The Cover-Up


R + S Parke-Harrison

We’ve often spoken about the human systems that are constantly trying to realign and rebalance us as we careen through our lives. And dreams play an important role in this. In this example, a home that is viewed as sacred is used to set the scene. But all is not serene there. So the attempt is made to climb to the heights again, but the road is blocked. Certain aspects within us, that we hold on to, can become anchors that prevent us from soaring. Many are held in the solar plexus area of the body and one way to ease their grip is through working with the breath.  (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: My first dream I woke up like with a sore neck, and a headache, and the dream it’s like I’ve been at Jerry’s house and I had been spending the night in a little room there. And at one point when I’m in the room I suddenly notice these creatures, these kind of thin, phosphorescent creatures crawling in through the keyhole, or coming down a wall or something. They almost look like those science pictures you see when people blow up what bacteria looks like in your stomach or something, you know, except they’re two or three feet long.

So I leave the room and get them to come and look, because I’m not sure what to do about them. Of course when they come you can’t see them right away, but I know they’re in the room. But it’s time for me to leave anyway, besides the fact I’m a little creeped out by these things that seem to be able to get into the room.

I go to where I’m staying and when I get to the house where I’m at I think I realize that I need to go back; maybe I’ve left something there, it might even be my car. And my nephew comes along to give me a ride back to their house, and it’s confusing. You can’t quite see the route that you go, and there’s some construction going on kind of higher on a hill, and he decides that’s the shortest way to get over the hill to their house.

I try to tell him that it isn’t, but he doesn’t seem to want to listen, and I’m on the back of his motorbike. But we get up there and pretty soon the trail is running out and we’re lost, because even though it looked like it was an easy way back to their house, it actually was confusing with the construction and all.

So we have to turn around and go back down to where our house is. I’m thinking about a simpler road back to their house, and I think that’s when I woke up with the headache. And I also at that point did something to cleanse the energy in the room a bit because I almost felt like maybe some of the reason I was feeling the way I was that the hotel room may have had a lot of energy in it or something.

John: I don’t know you picked Jerry’s house other than the fact that I suppose it’s deemed to be something that’s like a kind of sacred space, but the sacred space, for you, isn’t able to magnify or manifest into something further because you’re carrying inside of yourself repressed in like the Hora center, or solar plexus, or something you are carrying something that extremely repressed there.

The dream is saying that you basically have done this to some degree. We have a transcendent quality in our nature, and we try to find an emptiness there in the expanse of things, and that there is more and more emphasis in trying to go into that now, as shown by the fact that you’re having human beings who haven’t even had a chance yet to live life and develop a certain dharmic unfoldment that generally causes a type of solidification of their nature, to which they then have to let go or release that in order to be able to come to an epiphany inside of themselves, which is something that generally happens when a person gets to be 50-60 years old that they can have this kind of awareness breakthrough.

Prior to that they’re caught in a definition of themselves, a signature of their beingness, and that drowns out the overall, in common, intertwined essence that we all carry. And what is surprising is that in this day and age you’re running into people who are like in their 20’s, who are really young, who haven’t had a chance to find out who they are really, take on some dharmic mannerism and run it to some limit before they have an about face, and then rise up from that to have a letting go breakthrough.

So he’s seeing that, and as a consequence of seeing that he understands a little differently than other teachers have been able to clearly present it, that there is something else besides the transcendent and the imminent. And, of course, he describes the expansiveness and the emptiness there as transcendent, and then he describes the heart quality as imminent. And that that is a quality that pulls or moves one towards merging.

And then he describes the human element that is the solar plexus and the Hara center of one’s nature, to where things accumulate as another area in which an emptiness has to occur, and that is an emptiness that doesn’t occur usually for the longest time in a human being’s unfoldment, not until they’re 50 or 60. And when something like that occurs it takes the signature note of the individual, in other words that has gone off and lived in a dharmic way, it takes that signature note and turns it around into something that then becomes a quality having let go and into the whole.

