Something Is Missing

Sun_insion)When we are in contact with the aura of another person, energies are exchanged. When we are within the radiation of a teacher, what is exchanged is the expertise of that teacher. Meaning we will understand things better, see things more clearly, and learn more quickly when we are in their energetic field. This is true of a real spiritual teacher, or anyone with expertise or facility in some area or another: a musician, an artist, a good mother, a good athlete, a good cook. The laws of energy are the same: the stronger radiation transfers to the weaker radiation, in the sense of teacher to student, and the student benefits from the transference. But, of course, the student must take up the practice of what is transferred, making it their own, otherwise, when the student is alone, the transference will eventually dissipate with little gained. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In my meditation dream, because the atmosphere that I am accustomed to here is different, or has changed, in that apparently I must miss some level inside myself, that Dee brings to bear, that facilitates a connection that I’ve come to expect, and, I guess, perhaps even take for granted.

I’m noticing the difficulty, somehow. There was something imperatively important, or intertwined, in terms of that relationship. The way it’s seen in the dream is I’m traveling into an area in which I’m struggling to find the natural knowingness that corresponds with the inner guidepost. Usually, I don’t have to struggle. Usually, somehow or another, there is a natural grounded presence that makes this possible.

And this area I travel into is, when you kind of view it from within, from the level of the soul or something, because apparently this connection must be on a soul level that makes for a greater wholeness, I have an awareness that I have just naturally gotten accustomed and acclimated to expecting this being there, and treating it as part of my overall atmosphere. But this time is different.

So, of course, to make sure that I document this I made a note to what I call energetic self, that I believe, on a subtle level, this is an area that Dee has honed, and that I am able to benefit from a connection that is invisibly there as part of us. So I am having to access the depth, based upon what I am familiar with in terms of my soul nature from long ago. And this isn’t very balanced, or at least not as balanced, based upon how the dream portrays this.

So, in the meditation dream, I go away from the we’ll call it the Dee energy guide, which is not succinct like it usually is on the inner vibrational plane level. And so I go off on a side journey that’s in communion, or union, but not me. In continuing this, I see myself going into a place where I was stuck way out there vibrationally, trying to speak in an aloneness long ago, until after a very long time in this limbo I come to know that there was a subtle sensation missing. And, as a result, I find myself in this kind of Bardo area, in other words, not able to travel in the way that I’m accustomed to traveling, having made like a type of energetic detour and not knowing my north, south, east or west.

So I find myself back into a place where I had been ages and eons ago, long, long ago, in certain terms of some sort of energetic soul memory, which was a self-imposed kind of purgatory that lacks a lot of sensation that’s necessary – and so I’m really kind of compacted. At least I have a background. In other words, I’m trying to rationalize this because I’m familiar with this place that I fell back into without something that had bolstered me so that I no longer held out in that way.

So I’m trying to rationalize, and I’m saying, well, at least I have a background on this inner soul level from which to fall back upon to sort things out, because I’ve been to this place before. It was there for a long, long time, stuck there for a long time, figuring I have to do the best because without a presence on an inner soul stillness, that somehow or another is associated with Dee’s vibration, which is removed from the atmosphere, means that I have to tread through this Bardo area in terms of a soul clarity, break out of the sensation limitation, and aloneness, and do it on my own.

So I seem to have done that, because I seem to have spent enough time there to know the difference, in that I am able to come back to a point, as if I can follow that echo back to that point, and do so in spite of a kind of amnesia where I don’t know where to go from there. It’s like I miss an energetic bridge within, that’s a linkage I’m meant to have.

I could have gotten quite distraught, but of course on an inner level you don’t do that, you just sit in a confusion, because I noticed that I didn’t have the insight, an insight that I took to be a quality of a stillness. In other words, it keeps one from jumping around too energetically, or reacting in too great a way, this way or that way, which is what I seem to have when Dee’s inner soul presence is there.

So, enough of something is here, though, in terms of a growth process, from an innerness in which I seem to be situated without time, that I can kind of sort out, or describe, the distinction of what had been, and what now is, meaning that I don’t have the stillness as honed as it was before.

And I just have to notice that, on my own, it’s as if things are just going to be a little more vibrational, and vibrations lead to pain, or, therefore, a little more painful than usual, as the price for the break in the intertwined linkage of my inner beingness.

