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king-adSometimes, as we near the very thing we want, we can then feel the greatest urge to run away. Because what we are heading for has power in it, and, as we get closer to the power, we begin to see and understand what that power will require of us, and what we will have to give up, and what we will have to do, and how we will have to be, to hold on to such power. Ultimately, if we stay with it, it will be the best trade-off imaginable – the best deal in the universe, in fact – yet we will still experience fear as we let go to it more and more. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: In the dream that I remember, I seem like I’m in my 20s or something, and I’m traveling with a troop of people that travel by horseback and with tents. It’s like there’s a king or someone who’s in charge, and I share a tent, but sleeping on separate cots with a woman and another man who, it feels like there’s something they want from me, but as long as I can kind of sleep in my separate cot, and a I have a certain protection from the king, it’s like they can’t take it yet.

So I’m always kind of on the lookout because as long as I can kind of keep that little bit of distance it feels like whatever I have is more protected. And I did have at least one special horse also, and it’s like the king needs me in whatever conflict it is that he has going on so, I have a certain amount of protection although I have to be really careful to make sure they don’t try to creep into my bed at night, or something, because there’s something that they want to steal.

And then it feels like after some significant battle, where everything is a little more relaxed, I have this feeling that, you know, in this more relaxed state like the king might kind of back off, and maybe whatever they want to do that they might get away with it.

So I manage to sneak off. I go down a trail that they don’t notice. It’s more deserted, and not many people traveling on it, but in order to really get away so that they don’t notice, it’s like I have to leave my favorite horse behind.

And there’s another horse that I take, that I travel with, and after going on this kind of odd, more deserted trail, then I also go down a different direction, and I have something with me that seems to mow; I pretend almost like I’m mowing a trail with some kind of a mower but, of course, I’m not really mowing the way you would if you were clearing a whole trail. I’m just doing one single patch down to get as far as I can from where they are so I can make a getaway.

The only thing I’m sad about is it feels like I have to leave the horse that I would usually ride behind because, if I had taken that horse, they would have noticed me. So I have another horse, or another vehicle with me, to make my getaway. That’s all I really remember of the dreaming.

John: Well, the setting you’re in is a setting that, if you were able to truly accept it, and see it for all that it is, is a setting in which there’s a wholeness. In other words, you’re traveling under the sphere of power, under the protection of power. And power is energy, and energy is light, and light is clarity. And you have the auspices that come from the top down.

In other words, the whole caravan of things, the whole movement, the whole action is under the guidance of the king. However, for whatever particular reason, there is something about you that doesn’t quite get the significance of the spatiality that you’re in. And you feel that you have some personal prerogatives that you can turn to, that you can place at your disposal, and, when you do that, you break the overallness that you’re in – which is easy to do because you’re not truly getting it.

In other words, you have little aspects that are still rising up inside of you to give you an opinion about this, and an opinion about that. So you’re not really realizing the fullness, or the wholeness, or the oneness. And so, to the degree that you go out and try to create your own thread, or make your own path, you give up on power.

You lose the pristine fine line of the connection, which is represented by your special horse, and you have to go off in ways that still have a certain power to them, but they’re of a more limited, personal, and designed capacity. And that sort of thing keeps you in an amnesia, or distant, from how it is that you could be.

In other words, it’s like the position you’re in, in the setting of the dream, has a potentiality about it – if you could let go and just fully take it in, knowing that you are part of all of that in every aspect and regard and, therefore, the aliveness, the action of that, is complete in and of itself. If you were able to truly note that as your beingness, that is connected to an inner knowingness, and therefore you are okay with the exclusive oneness and overallness, everything would be fine.

But for whatever reason that memo isn’t quite all there, isn’t loud enough, and so you go off on your own and create veils as you follow your own personal prerogative. But,,, there’s still the thread of a horse in that sense and there’s always the possibility of backtracking your steps because you are making an extension, or a spoke, that extends off. And so it’s not like you can really get away. You’re just extending outwardly, which is not like you can actually really get away.

