Posts Tagged ‘a development journey’

John: We left off the discussion of your dream yesterday (see The Lost Essence) with this paragraph:

“All of this is progressing somewhere, and where it’s progressing to is a total letting go of everything. When you totally let go of everything, then it has no hold on you. When it has no hold on you, then you’re in a nothingness, and yet you’re in everything. You can’t see it as a nothingness as long as you see it as having some sort of existence and presence that you have to contend with, or you have to cause to happen in a particular way.”

This is the development struggle: We’re born into a physical body, into a physical world. We’re designed to realize, at some point in our lives, that we are here for a purpose beyond the society and culture we find ourselves in. When we have that realization, we must begin to let go of all the aspects of our (ego) identities that serve us in the culture, but keep us separate from the wholeness that everything else is. Spiritual development is anchored in this process of letting go.

And we don’t have to do it on our own or without guidance, because the truth of who and what we are is inside of us – if we will only listen. When we can catch up to it or hear it, it’s with a type of hearing that’s beyond our physical senses (that only correlate to the fabrication of the outer world in front of us). When we hear this inner voice, it somehow slices right through, so we begin to react less and less to the push and shove of the outer world.

And your dream showed a magic quality where you accomplish this letting go by going “poof.” Instead of identifying with the external aspects of the image, there’s a part of you that can just go poof. It shifts, you let go of the top deck and appear in the lower cave – in the depth of you – where you’ve let go of everything. Thus you impose no effect from the outer on the guidance you receive there.

You probably set the image in the desert because you have a sense that time has stopped here, in the Holy Land. The Bedouins in the area haven’t changed much in 2,000 years. There’s a bit of contamination with the tourists, and a degree of mechanization that’s occurred, but their approach to life and the land is pretty much the same.

The ground here is the same as it’s been for millennia, and there’s nothing to be done with it. But in your dream you take that desert and you pop the bubble by making it into something that flows, as if on the water, and then you attempt to pop the bubble again, so that whatever is there to see just goes poof, and in that is your complete overallness.

You’re not able to maintain this state, though. This might be where your essence sits, i.e., you’re in physical reality, but you’re actually somewhere else. That’s how the great teachers always are. They’re compelled to be here and they participate in the magic of things through those whom they help to extricate from their ego identity and the life of illusion.

The degree to which a person is able to do something outside of the personal, is the degree to which something is facilitated into the whole. But the degree to which a person stays with their personal view, is the degree to which things cannot happen and, therefore, are lost to the whole.

When we humans allow something to come through us (without prejudice), it’s like we become a conduit for an essence to manifest into physical life. That’s a service into life and into the whole, which the human is designed to perform. It’s how the future is processed from the energy worlds into manifestation in the physical worlds.

But typically, we humans just process our own identities, and egos, and patterns, so even if we connect to a new essence, we turn it into an old act. That’s when that essence is lost to the whole. We have to get out of the way of life, to really become a useful part of it.

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John: In this dream I’ve returned to doing something that I know backward and forward, i.e., I have clear-cut authority in terms of the ups and downs and the ins and outs of this process.

So there’s nothing new under the sun for me in terms of this activity. I’m standing in a courthouse in front of a number of people making some sort of presentation or application. One of the clerks is willing to go along with everything I’m proposing, providing I agree to pay for some sort of review.

I point out that I understand why the review is needed in most cases but, in my case, it would be a waste of time because I’m the authority on this. Many others might do this without the appropriate knowledge, so there’s good justification to have a review process, but in my particular case it would be a waste of time. Plus, it would create more problems for the county.

I’m explaining all this saying that whatever the county wants to do they can do, but I’d advise against it because the long-term impact is going to make things worse.

The purpose of this dream is to indicate, and to show, that some things need to be left to evolve naturally. When things do evolve naturally, without too much control or over regulation, they can actually achieve a greater natural balance. Micromanagement can make a lot of sense in certain situations, but it can also choke something off from fully coming to fruition.

So, this is a teaching dream, and it takes a common waking life scenario (for me) and uses it to make a more universal point. It’s indicating that there’s a process by which things unfold in life and in creation, and that they unfold best if they’re left to unfold naturally. Whenever we humans attempt to control, or manipulate, or oversee, the outcome of events, we invariably have an effect on the way things turn out, but not always in the way we might hope.