So, I guess I can conclude that I still need help, however, in that a natural, at peace, stillness in which an inner soul faith is always there for me, it’s not something that I have fully embodied yet on my own.

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Able to Be


Octavia Brooks

Through the arc of a night of dreaming, all the dreams are connected. Sometimes we can even see the progression that has been made, and the evolution that results. Here we have images that utilize the imagery of things, or people, in threes. Yet in a later image, we have the number four, which signals that a completion has been made – just like four seasons make a full cycle, and Earth, Air, Fire, and Water are the four elements of everything. This points out, again, that everything is connected: the universe, the planet, the human, and our dreams – all work under the same unfolding principles. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, in the next dream, this time I’m in a hall near the front. And the president, that’s upfront, that I’m able to observe, is a woman president.

And so then there are two people directly to her left, or my right. And I notice that I’m looking at the furthest one, not the one in-between, but the furthest one, who’s fascinating to me in some way because I know that she is more than what she projects. In other words, she’s sitting there, but there is something about her that is held back, or dynamic. In other words, that’s in a quiet repose.

At some point, the president looks over at her, and starts to talk to her, and in talking to her she shifts her position and comes closer to her. And I am able to see that this woman just keeps opening up like I always knew she was able to do, or had in her. I can’t seem to take my eyes off of what I am seeing, as if I can’t get enough of the coming-out connectivity.

And then, at some point, in what is now a kind of glee, she and the woman president hug. And when this happens, the image changes and I see bare feet juggling about up in the air, in place of the woman president and the woman.

Now, incorporating the prior dream, the inner/outer perception encompasses all there is: inner into a one beingness from which there is a rejoicing with glee. Everything is included when there is no time, space, or inner/outer vibratory mannerisms, characteristics, or impressions. Just joy in separation, and bliss in union.

So the sweet pain is a type of joy coming in to life. And the going back union – that’s the bliss. The thing about this dream, now, that you have to denote, is that there were three seats in the back row, in the first one, and there was like three sections I had to walk through to get to the back area.

And in the second dream there was a woman president, and then two others, so that was three. And so then, here comes this dream.

I’m riding in the backseat of a car. And, in this backseat, there are four of us. And, in this case, as the situation and circumstances change, I have to accept wherever I find myself. To begin with, I start next to a window; a window on the right side. When another person is more comfortable being, and is in need of being, next to that window, I sit in the middle. In other words, I don’t think of it one way or another, it’s just what seems to naturally gravitate.

In another image, there’s three of us, and I’m on the far left. But I’m moving to the middle as we pick up our fourth person who gets in next to the window, because, again, that’s what makes sense, and that’s what’s easier to do.

What is important in the dream is I am surrendered to whatever is in flow, or, you might say anywhere on the bus, as the statement goes, or in this dream anywhere in the backseat of a car in terms of how all of it flows.

Now the significance is that this dream is rounding out the letting-go images, as kind of denoted in a certain way in the first and second dream, in that the result is completeness of the letting go into a natural overall stillness. In the first two dreams there was still the observing of the process. So three needed to become four; in the first dream there were three seats in the back row, and three sections in the hall. In the second dream, with the president, there were three in the front, two to the left of her.

Now there are four, the symbol of completeness, as I am okay with being where I am placed, and have reached a point where I have no qualms whatsoever in terms of any way in particular.

And so, in the final dream, in this dream the sensation is that things are going on in life, and I notice the unfoldment. When asked about my opinion, I say I wouldn’t think of imposing my ideas or mannerisms upon the situation.

So the meaning scenario is, I noticed a person yesterday, that I know, making actually interesting observations regarding the outer reflections of things that have a whole lot to do with the way things are in terms of how the collective consciousness of man has evolved, and I noticed that the person was seeking to make choices to contend with the way this is unfolding.

Everything may have made sense when observed in that way, in other words, in terms of the fact that things are falling apart, and that certain inevitabilities seem to be in the offing when looked at in an outer way. But because it is an outer perspective, you can have no letting go, you just have the self-imposed grief.

To be able to be in whatever there is, and be at ease, is what it means to, one, put everything into the heart. And two, be the one beingness.

