On a Tilt

Need13951So much of what we see around us, in terms of the way people act, in these times, is indicative of an inability to process the energies they are generating or connecting with. Rage, frustration, a sense of helplessness, these are all energetic states, or, we could say, powers. When we get powered by them, we can’t always control that power – that’s when bad things tend to happen – the things we end up regretting. This is why it’s always better to be for something, rather than against something, because even if we hate “hate,” we will still connect to the energy of hate. Better to connect to the energies of the positive things we want in the world. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: To start off in my dream, I’m dwelling upon this in terms of an uneasiness based upon the fact that I noticed that I’ve been able to open something up, or experience a lot of energy, that goes a long way in terms of having a sense that feels okay, or is even capable, or has an insightfulness in the outer. But I know that that’s not to be trusted, because that is still a way of portraying, or being. 

And as I have been noticing that I am able to move around in the outer more naturally, in other words, by that I mean just moving around with more energy and such, noticing that, and having gotten you might say addicted, or attached, or having an affinity for that, I’ve also been noticing that there comes a point when this, too, is a state or a quality that’s over the top. In other words, okay, so what, kind of thing? Enough is enough of that, as well. 

So, because I have the energy at my disposal to work with, the fact that I have shaken it out, or brought it, out or gotten it so it’s invibed into the situation, it’s as if, in terms of doing that, I can go along with this – as if it is okay, vibrationally speaking. That’s what I’m trying to convince myself with, but I can’t. And I guess the reason why I can’t is because I have this sense that all of this is a type of projection and it cloaks something deeper, within, each person being from however they are is still caught in their own projectiveness.

So there are times when my over-the-top energy is so all over the place that I can even denote a drunken quality to it, a staggering drunken quality to the energy. And when I note this drunken quality, even deeper down, I feel that behind this drunken quality is something. 

But anyway, the drunkenness, as an energetic, is like an unconsciousness too, in that both share the fact that there is more yet to go, behind that, that has to be embodied, in a way, held in a stillness in an embodiment. And, when it is, it’s grounded, and that when I am drunken, it’s stigmatic to the fact that I’ve gotten myself overwhelmed vibrationally. It’s almost like a Kundalini energy in the inner, or something, has gotten overly loud and isn’t rooted. And when I am unconscious, just like when I am drunken, almost as if they’re kind of the same, what they have in common is that you’re not keeping up with something right there in the present.

So, in other words, both are true. Vice versa is also true. Much like they are flip sides of the same coin, that whenever I’m drunken energetically, or literally, even, I am not embracing and embodying a knowingness that I touch, unconsciously, in the outer. You can really sit and kind of know what’s truly going on in terms of everything that there is, as if there is this revelational dance from the stillness. 

The dilemma I face is I am noticing that when I am able to touch unconsciousness with an innocent freedom, but not access a closeness, or be fluid vibrationally in a grounded way, I’m just not able when I do that to be grounded in a grounded way. And another way of describing the condition I am in, energetically, is, when one speeds up, I am still giving into outer as a projection, just speeded up more, where you have more dexterity and sense of being able to be over at the top, and doing so in a way that’s more than the eye can see. Yet you’re not really capable of embodying it. 

In other words, it’s just the delusionality of playing in something where the Kundalini energy comes out, per se, and you still have the physicality and the identification of that, to be very, very careful because there is a hint to why it is like that. And the hint is that this is like a type of tilt, and there’s actually a type of tenseness in this tilt, or if you have a belief system, a righteousness, which is all a type of density, it’s a type of identification, and if you sit with it, if you’re still with that, if you try to set that aside, you realize that you’re meant to be present, that there is something behind this, yet. 

And that’s why there’s a frustration; that’s why there’s a tension. That’s why there’s being a little on tilt. And why, in the heightened sense of the word, there’s even a self-consciousness there, because you haven’t shaken it out, in an overall pervasive way, the depths of a greater insightfulness, of which there’s only one depth to that, and that is the depth that is totally still. 

The image I see, that is reflective to what I am describing as an energetic dilemma, is I am meant to wear matching earrings, and not have an overly large earring in one of my ears and not the other. I mean, that’s kind of a strange image.

So the deeper meaning is behind all of this imbalance, energetically, are other levels of aliveness. In other words, that’s really the sense. That was the theme. Something behind all of this, that is something more, that one has finally gotten to the point where they have to touch these other levels of aliveness, that you have not yet reached, yet you know are there. 

And the deeper answer is, I’m not bringing into the heart a level of beingness in need of coming from inner into outer, which is the stillness, which is the mirroring.

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On the Vibration

Inner-BesWe speak often, in spirituality, of letting go and of surrender. And we seek to become conscious of our automated defense mechanisms as they prevent our connection to flow. As this struggle reaches finer, and finer, and more subtle, levels within, we begin to see that in each moment we are either siding with our old self, and its ways, or we are choosing to be with the energetics of now, with whatever that might entail. It is a great battle, but one we do softly with ourselves, because every part of us has our best interest at heart. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: An earlier dream involves accessing a closeness, and something happens which is too much. In other words, let’s say you get somebody’s attention who is normally distracted, and they’re heebie-jeebie because normally they don’t want to listen, they’re just way too busy, and you get their attention, you can easily overwhelm. And, when you do overwhelm and impose it through like that, the statement is a funny statement that comes up is: why did you let it get away? It’s because none of that was in flow, then.

