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How would we describe the house of us, of our interior life? Is it a glorious manor with elegant ballrooms, or is it a cramped warren of small rooms and creaking stairways? Of course, the truth is that we all have all of these interior spaces, depending on the subject and the psychology. Yet just as we want to clean out the attic, or basement, or garage in the outer world, we want to do the same for our inner life, so that we know where everything is kept and can access what we have when needed. This is part of our development journey. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So, in the next dream, I seem to be a young man. And I’ve gone to visit this young woman who’s having a party, and her apartment is right below her parents who are overly controlling and always monitoring, or admonishing, her for anything she does. 

And in this apartment that’s below her parent’s house, it feels like I’m on a sofa bed in the front part of the apartment. And it’s a very kind of Danish- or Swedish-looking apartment in terms of the furniture, it’s very kind of light, clean-cut furniture that serves dual purposes or something, very neat and compact. But I’m trying to make love with her – because I’m a man in this one, or a young man – on the front sofa kind of covered up by a duvet of some kind. 

She keeps wanting to pull back at some point, and I keep kind of pushing it. But I recognize that part of the pulling back is that her parents are always monitoring what she does in terms of coming in, and even looking at her linens and everything else, really snoopy, and always making comments. 

It feels like I kind of push her to complete making love, but then the scene fast-forwards in time and I’m out of my body observing what’s going on. And I go out of the basement apartment and I look at the house above where her parents live. And I see that it’s kind of tricolored, it’s turquoise and white, but it’s shuttered in the sense that you can’t see in the windows and it looks very dead in a way. 

And then I look at her unit and I see how compact it is, it’s like there’s kind of a back bedroom where she is right now. And she has her brother and sister up playing on the bed, I even have a sense that there’s a dog around, too. And then, on the side, a friend of hers sleeping in something that made up into a bed. And I’m actually sleeping on that front bed where I’ve been with her before, which is just a kind of narrow little bed that also serves as a seating area. And then, of course, there’s me who’s out of the body observing all this

And there’s something that’s so attractive about all these compact uses of how she decorates her place, I’m wondering if there’s even an identical place nearby that I might be interested in. But I notice the problem with how her parents come and even go through her trash to monitor what she’s doing that makes it difficult for her to have any kind of what you’d call a free-flow in life.

John: So what’s unusual about this dream is that when you bring in and merge back in the greater spaciality, that left you sensationally off, that there was a quality within that, as clumsy and as awkward as it was, to where you could almost sense that there was nothing that you could pull together, it was like maybe being just blasted to pieces, somehow, that there was a roundabout sensibility echo, anyway, whether it was sensible or not, worked as a needling, so to speak.

In other words, you can’t totally move away from that spaciousness, or the remembrance of that, that greater composite that isn’t able to hold something together. So you never lose that. And so in the dream, then, that’s like the overview that makes no sense. And so to make something make sense, you go back into things where you have the way delving in to the depths of things. 

And, in the depths of things, you confront the mannerisms of yourself that have a certain kind of need to try to do this, or to do that. And, ordinarily, if you didn’t have the effect of the bleed-through of the spaciality of the first dream, you wouldn’t have the sense of a kind of guidance. 

And that sense of guidance, even though you take it as a type of policing or needling of your nature is reflected in this dream, is brought forth in this dream, as having shifted and evolved now to a way of grasping something that is able to know something more, or just sense something more, that is upholding something more. So that how you are finding yourself in your restrictive nature that has its mannerisms and nuances, you’re finding that you can’t necessarily make anything overly magnified out of that because there is this sense of something else. 

And, of course, your sense of this something else is not necessarily a positive one, because the way that you have come down into the outer, you’d like to try to see if you couldn’t blow that more widely open. In other words, taking the sensation on the inner, that you couldn’t make really as wide open as you needed to – and it left you in a delirium. 

Now that you have found something that compacts, that you can sink your teeth in so to speak, you would like to try to take that spaciousness, that direction, that focus into something condensed – you would like to try to take that into a greater freedom. 

