Posts Tagged ‘awaken to our higher self’

Awakening can be a simple subtle shift within us, and we don’t awaken all the way, all at once. It is a gradual process that can move in small increments, or sometimes by great expansions, but only by as much as we are ready for or can handle. In this dream it is a sound that triggers the realization that there is more to the dreamer than his normal perspective. And that’s how it goes, little by little we expand ourselves into the universe. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Now, that reminds me of the second dream, because in the second dream that I had there is a corporation that I identify with whose stock is misunderstood. It seems kind of dormant and asleep; in other words, there’s just no action about it, it’s just stale. 

So as I look at the company, I’m trying to determine if there is any movement, whatsoever, for me to be able to make something out of it. And, as I look, I have a stock register that shows the trades over a sequence of time. And it has columns coming down, so I’m going back, and then this, and this, and this, and all of a sudden there is a current point in time in which I notice that there’s movement in the company.  

And I’m actually kind of surprised to see the movement, and I’m trying to determine to what degree now because in the register it says the first half and second half. So what does that mean, first half and second half? Is that a lot of movement, or a little movement, or just the start of something? 

So I study this to try to learn more about it, and determine if such activity is meaningful, or to what degree it’s meaningful. After a long history of nothing happening, whatever is going on now strikes me as something I need to catch up with, because this is an action that is still discrete, but isn’t actually below the radar screen anymore. 

And the meaning is, there is a movement from within that suggests hope, or a meaningfulness, is astir. The dream causes me to feel this as being a kind of pent-up energetic in my chest that I’m carrying in a kind of suspense. But that suspense could change; in other words, something could just break loose. 

I don’t yet know what to make out of this as I don’t have enough information to understand any parameters; just a sense that one has. In the meditation dream, I notice that I am looking at myself from a position that is removed, or I’m somehow separate from what is going on. In other words, whatever’s going on I’m separate from it – and I’m looking at myself. 

What I’m looking at is how am I going to react in the outer with regard to a projection? In looking at myself, I’m seeing myself as a projection. And what am I going to make out of this projection? In other words, I’m in the flow of the projection, it’s not like I can break the projection. And I’m just looking at this projection. 

And suddenly I hear something from another place. In other words, like something within, like a sound. And this jolts me. That is when I notice that in the outer body frame of reference, the outer of myself, which is the projective part of myself, that’s when I’m observing that that was just a projection. Until I heard that sound, I was identifying with that outer aspect. And when I heard that sound, it caused me to notice that there is a distinction of something removed from that projection.

Until I heard the sound, I believed that what I’m looking at, and what was going on in the outer, as being where I’m at. To realize that the image was but a projection, shocked me. I was caught in that hook, line, and sinker as kind of an unfoldment flow. Well I’m just amazed to see what jerked me back, because I was convinced that I was the projection. And what I notice is that – in terms of hearing this inner sound – is that it breaks me out of a kind of stupor, or trance, because I was convinced I was the image, and that that image and what was going on was what was real – and had to acted out based upon the projection. 

So by hearing an inner sound, I am noticing that this sound intervenes and interrupts the projection. So what is going on is I’m observing how I am the doer behind everything that has an actionableness about it in the outer. If I am able to stop, and let go, and take a step back into a stillness of my being, I notice that isn’t anything that’s going on, that’s just kind of a projection. 

In other words, it’s as if I have dreamt all this up. And I’m noticing that the other scenario that circumambulates is but a dream that has me, somehow or another, in its clutches. So the punchline is that in a stillness there is no projection. And when I come out of this stillness, I enter the plane of existence where projections are acted out. To act out a self-imposed projection, because I am not able to let go of an illusory sense, causes me to manufacture what isn’t real, and is out of touch with who I really am deep within. And so, I’m out of touch with who I am, where I am, and what I am.