There was no proper inner into outer. Whenever there’s a tension, or a frustration, or a factor that’s in the way, that’s when the ability to take in gets lost because you’re taking in something in a non-outer capacity, lower-self sense way. You’re taking it in in terms of a higher-self sense that uses the substance of light, instead of the substance of a sound-oriented manifestation that is very, very slow and can’t keep up with this other flow that is also meant to be there. You’ve got the two halves.

So the dream I’m having… It’s hard to say how this is a dream, but it has a latent frustration which compromises an unfoldment from coming through. The frustration that touches a latent anger, for example, harkens back to a condition I carry that is keeping an inner from affectively flowing.

A scenario: As I look deep within, I detect the condition on the heart soul when I look. In other words, what we’re talking about is, this is a pattern. You dreamt the pattern to keep the inner from coming into the outer for you.

So, as a consequence, every aspect of a reaction, that you do, has this pattern. If something gets to be too much, in terms of trying to do something, or to buy something, then you will do an exhaustion kind of fear, kind of stepping back, kind of reaction. If the driving is too much, that pattern will come out again, too.

So what my dream is talking about is this pattern, and now I’m trying to understand my own pattern. And so I am talking about a heart level that, in its ideal state, is able to embrace the inner and the outer. But, in terms of trying to read it, or get there, there is something that keeps happening because it causes a looking instead of a feeling.

Now this time we’re talking about a looking that is a reducing of something into a dense way of reception, as opposed to a perception that works on the level of a flow, that is able to know how things really are in a different way, on a light level. To touch inner to outer one must stay on the vibration as a form of substance level that is seen by an all-pervasive feeling.

To try to grasp this in an understanding way is a problem, in that this slows down the streaming and there is a frustration that ensues in this way. When carried into the outer from the inner without restriction, the image in nature, when you look at a forest, is it is as green as green can be, as far as the eye can see, not a blighted tree to symbolically portray a frustration of the flow.

It’s interesting. It even had an image, now, of what that can look like. What this is called is, it’s called a type of purity. And the level, of one’s inner self, that this is on, that is a type of purity, corresponds most directly to a fire element that goes back to Zoroastrian religion. We carry all these things inside of us. This is a Zoroastrian trait. It is a type of purity. It’s a rare religion, that no one understands, that was nearly wiped out by Alexander the Great – and yet there it is. There’s just a little of that left, just a little of that left. That’s its input into the fabric of the psyche of humanity.

So anyway, that’s how you isolate that now, because each thing represented something. Every prophet, everything, represented something.

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Out of Its Skin

2_taylorjamesIf we remember that we are all the characters in our dreams, male and female, we can see Jeane’s physical attraction to a man is more about making a deeper connection to an inner, masculine element. That, in turn, allows us to see more easily the distraction her female friend is creating – will she cause Jeane to miss her connection? It requires an alliance of both genders inside us to make the necessary journey forward. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Then I remember a little excerpt from a dream, where I’m with some people I knew from the days when I did seminars. And one of them is a woman that really liked to dress kind of with designer fashions and stuff, and so she’s interested in me – both in terms of maybe helping her with what she’s wearing, or she’s interested suddenly in something new that I’m wearing.

However, I’m interested in the guy, who I was kind of visiting with before she came. And I kind of want to hook up with him. He’s like over in his bed, and I had gone over there and he usually just sees me as a friend, but it feels like I can’t really find time to connect with him in any way because, you know, she’s kind of dominant.

Although she’s pleased right now with some changes I’ve made in what I’m wearing, it’s almost like we’re a little at cross purposes, because she kind of wants to pull me into that whole dialogue, or go off and be interested in that, and I’m more interested in hooking up with the guy, because I feel like the window of time that I have to connect with him is limited.

John: How did it start?

Jeane: It actually started with I was kind of visiting with a guy, maybe even sitting on his bed, and then she came along. And she’s interested suddenly in a change in what I’m wearing or in my helping her with what she’s wearing.

John: So, this is actually similar to the prior dream, in that you’re finding the feminine aspect of yourself wanting to get out of its own skin, so to speak, or take another leap, from how it is in terms of creation or/and also, therein, what one is wearing, into a whole other frame of reference.

I suppose that makes actually a lot of sense, because the literal nature of the feminine is, is that it is creation, and that it does have to contend with the matter of things in manifestation. And yet there is so much more that is also going on, that is repressed or hidden, in terms of a literalness about just manifestation, per se, that one understands or appreciates in terms of their senses and their mind.

And so that, if you have an inkling that there needs to be more, that you would find yourself fighting to take that step, which means that you are rejecting or repelling what is offered to you, even in terms of how your opinion might even be solicited in relationship to some aspect of what is going on around you, because you recognize that what you need is something of a masculine or bringing in of spirit energy, or however that works as a process that comes from inner into outer.

You need that sort of revealing, in order to be more than what you currently are.

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