A Limited Way

thu2It is often hard to describe what coming from inner into outer actually looks, or feels, like, and this dream helps with this fundamental idea. Because we know when someone is good at something, that we won’t  be as good as them if we just copy their movements. A great chef could give you a recipe, but it might never taste the same. Or a musician can show you the chords of his song, but it doesn’t have the same impact. That is because the true act is coming from within the person, and no two people can be identical in that way. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: My longest dream last night, it seemed like I was studying the qualities of Payton Manning – and it didn’t have anything to do with football. It was just like he, and maybe his brother or some other family member, were in my dream.

And, in my dream, they were somebody who had accomplished a lot, and I was studying, and what I was realizing is that when people tried to copy him they weren’t able to accomplish what he was accomplishing because what he was doing was not visible. And what he was doing, in a sense, was a little bit like the video game in that he had these kind of multicolored balls that, if you lined them up and they kind of imploded, they caused a certain effect but you never saw them, you know, it was just something that was done invisibly. And it was a certain alignment, and that alignment caused a certain implosion of energy.

And also, you know, it’s like if you got there earlier he was always going to be there earlier. And other people might try to do what he was doing, but they were copying something on the outer and it wasn’t working because what was making him really good at what he was doing was on the inner.

It was interesting because the dream didn’t have any football in it at all. It was just about the quality of achieving in life, and somebody else who was trying to accomplish that but I was maybe talking to them because what needed to be aligned was on the inner, it wasn’t on the outer which is where other people were focusing. And that dream went on for quite a long time because I was studying what kind of alignment was involved.

John: The detail aspect behind a dream like this has to do with how do you relate in an outer world which is reflective. In other words, the outer reflects the condition of something and then, typically speaking, a person contends with that by trying to cope with that reflection with another reflection – in other words, with an understanding or something.

And, until I had the final dream, I didn’t realize or wasn’t realizing, and I had the final dream in order to correct the fact that because I was coming to kind of a harsh reality, that it’s just reflection upon reflection, and that’s a pretty dire condition to be left in, which means that you just go around and around having to contend with things that affect the heart.

You can get into an emptiness, but not really because then out of that comes some sort of reflection, or relatability, and when you tie into that you then are back to the cycle, the up and down cycle of reflection upon reflection. And we are slowly being directed away from having to be in such a limited way because that is still personal when it’s like that.

In other words, that which isn’t personal comes from a place beyond reflection, it’s a pure light or something. And we aren’t aware of that, so we’re affected by reflection. And when we’re affected by reflection, and we relate to that reflection, then we do something that involves a vying within the heart. In other words, there’s a weight, or burden. There is something that the heart is still trying to sort out, or align, as if it can align or figure out reflections on top of reflections.

And what you were looking at is, you’re aware that there has to be something more than that. There has to be something that goes beyond all of that, that doesn’t stay caught in this mired condition. And so when you were looking at Payton Manning, what you were looking at was this quality where he can get in zone, and in that zone he can see anything, and everything that can happen – and it’s a kind of a knowingness. If he’s paying attention to that, as if he’s trying to act like he’s the one that’s capable of doing this, then he will get back into the realm of reflection.

And so the criticism of Manning is that on the big game he loses something that he is able to carry in the regular season. In other words, he breaks under pressure. For him to break under pressure would mean then that he gets caught in the reflection of things. He gets caught in the thrill of that moment, or something, as opposed to being in the zone.

When that sort of thing happens, when you go into a zone, you affect everything around you, like when Michael Jordan used to go into a zone it would affect the entire team. They would suddenly start getting the rebounds that they weren’t getting. They would suddenly start being in the right place, and he would start being in the right place, and everything would seem to have a synchronicity to it that supported being in the zone. But being in a zone can have a collateral damage effect, in that it can be more than what others are prepared, or capable, or able to handle And when it’s like that, then you get a blowback of a reflection coming from another part that isn’t able to be carried by your presence.

