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71goIs it disappointing to learn that those sexy dreams, where we are making a beautiful connection with the object of our desire, are really about one part of ourselves interacting with another part of ourselves? It shouldn’t be a disappointment because it means that a deeper connection is being made, if the seduction is successful. We are always in an inner dance of approach and retreat, inside, as we try to become a oneness in ourselves. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I remembered my first dream, but lost my second one. In the first dream, I seem to be at some kind of a gathering in the mountains. There’s like little cabins we stay in. There’s people from different areas there.

And it’s a day when most of us will be leaving. And I want to make an impression, or link up with, or still spend some time with one of the men who’s somebody I’ve known for quite a long time that I want to get closer to. And I’m trying to think of how to do that. He seems to have some kind of an appointment or something that he has to do back in the city.

So when I’m going to say goodbye to him, along with a couple other women friends that are with me, I think I’ll take him a crystal that has special powers. So when I go down to meet him, it’s in a small wooden building, but there’s other people that have come into that building, both men and women, that have been at the seminar. And I go over to him and I’m going to give him one of my crystals that I have in a little bag; I’m looking at a couple that have special powers.

And I grab a hold of one crystal, I know that it’s a crystal which I can almost levitate or do other things with. And then I see a man that’s come into the building, who’s from India, and I actually see him levitate, and he’s wearing white robes.

Well, then when I connect with the man that I want to spend more time with, I suddenly realize that he really is a good friend to me, that I don’t need to be wanting more. I don’t need to be doubting that link, or friendship, he actually does have something he has to do. And we will connect, because we have this deep friendship, and I shouldn’t have been being so neurotic about it.

And I don’t really have to give him any of the crystals or anything. In fact, now that I’ve seen the other man levitate, I feel like I don’t want the others to know that I have the crystals, or know what I can do with them, or if I can levitate or I can do other things when I hold a crystal, that I just put them away in a bag. It’s like I don’t want the man from India to see what they do. I should just relax and trust the connections I have. So that was that dream.  

John: The theme of the dreaming had to do with being able to be in a one beingness, or, in other words, a quality of essence of oneself, in which there is the holding onto the emptiness.

And what your dream does is it causes you to catch up or to recognize the one thing that you’re still holding onto, in terms of trying to get it to be in some particular personal way or another. So the dream starts off in which you have climbed the mountain of obstacles. And, having climbed this mountain, you’re at a point where there is the means of just now letting go; letting everything fall away.

And yet you still want to direct, or to shape, or to affect something, that you still feel is important, that you need. And so you attempt, then, to establish a reflection of yourself, in such a way, so that that creates an enamor-ation in which you are able to get, or to recreate, the inflection of that which you sense, or still hold out, as being something that you need, or want.

And, pausing from the dream for a second, on a psychological level, this trait is spoken of in terms of when the feminine energy takes and hearkens to a quality of doingness separation, to hold onto a situation, it is generally seen, or spoken of, or recognized most prominently, as what is called a Father Complex, in which the feminine energy continues to keep trying to please that aspect – as if there is something amiss until that is pleased.

But, in your dream, having noted this quality inside of you, and so also in noting this quality you note that there was something inhibiting about that, you were able to see that something that was inhibiting about that, instead of staying righteous in your oneness and adamant nature, to get what you felt you wanted and had to have happen. You came to recognize and to realize that there is a greater purpose unfolding, that there is a greater overall beingness that is emerging, and that this sweeps over anything that you could be looking at in some trite way, and you then realize kind of the error of trying to induce, or seduce, the conceptualization of what it is that you feel you still need to do.

And so, you realize that you are doing that as a kind of abomination, to yourself, when you utilize the secrets of magic in the physical plane reality of things. Instead, you can let all of that go as you embrace the totality of all that there is.

So, even though the dream is making this kind of an interesting Aesop fable of a storyline, what’s deeper underneath that is to actually do that, what is it that the heart must do? Because the heart is always lying to hold onto something a little bit this way, or that way. So what is it that the heart must do in order for it to truly be able to do that?

And the heart must be able to put everything into it, in other words, not have some little holdout area that it is keeping secretive for itself, or, otherwise, there will always be the idea that is called or referred to as a kind of Father Complex mannerism in which there will be an attempt to cause something to have an appearance that is in a directed, created, kind of alignment – that one has self-created – which limits the potentiality.