In other words, you could backtrack that spoke to where you come to know the true inner action of your beingness, and/or it’s like something could happen yet to where it could still stalk, or haunt, you because it’s not like you have your favorite horse. You’ve left the favorite horse back there, so it’s not like what you have can actually go very far, or go very fast.

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wiper-mud-testAs far as our dreams are concerned, life can seem like a party: the mingling of people, the noise, the busyness of the world we find ourselves in. And, of course, what is being handed-out to us at this party? What do we have to settle for, even though we know that what they’re giving us is no good for us? This contradiction in us, of wanting to be in life, yet unable to connect to something real at the party we find ourselves at, is one of the greatest causes of stress in the world. That’s why a strategy of higher connections can help alleviate the feeling that this is a nightmare we need to awaken from. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I feel like I had a nightmare that was disturbing to me. If I recall correctly, it kind of starts out that I’m at something like a party. There’s people there that I know from high school, and one of the focuses of the party is that when they get ready to feed people there’s going to be meat available. But the meat so far is just being carried around in these… oh, it’s almost like these plastic trays that you see at the supermarket, except they don’t even have Saran Wrap on the top of them to hold the meat in.

And different people have some packets of meat that they’ll be passing out later. I’m looking at this arrangement and it disturbs me because it doesn’t seem like the right way to handle meat or, you know, get it distributed or, you know, just to carry it around raw and in packets that aren’t really wrapped correctly, or aren’t wrapped period.

Then I leave the party, and I’m in my car, and when I go down the road I suddenly stop outside this building that’s almost abandoned – but there’s one or two people sitting around it – and I have a feeling that it’s a place where something violent happened in the past, like it’s haunted.

Then I notice that my car windows are all covered with mud, and I can’t see out, and I’m in the backseat, not the front seat. So the first thing I do is I crawl up to the front seat, and I can kind of feel like people that I feel are menacing approaching the car. I can’t see anything, though, so I just step on the gas – even though I can’t see where I’m going yet. And then that seems to knock the mud off the windows.

And then I turn around and I head back into town and, when I get into town, I go back into the building where I had been before. And now it feels like people are getting ready to hand out some of these packets of meat, but because it’s not wrapped, the meat just even falls out, or falls on the floor.

And I’m still kind of appalled that this is the way they’re going to distribute things, and it felt like a nightmare to me.

John: Well, in the dream, you’re trying to be in life, and do it in such a way so that you’re not affected by the conditions in the outer. And, in terms of trying to figure out how to deal with everything that there is, in terms of the myriad of things going around, in your particular case you’re in life, which means you’re at the party, and that at the party the food that is served, that which you have to contend with and you have to work through, that is an aspect of consciousness, in other words, how do you contend with the beingness without getting the myriad of things, without getting distracted, or distorted?

And you carry a certain sensibility of how it can, and should, be from something that’s percolating at a depth of your nature, at I guess one would say, a stillness of your nature, or I guess you would even call it a greater stillness of your nature, might be a better way of saying it, because the way you see it done in the outer, the way that you’re having to contend with it in the outer, the possibilities in terms of taking it in, that are available to you, none of them are acceptable in terms of some deep inner sensibility that you haven’t put your finger on, that you have.

In other words, the meat can be served in some overall container, but it’s still raw. In other words, it still has its effect. In other words, it’s not cooked, or it’s served in packets in which it’s all over the place, and irregular, in that regard.

So in an attempt to sort this out you try to leave the place to try to find the letting go and, in leaving the place, it’s almost as if you are carrying some mood, or mannerism, with you, in terms of leaving the place, because when you get in the car and try to go somewhere, you’re holding back in some capacity because you’re not in the front, and you can’t see. You still can’t see, because the mood, or whatever it is, still has its hold on you.

