The Inner Push

im908In our waking life, we have perspective on whatever we are open to, or allow, or invite into our thought processes. Some of that comes from our unconscious. But our unconscious sees the everything that we are doing, and can show us that greater perspective through our dreams. We may have repressed aspects of our life that we have never been able to resolve, but our dreams can give us a neutral way to help sort them out. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So, in my first dream, I seem to be living in French Canada, and I live a little ways out from a larger city, in a trailer that belongs to someone else. It’s kind of a sweet little trailer, I like it. And I go back and forth between there and town, sometimes. 

But there’s a day when I realize that I’m going to have to move because the trailer, which just belongs to someone else anyway, is out of food. And, because it’s French Canada, there’s a woman that’s a friend of mine there, but I don’t really know many people and I don’t know how to get a job there. So I realize I’m going to have to move on. That was like the first dream. 

John: So what you’re dealing with is you’re dealing with a type of displacement. In other words, you have a quality of yourself that is not able to come truly, totally, into its own because somehow or another you find yourself as being displaced. And, in this displacement, like you say you’re in a trailer, you are in an unusual place in the countryside in Canada, and that you are away from the city, and you are out of food – all images of a displacement.

Now, what’s the deeper meaning of being able to look at yourself as having this particular, we’ll call it, kind of predicament? It’s to point out that there is something, in terms of a greater overallness of yourself, that is repressed, that is unconscious, that is hidden.

Whenever a person has some greater part of themselves repressed, unconscious, and whatnot, that keeps them looking at situations in which there is a type of displacement, or alienation, or not able to quite be where they need to be, or having something deleterious in terms of their environment – amnesic, even – it’s because who they really are, in terms of a totality, is concealed from them based upon a veil. 

And the veil is a veil that is there that is repressed, that is unconscious, that’s traumatic in some sense, and that’s why it got repressed, and unconscious, because it couldn’t be handled in the totality of your being. And it has to come out, and it has to be caught up with, and you have to bring closure to it in order for there to be a fullness of who it is that you really are on all the different levels of yourself. 

And, in this particular dream, the other thing that’s interesting about a displacement, in which you have these component parts that are all over the place, apart: I mean out of food, in a trailer which is temporary, in a foreign area, something that you can’t properly fully relate to, which means it’s a little amnesic because it’s French Canada, separate from a city where others are at – all of those little bits and pieces all point to the need to reach, or catch up with, something more that is sitting in your nature. 

Now the interesting thing about what sits in your nature is it pushes you in some capacity, but it pushes you mostly from an unconscious level. So you can find yourself being a particular way in the outer – and not knowing why it is that you are a particular way in the outer – that if you were able to get to the bottom of would point back to something that you were hiding, or holding, in a repressed condition because it’s too much for you to face.

Now all of this is occurring on the in-breath, and what is needed to kind of pull it all together is a sequenciation of time that can come into the equation. In other words, a linkage, like a thread, just like a ley line or a thread that links the food, the trailer, the French Canada, the city, that links it all together. That’s like a timing that pulls the spaciality together.

And, in your dream, you don’t have that, so you have this discombobulation, and this alienation, from a deeper quality of yourself. Now what also is interesting, when you carry something like that, or have something like that, is that there is a way of looking, and seeing, and, if something is meant to come out and isn’t coming out, it can have a fairly deleterious effect upon your outer beingness, too, as it is trying to break through a veil, or a window.

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A Deeper Experience

3edesYes, we are always processing energy. And, even at night, we process energy. And that cleaning, clearing, storing, and sorting effort is part of our dream process. It’s the same as keeping nutrients for the body when we eat food, and expelling what has no future use. Energy is also a food for us, and we want to keep our systems as clear as possible for what comes tomorrow. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In my meditation dream, I notice that when there is a reflective imbalance, the mirror affects that imbalance – not the opposite condition of a letting go, or a stillness. 

An imbalance is always based upon some sort of way that you took something in, in a kind of identification or reactive way. And it’s in the counterbalance, where there is no reaction, is where the stillness is at. In other words, we’re talking about a stillness that is maintainable, not a stillness that you go into that is a type of suspense – where there is still something that has to come to the fore. 

So, to understand my meditation dream, I’m trying to figure out how to explain this in the outer, because in the outer there is always something going on. And I’m finding that I’m not sure how to do this, because whenever anything is going on, to say that, affects the peace and quiet instead of a mirrored essence that is able to emanate, because, deep down, there is no understanding in manifestation that isn’t oriented to the senses. 

So, in my sleep dream, I’m looking at an energetic nature being able to become awoken to a part of itself in a new way, meaning a part of itself that isn’t in its usual pattern. In other words familiarity, or zone, in which it has a comfort zone in terms of how it’s able to come across. 

