A Peculiarity

According to some, we wouldn’t dream at all if we were fully functioning, realized, human beings. If we consider that idea, we can see that dreams are always showing us how we interact with ourselves, and within ourselves. If we had no psychologies or fears, and we didn’t project our personal view on the world around us, the sorting that dreams allow wouldn’t be necessary. Said another way, we would be in the flow of things. And if we were in the flow of things, then all the sorting would be happening in the moment, as needed, and there wouldn’t be anything to work out in our sleep. And that sounds rather dreamy. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.) This post was originally published in April 2019.

Jeane: So, in the next dream, I seem to be visiting a man, in his living room, and in the adjoining room he has two young sons who are sleeping, or at least playing in their room.

And then I go over and it’s like I want to lay down under some blankets, on the floor, with him. And it also feels like there’s his mother, or someone, in the background somewhere, but not right there with us at the moment, but an influence.

And it’s like we kiss, but I can tell there’s an imbalance going on, like one of us maybe wants more children and the other doesn’t. And I’m also trying to figure out what is it that the mother would want, or what is it that the boys want? Because I think maybe he doesn’t want more children, and that’s what I’m trying to figure out.


And then the scene shifts, and I seem to be by myself, in a house where I go, and I think the boys burst into that living room at some point, too. Then I seem to be in a house and I go up to a room and there’s a man there, a married man I know from New York, and he embraces me, and kisses me, but I’m really not feeling anything. But now I know he’s going to be going back to New York. That was all that I dreamt.

John: Well, what you’re doing is you’re playing with the aspect of whether or not your intentionality of your nature is taking into account the surrounding. I mean, it’s not a whole lot different than when you’re observing the football game, and going up and down with every little aspect of things, and fail to realize that there is an intertwinement that you’re capable of catching up with, and should be seeing.

And the closer you get to that intertwinement, the more closely you get to what is actually going on. And the more, somehow or another, you actually influence, or seem to influence, because you’re in touch with the sequence of events.

So, in the first part of your dream, you are actually trying to do something that doesn’t quite feel right to you because there’s the mother in the area, there’s two kids in the area, there’s this guy in his notionality of things, and then there’s the blanket that you crawl under and hope to, as a consequence, blank out, or shut off, all of that in order to effectuate a particular kind of momentum, or intentionality, of your nature.

And, deep down, you know that it isn’t meant to quite work that way, because what you’re doing is a peculiarity of overtness of your nature that isn’t taking into account a bigger picture.

So, in this other part of the dream, you’re starting to let go of that, and, as you let go of that, you find out that, for example, the boys are able to now free flow around the house, when before they needed to be off to one side in order for you to get your way. And that the guy that you were overly indulging in, with kind of an emotional blood energy depicted aspect of projection, turns out, you know, that that was all projection on your part because you realize that you had to carry it all, that he doesn’t, isn’t, and wasn’t really intertwining with you, and it was all coming from you. Because when everything is placed back into the natural, where everything has its own place, you come to realize that that doesn’t fit.

And so it’s kind of a teaching dream, in a sense, in that it is showing the momentous mannerism, or nature, that we get caught up in, because we live in such a bifurcated way, that we can’t help but have predilections that choose to select this, and select that, as we bicycle about – all the way from how we watch an illusion unfolding in front of us, like a football game, to where we take steps to try to enhance our life, so to speak, but there’s nothing to enhance. There’s just something that has to be intertwined, and, if we don’t see what is intertwined, then we just cause ourselves a lot of grief.

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The Child

We know what happens when a man and a woman procreate, but that same process of masculine and feminine connection and exchange happens in the energetic realms – both within us and everywhere in the universe. And, like any newborn, it requires a certain safety and care and feeding before it is strong and healthy enough to fend for itself. And, just as in the outer, sometimes these unions are fraught with difficulties and indecision. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So, in this dream, it’s like I’ve seen a man – I’m like, young – I’ve seen a man and I have a baby with him, but the baby’s in his country; he’s from another country. So I’m going there to get the baby. 

And when I arrived there at first his family wants to keep us apart because they have a woman they want him to be with that’s from that country. And I’m wanting him to make up his mind who he wants to be with. And I seem to be talking to some man and his family about that, about that he and I want to be together. I think we do.

And then I go into the town and it’s like sometimes people almost have like boats that float down in the air, going around town, it’s kind of a strange town. And I realize that they’re kind of watching me because they see me as a stranger. And I just want to find out where the baby is, and go see the baby. And I realize that people in that town kind of want to keep him there. 

And then it shifts slightly because I have this feeling like he can’t seem to make up his mind. So I’ve gone into a room and the woman that he’s been engaged to is there, and she and I start talking because I want to set up how we’re going to care for the baby. And he comes in, and because he hasn’t been able to make up his mind we treat him almost like he’s irrelevant. It’s like she and I have to figure this out, like, where’s the baby going to go for Christmas? And how are we going to do all this? That was the dream.

John: So what you’re working with is an imbalance principle, and the imbalance principle is that of the masculine having to come down into matter, into the physical. And when it comes down into the physical, and is grounded in the physical, then change can occur. Then something can be properly birthed and cared for. Otherwise, it’s left to the devices of the physical, of matter. And it can’t work that way because it doesn’t have the intertwined alignment. 

