, so I have to fight my way through that to listen as he is further explaining to a colleague the change that is coming for him. And I overhear him say that the liftoff date has been set. 

It’s about a year from now or so. And what’s gonna happen is that he’s all excited about, that’s firmed up as a go, is that he and his fiance blast off into outer space. 

So the meaning is, this is a dream about a shift and change in how I will be unfolding consciously in the future. Currently I am being pissed on as if a wimp who is unconsciously relieving himself, but the best one can. You know, going through life the best one can, and this is the treatment that I’m being subjected to as I unfold. 

I know it isn’t like it appears and I’m eager to see what is being implied. I’m shown that a transformation is coming. I’ve been feeling this as imminent in terms of prior dream sensations, the details of such dreams being something I don’t remember. So I’m watching and waiting, and while watching and waiting I’m attentive to the changes within, like flashcard inflections, that are there to help me zoom in, or zero in, upon a shift that is destined to unfold.

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