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OumDo we realize that we are energy processing beings? If we feel restless it is because we have energy that needs to be expended. If we have anger or other emotions, those are energies that are in a state of being processed. And when we have a hard time of it, it’s because we are unable to process the energy quickly enough to prevent it from becoming toxic to our system. It’s not a mystery, it’s the way it works. When we are healthy and rested, we process energy better. And, best of all, when we are conscious of this process in us, our systems can work even more efficiently on our behalf. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: I’m looking at what is a kind of evolvement in which there are aspects of kundalini. And I started off exclusively looking at it from the masculine standpoint, and then it flips to the octave of the feminine. But the subject is perceived from the standpoint of the other side. Kundalini energy perceived from the perspective of the other side.

And so my meditation dream involved the schematic as being impressed upon a sense of tangible experienciality, that was before me, as a condition, but not quite reachable; in other words, it’s off the ground. Or, in another way of saying it, it’s like an image that I’m seeing myself that is inside a container, and I am outside, or not able to touch this state. 

I’m trying to contend with everything therein that is going around and around, and I am unable to touch this to cause it to be still. Consequently, because I am unable to quite reach and touch the projected outerness, that would be still if it was pulled together, by being in-between like that, my kundalini energy is racing, and I am unable to shut off this synaptic-ness.

The way you could recreate this, in this kind of effect in a physical way, is if you take magnets that oppose each other, like a type of opposing of each other, they really attract, but that requires another flip at something. If you take two magnets that have a like kind of vibration, they tend to push each other apart, and that is a reactive zone that’s pushing like that. They really attract.

And so there’s always the apprehension of something more. And then there’s that repeller, and then you end up with going through, when you’re experiencing it in an outer way, you’re going through repeats and repeats and repeats of patterns, as you’re continually trying to break this trance – because there is a wholeness; we are all same same. There is just a One Being, and you pull the likenesses together; the magnets are pushing, trying to keep it separate. You gotta break that, and that’s breaking the kundalini entrapment.

So because I am unable to quite reach and touch an outerness to be still, my kundalini energy races and I’m unable to shut off this synaptic-ness, because you’re striving to have the likenesses. It’s an awkward way because it’s the condition of manifestation to have something set up that way. To not be able to stop, and be still, is to be restless.

This is more or less a description of how the masculine struggles to bring things all the way through. They run into that. And the feminine pulls something. So the masculine energy is like an “I need” energy, and the feminine energy is like an “I want” where it pulls something. Again, as if there is an opposite between masculine and feminine, and thus a magnetism. So when something is seeking to absorb, it’s an “I need.”

So, because I am unable to ground what lies as an image before me, my efforts to touch the reflectiveness so it will go – poof! – into a letting-go stillness, is a bewildering state. You’re ever so close, yet just out of reach sensation is the effect of kundalini racing.

The stillness is to stop, or go through, to let go to hit the stillness of this outer condition, that’s reflective, where there is that zone in-between. And that, to do so, is a letting go that is naturally quiet and still. For me to meditate is to be able to come to an inner stillness. That’s transcendent energy.

So, as a raciness inside that is just there, which was the scenario when I sat down to meditate, is to be caught up by an energetic, and from the perspective of focus, thus, unable to be quiet, unable to be still, unable to dream.

So it’s interesting, the idea of letting go leads to the quietness and the stillness because you you take in, or you absorb, something comes together there instead of repelling and creating this peculiar thing –  and that condition is kundalini, it’s a power there and you pull it together. It’s pulled together as the masculine is trying to come down, and it’s pulling together as the feminine pulls something in.

To be swept up energetically, yet unable to bring the energy into a reflective dream, is a condition the masculine complains about it when it knows it dreamt but isn’t able to pull out the dream when it opens its eyes. This is the want, and the need therein is to be grounded. And the feminine is to pull it to a closeness, i.e., to bring the transcendent vibration into an immanence.

So you have the subjective, embedded knowingness that isn’t quite accessible, because getting it to come out requires almost like an objective something occurring. And the objective something has to occur in order in order to see the subjective embedded knowingness.