The nature of the feminine, or the nature of manifestation, the nature of creation is created in God’s image is that it has an effect in that it knows the note inside of itself and it is trying to bring that into an aliveness, and a completeness. It’s trying to awaken this note that’s embedded in matter. And that note is awoken, that’s embedded a matter, by something that comes down and touches that, and then it sparkles, and then the dance can begin. 

And then out of that can be something more: the child. But to try to take care of the child without the inner guidance is like trying to move the deckchairs around on the Titanic in the outer. You’re following your best conceptions, but you don’t have the linkage of the inner coming into the outer. And so you’re trying to do it in an outer-motif way. And it doesn’t work that way, and it never can work that way. And to the degree that it appears to work that way, it’s like winning the jackpot, you just get further disoriented and weakened. 

So what you’re dreaming is you’re dreaming one half of a two-step process. The first step, of course, is the recognition of how something comes from inner into outer. How it comes in is not discussed. How it comes in is it comes in inflectively. And so if it’s not coming in inflectively, then you’re left to your own devices in terms of trying to figure it out on your own. And when you are trying to figure it out on your own, based upon your own devices, you are doing it in an outer way. You’re playing with the reflective; because the inflective changes the reflective. 

If you have a reflection that is based upon how something is that has an a-to-z quality to it, in terms of all of the component pieces, and if that is meant to change, to go and be affected by an inner transmission, you may have gone from a to l before you got the inflective, and when you get the inflective you let go, it’s done. You don’t have to go all the way to zee. The inner inflective comes in and causes it to be the way it needs to be. 

And if you continue to stay trying to go from l to z, then you are declaring war on God, or on this principle of the inflective of the inner coming into the outer. And when you do that, the result of what happens there is going to be disorienting. It’s going to be confusing, it’s going to be bewildering. It could be saddening, it could be heavy on the heart and all of that sort of stuff, there’s going to be a strain involved there. And the strain comes because you’re trying to take an illusion and make something out of it. 

But the outer, and the way things are shaped up around, is the below of something created. In other words, manifestation is created in God’s image. And that image of the inflective comes down, that inflective comes down and changes the story, it changes the reflection, it changes the image. 

If you’re not realizing that it works that way, then you’re going to be caught up in all the weather events as if that’s important. And you’re going to be dancing with that trying to shift this and shift that in terms of moving the illusion around this way and that way. And you’re going to be fighting all the collective forces that are similarly correlated, in a man-made way, instead of working in terms of inner coming into outer.

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A Cracked Egg

It’s a fine line to know when to flow with and allow our natural tendencies their outplay, and when those inner mannerisms, which we think of as natural to us, become a detrimental tangent that we are indulging in ourselves. These are decisions, choices, and responses that we must make on the fly, which is why the best consciousness is to understand that, ultimately, we must let everything go. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: To catch up with it like this I had to go through some really radical, a very radical intense meditation, in that what I saw, on the inner, was kind of exquisite. How that translated across into the outer was one of sheer devastation; it was almost as if the world could come to an end. And yet, on the inner, it wasn’t like that. 

So, these extremes had to be reconciled, and to reconcile them in my usual way, in terms of the effect of that state, that would have caused me to have a calamitous perspective – how to pull that together? In other words, there would have been something on one side that would have been okay and something on this side that would have been horrendous, and the conclusion would have been diffused.

But the time has come where my nature, that has a reactionariness, needs to be worked around and set aside in terms of what impels and comes across to me, in order to take on a greater and greater dimensionality, or, otherwise, the reactive quality will always keep something held back and shut off in some capacity. A capacity that needs to be overcome in order to denote even more. 

So, it was almost like this was a type of “the jig is up,” kind of thing, in that what has been an inhibition, an over reactiveness, the time is up – that needs to go away. And so a means is devised that I do seem to ground, I do seem to align, but not necessarily as succinctly as a given moment in time when a state, or vibration, first comes in. I can be thrown for a shock. 

That’s why a teacher takes and is constantly catching a student off-guard, on purpose, to see if they can take that sort of thing in and immediately allow it to fit into the overallness of their being. Or do they go off on this propensity or that propensity? 

So think of the dilemma the teacher has in terms of even as he had to introduce a lot of things about Sufism, and had to introduce vibrations, and bring through energies, and do stuff to intertwine a person to the inner connections that they have inside of themselves to something so much more. He had to contend with the fact that there is this natural propensity to have a reactiveness, and that reactiveness gets in the way and causes, then, you to go off and see something in a distorted mannerism. 

And the secret is to be present, to let go, and allow this and take in this something more instead of having to be caught up in a part of yourself that is still sealed in some sort of negative capacity way, or, in other words, defense mechanism mannerism that seals you away from the taking in of this greater quality. 

And this is true of everyone; this is true of teachers, too. They have a certain propensity or mannerism upon which they have developed impressions that they follow, and are they taking those impressions and incorporating them fully into their being? Now, in order to incorporate something coming from inner into outer you have to ground it. And in order for something that rises up from the feminine, that is grounded, it has to make sure that it is properly accepting the bigger picture of a oneness, or otherwise what rises up in the feminine will go off in its tangentiality. 

So it’s like everything is susceptible. The masculine is susceptible to the input, the feminine is susceptible to what rises up, and what needs to occur is they both need to recognize that, because the feminine doesn’t know the other side as much as the masculine knows the other side, and the masculine doesn’t know grounding as much as the feminine knows grounding. And if you don’t work and put those two principles together, then you have like a cracked egg all the time.

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