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When we are truly enjoying ourselves with friends, it usually has a very natural sense of flow, with no discordant moments or awkward feelings. It happens when we are harmonically synched up, and the energy is all at a similar frequency. If, however, any one person gets in a mood, or gets upset, it can throw off the greater flow for everyone. Now extrapolate this to us and the universe, where we think everything should unfold according to our needs and timing, rather that according to universal design.(At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In my meditation dream, I’m holding my attention as intently as I can to keep from losing a sensation. I hold it, and I hold it. I’m not moving, staying in tune with a zeroed-in focus to the sense and sensation. 

So, as the dream progresses, when I pick up a woman who is coming home and has arrived from her trip, the setting is such that she is also meeting her boyfriend at the same time. We’re both to meet her at the same time. The pent-up energetic that I’m harboring within, which comes from holding and staying intensely in a focus, comes out. It is as if this sensation had to percolate. 

See, I have an imbalance in the fire energy. I need to hold that in a continuity and a balance or my fire comes out. The ability to touch in that kind of place of a firing out is easily skewered. So it is as if this energetic had to percolate, so to speak, and let off steam. It’s too much; in other words, it just came gushing out. 

So as I go up to greet her, he’s going up to greet her. And my mannerism was too much for the situation. The situation was a woman who had just arrived at a depot is to be simultaneously greeted, because we’re both waiting for her. And the flow to that reception, from me, is overwhelming. It is natural to experience that, in other words, something welling up within that is pent up, but not natural when what is pent-up is coming across too loudly, or too quickly, or too abruptly, or in a way that can’t be handled. That’s not proper zigzagging.

So, in the dream, I need to step back so that things are absorbed. She greets me and her boyfriend simultaneously, she can only handle so much. In other words, the moment needs to be recognized in terms of what is going on in the situation because she can’t meet and greet us both simultaneously if there isn’t adequate space and timing. 

My problem in the dream is knowing how to settle back. I need to let her boyfriend come into the equation, not overwhelm the situation with my presence. When that is done properly, she picks up the flow by saying to her boyfriend, I thought we should take you with us to an ice cream parlor that is on the way where we are going. That is relieving to hear because it indicates I am being taken into account, which apparently I need or I feel left out and am hurt.

So what is missing? In this dream, I am remiss when it comes to tying together a flow. The tying together is meant to be in keeping with the overall unfoldment. My sense of flow is too much. It isn’t the flow that is important, or my sense of things isn’t what is important, it’s the overall general flow that’s important, that takes into account the big picture. So, as a result, what occurs becomes over the top, and a balance and evenness are lacking. 

I do not know how to let what needs to occur, occur as it needs. To not allow this to unfold naturally, that is what is missing. Or the meaning is, in terms of what is missing, the dream is pointing out that I need to take in a situation with a rhythm that is in keeping with the pent-up energy that is in the atmosphere. To flow too much with a thread that is behind an energetic unfoldment is to be over the top, and when over the top I shut off or overwhelm the inner into outer dynamic and take a naturally unfolding scenario into such a pitch that it cannot keep up without there being something that gets frazzled.

A temperance is needed for the flow and attention to embody the overall wholeness. I must greet each aspect in the dream as me, and, when I do, I will immediately know the overall sensation’s timing and flow.

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The very idea of being in a flow is constant movement; it’s never being in a place, or position, long enough to get locked in. Now this doesn’t mean roaming the countryside restlessly, it is speaking of an interior flow and movement that keeps one available to what is shifting and changing – just like an athlete bounces on his or her feet to allow the fastest reaction time. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: In the second part of the dream, and I know in the first part of the dream it had something to do with a kiss, but I don’t remember that part. So, in the second dream, it feels like I’m traveling somewhere. And there’s this little man with me; I don’t see him very clearly. 

Well, as we go there, there’s like a halfway point where there’s a small city. And he wants us to leave my car there and go the rest of the way by traveling public transportation. I don’t really like that thought. I either want to go all the way in the car, or go part way and walk. So I’m uneasy with this, but he seems insistent. 

So when I go to leave the car at this building, where we can get public transportation to go the rest of the way, as we start to leave where I’ve left the car, I glance over and I notice that a woman who works there has taken my car and she’s turned it into some kind of like a package that’s sitting on her counter. So I’m a little uneasy just leaving my car in this package form, sitting on her counter next to this box or something. 