It doesn’t work that way. That’s a reflection, yet, of something that has to run its course, to be lived, to be experienced, that you have to go through. You can’t take and get stuporish, as stuporish as maybe you could have before you had the experience of a greater overallness, you can’t take and get as stuporish about it because you’ve had the sense of the spaciousness.

But the way you’re able to work with the spaciousness is not necessarily hearing it as good guidance yet, instead it is kind of something that has you in a certain kind of controlled, or contained, environment. And the concept, or ideal, it’s like a concept and it’s like an ideal, especially when it’s just stated, that you can kind of be in a whole other place, and yet, at the same time, be a soldier in this world – doesn’t quite necessarily make sense yet. 

Instead, what you’re doing is you’re seeing the component, you’re looking at the misalignment, so to speak, component parts that haven’t yet quite come together as a wholeness, whereby it might be possible. I mean, you don’t know if it’s possible. There’s nothing there that evidences that this is possible. So it’s a “might” yet, but it’s kind of like your psyche’s way of responding to the two sides, the two halves.

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It is an aspect of the feminine nature to want the environment she is in to be harmonious. That’s as true on the inner levels of an individual as it is in the outer world. In this dream, the dreamer is bringing pies to the other people in the dream (other aspects of herself). But, in certain situations, a fresh pie does not make up for what is unfolding, just like a man bringing a woman flowers cannot erase all hurts. The subconscious then steps up the messaging, by introducing the idea of sexual abuse into the equation. This scenario is a nice illustration of how our dreams can be the back and forth of an inner conversation. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I’m pretty sure that my initial dream was just about football, something about watching football, but it felt like there was a group of us and we watched football, and that I traveled between where the main group was and where members of the group lived, or worked. 

And the second dream had more to do with that. In the second dream, what I’m doing is I’m taking some food, I think it’s just some desserts, like pies or something, and I’m taking them between the different places where the people that watch the football live, and work, normally. 

So I might go down more into a town a little, or out of town a little, and deliver a pie. And then there might be a meeting room where I know we all get together, that’s more like a small town auditorium. And I go to these different sites and deliver the pies; and see that people get the pie.

But, in the course of this travel, as I come across different members of the group, I realize that several of the women, including myself, have been sexually assaulted recently. And they haven’t been talking about it. So I feel like part of my job in going and delivering these foods is to begin to tell the men what’s happening so that they can do something about it. That was the second dream. 

John: The sense that both dreams have, meaning the dream that I just had and the dream that you had, is that there is something significant to be noted, or denoted, in terms of a traveling that involves going into an energetic that’s an outer aspect, an outer thing

In my dream, I was looking at timing, more on a out-breath level, in other words, if this person was to come back, or if something was to happen, that would cause, then, a sense of what is it that would be different if this person then came back in the sense of what could you be looked at, or reviewed, or examined, that would be different if this person came back into the overallness?

In your dream you are looking at the overallness. What you’re doing is instead of looking at it as a timing, you’re looking at the thing as a spaciousness, and so you’re finding yourself involved in an outer overallness, which is on an in-breath level.

I’m tied up, or caught, in something on an out-breath level, trying to find something of value that stands out when the timing is reached, or recognized, in other words, will correspond to that waking up.

What you’re doing is you are automatically portraying yourself in a spaciousness, and within the spaciousness is what’s going on, like you could say is the scenario setting, and that you are facilitating something that satisfies what’s going on in that setting, like providing a desert and such. But you’re portraying that, in that setting, in that overallness, there is something that’s skewed that stands out. 

And what stands out is that the women have been abused – as a consequence of the way that the overallness currently is. It’s like an amnesia is in place where there is an attention in the overallnness, and then there’s the quality of something that’s trying to appease the overallness, which is the providing them with dessert. 

And then there is the waking up, or acknowledging, or recognition within that overallness, which is really heavily tranced out in a particular motif – that something more exists in the overallness that has to be taken into account – which in this particular case is the recognition that the overallness, something about the overallness, is offensive, or abusive, or damaging to the sensibilities of how it needs to be, in terms of yourself, in the overallness.

