The Ego Presence

October 9, 2012October 9, 2012 ~ d2k ~ Leave a comment

Burial scenes and chase dreams: what does it all mean? Here, the images from Jeane’s dreams show how what awakens in a person needs to be handled, accepted, or incorporated into the life. Otherwise, fears and resistance from the ego can cause the images to veer off in unexpected ways as a means of offering a deeper answer and understanding. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: One dream I had I just remember a fragment of, it’s like something or somebody and there were other people standing around, but digging in this really rich, brown dirt, and they’re digging these holes. And then they seem to be burying people that are represented by something made out of silver.

I’m kind of observing this, but then I notice that he’s actually killing the people by burying them. So I intervene, make him stop and uncover them. Because it was like he was doing something that was really interesting, but then it seemed to me like he went just too far, so I made him uncover the people so they’d be okay.

That was one dream. I just remember the color of this really rich, brown dirt. It was kind of reddish-brown dirt with the silver.

John: What was the sensation it left you with?

Jeane: Well, the first sensation was kind of interesting because of all of the rich color and the motion of the digging, but then there was a sensation of things went too far and you have to fix them.

John: First of all, the image looks positive because something made out of silver is being hidden or buried in rich dirt. It’s almost like that’s a good trait that’s happening. It’s as if it’s being protected or guarded.

Jeane: Then I make him partly uncover them.

John: Because you don’t know why that is. The theme of the dreaming is trying to figure out why it is that something has to be done. Because we don’t know, we have to try to figure out the answer.

So your reaction to this image in which a part of you, that is catalytic, is being preserved or hidden for safekeeping. Because you don’t know why that is, you actually are reacting to leave it more out in the open – to uncover it so it’s visible.

In other words, it was a strange theme last night in which, for my dreams, I could tell that something was naturally there, but I couldn’t explain why or how or what it meant. So I found myself going from this condition of trying to figure out a solution or a resolution in terms of how to deal with something, which had been prior dreams, days earlier, to now all of a sudden having all the answers provided.

But I don’t know what that means, or why, or how that took place, or where it came from, and so I’m disturbed by that now in that I have to know why, how it works. In other words, it’s like I have the sensation that everything is okay, but I don’t know why and how that is.

And in your particular case you just have the overall presence of an image in which something that is catalytic, that’s made out of silver, is buried in rich soil. It’s safe, it’s secure, but because that seems odd to you that it is like that, you feel you need to take a step back and look at it as opposed to just be in it.

Jeane: I thought that burying it killed something?

John: Yeah, you would think that because that’s kind of how everything is in the outer. If one doesn’t understand everything in the outer, in the overall, then whatever it is that you don’t grasp or understand means that you’re not taking your responsibility over it or something. So you try to take and roll everything over in your hands as a doingness. But that was a prior pattern; that’s not this pattern.

So in this particular pattern, you’ve let go. You’ve allowed what needs to be, to happen, in terms of something precious that is kept safe. This is a shift and because you don’t quite grok [understand] the shift that has occurred, you are feeling that you need to let it be visible again.

And so you’re feeling you need to let it be visible because you’re killing something, but that’s what it’s all about, is to kill the ego presence that gets in the way and causes things to go all astray, that you have the ability to just naturally know what is whole or right in a sensation and you’re able to maintain it, to live it.

And you don’t know why that is, of course, because that’s an image that’s a little bit shocking, because you can’t put your finger on it. Even in the overall you want it to somehow or another be an image that makes more sense.

Me, in the masculine, I need to understand why something is, so I struggle in my way to understand it. In other words, I’ll be damned if I do, damned if I don’t. At one point I’m trying to get something to happen and now all of a sudden it can happen and I’m still not satisfied because I need to know how it is and why it is that it happens.

In your particular case you suddenly see an image that enables something to just be precisely how it should be, in a quietness and a hiddenness, and now you’re disturbed by that because – where did that come from?

Jeane: In my next dream, it feels like maybe I’m living somewhere in the north, and I’ve had a visit from a friend of mine who’s Israeli; he and his wife. I knew them in New York and then they went back to Israel later, but he’s visiting me and you.

And we live somewhere in the north; it’s seems more like New York. He’s visiting and while he’s visiting, some government agents chase him and kill him. And I observe it, so they start chasing me.

First I go down along a dock area, and I seem to hide behind the pillars on the dock, and then, just as the government agents could spot me, I seem to be able to jump from the dock pillars. Suddenly I’m in an orchard, a kind of flowering orchard with pretty white cherry blossoms, and I get away from the government agents that way.

I go to his wife’s house – her family’s house in Israel – which for some reason is more like it’s in Washington, D.C. in relationship to New York in the dream. Just south down the coast would be the way of putting it.