So what is this really? Well, actually, it’s the higher octave of forgiveness that is not understood or practiced. The reason is because of reacting outwardly, in terms of the collective consciousness, instead of placing everything into the heart to be absorbed. Nobody seems to understand that because they find themselves in this outward sorting out, that just leads to peculiarities in terms of how you are. It does no good quibbling, introducing things in an outer context that have nothing to do with an overall harmony.

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No Limitations

Angelic_moversWe all know that the moon can affect us, whether it is in terms of our mental, emotional, or physical state. Now, of course, it affects the plants and animals as well, but we can choose to be conscious of exactly what the effects are. And it is the same for sun spots. And it is the same for all astrological influences. We may understand these things because there is a long history and record of the way these celestial objects affect us, but in truth we can understand them directly, through our own faculties – it’s just a matter of training our systems. It’s not magic, or the capability of “special” people, it’s an aspect of our design that we have left dormant – but can awaken at any time. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So to talk about my meditation dream is often like trying to tell a new guy about what is going on. And, to do so, I communicate in a non-reflective way. In other words, for it to be non-reflective means that it has to be relatable to the soul, in a oneness, beyond current sense awareness. Or, otherwise, how do you relate, to someone, what is going on?

Because you can’t just define the outer because that’s just an understanding, that’s not describing, or telling a person, what is really going on. So, if what I say is definable, in some outer-awareness sense, then it is something that is grasped by the sense-oriented mind – and it is not an all-pervasive knowingness, and, therefore, the heart is left askew.

A stillness can be so deep within that my overall beingness can’t function in outer way anymore. So now this is the opposite. I’m noticing this other because I’m noticing that there is such a letting go. For example, I saw myself trying to turn off a manmade light in the outer, this being a light that reaches the physical senses. And what I found was that I was unable to bring my beingness into manifestation to turn off such a light.

Yet I am aware, however, the hopeless condition of not being able, in terms of physical nature as an outer stupor, not able to contend with it because I’m in such a deep inner space. And then, all of a sudden, that gap is bridged when I’m kissed on the cheek from a place within that permeates from the here to the beyond.

The significance: to think that I can bring this inner abiding beingness to where it touches vibrations directly goes beyond the physical state. The result is a frustration that is a trying to penetrate a bifurcated outer way, with an all-pervading inner overallness. In other words, projecting that way, which is an outward trying to incorporate a letting-go stillness, and yet it’s an inner stillness. It’s the absorbing of things and putting everything in the heart. That is what is the unexplainable mystery to the physical senses. Otherwise the physical senses are just there, trying to do what they do.

So then I go through various placements in which you could draw a conclusion in relationship to your senses, which you would perceive with your senses, and whether you still are having to sort out in that regard.

So, in this dream, I am in a large hall. There are windows along the right side. I have a ticket, in the hall, that seems somewhere near the back on the right side. But when I pause to appreciate where I find myself at, in the pausing I seem to see my whereabouts as near a window. And I’m excited about that; kind of desirable to sit near a window. 

And, in this dream, like I say, it’s exhilarating. And I’m excited because even though I am near the window, on the right side, I feel that my connection isn’t limited in terms of a vision, or a way of being, that goes from the very back to the front.

So, in describing where I’m at, I’m in the back row, in which there are just three seats, and then the row in front extends longer in front of where I’m at, and there’s just three seats behind that. And my seat is along the aisle there. I’m excited about placement, because I’m not affected at all in terms of my connection to the front, even though it’s not a complete row, behind a row which is much longer.

And, in this dream, first of all, I’m just in this natural state of knowingness, but then I am shown that you could look at it in its nuances if you wanted to. And in looking at it in its nuances, where one could react, or be shocked or something, by how far back it was, because that wasn’t the sensation because my connection was fine. I remember walking down the aisle from the front and was surprised at how far I had to walk to get to this back, back seat. Other than that extended image of coming down to the last row, far from the front, the sensation I had was as being wonderfully placed in terms of my orientation, in regards to both the window and my sight.

And, of course, if you look at it rationally, if I was off to one side there would have been heads in front of me. But it didn’t affect the sight, in terms of how the sight needed to be – apparently, in terms of a letting-go-ness within. Or, as the meaning goes, there are no inner/outer limitations, no time and space concerns for a heart able to truly let go and take in all there is – from however and wherever one is positioned. You just hold it all. You contain it all; it’s not a conditional thing.

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