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one-with-UniverseIt is easy to forget that we are designed to make a spiritual journey, because it seems so removed from the culture and society we find ourselves in. But, like all living things, we are born with all the physical and mental abilities to fulfill our purpose and thrive in life. So, as adults who choose to return to their human purpose, we need to undo the things that block us and prevent us from our natural capabilities. Fundamental to that is to come to understand and recognize the defense mechanisms we have created to cope with our experiences – because they serve to separate us from the oneness that we seek. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I lost my second dream, I’ll have to see if it pops back in. But what I remember a bit about the first dream is that I seem to be a woman who, I’m out in the countryside because society feels like it’s been really disrupted.

And it feels like back in time, you know like a younger you know 50, 100 years ago or something or more, and I seem to be trying to protect a child that’s with me, who will become more in the future. He’ll have some position of leadership.

And so I’m trying to like pull people together around me, and watch after him, but everything’s in a disrupted state – like there’s been war, or something, going on and we’re wandering the countryside. And so I’m trying to keep people awake and pull it together. That’s about all I remember of that dream.

John: So the deeper theme of all of this is, the beginning and end are connected. And so to take and have a glimpse, or an understanding, of how something is unfolding, and is set to unfold, there’s actually never anything new under the sun. It’s already in place. It’s just that we become veiled from how something is.

And we’ve developed this whole battle that has to do with whatever the mind is, meaning the mind is like somehow or another limited in terms of our perceptions because we perceive in such a limited way, having our nature confined and contracted like it is, so that the impressions that we have are based off of our senses, then, in this contractive state.

And when like that, then we’re biased and influenced by our surroundings, as if the surroundings are real. And we actually have created our surroundings, so as we’ve continued to shut parts of ourself down we continue to limit our grasp of an essential, all-pervasive overallness that permeates life.

In other words, it’s the mind that’s behind all that there is in manifestation and we have developed a limited mind, an illusionary mind to that all-pervasive mind, that is based upon having shut things down, contracted, and gotten into a mode of having created a world in which our perception is based upon our five senses. And so what we come to know, then, is illusionary. In other words, it’s just not real.

And so what you’re really doing in the dream is you’re going back inside of yourself to try to awaken that which you already know. It’s repressed, or hidden, in some capacity because of trauma and events – like you might say a wartime scenario, or whatever – that caused you to develop defense mechanisms upon which you took yourself outside of the way you need to be in terms of a greater overall all-inclusive beingness, or basically this all attunement kind of mind.

So you’re playing with this dynamic of past and future, or beginning and end, and so you have a sense of something more that’s possible, but that more that’s possible is a recognition that the way you are at present, in terms of being affected by the collective in your environment, is unacceptable.

But your conditionality is holding you from breaking that trance, and the reason is is because you have shut things off. Over the course of time, you have continually shut things off, and shut things off, and annihilated this, and annihilated that, so to speak, in terms of your awareness and awakened state in the overall – to the point that you’ve become so veiled that it’s like you have this need to go back and awaken to refine the parts of yourself that have been repressed, or subrogated, from consciousness.

And so, you know, this is the part of the journey, or the Sufi path, of being able to go into the depths of one’s self. And when you go into the depths of yourself you discover things that are traumatic or, in your dream, like a wartime past. Which is the same thing as traumas and stuff that you’ve had to take and make decisions on, in order to try to protect yourself, a protection however that is one of thinking that you have some control mechanism at play here, some choice in this regard, instead of just recognizing that you were created out of everything, you are actually the one mind that permeates everything in all of eternity.

However, you have exercised your freedom of choice in terms of trying to establish a sense of control for yourself and, as you’ve done that, you have confronted barriers that you have established, meaning veils, to create this segregated separateness of yourself. And the segregated separateness of yourself has gotten to the point where it has choked out the vibrancy of your wholeness, and has put you in kind of a sickened condition.

And in order to discover what all there is, you have to go back to where an aspect, like a wartime trauma of some sort, first originated. You have to go back and touch that. You have to go back and notice that, and you have to go back and let go of that mechanism that you put in place, which influences how it is that you’re capable of acting in terms of being real – because you are actually living in a bifurcated state now in which you have conditions and patterns that you follow, that are based upon having cut yourself off from the prime inner directive of your overall beingness.

And so in order for the future to unfold, you have to break these habituations that are entrenched, that just are there, that make sense to how you see yourself, that is in terms of how you see yourself in the present and in the outer. And if you look at yourself closely, you realize that your reactions and your mannerisms have some sort of conditional habituation about it, and if you take all of the manners, and patterns, and habituations and you total it up, that’s what ends up creating this idea of ego. And the heretics way of seeing ego and mind as correlated, that’s how you end up with this personality or persona that functions in this alienated way from what is real.