It’s an image of transformation that is an image that has followed a particular pattern or cycle, in a way that is kind of systematic. But something is changed anew, something has speeded up, but you’re finding more and more of this that would be considered cracked or fractured or broken or discombobulated in some fashion that, in the eyes of some teachers, would be that the person needed to get into life, needed to chop wood and carry water, get grounded in some fashion.

The common theory and thinking is that a person has to live life in order to be able to have something that is there in a way that can be offered, which is the idea of dharma, which is a Buddhist idea, which has to do with a person taking and communicating or expressing an aspect of their beingness, and then letting go of that – just like Siddhartha, who went from the opulence and took all of that into – and did this at a young age – into a complete letting go. At least his dharma, in terms of how he was born, rose up early and he did not then proceed in that way, but at the same time he carried, he maintained, he still had some sort of something that had to go through the transformative process.

And so, in the human being, it’s the Hara center where things have to reside, that build up to a point where you finally come and you address them and you deal with them.

Now, Shadin recommends that you breathe deeply into that, breathe deeply into the belly where that stuff is stored. So if you’re going through a traumatic condition, this stuff gets shoved right into the Hara center, and you can tell that it’s happening because your breath always goes shallow. It’s almost as if the trauma is there and it’s being absorbed in the body, and when it’s being absorbed it chokes off the heart, it blocks your access to the merging quality, and it blocks off your transcendent nature, blocks off any sight. And that one has to go to the depths and release that.

So the emptiness is in the transcendent, in the heart, and in the solar plexus area, the Hara center of one’s being. Where I think a dilemma exists is the rootedness to the human condition. You really have to come down to it, and it’s hard for teachers to do that. They can keep trying to portray what’s involved for something to rise up, but you have to come down and you have to experience it, like Mother Teresa in the ghettos. You have to really feel what that is, or you’re not dealing with the solar plexus area of your being and, therefore, are going to remain blighted.

So in your dream you took and you drilled down on whatever it is that’s symbolically significant about the fact of coming towards a spiritual process, or practice, or pattern that there is in the container nature of your being, worms and bugs or something, you have that built up.

And so you’re seeing the visualness of what that’s like to have the Hara center contaminated with something that needs to be in a state of emptiness, and you’re associating it with something that has to do with a way of absorbing or handling a condition, or a situation, but there is something about that, there’s a vibration in that that for you, you’re doing some sort of cover-up.

In other words, you can have the heartfulness, you can have the transcendent quality, but are you somehow or another repressing something? As you get a sense of this, of how you need to accept something, or be in a particular way, or however it is, your sense of it isn’t very good – thus you can’t find your way back there. So it’s not something that can be rationally probed out. You know, it’s not something that you can address in an outer motif mannerism.

It’s something that is exemplified by and within a vibration somehow there, I mean you chose this setting for your image to highlight or portray somehow to yourself something that you should know from that, that is exemplifying this problem for you in the physical level, in the Hara center.

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A Burdened Heart

heart66.jpgIt is easy to forget that humans are designed to connect to the guidance they need to be in service to what created them. We may not know exactly what we are doing, but we can connect to things that do. We have all experienced an instant knowing when we are under some sort of pressure, and that type of knowing can be there for us much more of the time. But we have to quiet the noise and distractions, and the emotional yo-yo-ing, to be with it. It is a stress on our entire system when we deny using our faculties the way they were meant to be used. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: My meditation dreams have been miserable for a number of days, but they do set the theme so I have to go along with that. And when I come to sleep I’m always concerned that anything can happen, or if I can even fall asleep or whatever. Last night wasn’t a problem of falling asleep, but the difference in my sleep is I’m hearing cues, and getting kind of directives, even though I’m not very good at paying attention to them, or following them, or holding onto them even.

