Posts Tagged ‘acceptance and forgiveness’

John: Your dream yesterday was not surprising to me at all because my dream also dealt with the issue of abuse by those in authority. From a masculine perspective, though, in my dream I’m the abusive authority (for Jeane’s dream, see Updating the Past).

Your dream also had me wondering about the ancient history inside us. I’m from one Scottish clan and you’re from another, a clan that actually feuded with mine. We’re almost at opposite polarities.

This caused me to ponder the idea that, somehow or other, opposite polarities actually do work together more than we realize: they’re attracted in order to resolve something, or in order to pull something together. It’s like Yin and Yang or, should I say, like an electron and a proton in the atomic structure?

On a vibrational level, what does the other half, or perspective, tend to look like? We are in a position that needs to accommodate both halves, showing compassion toward the other, and knowing how to work with it, even though there has been abuse – whether by gender, by history, or by people in this specific life. How can we facilitate the resolving, or healing, of whatever it is that’s reactive to the abuse, and/or is in a position to abuse?

What I see in your imagery is that you’re drawing closer to this resolution, in terms of a historical depth within you – to the vibrational level where it sits. In my dream, the way this opens up for me is that I have to start out, symbolically, in a state or a space that then travels backward in time to where the vibration, which is unfamiliar to me, is located. That location is at some point in my history.

In the dream I’m asked to participate directly in the operation of a casino. I have some sort of bond with this place and I’m naturally invited into its power structure.  

To begin with, what I experience comes naturally. I keep gravitating more and more to the core of the operation, getting involved in the functioning of what really makes the casino tick.  

Each phase of my progress triggers memories of having been there, and having done this work, before. Eventually, though, I reach a point where I’m seen as the problem – by the average person who comes to the casino to enjoy it – and a deep anger is vented toward me.

It’s as if I’m a ruler who hasn’t done right by his people: they’ve had it and it’s time for a change. Those who operate the casino bring me right into the epicenter of the hostility. They’re very calm about it; it all comes down on me.  

I’m in a quandary because I don’t know what I did to cause such an upheaval and negative reaction. All I was doing was aspiring to a greater depth of familiarity with the casino until, in the final image, the average person sees me as the person who’s abused his authority to such a degree that I have to be replaced.  

What I find interesting is that this was an inner adventure where I kept going further and further into the depth of me. At first, it was easy and exciting, and I was progressing very quickly. I felt as if I belonged there and was meant to reach this point within myself. But then I triggered this outer reaction.

All those involved in the management of the casino were eager for me to take the position of authority. They stepped aside and the problem was mine alone, even though this problem was hidden, or dormant, until I reached this deep inner place.

This reminds me of having done something very direct and controlling (a misuse of power), that I now find deep within me a place that’s desperately in need of redemption. It’s from this deep-seated inner background that I carry the memory of the way conditions unfolded. I’m picking up on this vibration from my past. If the dream is indicative of just this vibration, then I’m to contend with the rift that was created – or the rift will contend with me.

In the dream, I reach this inner place, as if I were transported very quickly back in time to a vibration that carries a conditioned heaviness. I don’t know why the reaction feels so catatonic, but it seems to have something to do with me.

This dream is drawing me closer to this vibration, a place where confusion, pandemonium, the epitome of a breakdown in reaction dominates. In doing so I’m confronted with having to sort this out.

Just the feeling of the reactive vibration, even though I don’t have any facts about how this came to be, is a start. It would seem that the inner powers-that-be have come together, through me, to reach this point. They are entrusting me with the responsibility to sort this out or face the consequences.

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Jeane: In this dream, I seem to be visiting a series of old rooms that are pie-shaped, or at least they are as seen from the outside. I can go into them, and it feels similar to the way Egypt felt in that the areas that haven’t been visited often have many rooms that are outdated.

Elizabeth Taylor is there in one of the rooms, or is planning to be. Because there aren’t many rooms, I can visit each one, look at it, and come back out. But because there are so few people visiting, I realize that I can go in and start modernizing them, or cleaning them up, or do something with them to bring them forward in time.  

I might not be able to do a lot, but I can do a little bit. It’s almost like being in a museum: I can move forward and back through different time periods, going forward in and coming back out.  

At first I did it slowly, but then I realized that now there is more freedom to fix them up a bit.

John: I actually believe that about you: that there’s a quality in your overall nature that has this mannerism where you take what is brought before you, in terms of your attention, and seek to balance it out.

This is an approach that has an ancient quality to it. It’s not the approach of a naive person – you just are that way. You’ve taken on that type of responsibility and you tend to shape and condition your environment around you. If there’s something out of balance, or if confusion exists, you take the time to work at it – to bring it around into a proper cadence that you recognize, inside, as needing to exist. Is that right?

Jeane: Yes.

John: That’s the opposite of me, of course. I’m the bad guy. Was that the whole dream?

Jeane: A little bit more came in after that, but I’m not too clear on it because it was just before I woke up.

It felt like I was visiting with someone and we were having a dialogue. I even invited them over to a house. We weren’t really ready for company, but they came anyway.  