In other words, Manning as the quarterback has to carry the entire team inside of himself in order to make the zone inflection properly work. If you don’t, and something can’t be maintained, or has its doubts or whatever it is that go back into the reflection of things, then it will not work.

For example, at a Sufi conference there was this guy who was going to take people to various levels at a depth that was like a zoning out inside of themselves. And he was going to do it with music. And he explained it ahead of time as to what he was going to do and, initially, just as it was getting exciting, just as I was sensing that he had gone through what I consider introductory stuff and was now getting to the point where he was going to be sending people into a revelry, a person tips over in their chair and almost knocks himself out going over backwards. And that’s when he realized that the reflection, a reflection yet was too much, and that then limited the degree because he couldn’t shoot through that. Once something cracked like that, he wasn’t able to go beyond that. He wasn’t able to take something through that.

So that’s what you were looking at. You were looking at this quality and this trait, and you had a fairly clean, pure view of it.

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A Merged State

blue-angelWe could consider the whole of our spiritual journey as a process of getting a more and more detailed view of what is going on behind the veils of outer life. And, as we make that journey, deeper and deeper within, or higher and higher up the energetic planes -depending on your perspective – we get closer to the essence of where it all began. Or at least we can get glimpses of what that can feel like. And perhaps that is what our true feelings of love are a reflection of, the sense of completion of being with the merged state. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So I’m explaining that I let my mind wander when I woke up, and he’s explaining why I forgot it.

John: I can tell kind of why you would forget something like this because of the nature of the way the theme of the dream was. The tendency, whenever you go back, and the theme of the quality of the evening was going back into kind of a depth of one’s self that was outside of time and space, in which there’s kind of a merging that takes place.

Now ordinarily we live in the outer in a way, and in a manner, of diversity. And so whenever you experience the merged essence, it can almost be embarrassing. In other words, something that is that wide open is almost so vulnerable that some part of us, ourself, in trying to sustain some diversity, has to obliterate it in terms of holding onto a separation.

So when you take and you have a dream, or vision, that goes into a place in which everything comes into a quality of an overall vibration, that takes in everything, that absorbs the diversity of one’s nature, it’s very, very hard to remember that. And, to remember that, you have to hold onto, at a great, great, great depth inside of yourself, some subtle reflection that is in there yet.

And then, when you can hold onto that subtle reflection, you can take that subtle reflection and recognize that that subtle reflection is also vibrationally absorbed, and correlated, and intertwined with the essence of something on a universal level that permeates all that there is.

So to have an experience of something to where everything falls into the vacuum of an absorptive state is very, very hard to remember because it’s going back to almost the original, it’s coming back closer and closer, in fact it can go all the way back to the original vibration from which everything then breaks free into its multiplicities in outer life.

So the closer you come back to something that is of this absorbed, subjective, inner essence, the more you have to put up with the diversity dichotomy of thoughts that want to go the other direction – back into the multiplicity – because it’s hard to uphold one’s self in a livable way in this mannerism because your control is not there. And the way you are able to let yourself be doesn’t correspond with how you’re mental sense nature would like to portray yourself.

So it is always creating a reflection that gets in the way. And what you have done to get there, is you have taken whatever the reflection is, and caught up with the vibration behind it, and got swept into that essence. And then, if you’re lucky, you’ve come to learn that where that vibration say at 70% effect, and to the degree to which the outer senses vie for a space in the heart, that when you take and recognize on the subtlest of levels, we’ll call it a 5% that is like a reflection, and can also find the vibration within that that ensues from somewhere else, that is when you make great depths with yourself.

And that process of doing that is called polishing the heart. Now when you polish the heart you create the lens and the mirror to see what a human being really is, somewhere else, in a totally merged oneness.

So it’s unusual, it’s not unusual, it’s just a fact of nature that when one falls into a merged essence state the intensity of the energy is like too much to handle. And so whatever is still sitting there as defense mechanisms rise up to try to take one outside of resting and being in this uncontrollable way of being.