And, as a consequence, it seems to be like a kind of reverse going on in that my meditation dreams are the epitome of being cut off a little bit; nothing comes through with the kind of clarity or loudness that it used to. It comes through the dreams louder, and it’s as if I have introduced a confusion or discombobulation that I’m having to sort out, and don’t necessarily know how to put my finger on it, but it is getting sorted out.

So in my meditation dream I was looking at ways to better connect. I was trying to feel those means. The idea behind the flow within was to oblige a connection I felt was necessary in order to serve a purpose.

The problem I am having in doing this is when my heart is heavy, like it is now, I am struggling to see anything at all. The significance is I need to have an inner guidance, but dialing this in has its problems. One, if there is a heaviness in my nature I am too groggy and burdened to get it. I do not have the open space in my nature that I need. I am dulled on the burdened heart as a veil, and am not able to pull out clear images.

Two, when I pull out clear images I am struggling, I have the opposite effect, where I can now then go from a denseness to an over transcendent expanse, and so I’m struggling to not be so cavalier and transcendent such that I can’t take the heartfelt meaningfulness needed into life, to change the surrounding, and open up its capacity.

And three, when more internally collected or put together, so to speak, so that I’m able to get it, in other words, first I went to one extreme, and then I went to another extreme, and now I’m kind of going back to kind of a middling. So when I am more internally collected so that I’m able to get it, I am not able to hear this in an interconnected way, in other words, not loud enough in an interconnected way, so that it becomes readily obvious. Things still quibble and fight it in their denseness, and there’s a way of sweeping through and absorbing the denseness.

I have to do it in a way that doesn’t overpower or short others out. I need to better know how to embrace the space within. In other words, this is a quality of the way you carry an exuding auric nature to facilitate, to smooth the ready acceptance and experientiality of the intended touch.

And then four, four goes back to kind of like, okay, if something is still off then you’re not actually physically at ease, which means then that the heart is having trouble embracing the soul in terms of an intended focus, which means that the heart is still overburdened.

For example, in my meditation dream, I wavered about noticing myself sitting there having to struggle to connect to an experiencing from within because a loud body sensation was making it hard to set that effect aside. The process has to do with letting go of the heaviness inside so a remorseful and self-indulgent nature doesn’t get in the way, or overwhelm. There has to be a joy and a grounded optimism going hand in hand, as well as the undifferentiated, intertwined heart. I remain shielded not able yet to properly bridge a gap.

Observation: What I am noticing is that a breakthrough shift involves the in-depthness of a human being. In other words, you don’t do it through skimming along in the outer. You have to do it by having accessed something really deep inside and brought it into a being that aurically transmutes.

The process occurs when a human being sets aside the misaligned impediments, is a way of saying it, so that you don’t have the crisscrosses that short out your effectiveness. It is the sole role of a teacher to provide the space needed for this occur. And see, the interesting thing about it is, this is all the teacher does. The teacher doesn’t go out and make the changes in the world, the teacher makes the changes in the human being because it’s the human being that has to do it, not the teacher.

The teacher must remain somewhere else and cannot come crashing down like a human being. Therefore, when a teacher goes out on a limb trying to influence something in the outer in a subtle way, that is asking for trouble. Most teachers know better than to do that, and those who do do that it’s part of a teaching to get others to try to see something – because the inner teacher reveals in a quiet way that doesn’t violate free will.

So the wish is, hopefully, what I will experience at a program this weekend will bring me back to a heartfelt connection of inner to outer more succinctly. The digressions are exhaustive and violate the connective flow. It is a hard lesson for me to realize that a digression always involves a personal transgression. To realize this appropriately, I must be attuned to a connective process within which keeps me safe and properly aligned.

Again this is a quality that you carry, and it’s really about a type of listening center, and the fact that you’re not quite pulling it in and you have like little deviations one, two, three, and four like I explained. Close, but deviations. In other words, it’s like everything is talking all the time to a human being. They just need to get to the point where they recognize what that is as an energetic that is outside of the mind; and everyone else just hears and sees the basic minutia of things.

