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screen-closeupAre we ever truly ourselves? This dream looks at the subtlety of the mechanisms we use in dealing with life, in the sense that we’ll filter the way we are to accommodate the feelings of others, or speak differently because of the expectations of others, or even change our opinions because we’re hoping for a certain outcome. All these subtle maneuvers take us away from our natural state, and our natural ability to respond. And we can’t really be in the flow of things, if we are not being natural to ourselves. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So I just remember one dream that kept repeating, in a way. It’s like I was observing life in North Korea. Because the dictator wanted to control everything, it felt like there was this woman that kind of wanted to… I don’t know if she became a chicken, or she was cooking chicken, but it was like you didn’t want the dictator to know if you got a chicken that was like a certain weight, or anything.

And I was kind of showing them how to hide that by chopping apricots up when you cooked the thighs of the chicken, or something, that you could kind of hide it in there. It was almost like she was the chicken and, you know, when she was cooked you could hide the apricots in the legs and not show that you had gotten a chicken that was as fat as maybe what the dictator would have. Because if he thought anyone had something that was better than what he had, then he would kind of come down on them. So I was trying to show them how to conceal that. But then the dream just kept repeating.

John: So what’s going on in this dream, that’s repeating, is you’re trying to get beyond this aspect of what’s called a frustration, or it’s a tension, or a reactive anxiety.

And you’re trying to look at a particular quality of this frustration, tension, or anxiety, a particular way in which it inflects, as an effect, that is your particular dilemma, or mannerism, by which you prevent, or keep, a certain quality of the secret substance that permeates through everything in the outer – or the inner coming into the outer – that keeps that from happening.

And when you feel a little tension, or a little frustration, in this case it’s like a chicken, or it’s like a type of fear. In other words, it’s a qualm. It’s a qualm of some sort that keeps this from being brought directly through.

In other words, this is all in keeping with the subject matter of: how do you work with things that are subtler, and subtler? And what you have is you have, for example, in the outer you just have the outer as a kind of density. And you relate to that outer density in terms of how you see things with the five senses. And the way you see things with the five senses is caught in this motif of seeing matter as matter – and staying strictly on that level.

But there is matter in sound, and there’s matter in light, and that the level of bringing inner into outer involves having to incorporate a bringing together of the sight of light into matter.

Now that sounds very, very strange. Well, because it’s a different kind of sight that we’re talking about. In other words, when you feel a vibration, something is going on in the outer and there is a way that it is. And then, on a vibrational level, you denote something more, you can denote whether something is a little this way, or a little that way.

Well, you denote it by a type of sight, but it’s not a type of sight, per se, of the senses. It’s a type of sight of a higher-self light of sight. So, in other words, if you’re in a room and you see something in the environment, in terms of the way something is, that causes you to hold back, or to measure what you say, or however that is, because you can sense something more than what’s apparent on the surface, and you can see the degree to which somebody can hear something, or recognize something, or you see what’s going on in a deeper way of something moving around in the nature, or the atmosphere – that’s a type of sight.

It’s a vibratory type of sight. Now what keeps this vibratory type of sight from becoming a substance, per se, in other words going into matter, making it manifest, is whenever you have any kind of friction, and we’re talking about a kind of friction that has to do with fear, that has to do with anger, that has to do with frustration, that has to do with things that have a denser mannerism about them.

So what your dream was doing, is your dream is reverbing back and forth, and back and forth, to try to see how it was possible to have a condition in the overall. And you were setting it up in a scenario in which, if you were to have this condition in the overall, you would have to have this condition in a way so that it didn’t cause a disturbance – because you were in North Korea. And whatever it is that you were able to have in that density had to be done in such a way so that it wouldn’t draw a type of attention that would cause it to appear that you were usurping the powers that be.

So what’s the powers that be, when you’re talking about the outer? It’s the density of things. And so the powers that be in the density of things is the idea, and the understanding, of what’s going on. What brings the inner into the outer is that you have to have that spatiality inside of yourself in order for it to occur in the outer. And, as you embody that and carry that inside yourself, that becomes the atmosphere all around you, as well. But, to the degree to which you’re responding, or reacting, to some heebie-jeebie, or frustration, or mannerism like that, some qualm, is the degree to which you blot that out.

Now why is it that that blots it out? Well, it blots it out because it slows it down. It slows it down in keeping with the density of things, and when something is slowed down in keeping with the density of things, it then goes back to the modality of the physical, and the senses, and the lower-self senses. And so you lose the secret substance that goes at a faster speed, that actually is a type of substance. In other words, all aspects of density have a terminal nature to them. They exist, for only so long, before they crumble back to dust.