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M.C. Escher

It is common to think of our journey as connecting to higher things – and, of course, there’s truth in that. Yet that higher part is also within us, our higher self. In that sense, we are trying to bring that higher part of us down into the lower, earthly, everyday, matter-of-fact lower-self of our lives. That’s the work of it, cleaning up the lower to make a space for the higher. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: My dream starts off where there are these levels that somehow need to be able to be lined up, and I know I can line them up and I have to adjust my frame of thinking because I’m not used to seeing how the things come together and line up, the levels line up. And I end up seeing multiple combinations where they’re actually broken in two, and in another instance they’re not broken in two.

If they’re broken in two I don’t have quite enough hands to put it in place because one layer is inclined to drop a little beneath another layer, so it doesn’t necessarily click into place. But if it’s all on one same level or various levels, I have to adjust a certain kind of focus almost like you cross your eyes, it’s a way of seeing, in other words, by which this happens and you can’t get to where this will work or happen with your ordinary faculties. You have to kind of let go of those and then there’s a naturalness that pulls that into an intertwined connection.

And if you stop to think about it, that’s when it gets really complicated. And then it’s almost like you don’t even have enough hands to be able to do it – when otherwise it’s almost like you can almost not even touch it and you can just kind of see by kind of an osmosis nature this sort of thing coming into its natural alignment. It becomes more and more hands on the more you find yourself dwelling upon it and trying to figure it out. That’s the meditation dream.

In the main dream this approach to all of these different levels and whatnot is put into action, in which my attention though isn’t where it needs to be. It’s not so much on the levels, but in terms of what is necessary to clean up oil spills.

And these are strange kinds of oil spills in that I have one mop that I generally use that’s soaked in a particular solvent, and I guess this solvent spreads far and wide because if I take it over the area of that it soaks it right up, it puts out flames if it’s on fire or whatever the condition may be. And it’s a type of mop that I can use to do battle with forces that may even try to stop me from doing this cleanup.

And so that seems to be what I do. But then I come to see that being able to, or having a calling to, do that is one thing, being able to get to where it can be done is a whole other thing. That’s the issue. That’s the issue and that’s the dilemma of the meditation dream, was how do I take and connect this stuff together, how do I make this align together? If I think about it too much, it just goes on and on and on in its complexities.

And so in this dream I’m standing at the top of what’s like a huge interstate that’s way up off the ground in which you have the cloverleafs, and all of the different turns and curves where you have the exits, and just multiple exits dropping down to this level and that level and that level. And I’m standing at the top and I can peer down over the edge as you have this road going this way and that road going that way, and I have no idea how to get to what I can see down below – but there’s a big oil spill down there.

I could run into a lot of resistance even to try to clean this up, and so this time I decide to do it differently. Before I only used one mop soaked in solvent, this time I get two mops and I’m carrying the two of them so I can clean up any spill in between, and maybe be able to take care of that one which is where I start heading to go to.

But just because I can see it doesn’t mean I can get there, because as soon as I start to get there then I have to go these circuitous routes, and I’m going through my inner eye in terms of how I have a sense to where that’s at, and I end up at a gas station where there’s a minor cleanup. And I end up where there are trucks that have been parked and they’ve dribbled a little oil. I mean this isn’t where I’m trying to get to.

And the suspense is there: how do I get to this oil spill that I saw? How do I come down and keep coming down to the point where I finally get to what is at hand that needs to be cleaned up? In other words, that’s my challenge in terms of confronting it. In other words, this is how I deal with the levels that become like veils – because until you can go from top to bottom you could stand maybe at one point and have a sense of the higher-self being able to peer all the way down and through, but when you would start coming down you have to confront the veils and stuff, and you have to go according to some pulse that you feel inside that keeps going and going and probing and probing and probing to get there, and never get distracted to the point where you stop to clean up something that’s trivial.