And, to repeat, the energetic out-of-reachness is the condition more prominently experienced by a masculine trying to come down in an attempt to be complete. And the mood and subjective rootedness is the condition more prominently aspected by the feminine unable to break free – so she longs to be free.

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imaxxgesWe have noted that intelligence comes from our higher connections, and, when we feel we have an insight, it is quite easy for us to take that insight and run with it – all the way to being disconnected again. So it is important, in our processes, to continually check-in with the higher reasoning of what we are trying to do, the intentions behind our efforts. That is how we can stay in the connections while we are actively doing in the outer. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Similarly, in my dreaming, something was stifling. In other words, in the dream it starts off in which I’m in an atmosphere, a workplace kind of atmosphere, in which there is something obvious that I know that should be done, but even though it’s obvious there are constraints, or protocol, in terms of how something is able to come out, and, no matter how obvious it looks, I need to go through the protocol or it won’t come out properly.

So this is a place with a lot of different departments in it, like a manufacturing place, and I’m kind of a person that free flows, you know maybe not just complete manual-labor type, but a type that has another kind of freedom to do things. But I do have my parameters, in that I just can’t willy-nilly do whatever I darn well please. I have to get permission.

So to get permission I go looking for the boss, the big boss. And normally if I feel something properly and passionately, and I can feel it in a free flow way with inside of myself, I’ll find the boss. In other words, I will find what I need to hear in order to be able to do what needs to be done.

But, in this particular instance, I cannot find the boss no matter where I look, and I look and I look, and then I conclude he must be in another division of this company, in another area, because he’s not where I would’ve expected to find him.

Now I know that if I find him I will get the permission I need, but it’s inappropriate for me to act out on my own. No matter how good of an idea it is, and no matter how much it makes sense in terms of helping the situation, it’s not something I am allowed to do.

Now what this is talking about is a type of seeing from a listening center way. One of the main reasons why we can’t catch up with the hearing that is a seeing is, we really don’t want to know. And it is often said that this is a bigger feminine problem than it is a masculine problem.

The masculine will go along and will really stab its heart trying to solve something, because it’s just got that kind of nature where it’s always trying to bring down an energy – as if it has the solution at hand to solve something. And so in doing that when it’s out of balance, because it doesn’t have the connective flow, it is stabbing itself.

But the feminine energy can feel the same stifling, but rather than necessarily reaching for all kinds of solution ideas, will try to put herself into a trance where everything is deemed to somehow be okay.

Well it’s not okay. It’s a mood then or it’s an emotional mannerism, and when it’s like that you can even say, for example, that the person would even prefer to be lied to, even them knowing that they’re lied to, because it’s a sense of relief that they’re looking for. And so when it’s like that they’re not ready to bring together components. They choose to maintain some sort of trance.

This is molecular again. It’s a thought-upon-thought, a dilemma, and then you don’t get outside of that. You’re still caught in the mood of some aspected vibrational thought-upon-thought. And that’s monotonous, that’s stifling, and then you can actually adopt the idea of kind of a controlled waiting, that there is something that’s going to break the spell someday, somehow, as if there’s some latent promise that things are in the works that are changing, that are becoming more conscious. And you could sit in that modality, and maybe if you face it directly you realize that you’re carrying an imagination, a boil, which you’re not popping – and how long does one keep that up?

Well the masculine, by comparison, goes around and acts as if it can try to find its relief, instead of trying to sit and make the atmosphere sensate better, the masculine will go along and try to get the permission, or find a means by which it can act, but it will never find the means, or the permission, by which it can act and effectuate a change for as long as its feeling the heaviness about something, or is stressed out in some strange fashion, manneristically.

And so when it’s like that it can’t open itself up, and so the atmosphere aspect of the dream shifts, in which I am there, and I have this whole place.

This is my place, and even though it’s my place, I still have to function like everybody else, or so it seems. But everyone else is functioning in a way that is silly, you know, that doesn’t really flow. Because I carry a tone or a mood that feels reactive about the fact that something isn’t properly flowing, I’m not effective, so I kind of sit off to one side. I slink away.

I look at this and look at that, and finally someone who is kind of in charge kind of complains and says, “The problem is that someone won’t check in.”

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