So you attempt to let go by throwing all caution to the wind, so to speak. It’s not a proper letting go, however. It’s like you just do an exasperation pedal-to-the-metal kind of thing, that may seem to throw something off your shoulders, may seem to have the pretension of alleviating your condition.

However, you haven’t really done this consciously. You’re not really able to be in the nothingness and the beingness simultaneously, that is assuming that you hit the nothingness in some fashion, or deceived yourself, because when you come back you’re just as reprehensibly disturbed by the way things are in the beingness as you were before.

So your dream is playing with the theme of beingness and nothingness. In your dream it’s like you do have the sense of something that has to be different, or has to be more. It’s just that there’s no evidence that you’re able to bring the two together. And thus it’s like a nightmare.

And there’s no evidence that you’re actually able to access the nothingness, even though you try because it’s as if there was something you were still carrying when you left the party and got in the car – that you never dropped – because when you came back you were right back into the same condition. You hadn’t expanded your auric space so that this, too, fell away. Instead, what was going on, the beingness of things that was going on, was still creating a defining indulgent weight upon you, or burden.

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332esSleeping with someone is an interesting symbology when it arises in the dream world. We all know that when a physical relationship begins, it complicates things. Issues that didn’t exist yesterday need to be addressed today. As part of our inner life, when we form attachments to things, rather than letting go to the flow, we create just such complications. So what may begin innocently enough, has ramifications in the unfolding of everything from that moment forward. That is why spiritual evolution seeks a state of (inner) non-attachment; only then can we truly be free to join the greater flow. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: It felt like my dream was a little complex last night. I’d been reading a book on tai chi, before I went to sleep, that also dealt with the basic philosophy of Taoism, so I don’t know if that influenced it or what, but I’m pretty sure it had at least four stages, maybe five.

And all I remember of the very first dream, or the first stage, was that I was up at a mountain lake ice skating with some other people. That’s all I remember, my impression of that first dream.

Then, the next two stages I’m pretty sure were represented by a deep blue line followed the next stage with a deep pink line.

John: The first part is your working something through with an action, but then to that action you’re adding a concentration and focus. That’s what you’re doing first, and then second adding the concentration and focus.

A concentration and focus, in a pure way, is not necessarily something that is lost in a differentiation. It can be. In other words, that’s a step in the process of letting go is to be able to have a focus and concentration that isn’t that of the ego.

Jeane: Now, in the second dream that I associate with the deep blue line, vertical line, it feels like I’m visiting… I’m young like maybe in my 20s or 30s, 20s probably, and so are these guys. I visit two guys that live together.

And this whole dream takes place at night. And I seem to live in some kind of a little informal place that’s near an ocean. It feels more like Hawaii, or something. And the three of us have been friends for the most part, but this time I sleep with one of the two, the one who probably seems a little less basic, probably a little, I don’t know if brighter is the right word. It’s like his buddy is more like a surfer type, I would say, and he’s probably got a little more to him.

We’re all friends, but I sleep with the one, but then this changes the dynamic between the three of us. And I’m examining, kind of reflecting a little, on what that change is going to mean because now the two of us need a little more privacy, or something.

And I walk down from the hut down to the ocean, it’s all at night, thinking I’m going to go swimming. There’s another woman, who’s maybe a friend of ours, that suddenly comes. I’ve invited them if they want to come to join me in swimming, but it feels like they’re kind of behind me, or lagging behind me a little bit, because when I get down to the ocean I realize I can’t go in because on the waves in the ocean is a lot of seaweed, and one would get tangled up in it.

But I do go down right to where the water is coming, next to the shore, and on the shore, and I see these tiny little green frogs and I really like that kind of frog, and so I poke one a little just to make it swim because I’m just kind of fascinated with those little frogs. But I do realize I can’t go swimming. That’s the second stage associated with the blue line.

John: In this particular format, instead of there being a complete, total, letting go, in other words, where you’re just in an energetic that is able to be between the two shores, so to speak, you know down by the water, you find yourself as having taken a position, an energetic position by having slept with one of them.