Yes, you deal with the stuff to some degree, and of course one of the places I stop is this gas station and the owner there is just way too busy. All he can do is operate the business he’s so busy, so he’s real appreciative that somebody out of the blue, you know nothing compelled me to clean this up, comes in and gives him a helping hand. But he doesn’t even have time to say thank you even, but I could tell he’s real appreciative because he’s busy, busy, busy. But I’m hard pressed to get to this real spill. I can feel that inside. Now, there’s a real spill that needs and is calling me to get to to clean up before it catches fire or something.

So that’s the dream. And the little meaning I wrote about it is the challenge is that of being able to access what I am able to see in my mind’s eye and upon an inner sensation level. First I have to see through, or how to get beyond, the veils that exist.

Well, you don’t really see through the veils, so you have to sense through them. There’s something that pulls you through, pulls you along, and some of these veils are even new to me. In other words, this particular spill has caused me to suddenly have to contend with veils I hadn’t realized, or turns and twists and levels that I had never realized or recognized.

Before I used to see myself as someone that just did this, but now all of a sudden I’m having to realize that it’s one thing to do this, and it’s another thing to get there, to access it, to be able to relate to it, to be able to communicate with it or whatever it is.

And it is an issue of communication, because there was another dream inside there that I can barely remember in which the issue wasn’t the knowing, but the issue is to figure out how to communicate it so that it was understandable. Some of these veils are new to me, and I am just now figuring out how to reach through or beyond to a natural connection. In the dream this coming down and pulling together what is needed is the challenge. If I can do that, I will be transcending the veils and will be able to do what needs to be done to clean up inadvertent spills in life.

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everything is connectedEasy to say, harder to do: we are connected to everything. What makes it hard to do has a lot to do with our inability to truly believe it is so, because if we did believe completely, letting go of our personal experience of life for a universal experience of life would be a trade we would make gladly – as everyone who has done it will attest. So, the question becomes, how deep in us, or how complete in us, is our belief? (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Well, in my dream I started out doing what I had done yesterday in my meditation dream. I went back into it. And what I had done yesterday apparently in the meditation dream that I didn’t properly fully report, or didn’t notice at the time, I’m kind of reminded of in this dream in that I had to come to the conclusion, so I go back where I had been yesterday to look for what is true.

Now what I had done yesterday that I didn’t quite report was that I had come to the conclusion that when I go back inside what I thought to be true is the opposite of what I think is true in the outer. And that somehow didn’t feel right to me, but that was kind of the conclusion. It was such a shock of what I saw back there.

And I remembered the strong sensation this left me with realizing that how I had thought things to be, the way I thought things to be for all these years, was a little off, and that what was true is kind of the opposite. So it seems I go back to take a look at that again, and I go a little deeper. And when I do I discover that what I really felt to be true is how it actually is, that the other was wrong.

So what this is saying is that you start on a process and a path in which you kind of naturally know what is true. Then you get a bunch of information that can tend and send you on tangents, kind of like what we have going on right now. And so then you come to believe that that is true – where it doesn’t quite feel right.

And then you come all the way back to the point to what you really knew deep, deep, deep down inside – and you were right at the very beginning. But, of course, there are levels to this, and so how does this apply?

So I go through three examples. One is I believe that everything that arises from within us, comes from us; that it may seem that we are affected by superiors or an energetic that is correlated to our lineage or Tariqa – and for the longest time this is true – but way back deep inside that falls away. Everything is us. We are God.

Two, that we are each God at the core of our essence. For the longest time, however, we experience life as if we are catching up with the ideal and are embodying a soul that is missing out in some capacity. That isn’t right. It’s misaligned is the better way of putting it.

Three, that when we buy into something, or when we sell something, nothing actually takes place; in other words, the actions that we do in the outer. It only seems like there is this dynamic, but on the deepest inner level the stillness still resides. The idea that there is something to sort out is nothing more than the never-ending perpetuation of some separation, or another experience as existing that we have taken in and pretend exists, that lies between who we are and God.

So that’s the meditation dream.

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