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A Rude Awakening

Out-of-ControlIt still amazes us when we make a decision that we feel so strongly about, and yet a few days or weeks later we have a relapse and it doesn’t seem as important. And that is what we mean when we say there are many lives in us, because parts of us like the old ways, and parts of us want to change. That’s why we need to get all of ourselves on board with any great changes we seek to make – or else the other parts can rebel and mutiny. And it can rarely be done by force; it’s best achieved through consistent talking to our systems about what we are trying to achieve and why.  (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I just have one brief dream. In it I’m living like in the countryside, and it’s kind of a bright, sunny day. And then down the road there’s a house with some friends in it. One of them is visiting from England, or somewhere.

And the brother of one of the women who’s down the road is staying with me. We’re not really in a relationship, but he’s just staying in kind of an inner room in my house. Well, I have just sobered up. I have been an alcoholic, and I have sobered up. I’ve been sober one or two days.

But, her brother, who needs to sober up, is still drinking and I’m trying to get him to stop drinking. But he also has a gun and, you know, I feel like he’s now going to plot to kill me because I’m sobering up. And I’m trying to figure out what to do, like can I get him to sober up, too?

So, when his sister and my friend, who live down the road, come over it’s like I tell them that I think that he’ll have to move out because he comes out, and I look around, I see he’s got all these things on his belt, but I don’t see the gun right now. But he still isn’t sober, so I feel like unless he sobers up that, you know, I tell them they’ll have to take him out of the house before he gets violent. That was the whole dream.

John: I don’t know what that means. That’s a good one alright, because the direction of the dreaming had to do with something waking up from anew, waking up anew from inside.

But this doesn’t indicate what it is. It just indicates that something’s sobering up, but doesn’t indicate that there’s something waking up anew and that the indication is, if you’re waking up, you’re going to be… there’s something associated with waking up and being killed, or losing yourself.

Well, waking up into what? I mean it doesn’t point to anything in particular. It doesn’t direct your attention in any regard. It just indicates a condition, and that that condition has a treacherousness in regards to how it is that you’re able to be accepted.

In other words, you will be killed, or you will lose your way of being accepted if you come out of being asleep or drunk. The thing is, as I’m beginning to look at these things, I don’t know if that’s quite true. It’s true maybe from the sense in terms of your attachments and your addictions and such, that you learn to get free of that, or you become more freed of that.

We see a bigger picture and a greater overallness to life. So in that sense, I guess, you’re killed or you die in relationship to the narrower way of looking at yourself – but it’s not true that you actually are repulsed necessarily by society. I don’t think you have to be. I think you can figure out a way of creating a relatability. I think there’s always a way of tweaking something deeper.

When you don’t know how to do that, or you don’t figure that out, you’re taken in as bizarre or strange. I think it can be done. But for those that are in the outer world too indulged, that’s not possible, but I’m saying that it can be done.

The quality of dreaming last night had to do with various ways of waking up or becoming something. And the waking up, such a waking up, causes you to relate to things differently. But by and large, I’m not sure I believe that. I think that what also wakes up, what also comes up at the same time is a way of knowing how to communicate, or to correlate, the way you are.

Most people just go hidden, but I think it’s interesting to be able to figure out how to twine, how to tweak, and I think that’s all possible. In your dream, though, it kind of seems to suggest that you’re apt to become something so different that there is a degree, a lack of relatability or something. I don’t think it has to be that way. I mean I think you can be fairly open and communicate, too. I think that one can be in a waking up state and pull it off, and be okay. It’s around others that are totally entrenched in what they’re doing, and adamant about it and overly righteous about it or something, so that this is all that they’re able to see, and that they have no fluidity in terms of looking this way or that way. That is when you hit the grand rejection, but that isn’t very many, and you can sense and you can tell that sort of thing vibe-wise. It’s fairly straightaway

So I’m not sure I totally agree with the fact that when you wake up you put yourself into a condition of where you’re shot. Yes, you can be rejected by those that refuse to wake up, and parts of yourself that refuse to wake up, but I think you get to a point where something just flips and it has to be, and it kind of is catalytic all around you then. So that’s what I make out of that. You can’t throw it out; it has something to it.

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