The Energy to Change

John: Last time we ended with a voice in my dream saying,You have a call from all sources of what is going on, and a minute amount of awareness about it .” (For the background to this discussion, see A Touch of Mink, and Seeing the Light Beer.)

So I seem to have a minute understanding, based upon comparative experience, to know when something needs to be poured out (the beer), versus when it is to be ignored and remained bottled.

My first dream had to do with having to contend with mink energy, which is set in its nature but tends to be fairly refined compared to squirrel energy, which forages about in life and tries to make the best of a situation.

And squirrel energy is progressive. It might be a little frenetic as it accumulates things. It can even tend to hurt the subtle unfolding, but it definitely gets the attention of that which is old guard and trying to maintain the status quo.

That which is trying to maintain its status quo  – the mink energy – sits behind its established security (the gated area), but tends to lose, over time, its connection to its surroundings. In other words, what is peripheral starts to fall away, and the old guard energy becomes more and more isolated in how sustains and maintains itself.

That’s what old energy tends to do – it gets isolated and disconnected, whether we are speaking of old patterns, old leadership, or old civilizations. New energy coming in, which functions on a similar parallel but is still active and vibrant, tends to create a stir energetically, and instigate change while the status quo tries to maintain its perimeters and resist any change.

In life today, what is going on is that at the very top echelon of things we have an attempt to maintain a status quo, and to some degree that defense of the established system can be vicious. And the mink is one of the most ferocious of all the weasels, even though it’s not often thought of that when it’s admired for it’s beauty. It’s viewed as something to attain, to reach, and then to maintain and protect and ward off other aspects in life.

So the squirrel is viewed as something that creates a disturbance that disrupts the tranquility of things, yet at the same time it can bring about greater awareness – if it’s doing it consciously instead of chaotically. It can cause a greater awareness of the aspects of life that have been neglected for so long, but need to be awakened to and appreciated, i.e., the spiritual aspects.

So that was the first dream and then it progresses to the second dream in which there are two qualities, or states, of life – the spiritual and the cultural, or the inner and the outer – that have been separated, and if no action is taken they will stay separated. But if we learn how to press on something, to instigate an awakening, we can cause a change in the flow.

Then something new and different can occur. How do we know when it’s time to do that or not? Well, the imagery of the third dream, with the beers, offers us a clue: a Budweiser is considered a beer of the present, of the common man, and the Miller beer is a beer that used to be seen as common and then became somewhat more sophisticated before it fell out of sight.

No one thinks much of a Miller beer anymore. Anyone who used to order a Miller beer, now orders a Bud. A Bud under most conditions is fine but if you’re dealing with something that’s a little more gentrified, a Miller is actually a better tasting beer. Nobody thinks of that. Most don’t make that subtle distinction.

This is some sort of pun in my dream, where I’m drinking that which is common in life and then I realize that that which is uncommon in life remains bottled, unopened. Then I progress to where I pour the beer into a glass (to bring it back into an aliveness instead of it letting it remain shut off), and it seems to create a possibility where it can be appreciated more.

When it becomes something that’s more appreciated, and I’m able to know the difference between the two, that’s when it’s assumed that I’m developing a sense of what is going on in terms of various energetic levels, because there are different stages of things awakening.

When we develop an understanding of what is going on then the next thing that needs to happen is for us to pull out some “minute amount of awareness about it.” In other words, it’s going on for a reason in terms of that which is designed, and we need to be conscious of that process.

I guess that’s the sense that I have inside, that somehow we need to find a way to be able to keep shifting, and accommodating, that which is important to a situation, and to an occasion in life. No matter where we go or what we do, we need to keep that awareness and stay with the flow. We need to balance the guidance of the inner to what is happening in our outer lives.

Nearing the Top

John: So, in this dream I’m driving a heavy, oversized vehicle – like a tank truck or something – up to a retreat center. The truck really slows down on the steep slopes. It’s in the lowest gear where it barely crawls along. Still, it doesn’t make it to the top.

The vehicle can’t navigate the sharp turns, so it comes to a halt. Now, the vehicle is like the meditation I did last night: although I went somewhere deep inside, my connection to that place is still a mystery to me.

In other words, I’m not able to go to this inner space with ease. I’m feeling it, but I’m not necessarily able to hold onto it. There are obstacles that I come up against that stop my progress.

It seems that my intention in taking this truck up the hill is to give it to the teacher at the top. However, the teacher doesn’t want the vehicle. But, since I’ve made the commitment to come to him in this way, he insists that I find a way to make it happen.

The teacher is not accepting of my inability to find the inner power to make the hard turn switchbacks up the steep hill. I’m not allowed to give up.

So this inner struggle began during my meditation and was carried into my dreams. It’s like an energetic mystery that has come out symbolically so that I can get a glimpse of what it is.

I pondered my options for getting the truck up the hill. It’s an electric-powered vehicle, so perhaps the battery was running down? That’s one idea. Maybe it just needs a boost?

In the end, I park the vehicle at a place that is very near the teacher’s place; it’s not quite the top, but it’s almost there. Once there, the vehicle has to be stripped inside so it can be used as a shelter for small animals. Not my animals, but anybody else’s animals.

I just have to abandon it there, next to a hitching rail for horses, where it will provide shelter for the smaller animals.

So, what is going on? This imagery is showing that I’m unable to sustain what’s needed to make a journey to the teacher. The vehicle depicts the challenge I’m feeling about what must be overcome. And it isn’t a small car, it’s a big, tank-like truck!