No one person has the depth of sight to be able to oversee the process and unfolding of life. Any attempts to do that usually create a bigger mess, no matter how well-intended.

Controls may appear to make things better because they can cut through a lot of the issues and problems that take place at the very beginning of something. However, what helps initially, usually ends up choking things off from truly emerging in a bigger way.

That’s why freedom of choice is such an interesting thing. We have this freedom, which is unique to the human species, in our outer lives, but we also have it in our inner lives. We are so trained to try and streamline everything in our lives in some particular way, we fall into the trap of set patterns on an inner level.

As a growing-up process, everything can use a little guiding hand, like good parents offer to their offspring. It makes sense on that level. Yet when we get to a level in our development journey, or in our human journey, where we’re supposed to be able to take on a higher responsibility, the less of “us” in the process the better.

Human responsibility includes our responsibility to the whole. While we are trying to fulfill our purpose, it is equally important that we don’t prevent anything else from fulfilling its purpose. Only our natural connections, inside, can guide us in that, not our brain or our ego identity.

So this dream is using an image that I understand to speak to me of a deeper issue that I face, which is how to take responsibility for what I bring to the world (physically and energetically), without trying to control the outcome. Being in the space where that’s possible means surrendering to the flow, or listening to our own inner guidance.

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John: So, as a continuation of this conversation from yesterday (see The Energy to Change), I had this sense inside that I needed to shift from where I was and to follow another vibration. Basically I sensed that I needed to follow the shift in energy, rather than to resist it. And if we are not quiet enough to listen to those intuitive feelings that we all have, we end up disconnecting from the inner guidance that is always available to us, and through us.

I mean, this whole shift from the Northwest to Las Vegas came out of the blue. It would have been so easy to dismiss it, based solely on the common perception of what Las Vegas represents – you know, Sin City. Why would we choose to pursue a spiritual journey in the Sodom and Gomorrah of our time?

Yesterday we drove around, getting lost and looking at places to live, and the one thing that stands out is the view, the perspective, from that one apartment that overlooks The Strip. I mean, do I really need to see a view of the lights at night? I know that’s something interesting that I can take in just by looking within. I know that can automatically happen.

So, it caused me to wonder what there is about being able to just peer at this view of The Strip that is so fascinating. It’s not fascinating in the sense of sitting and pondering it as an incredible view. Instead, somehow or other I’m going to be touched by all those lights – the aliveness of them. It’s the flickering aliveness of those lights that has an effect. 

Now, I’m not even limiting this feeling to those specific lights, either. Yet somehow they create a trigger to other memories. I can still see it, having stood in that unit and looked out at the view. Normally I can’t see things.

Normally I don’t know what street I’m on, or whether I’m heading north, south, east, or west. I’m usually all twisted around. But I can still see that view. Not in specific detail, but I can see it vibrationally. I can feel the energy of it. And it will give a very different sensation depending on whether it’s nighttime or in the day.

Then it can take on a whole different dynamic. There’s a quickening of that feeling. When we joke around about whether other people could enjoy this city or this view, I’m not sure they’d know how. They might see it as a violation of the vibrational state we are seeking. I don’t know for sure, but when I contemplate the reaction of others I get the sense that it might create a stigma.

The other thing that causes me to wonder – and it seems very, very strange – is the idea of trying to keep the presence of the former owner alive there somehow. What is there about her presence? What has she done there that has set an energetic tone that is still there, and that I’m worried might leave or disappear?

I really can’t get clear on that yet, but that energy is important to the place. Will she drop it? It was so odd when we were there and the toilet was definitely running. When I walked into the bathroom, I jiggled it, and it was still running. And when we were on the verge of leaving I decided to point it out to her.

As we walked to the back I heard it go “kerthunk” and then it stopped running. As we walked up I said, “Well, it was running a minute ago,” and she said, “Yes, I heard it running. It must know I’m back.”

That was amazing. That was a very unusual statement. When you think about that you almost think that she maintains a certain kind of magic in her nature, and that that, somehow or another, is in the place too.

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