So I’m walking over to her. I want to see if we can actually put my car somewhere else. And I think that was when I woke up. 

John: Well, the first part has you zigging and zagging in order to find a balance. And then, in the second part, there’s a purpose and reason for that. And that’s to be able to bring something straight through, straight on through. 

And, if you don’t, you don’t quite get to wherever it is that you need to get to. In other words, the zigging and zagging, I guess, keeps something from putting you into some sort of spellbound trance, keeps you from getting indoctrinated or something. 

But it ultimately serves a purpose, even though it defies appearances in many instances, especially if the appearances are more set, or slower. It’s meant to enable you to bring something through; it is meant to enable so that something can come through. 

Even though you’re zigging and zagging, it’s almost as if you’re not necessarily having to go anywhere, you’re just having to maintain a quality about yourself that isn’t being impacted by what is going on around you. And yet, at the same time, the other part of the dream indicates that things get construed, get shifted and moved around, in strange ways. Changed, if you don’t bring what needs to be brought all the way down and through. 

So it’s a fire energy. Fire energy, the zigging and the zagging clears and maintains the space for something to come straight on through. In other words, by just sitting you can be caught under the influences of things. So you can’t just sit in an earthy way. It sounds good, but it doesn’t quite work. You have to keep things from the moss of life from growing on, or something, you have to know how to zig and zag. 

So this is something more of inner in outer can go straight on through. And if there’s a waiting tied to it, as there might be in kind of an earthy way, the waiting is a zig zag waiting. Keeping the space clear so something can come straight on through. 

You just have a sense of what isn’t quite right, and so you’re keeping things askew, astir, zigging and zagging as if it’s going to sort out. Ultimately it does, in that something that can be brought straight on through by being able to hold the space that way.

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We can think of everything we are distracted by, or worried about, or angry over, in the outer as a rabbit hole we begin to run down when our personal involvement takes hold. How far we travel down these interior detours is a matter of how unconscious we are in that moment. The more unconscious we are, the further we go. Yet they are always a digression from the reality at hand. When we stay conscious of this fact, rather that taking the detour, we can begin the process of moving forward in ourselves to a place of equilibrium again. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: My meditation dream was difficult because I was not able to go into the usual stillness, because something inside of me was racing away. And, when you can’t go into the usual stillness, then you get into the indulgence of whatever and however it is that you’re racing inside. And, when you’re racing inside, it’s because you are overindulgent in terms of your attention to some sort of outer thing, or outer unfoldment. 

The whole thing to know is that whatever that outer unfoldment is, it isn’t for you, in terms of its effect upon you, where it’s stealing and taking your entire attention. And so, as you become more conscious, you know how to still that, or just let go of it, or just drop it – to stop the mind, so to speak. And, usually, I’m able to do that and go into the emptiness within. And then, when I do that, then I’m able to be taken from the plane of indulgence of my outer five senses, and experience the inner, or the wholeness, the overallness. In other words, the essence. 

And, of course, the degree to which I don’t fully experience that, but am still welling in it to some degree, are states that you go through. So not able to let go, because that didn’t seem to be something I could shake last night. And all of a sudden it was getting later and later, I decided to lay down. Sometimes that works. Sometimes you’re just kind of sitting there, and you’re able to let go, then, of however it is that you’re just spinning and spinning. Because once you start to spin, then you start to itch and scratch and you can’t sit there – and it just becomes a conundrum of things. 

So this time, when I laid down, it led to hallucinations. And I find out that I don’t want to have anything to do with, well, in this case, I guess I don’t want to have anything to do with untrustworthy presence. And I won’t let anyone in my family relate, either. 

And, in my family, I have kids, and I won’t let these kids play with the septic pumper’s kids because they’ve all been contaminated by the septic pumpers in terms of being raised to look at things in the wrong way. 

So, in this way, I’m able to remain unstigmatically real, or so I think, you know, by having this push off, except this is all done on a hallucinogenic level.

And so how does this function? For one thing, like I say, I won’t let the kids play with anything correlated to that which opposes the overall aliveness with its demeanor. So, in a way, it’s actually positive. It’s negative and positive. The positive of that is that I hold to a truth, I hold to the essence – instead of trying to noodle with the other.

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