There’s a group of us there, and someone starts to ask me about a place I used to work. There were two supervisors there who were not good managers, both a man and a woman, I think. They were people from the past. I’m being asked about them because the rumor was that they were fired. I said: “No, it’s more like they were demoted or reassigned.”  

I was trying to look at what those two people were doing now. I was trying to figure out what they were up to and communicating to this person what that was. I didn’t really pull that dream out well.

John: Perhaps, but you’re creating images that are vibrational to something that’s astir inside you. Through this, you’re trying to come to grips with an imbalance in terms of how something in the past was done, or how a decision was made, that occurred in an unconscious way. In that sense, as in the first dream, you are taking something from the past and updating it.

Somehow you are now able to take a position that works with that prior scenario. You’re not doing it from a position of judgment. You’re being fairly matter-of-fact, in the sense of “that’s the way that it is,” and you’re okay with catching up with seeing things as they are.

In fact, when you do catch up with it, a part of your nature knows, or has a depth to it, that can work with that and seeks to work with that. It’s almost as if you’re designed to fall into that position because you have an understanding at your core of what makes things tick.

In other words, you’re relating to this as something that has happened that you have accepted. It has happened in terms of something or someone in charge, or in a position of authority, has mishandled a situation.

But, rather than being reactive about the mishandling, you seem to have reached an understanding. You’re able to look at it from another (deeper) perspective, instead of from a shattered, fragmented, reactive perspective. There’s a part of you that’s a bit reactive, but the depth of you is able to take a step back from that. Bringing issues from the past, and updating them to where we are today, in our wisdom and understanding, can be a very healing process.

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John: As this dream begins, I’m at a wedding reception that’s slowly ending. I sense that a woman has traveled a great distance to see me. This woman is someone from my past and she’s waiting outside the reception.

Inside, I’m with a woman who needs to pause for some reason. I have to accommodate that because there’s a subtle effect that needs to happen, and I can’t force it or influence it; it has to unfold naturally.

I can feel the energetic anticipation of the woman outside, but she has no idea what to expect because I haven’t seen her for years. She is a woman who’s easily wounded. I just want to strengthen the way she feels about herself so she’s better able to cope with life. She’s prone to despair and depression. She takes everything out on herself. 

I keep supporting her energetically in the hope that this pattern can change. I know that behind this affliction is a very beautiful person, but she reveals her wounds by the way she carries herself.

This woman doesn’t know anything about my current life. On some level she knows she can’t be with me, but she’d like to lean on me for energetic support nevertheless. Somehow this strengthens her ability to cope with her despair.

The woman I’m with doesn’t know this is going to happen, and the woman I’m meeting isn’t aware that I’m in an established relationship. Without saying a word to either of them, this is what I expect to happen when they meet: The woman I’m with (whom I know has the ability) will immediately recognize the dynamics of the situation through her more conscious or developed state.  

In other words, I expect the woman I’m with not to feel inner reverberations of doubt, in terms of her own security, and to see that I’m only trying to help this other woman.

The other woman holds onto her mannerisms (despair and hardship) because they’re related to how she sees herself. But this inability to let go keeps her set in her ways. I don’t believe she’s really that limited; she can break free.

I know, but can’t explain to either woman, that there’s an intangible energy each of them carries that will make a difference for both of them – as it naturally integrates.

For this to work I need to support it as a spontaneous effect between them. When the visiting woman sees me with and the woman I’m with, she’s going to visibly despair. The woman I’m with will see this, but should know that this doesn’t affect her in our sense of togetherness.

My concern is that the woman I’m with won’t embrace the other woman and her energetic will be dismissive. But her greater consciousness could cause her to rise to the occasion and immediately accept what she sees for what it is. I know that if this happens, integration will occur in that split second. 

The woman I’m with will have more compassion as a result, and the other woman will find the acceptance she needs. Thus the strong part of the feminine and the weak part of the feminine will come together. This rarely happens as an intertwined integration, but I know this is what needs to happen.

When these two parts come together a natural healing will occur on levels that I can’t begin to describe. From a masculine point of view, this is all I want, nothing more: for the imbalances in each to be soothed and even healed. It’s something I couldn’t do on my own. For this to succeed, each woman needs to see beyond the outer appearances – what’s important here is intangible. 

If the energetic connection is not made, the opportunity will be lost. The the experience will only serve to reinforce the despair in the woman visiting, and the fear in accepting the unknown in the woman I’m with. If the woman I’m with doesn’t feel her space has been violated, then the compassion she naturally carries will close the intangible gap with ease.  

This dream is showing how in every environment we find ourselves, energetic ripples radiate all around. Everything in an environment can potentially benefit, and gain insight, from everything else.

We see that two feminine aspects within me, each supported by my masculine nature, need to unite. Separately, each one has their own psychological hindrance that limits them. Coming together completes an energetic in the world (because it’s not about them, it’s about the whole).

The feminine that’s being very bold – given its weakened condition, i.e., having traveled a great distance without an invitation – knows that it needs to be integrated into a greater whole, but doesn’t know how to do that. This negative feminine energy is despairing because it remains energetically deprived.

The feminine I’m with is much stronger, more developed, and more capable of acceptance and forgiveness, which can enable the integration of the two and a healing to occur. If that happens, a healing within me will occur.

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