So, the theme of the dreaming was going back and finding oneself, in terms of who they really are, and not taking and sitting and contending with being yo-yoed about in terms of these habituations that one has that predominate. And as long as you just sit there and don’t like this, and futter with that, in terms of some sort of predilection that you carry, you’re just going to go around and around and around in a circle, that even psychologists know that in order to heal something they have to take it back to the vibrational source, you know, from which the trauma started. And then the acting up, and the carrying on, that a person does that continues to reflect in the outer for reasons that a person can’t put their finger on anymore, can be dropped, because you realize that you don’t need that defense mechanisms or pattern for your well being.

So in your dream you’re attempting to understand something in terms of what’s able to unfold, and emerge, and awaken in the future by going back and addressing the contractions that are like an inner war that you have come to believe exists as a result having put yourself in a position of shutting down for purposes of coping. 

So, yes it’s true, as you become more conscious you are able to see yourself functioning in the future. You have a quality of an emergence that has this futuristic viewpoint, or perception, to it. But the beginning and the end are one and the same and, in order for something meaningful to unfold for the overall, you have to go back inside and redeem yourself.

So the going backwards, or going into the depths of yourself, which is like going back and saying this is where the whole path starts, is the ability to take and look at yourself, probe yourself. But what you’re probing is you’re going back and you’re untangling, and removing, the fetters that you put in place, from being able to be in an all-pervasive way. And when you’re in that all-pervasive way, the past and the future come together. So you’re doing that in order to have a recognition of what is meant to be.

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letter-from-the-universeThese dreams point out a core struggle on the path of development: how do we make the shift from thinking we are in service to the whole, to actually being in service to the whole? Because our egos will make the issue very blurry. But here’s a good test: does what you’re doing bring an energetic uplift? But that’s still a fine line because our psychologies can reward us, too, when we do good by them. But is our intention personal, or universal? (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I don’t remember my dreams really well last night. They were kind of odd. In one dream it’s like I’ve come across these instruments and they look kind of like… I think they’re called sassoons or something, you know, like they’re a wind instrument that’s really large, almost as tall as a person and they come down. They kind of come up again where something blows out, except that end where you blow out, these are huge, and then the end that you blow out of is actually separate from the end that you blow into.

And what I’m doing is I’m getting busy attaching the end that you blow out of to the end that you blow into, because they’re separated. And there’s either some kind of a contest, or a war, going on. I’m not sure which.

After I’ve done that, it feels like I get some kind of almost like petrified wood or something that you actually will blow out of one end, so that’s kind of weaponized these things, large pieces of it or something that can fit in the end. Because it’s like these dreams, a lot of these dreams, seem to have to do about being at battle. That was the first dream.

John: The degree to which they had to do with battle is the degree to which you create a certain kind of cloud or confusion, in terms of yourself, because the idea in the sense of battle has to do with some sort of personal entanglement engagement.

However, the image of blowing with your breath is an image of bringing something down and through, and from that you’re able to make a sound or have an effect upon something in manifestation, which is an image that has to do with bringing something from inner into outer.

So when you put the fragments together it’s like you’re sorting out the engagement of making a connection that takes your awareness and brings it down, with the out-breath, into life. But to the degree that that attention is contaminated by the idea of a battle, or something else going on that is affecting your dynamic in some capacity, that you have to wrestle or contangle with, to the degree that that’s in there, that’s personal. That gets in the way of the flow.

Jeane: My second dream it seems like I was working at one agency as a therapist, and I’ve left and I’ve gone to another agency and I’m working kind of in administrative work, but clerical work, in a way like maybe in records, and how things are put away, and kept track to have them filed that supports the whole system. And that system is getting kind of chaotic, or falling apart a bit. And I’m fairly good at it because, to me, it’s all part of supporting, helping people, and it’s giving me a look at how things work.

And I’m meeting with someone that I think is really good at it to discuss with her how she’s handling it, as there are changes going on in the agency there, making it fall apart a bit, and what I can learn from that.

And then it feels like I’m going to be leaving, and when I leave and I go back it’s like I’m having a dialogue with some people I used to work with, because I think in a way I have a different perspective from having worked at all layers in an organization. And it’s kind of interesting to me, so when I go back I go back to working with people as a therapist, or is it helpful to them that I’ve actually worked in other parts of the system.

It seems to be like I might think that maybe they think if you’ve been away from it, that you lose something, but on the other hand, they may feel that you gain something because you’ve seen how the other parts of the system work – and even when they don’t work.