Everything is that way in the outer. And on levels of light there’s a terminality, too, but it’s a long, long, long one because that’s such a subtle substance that it’s not like you actually see it, but yes, you kind of do by being able to experience it from within, vibrationally enough, that it’s like a type of seeing because it just permeates through.

Your complexity in the dream was, as something is coming through, to what degree does it need to be kept, held, or maintained, or protected in a particular way, in terms of yourself? And you’re using, as your screening mechanism, a type of fear, a type of chicken, a type of presentation, orientation that reverbs. The reason why it reverbed and reverbed is, by bringing that into the equation, you brought in something that kept it from just naturally being.

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137539-WhateverThe word “whatever,” as it is mostly used today, has an apathetic sense to it, as in, “I don’t care.” But if we want to be with the flow of life, it is not a bad word to ponder. What is it about us that lets us expect events to unfold a certain way, or to work out to our advantage, or that situations should resolve themselves, to be tied up into neat little bows, for us to put on a shelf? The human is meant to process energy, and we should be more interested in the way we are able to do that effectively, as opposed to worrying about what that particular energy is. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Now let’s see if this sleep dream works.

In this dream my friend, Cole, brought his favorite music to a shindig, that is like a place where people have gathered, where you come down a hill to it. And, for some reason, the music, which Cole’s very good at picking stuff and doing stuff; he’s got a very soft nature, but this music is not working.

And it’s made most evident in that there are two brothers, who are there, and one of them was okay, and the other one was really moping about. And, the next thing you know, they’re both moping. One brother finally wins out, or bums out, the other, as it comes to light that they have both lost their father.

The thing that stands out about them is they each have a big nose, and the one who finally bums out the other brother, has a nose that’s so big you kind of park it on the edge of the table, just kind of sits down on the table, and the music doesn’t seem to change this tone.

And so, not knowing what to do, I’m realizing that none of this is working. I mean people are gathered and there’s this, that, and the other, but nothing is working. And then there’s this bummed-out quality that’s prevailing.

I leave, and I go up the hill, and I have a cart. I come across or have a cart that is full to the brim. It’s like a rectangular cart that is full to brim with music, but it’s kind of a light tan music, and it’s not popular. It’s not the music that you’d be inclined to pick, conceptually speaking. It’s not the good quality, meaningful stuff that Cole has. It’s all-over-the-place kind of music. And what this music is like is this whole cart is just piled right to the brim, and what you see when you look down is little pieces of shale rock piled right to the brim – and that’s the music, which is way different.

So I take and I push this cart down this hill, being very, very careful, because it could get out of control, because it’s a lot of weight, it’s a plum full cart. And then I wonder, am I going to be able to push it up the hill? And there’s no guarantee, as I’m doing this, that this music will catch on but, you know, what’s there isn’t working. Things are still bummed out.

So the meaning is, the theme last night was about letting go of a set focus and mannerism, and, in doing so, like you did see with the Joan Rivers and all of that stuff and learn how to spin it, you may have started with an idea of this, that, or the other, but before it was over with you reached a fluidity within that cut through the prevailing nuances.

So in this first dream, this had to do with a fluidity that was reached when no concepts existed about how to be, when it came with a due process. In the second dream, I am shown that the best intentions, these days, do not make an intended difference.

The reason is because an indulgence exists in which opinions prevail, and there is a sticking of one’s nose into what is going on, either one way, or the other, as far as opinions go. Therefore, you’re not taking in the wholeness.

So the second dream suggests that set mannerisms need to be set aside, and appreciation found, from just letting go. To quit doing things spiritual even, like Cole’s thing was like a spiritual approach, but, you know, it’s not going to change the indulgences of things that are off on one side.

You’ve got to learn to be able to take any old thing, whatever is going on. You take any old music. I mean how can I even tell anybody that? Just as well be here, as anywhere else, when the shit hits the fan. And let go to it, and come to know that you can find an okayness, no matter what is going on. It’s all a way of letting go. It may not be an end all, but it will be better than something definitional. That is the dream. I am willing to give this a try, even if it doesn’t work.

And the deeper meaning is, a nature capable of letting things be, no matter how dense they seem, is a letting go that has the potential of opening up something not heretofore possible given the prevailing barriers.