So I notice that there was an inability to let go to a deeper inner experience within when there was an energetic that affects one’s attention in the outer. And your attention can be affected just by the nature of what’s going on in the outer, whatever it might be. You could have a particular thing that sets it off by what you read in the paper, you can have something that sets it off just in a particular atmosphere, whatever it is that you find yourself contending with in the atmosphere, whatever it is, leads to an inability to let go to the deeper inner experience within.

And, when you let go to the deeper experience within, as was the theme of the dreaming last night, you can let go to a place where there’s nothing going on. And so if there’s something going on, you can dream, but if you can do it so that there’s nothing that you buy into that is going on, then you don’t have to dream. 

So, in my dream, I observe various scenes in which whatever was expected to be in a scenario was removed, such that, and so that, a deeper inner awareness was made possible. Often this looked a bit insipid and lifeless, but from a letting go comes an inner awareness rising up – as if from the ashes. 

For this to happen, however, the letting go of projections – projections affect the way you see yourself and the way others see you – you have to let go of that, and it seems that from an emptiness resulting from being able to let go of a profile, is when a person is able, is when I’m able to be more real in an inner way. You have freedom, in other words. Any kind of having to be something, or to come across in a particular way or something, anything like that affects the depth of how you’re able to be in an inner capacity way. 

And so, again, the theme of the dreaming was to not have a profile or projection, per se, in which an identification predominates over a deeper realness within. This is a difficult theme because in my dreams, in the past, there is always something going on that I can report, or that I can denote, that one is obviously able to put their finger on, or play with, relate to, or be agitated in or by – in order for there to be action. 

So it’s important to be able to recognize how it’s possible to maintain a space in which there is this inner potentiality able to be there as it’s meant to be. And so if a person is watching and listening to themselves, they don’t have to whip themselves into having to sustain or maintain a particular demeanor. We have all of this going on in the outer, upon us, to the degree to which we buy into it in some fashion. And we’re meant to be able to be aloof from it all.

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The Opposite of Action

stillnessIt might be useful to think of ourselves as processors of energy: we generate energy internally, we come in contact with the energies of others and of the local environment, and we are affected by larger energies of the planet itself, the sun’s radiations, and the cosmic energy of the universe as well. Yet we are not batteries, per se, we do not hold these energies. We run them through us and only keep what is nutritional, in an energetic way. The rest we release. This process keeps us clean and functional for what is next. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Well, the reason why you couldn’t remember your dreams last night was you didn’t realize what the theme was. And the theme was to be able to let go of all parts of yourself in order to be in a true state of emptiness. 

And that whenever you held on to any kind of identification of yourself, it’s the fact that you hold on to some sort of aspect, or quality, of yourself, that you have the fodder, or the substance, for a dream. 

And so, when we dream, even though we take and look at a quality of the overlay of an emptiness, we still can see, for example, qualities of something in the out-breath or the in-breath, and, therefore, there is a substance in that that may be within the manner of emptiness or stillness, but still something equivocating in some regard. 

And so, the theme of the dreaming had to do with not having something there where you could buy into it, or get caught up in it, in some regard, that would cause an abstraction to exist. The scenario that triggered such a quality as the theme was the scenario in which one was sitting in the face of energetics that had a certain quickened quality to them, with a degree of letting-go humbleness.

The secret to the dreaming was, because there was that prevalent, there was the need to look inside oneself and know how to invisibilize, and know how to not have something that could be drawn out in some capacity that would be there for a kind of identification, because every identification results, then, in there being a part of one’s personality, or nature, that gets drawn out of the stillness. 

So what one was looking at was a type of stillness, in which one had to be in, that was quiet, that was the exact opposite of action. So, to take and to see that this is what was going on is very, very, very hard to report because you might have innocuous images, but you don’t have anything of any consequence, streamed together, as a vibration, that depicts something unfolding.

It’s like a bubble, like a Rumi poem where there’s this bubble on the ocean, and from that froth is something that is a rising up of a distinction from the depths, something that has not yet been totally absolved in the ocean of the infinitude of it all. And it is from that froth that it says that a human being can come into existence, and be, you know, to have to live something, and to carry out something. 

And so, the key is, when you are in a situation in which you are presented with this sort of thing, are you able to handle what you are presented with in a situation in which you are able to take a step back, and, so to speak, invisibilize oneself, or let go, in a way, so that there isn’t something that is triggered, or animated, or activated? Because when somehow one is triggered, or animated, or activated it is from that triggering, and from that activation, that there is an abstraction that one then has to contend with.

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