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The Greater Context

Inner-Process72How often have young children described “invisible” animals, or friends, only to be told that it’s nonsense? Or how many times have we heard about near-death experiences and have them explained away as a trick of the brain? The point is, humans are incredibly sensitive creatures, in tune with many different things going on around them – seen and unseen. Both the seen and the unseen have a wealth of information for us, if we pay attention, and listen to what our systems are telling us. To do less is to deny the magnificence of the design we are born into. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I don’t remember as much of my dream last night, even though I know it was active.

It feels like we’re in some kind of a world that’s changed, where we’re living communally now. And I remember it’s like I come into this room, and then go out into the world, and one time after I’ve come out, or left, and come back and I look up at the ceiling I notice that there’s all these silver disks up on the ceiling. That’s something new.

And it’s like I feel it’s monitoring, or watching, our behavior, or doing something in some way. And so I bring it up, and everybody’s kind of telling me that no, you know, maybe it’s just observing. But I’m not so sure that’s all it’s doing. Maybe it’s changing something. I’m suspicious of this.

It’s like everybody wants me to just ignore it, but I just don’t quite trust it. And it’s like as I go out then like I’m trying to observe what it might actually be doing. That’s about all I remember out of that dream. I know that a lot more was going on in that, but I just didn’t pull it out.

John: In this dream you’re in the collective outer condition of things or, basically you could say, you’re in the overall. And your dream is portraying that there is, in the overall, something that is intended, that you are meant to be able to pick up, to catch up with, at this time.

Others aren’t catching up with it, therefore you can’t get any common feedback from them because they don’t have this aspect of their beingness opened up to flow, and to listen, and to see, and to acknowledge in this particular way.

And what it is is, within this overall atmosphere of things, there is something more that is trying to get your attention. That something more has to do with you being able to denote, to recognize, to hear, to see, to take in a subtler level within, upon which there is a guidance, and a communication, a connection, and a linkage.

The fact that you’re in the world, and able to be amidst things as they are in the outer, is one thing, but there is more, and you can’t just go along with how things are. To learn in the outer, you’re realizing that you have to catch the inner cues, and hear the inner memos, and realize that there is more going on than just the general appearances that exist collectively for others.

You can’t disregard this simply because they can’t see it. The fact that you see it, the fact that you recognize it, it needs to be something that you access and open up. And yet, at the same time, you’re still in an overall outer way of being. But it’s like you have access to something that enables you to partake, and to recognize, and to realize, and to honor, and to be intertwined more completely, and more fully, because of this inner acuity.

The theme of the dreaming had quite a bit of things to do to break one free from indulgences. And a typical indulgence is, one could be in life and miss all the cues, miss recognizing that everything is talking to you, and everything is alive. And that this subtle stuff is extremely important in terms of a person recognizing that they aren’t separate, that they are intertwined, and they have to accept that intertwined nature, the greater context of it, in that this is what changes, and affects, and facilitates the modality of life.

In your case, you looked at it from a standpoint of the fact that yes, the feminine may be completely immersed in having to contend with things in the outer, and that the outer has a certain perceivable way about it that has a commonality with everyone else, that goes around collectively in the outer. However, just because everyone else goes around collectively in the outer, doesn’t mean that you who have the ability to recognize something else triculating behind the scenes in a subtle way, that you can put your attention upon, and get information and guidance from, doesn’t mean that you ignore that. You have to take that in.

It’s not an option to take and point it out to others and, when they don’t see it, think, okay, you can ignore it, too. And so when you tune into that, it is something that may become a greater and greater loudness to you, and maybe the fact that that’s so, maybe to some degree that will inflect to others. But you can’t start from the bottom up, you have to start from the top down. You can’t take and try to throw others out there and say, okay, there she be, can you see it? When they can’t.

You have to let it come about and be something that affects you, and when it affects you maybe it will have the effect that communicates beyond that.

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