I go to the house and I sneak in the garage door and crawl up into an attic above the garage door and then later crawl down into the house and start looking for people. It seems to be a multi-room house and they’re busy doing other things.

I find a piece of paper on which I can write down what I saw about what happened, but I’m hiding, so the government agents, as they’re observing the house, won’t see me. At first when I get his wife they have trouble believing me what really happened, but I’ve written it down.

And then he seems to be alive again and he’s there, so now I have to hide him, too. I want him to also write down what happened on some notebook paper. It takes me a while to convince him but I finally convince him. He doesn’t want to hide out in his own house, but I know the government agents may come and search.

I find a way to get us back up into the attic. Then I’m trying to figure out how to get us out of there, so I kind of want to get back to where you are, and I get this idea that we have a boat, like a Beachcraft-sized boat, that can sleep several people that no one seems to know we have.

So I figure if we can get to the boat I can go up the coast. You even seem to suddenly show up to help steer the boat, but at first we have to drive it on dry land. It’s in a trailer or whatever going down an alleyway. I even stop at a restaurant that’s closed, but there’s still people sitting around in it.

They have some people there that serve you breakfast early in the morning. I’m thinking about all of this because my thought is that the boat’s perfect – nobody knows we have it and I can take it straight up the coast to where we live.

But the downside of that, if I’ve made a mistake and the government knows we have a boat, it has a GPS and they’ll be able to track us. So what do we do?

John: Because you objected to something being hidden and kept buried, this dream proceeds to show you what happens in that kind of step-back nature. In other words, it’s now at a point where if something visits you, you’re exposed, and you’re now in danger, or something chases or comes after you just like it comes after him. And in the dream you’re trying to flash back and forth over the idea something getting killed even. He gets killed in that one?

Jeane: Yeah, but then he seems to come back to life.

John: Which is another humorous state in that none of this needed to happen, if you would have just allowed something that’s catalytic to be kept hidden and buried and out of sight of things, but because you took a step back and you acted like there was something wrong with that, now you’re compelled to see that in doing that you start this whole reactive thing that goes on.

Now, the thing about it is, it’s a very interesting reactive thing because the whole time that this is occurring you don’t seem to be all that – in most chase scenes you’re more affected by the issue itself. You’re more thrown around. You’re more caught up in it. You’re more lost in it, but in this particular case you seem to just be more ambivalent about what is taking place.

Yes, you have to deal with this, and yes you have to shift around, and wherever you go they seem to be able to find you. The storyline of the dream reflects kind of a nonchalant nature. It’s almost as if you kind of knew better or something, the way it reflects it in such a nonchalant way.

Ordinarily when you have all of this sort of stuff going on, the tendency is to be more concerned about it but it’s almost like this whole dream, and the whole schematic of the dream, is like, well, what do you expect?

And at each stage you’re realizing that you’re getting the answer to something that you didn’t quite have before, that in spite of all of this that happens, nothing gets killed. Which is the same thing as that getting buried in the rich, brown soil. It’s not really killed. That’s just a knee jerk reaction, and as far as the fluidity that it gives you, something is just naturally provided.

I mean, if you need a boat to go somewhere you’ve got the boat. You can go zipping off and go somewhere. In other words, you have access to a flow as needed in order to carry on.

However, because you aren’t quite ready to maintain something in a hiddenness, then you have to look over your shoulder all of the time. It’s almost as if you’re finding that you’re able to go along with the play of that. In other words, it’s almost as if it’s expected. It’s almost as if earlier in the night you really did understand how something needed to be buried, so now the dream is showing you how all of this other dribble-drabbles about, that you’re just taking it in and watching it as if you kind of know this as the consequences, or something, as opposed to being lost or caught up in it and not really having a good answer.
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Finding An Answer

September 13, 2012September 13, 2012 ~ d2k ~ Leave a comment

Today’s dreams are a continuation from yesterday’s post (see The Fix Is In). Here we see how the thread begun in the first dream, with the robe and the vials of pills for an emergency, have carried through the dream images later in the night, offering greater insight and a warning.
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Jeane: In my next dream a woman friend and I have gone in to an auditorium – and it feels like a town we’re not familiar with – to watch something. And we go near the back of the auditorium and we sit down in these little wooden seats, and when I sit down and I cross my legs, my foot hits the rear end of the person sitting in front of me.

I look up and there are two or three Arab men sitting there in their long white robes and one of them starts really causing a fuss because I kicked him in the rear end, and women aren’t supposed to touch men so he’s turning around and causing a fuss.