The dream is telling me that I’m trying to make this journey with something that is unnecessary. But, since I’ve chosen this as my way, I must figure out how to make it work.

Through this scenario I come to learn that what I do embody is a space that can provide shelter. What I’m bringing up with me can be used as a shelter for denser energy (depicted as small animals) that needs to be kept outside for now because it cannot be brought to the teacher in its raw form.

Whatever it is that I still need, or am still holding onto, can be kept in the truck – near the top, but it cannot be brought to the top as it is.

So I’m still carrying some denser animalistic energy that is limiting me – it drains me of power as I approach the higher realms. But I’m committed to figure out what I must do  – it’s clear that stopping short of the top is not an option.

And the point I have reached doesn’t depict a total loss, because what I carry can be used as a repository for others who make the journey with this type of energetic. So it can become a place for others to leave their animals – their lower-self nature – while they are given the grace and time to work it out.

The idea is that anyone would have to take it back on when they leave, but they must leave it there temporarily in order to be in the presence of the teacher. For me, it’s like I have left it behind – it’s no longer my concern what happens to it.

There’s also a deeper meaning to this imagery. Using the example of a power station being the source of energy, it’s sent through a system of transformers so that it’s not too powerful when it reaches our homes to power an electric light. In this analogy, the vehicle is like a transformer. It absorbs certain wild (lower-self) behaviors that would be too much for a person to bring on their journey, a journey from the light bulb (an individual) to the power station (the teacher, or higher self).

In such a situation it becomes a type of temporary repository. Whatever can’t be brought into the higher must be left here, until one begins their journey back into the lower, outer reality. It’s not truly dropped – it must be picked back up and carried as a burden that still needs to be dealt with, or refined out of oneself.

For some it’s needed as part of their work at this stage of their process. For others, the lower energies that they cling to remain with them until they advance further, or until they simply let go. Human beings are allowed this freedom of choice, and freedom to proceed only when they are ready.

The lesson I’m receiving through this is that I’m still carrying something that is sheltering lower-self energies – those reactive parts that have yet to let go. Something subtler has to evolve, where these aspects can to be transformed into a purer energy.

All that is revealed by this dream. Although I don’t yet understand the particulars, I’m grateful that it’s portraying them in this symbolic way. I can see that there is something in me that I need to transform, absorb, and release into emptiness.

Animal Nature

Jeane: In this dream I know that I traveled from a place where we were living, but you seem to be in a distant area. I can’t remember why I was traveling, but I was traveling to see a woman friend of mine.

Now, my friend was living on a hillside that was kind of midway between two points, but it’s a long way from anything else. There’s a dirt road that leads in, but you have to hike to the house because it’s on a mountainside.

The road is steep and as I was progressing along, I hesitated for a moment because I could see an animal pen where an animal had gotten loose. It was a big animal, like a rhinoceros or a hippopotamus.

The presence of this animal makes it hard to continue walking on the dirt road because I can see it staring back at me in an intimidating way. It’s very big and imposing.

Then the animal seems to disappear and I arrive at my friend’s house. It’s very small, and in the kitchen she has an odd little counter that looks like some sort of barbecue unit. She is cooking on this, rather than a regular stove.

While I’m there I meet another man who seems interested in me. Then it seems like I have several meetings with him and we get into a light flirtation. We have a friendly debate going on.

It seems that my friend also has a man that comes to visit her. It’s a long trip for him because she is so isolated on this mountainside. Then there’s a time when the four of us are there and my friend is cooking a meal for us.

You show up, and this makes the man I was flirting with sulk a little bit. I’m just trying to figure out the whole scenario. I go into the kitchen and I focus on how my friend’s oven works. It’s has a barbecue top with a lid that lifts up.

Some things are burning in there. It’s like a roast that has been sliced like a steak. I say something to you about this meat not being for us, that it’s really for my friend to serve to her man. That’s all I remember.

John: Okay, so a rhinoceros or hippopotamus represents a blunt kind of energy. It’s a powerful animal that stands still but then can bolt and run at you in a hurry. You never know what it’s going to do, and it’s not easy to stop once it gets moving.

It’s fairly straightforward in terms of what one experiences as an animalistic energy inside. But it’s a powerful energy that can’t be pent up – it needs to find a release (by getting loose from the pen). And this energy stands in the way of you getting where you want to go.

So it’s like it is cutting you off from your destination, which causes the situation to lose it’s rhythm, or balance. That’s when these other men (masculine energy) start to come and go. What’s interesting is that you are showing the danger of this energy to yourself. You flirt with the masculine energy, yet another aspect of it shows up (in the figure of me).

This points to you recognizing the consequences of what you are doing – it’s a warning about your flirtation with animalistic, blunt energy, which can turn and rush at you at any time.

It’s important to make note of what happens to the meal, because you are expecting to be fed, but it turns out that the food is not intended for you. It’s for someone else.

This says that the energy you are flirting with is not really food for you – you’re not in a process that is feeding you. It’s not beneficial to what you should be doing.

In a development journey we have to choose the energies that feed us, and say no to the energies that don’t. It’s a fundamental way to proceed. So you are in this process between your animalistic, physically based energies, and you are being told that the choices you might be tempted to make are not a form of sustenance.

Part of you knows this, but this imagery serves as a bit of a reminder that your decisions need to be centered around foods of a higher nature.