Why does that work? We have become so twisted with spiritual illusions, and blows from a dense outer, that we do not have a good idea anymore of how to proceed. We have developed adabs and practices that, instead of getting us properly into life, are leaving us opinionated and/or aloof. Consequently, as in the first dream, just when we feel and know it somewhere deep within, we go off on a tangent with what we think works. So that was the theme.

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0162adWe’ve all had those moments when we are in the flow of whatever it is we are doing, and suddenly we become conscious of that flow, or our ego flares because of our well being, and we totally lose the connection. It seems an imperceptible shift, yet everything changes. We go from being and doing, in the moment, to trying to be and do. In other words, we get in our own way and limit our possibility. In development, we seek to let go in a way that keeps us connected to the flow, thereby giving us the best potential outcome for any situation. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So the meditation dream I have seems to catch up with this kind of slowly, in that I’m beginning to realize that I have to access, vibrationally, a spatiality that is not in the collective consciousness of life.

I mean, this is a little bit like yesterday where I got the first download on this, in which anything that is perceivable has a recognizable reality. And when it is something that is perceivable, then it can’t make much headway.

So, in this dream, it’s like there’s a big football field. And the other team kicks off the ball, and I go in between. I’m supposed to be a blocker that’s supposed to, as they kick to whoever catches the ball on my end, I’m like supposedly a blocker to enable my person to somehow come down the field as best they can.

They kick the ball and it goes to a woman. I turn my back and, as I turn my back, I suddenly could see behind myself all of the areas that are dead spots, that if you can hit those dead spots you’re not going to get tackled. So I turn and I see the woman who’s caught the ball, and I see the fear in her eyes, and I realize: this is the last play, and if we don’t get a touchdown on a runback, it’s hopeless. And yet I can feel all that. I can feel the dead spots with my back turned to it – not indulging in it.

So I go up to her, and she’s glad to hand me the ball, and then I turn around. And, as I turn around, now I’m taking into account the running rushers – and that’s a problem. Before I just could see the blind spots. And so now I’m trying to use my athleticism to race around the end and whatnot, and then I wake up.

And I realize that, somehow or another, in reevaluating and looking at what took place, I had gotten into a set pattern again – just like you and your wallpaper had a certain set pattern, Joan Rivers’ mannerism. And so when I turned around and then started to try to make things happen, in the way that you are able to kind of think that you make things happen, I couldn’t do it.

I couldn’t, in other words, hit this Michael Jordan zone, as he used to hit in basketball, whereby everything just parted. Instead, I was taking into account everything about what was in front of me, and I was going to get tackled as a consequence, because I was still now trying to function with the same mindset that was in front of me – and you have to learn to just let go of it.

And so, the meaning is, a couple days ago I learned that as long as I had a bias, between right and wrong, I undermine the letting go flow. And then, yesterday, I saw an inner vibratory reality that shifted through the collective nuances about things.

This was a sight that I knew, like an inner light inside, because it wasn’t present in the outer, that I knew was faster than a set-and-defined outer. What I saw was not visible in the outer. I mean it was visible to me in the inner, but the outer was relating to things differently, in a more set and established way. And so it was like an energetic, and because it wasn’t visible in the outer but something I could see in the inner, it was like a type of substance, because if you could bring it through then it could affect the outer. If you could shift something in manifestation, if you could affect something in manifestation, then you were obviously playing with a secret substance that could do that sort of thing.

In other words, you weren’t limited by something; this intangible could affect the tangible. So, in this dream, if I get out of trying to finesse, or cope, with projections, I can know naturally where the empty space is at. When I just hold that space within, I can get it. When I turn and try to use this as if it’s a type of consciousness that you can grab a hold of, that’s when I’m set up to fail again. In other words, that’s when I fall back into the outer dynamics.

The meditation dream last night is telling me that to go beyond collective conditioning in life I must let go of my outer sense projections that we function with, you know, because we’re constantly thinking we’re in a bifurcated world. That is impossible to let go because, when you see limitations, you are in limitations, instead of an intertwining. And thus there will be definitions, and those definitions will keep you lost.

So I can reach beyond limitations when I place my inner beingness into an intangible vibratory state that I have no need to control. If I see it, and I focus upon it, in other words, you’re trying to do some sort of control and whatnot, you contaminate it. But if you’re able to simply access the vibration, and nothing more, and hold to just that, you won’t be setting up resistances because you wont be trying to perceive things this way, and that way. And, thus, you’ll leave the heart free to be in the overallness, without any stigmatic fetters, or spells, from the outer and its collective. That’s the meditation dream.

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