John: That is a big dilemma for me as well, from the standpoint that I always think that some of the sophistication and focus that I have that does certain things, that has an involvement in terms of how things work kind of in an outer consequence or systematic way, is important in terms of a process. And the dilemma with that, is those systems and that process can be falling apart. I could have it wrong as to whether it’s important.

However, the activity that I find myself doing, that gives me a certain joy or pulls my attention into something that is meaningful as an expression, that I make into life, that feeds me in some capacity.

The dilemma that one has is to what degree do you identify with, or take what it is that you have as an aspect of the systematic development that involves the personal? To what degree is that important in relationship to just being able to function in a way that uplifts the whole, that is directly into life?

In other words, it may or may not be a culmination of everything that you’ve gone through. In other words, to what degree do you have to look back at the building blocks that has systematically brought you up to a particular point? To what degree is that still important in terms of looking back at the system of things?

In other words, you’re sorting this out, because if you go back and you look at the systems of things and notice that they are falling apart, and your attention is upon that as if that is important, you can develop or take on a type of sadness because that may not be directly the work that is intended. And yet how do you let go of that because how do you know that it isn’t part of the general overall matrix that’s meant to be?

In other words, you can still see or find yourself thinking that that has to also occur, and about the only way you could best sort it out is that when something unfolds that is of benefit to a bigger schematic, or direct aspect of manifestation, and that feeds you, and that uplifts you, and then you take that and put it up next to the process of what you feel it takes to systematically unfold. They could be two different things. It’s a part again of getting aligned in terms of the changes and the shifts that are occurring in life, and in manifestation. And the secret and the key here is to be able to bring into manifestation what manifestation needs and not necessarily some ideation.

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inner6Whether we want to admit it or not, we are in a state of war, one that is being waged between our inner urge to do what we were designed to do, and the fascinations and distractions of the outer world. In a sense, our life is at stake. Do we use this earthly experience to satisfy our personal desires, or do we use it to participate in the universal process? It’s a battle that can have only one winner. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: I was just looking at how to describe something that I clearly know so I can see it inside, and both of my dreams indicate that I see and note this really clearly inside. But the dilemma I have is how do I bring this across so that it’s relatable to others?

The first dream has to do with how this works in relationship to the way things unfold in the outer. Well, both of them do, actually, but both of them have to do with how things are able to unfold in the outer because they both require a person to be aware from with inside of themselves how it is that things are unfolding.

Over the loudness of the dream is the oddity and the peculiarity of what is clearly imbedded in one’s nature as a knowing connectivity. It seems to be so hard and removed from others who from my perspective should be able to get this straightaway. To me it seems that obvious, but they don’t. That’s kind of the theme of the dreaming. We’ll see how your dreams do in relationship to it.

Jeane: So with my dreams, in the first dream it feels like a number of us are involved in a war. And what I’m primarily trying to do in this war is to stay hidden. Sometimes I’m staying hidden in a pile of people, but I just keep seeing moving around and primarily to be hidden. That’s the first dream.

John: Since I know what the dynamic of the energy is, what’s going on is that the part that is hidden is a part, a higher part, of your innerness and that’s what’s hidden. But in a war everything tends to be right there in front of you.

So the greatest contrast between inner and outer occurs when there is the element of something that’s like a war which totally engages your dense nature to having to take a position, or a stand. And when a person is in a state of war, in terms of themselves, or in an environment, the outer conditions of that can tend to traumatize a person to such a degree that they can actually come out and back from the war estranged from any good common sense sensibilities – because they had to contend so literally with that dense dynamic.

The element of a war felt in the way that a war is able to be felt in its dense dynamic, that is able to traumatize a person, it can leave a person’s psyche nature even more twisted and demented when they take and they contend with that, and that had to contend with it literally, and have no way of going to a greater depth and overall meaning in terms of themselves.

And so what you did is you took and you took these two contrasts and you say, okay, you’re in a state of war, which is true, when you’re in the outer you’re hit with forces and features that take and keep you veiled from seeing the greater dimension of things. And in the greater dimension of things it’s like a hiddenness by comparison to that which you take literally in the outer.

And so you’re making the simple statement that you need to keep track. You’re in a state of war, or there’s the element of a war, and then there is this hiddenness that you need to stay in touch with. That’s your sanity, staying in touch with the inner able to come through.

If you can’t, that’s why you see so many people coming back from wars that can never get their act together, they’re traumatized; can’t shake some traumatization that he took on that is a feature where he got slammed into something in such a dense way that it haunts him and he can’t set it aside so that he can catch up with the inner quality that wants to break through.

Now the problems is this inner quality is trying to break through, but it doesn’t quite come out and what he gets is scary images instead, all part of the trauma.

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