So, instead of the three of you turning into a four of a kind of whole completeness and overallness, that’s a stillness and an emptiness, you’ve disturbed that condition and, in disturbing that condition, you’ve complicated the energetic lines so that you could get tangled in seaweed and stuff like that.

However, the dream, it’s almost as if this is something that is meant to happen, and that you then have to back thread from that in order to sort something out again, in terms of a way of letting go. In other words, the recognition of how this has suddenly discombobulated what had been a more natural overall openness. The reconciliation is in process in this dream, with these frogs or something, and I’m not sure what the symbolism of the frogs is, but they represent kind of a relief, the initial step to a relief from what has been a kind of step backwards that leads to a contanglement. They are kind of like a breaking openness type of relief. I can’t say just how it is. This is more of an association you have.

Jeane: Yeah, these are these little green frogs that I used to play with when I was a kid, in a lily pond, that they start out as tadpoles and then they transmute into a frog.

John: In other words, they represent something transformative for you.

Jeane: Yeah, and so that was the dream associated with the vertical blue line, and then there was a vertical pink line. I don’t know that I remember the dream associated with the pink line, as much as I remember that it had two stages, and one of them was tricky. It was like a vibration one had to get into and it was tricky.

And then there was a dream, but I think it actually followed the third stage, and in this dream it feels like I’ve come in from out of town and I’ve gone to a small place that, again, feels like it’s very simple. My dad is there. There’s other people there. It feels again almost like Hawaiian or something.

And I’m going into this rather simple area where everybody is, and they want me to give a talk on something. They sit around in chairs with little tables in front of them, and then I would be near a blackboard, and I come up to give a talk.

There’s a couple women that are usually there that are in charge of all of this, but when I go to give the talk it feels like some of the talk goes well, and some of it must bore some of the people there, because they just wander off. And then I’m kind of assessing how to relate, but all I can really do is just do what I know how to do, or what I know to talk about.

And then it feels like I go down the street, and maybe that night I sleep just down the block in another place, but when I come back the next day I have to bring back the bed I had taken down there, that I borrowed from someone there, and sort out, you know, what belonged to whom before I leave. And I don’t know whether I can come back here or not. That’s the dream I wish I had held onto a little bit more. It was harder to pull out.

John: Well the pink line is softer, isn’t it? You’re not using the pink line, yet, in a way in which you’re transporting something to the depth that it needs to be transported with. In other words, the pink line is you’re still shaping something. Instead of transporting it into a letting go emptiness, you’re still shaping something.

The blue line and such has to do with being able to have a quality of an egoless state of being, and yet there is still a kind of definition. The transformative of the frog energy is coming in, because you aren’t caught. You’re not literally caught in trying to force something to happen, projectively, with a kind of overt ego. But you’re still carrying a note.

And in the pink line, something is still unfolding in relationship to a quality; the dream is not saying that what you’re doing is harmful or bad or anything. In other words, it’s not like you’re being reprimanded in the dream. Instead you’re just being shown the way you are, you have a construct in which you’re bringing it.

Your use of the pink is you’re still experiencing it as something that is associated as part of yourself. In your way, you’re still playing with a strain of something. You’re recognizing that you’re something. You still have the news of the pink and, therefore, there is an effect that can affect things noticeably, as an aspect of your nature, but there is a greater depth that can be there if somehow or another you can let go of that, too.

You still have a kind of visibleness, a visibleness because you see that as still part of you – and that is you. That is correct. But your state is more real in terms of the idea that, ultimately, the unfoldment is that you are God. That pink is transformative, but it still is a strain.

In other words, it’s like the blue is a concentration, and in the concentration there’s a limitation. In the pink there is a letting go, but a letting go with a definition of some aspect of yourself in a realization kind of way, a greater realization, a kind of, you might say, consciousness, as opposed to a real wide-sweeping subconsciousness. I’m describing it like this to try to differentiate that there is an aspect of something, and this has yet to unfold further.

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