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b37Learning to drive a car, or learning to ride a horse are ways in which we train ourselves to harness a great energy for our use. And it can be useful to understand that every energy that we come in contact with we must process – we have no choice in the matter, it’s the way our systems work. Yet do we consciously realize that we can also learn to harness the higher, unseen, energies we have access to, incorporating them into our system? When we do so, we can gain healing and intelligence on a cellular level. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So the masculine approaches it differently, but it’s really nice to have it presented in kind of just a this is the way it is kind of scenario. So when you add the masculine element to this, in terms of something that’s just the way it is, plop, in manifestation, you end up having to delve into bits and pieces of all the traits, of the qualities, of something that is able to emerge, or be there, at a deeper inner depth that is always going closer and closer to a type of stillness – and a responsibility in that – that isn’t so black-and-white outer in its orientation.

So the way this comes across is, first, in the meditation dream, I am racing inside myself in an impatient, energetic way. The result of this anxiousness was the idea that a solution is needed -and it’s needed right away. And this solution is something that can be projected upon a situation. Such raciness inside causes my being to become kind of hot and uneasy. Because I am seeking to get to the bottom of a pressing issue, what happens is I’m able to ignore and/or block out kind of the outside effect, so that I can take a step back and see how the environmental elements are just kind of having their way, in terms of affecting me.

So I’m able to block out the effect of such stimuli, as if the stimuli is in the way of an overall tranquility. Like I say, I’m adding the masculine element of trying to figure out what is there that is causing this to continue. It’s like when you hold a particular vibe, and you can’t get out of that vibe, everything supports, and comes around, and touches the vibe in the way the vibe is.

Because I wasn’t letting go of the raciness, I felt that I was, to some subtle degree, wounded, and therefore going around and around energetically – which means that I can’t shake as a consequence. I can’t shake to the sensation of an overall solution to an inner need. I kept spinning around options composing that which would satisfy what I sought.

Because most of the time was spent scoping about for an answer that could embrace an energetic resolution, but, the thing is, that isn’t possible because there’s a spaciality I can live with that is something that is on the inner is the resolution to the imbalance.

What I’m trying to say here is I, being the masculine, have to be kind of a protector to sort something like that through and out. I’m dealing with trying to get to the bottom of that vibration in the atmosphere. Well, I took and I struggled with it, and I struggled with it, and I realized that the issue that needed to be dealt with – in terms of the vibe that was in the atmosphere – had to do with dealing with what was too loud about it, because there was a loudness, or overtness, or some quality and it was speeded up in a way that it made it impossible for it to catch up with a stillness, or a sight, that it could reach.

And what this caused me to recognize and realize is that, in this environment, and this environment exists as a vibration right now, where we’re at, in that vibration there is an essence of, if you were to try to distill to the key point of it, the key point of it is this Kundalini energy. It’s raw Kundalini energy. And it, of course, has its slant as a type of blunt sexuality. And the flip side of that, because Kundalini energy per se is described as something that is one-third in the outer, and two-thirds on the inner. And so when you take this sort of thing that is really loud in an environment that you’re in, the question that comes up is: how do you come to grasp the flip side? Because that’s what you have is you do have a flip side.

There is a deeper innerness to counterbalance this to that which is really loudly going on in the outer. So how do you catch up with what that flip side is? What’s interesting is all of the nuances in between that are all aspects of letting go in terms of getting to a point of stillness.

And so, to begin with, if you’re a sincere person, you take and are trying to sort something out. You are trying to go through the various combinations of things. And, as you go through those various combinations, you come to see or recognize moments of inflected insight, which is like a type of stillness. But then the loudness of the activities of what you’re doing kind of capture you in a type of confusion. So what you have to do is you have to figure out how to work with the Kundalini energy that is a type of force and momentum even, and how to bring that into a quietness and a stillness. In other words, how to see the flip side.

To be able to live something like this in a really loud way in the outer can have heavy, heavy veils to it, but, in a roundabout way, when something is really, really loud in the outer it also has something profound because it’s almost like you’re very, very close to the flip side of how it can be seen in what you’re really seeking, which is a type of completeness, or stillness. And so you took this general overall vibe and just sat in it, and I took and went at it recognizing that it had to do with the loudness, and a  raciness – and how can one make that quieter?

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