Other than apologize I feel like the best way to deal with this is for me to just ignore it because I can’t do anything about it, and to me it was a little thing and it’s just culturally he’s fussing. I scooch my chair back a little and then I just am not looking at him because I’m not going to deal with his fussing.

He must have gotten up and I look to the right and there’s some other people that must be the women and children from his family that have come and they’re talking there, so I put my attention on what’s going on on the stage because I wasn’t sure if we were going to watch a movie or what. But instead I see there’s a group of people that have gotten up to sing and that’s all I remember about that dream.

John: Even though you have the station, and you have the pills, you don’t quite know how to use them yet. And that is not in the way that you might be inclined to think that that sort of thing is literally done.

You do introduce an answer in the dream, however, and that is that you put your attention, you redirect the attention to something that’s alive and quickened, and that, almost as if that is something that’s missing, you have a sense to know where the problem is by being able to address something that draws the attention, that quickens the energetic, as the solution. That’s very interesting.

Let’s see how that would apply. In other words, you can see maybe where your dad… let’s use your dad as an example. You can see where your dad might be bothered by something in some subtle way. Well, rather than address the issue, the manner in which he’s bothered, because that would be like inappropriate behavior.

The feminine doesn’t go up and do that sort of thing. The feminine has to have a better, subtler approach to changing things. What you do is in feeling the awkwardness that you know is troubling him, you figure out what is it that you can energetically do that sparks the energy so that that just goes away.

Because it’s almost like the feminine, from her understanding of the mood of things, can see the energetic imbalance and turn that mood from an energetic outer imbalance to what it looks like as a mood or a tone like that and then know how to just like she knows that her moods are changed by a certain way that the masculine clarity is able to come through and touch and cause something to switch, she now knows how to take and spin the interest level, the excitement level of what can be done, or activity wise, or just changing the way one is going about and that that relieves it.

In other words, it’s like for example how you might have applied that is you could realize that the nature of the football games actually, as much as it was an indulgence in something that appeared that one had to do and liked doing, it also took the energy down. You could have possibly seen somehow what to do to snap that energy, like maybe one takes a walk or maybe one goes for a swim, or whatever.

You have a sense of how to get something that’s constipating, and has a tendency of getting sticky and constipated, based upon mannerisms of the past, impressions. You’ve seen how your dad can drool and indulge in something over and over and over again, and you’ve developed an understanding of how you can use a tripwire so to speak, energetically, that kind of takes it into a whole other level of flow, and thus brings out the brilliance and the quality of the genius that underscores the depth of what your father is really all about.

And that the other is just some sort of stickiness that we all have our little stickiness areas and you don’t go touching and dealing with the stickiness areas like your sister tries to do that just invites a huge reaction. So that’s how you use your station and your pills.

Jeane: In this last dream it feels like I’m a little frustrated because I feel like I’m flying around in a circle in a confined space, perhaps in these small planes, there are two of them, and it feels like we’re circling around and I want the planes to land but there’s something that they’re supposed to do or bring in or land that we just seem to be flying in circles and it doesn’t quite come together yet for a landing.

So it has a slight frustrating feeling to it.

John: This is a warning dream. It’s saying that you can’t let your impatience get the best of you. As you see this stuff continuing to continue if you get worked up and agitated about it, you can’t hold your station and apply your pills.

Actually, this quality – where you change the tone of something rather than address the specific problem – and you have to do this from a point in which you’re not agitated or worked up because otherwise that doesn’t come across because the masculine senses this kind of thing and draws the wrong conclusion, so you have to be as naturally smooth and rhythmic about this as possible so that there’s no sense that you’re challenging anything or trying to manipulate in some fashion or have a reactivity in any regard.

It all looks quite natural. If you think about it, that’s how the Naqshbandi tradition is meant to work. In other words, when you meditate you take and you place, it is said that you place your attention upon the principle of love, or the quality of what you feel inside, and you hold that and dump everything else into it.

Because if you don’t do that then what happens is that your mind races out to whatever it is that’s bothering you, that’s agitating you, that’s a predicament and you just make that to the point where you drive yourself bananas, crazy, insane.

But if you can then take all of that stuff and dump it into this quality, this depth inside, it gets absorbed and goes away and that is a quality of meditation, that’s the principle upon which everything actually works. And what you dreamt, in terms of your station and your elixir pills, is how to apply that in terms of where you find yourself.

In other words, there’s one way of applying it on the inner, and there’s another way of applying that so that that innerness comes through into the outer, and that is the state and sense of pills that you carry. You know how to do that.

You see what I’m saying, right? You put your energy on a flow that enhances, that’s excitable, that’s of interest, that also, by the fact of a certain focus that’s involved in all of that, heals. And who would have guessed: it’s kind of invisible.

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