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internet-connnect-map-fractalIt may seem a contradiction: to let go, yet also to become responsible in our development journeys. It’s not, however, because we do need to become conscious of our energetic affect on people and things – in terms of what we think, how we act, and what we do. Yet we also need to let go of our personal viewpoint, and also the idea that we know better than the universe how things should unfold. For the universe to make use of us, we have to be able to listen and respond to what It wants. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So in the next dream I’ve gotten into a pickup with you, and you’re in the front seat with another guy, and at some point there’s another woman who joins us – but I don’t know if she’s in the back seat with me or not, but it’s one of those bigger pickups that has that kind of half passenger seat in the back.

So, you seem to have almost driven it right up and into a building that reminds me a bit of a hospital, and we’re going to do something there. I don’t remember what it is, but I’ve gone away from you for a few minutes.

I come back to where you guys are to see if you’ve done what we’d come there to do and it hasn’t happened. It seems like what I get focused on is I have this large shawl that’s more like the size of the tablecloth and I’m trying to get it folded right – and that seems important. It has embroidery on it and certain bright colors in some areas.

And the other woman even tries to help me, but I have to kind of wave her off because there’s something wrong that I just can’t get it where it will fold in the right places. And I finally figure out that maybe somewhere it’s been stitched together, but I have a feeling like if I can get this folded right and wear it right it seems like it would help us with the process.

But I’m frustrated. There’re even some doctors that are having a meeting that come and wander through at one point in this whole process, but I just note them in the background. And then it feels like the dream just shifts.

John: So what this dream is doing is it’s indicating that a lot of your problem in terms of being succinctly aware of what needs to be, has to do with the acceptance of letting yourself be directed in terms of how it is things unfold. It has a sense of almost an easygoing relaxation to kind of go with the flow like that.

However, this isn’t appropriate, or getting the job done, in terms of how it is that you need to be in terms of your role with yourself – with who you are, and how you are able and meant to be. In other words, something can bring you to a point but, nevertheless, after being brought to that point you have a responsibility to take and step forward and see how something is folded, and put together, and packaged and such. Or otherwise, if you stay in the malaise, you stay in a mood or in a tone in which something just isn’t quite right in terms of what it is that you’re meant to access, and experience, and touch, and know in terms of yourself.

In other words, you can’t live a life that is based upon a submission or bifurcation that goes through the eyes of someone else. You can do that up to a degree. You can catch the ride like that up to a degree, but you have to fill in the blanks, and bring about a balance and an order, and proper packaged unfoldment. You have to do that – as being true to yourself. You can’t just let that sort of thing hang out on its own – as if it will figure itself out that way.

Jeane: Then you and I seem to have gone back in time. We seem to be almost in a foreign land in kind of a little village square area, or more like an old time city area I would guess because there are shops and everything around us but it seems kind of foreign.

There’s still another woman with us and we go into an area where we’re going to eat. We sit down around a round table; there seems to be a Chinese man serving the food. The woman disappears for a moment into more of an inner area, so I get up. I think I’ve taken just a bite or something out of some fish, and I get up to go get her, or bring her back to eat, but when I step through the doorway I can’t see where she’s gone.

So I wander there a little bit to look, but since I can’t find her I come back to the table. It feels like you’ve eaten, and I look around to see where my plate is and I do see that there’s a cooked fish still there, and I’m going to look to put a certain sauce on it. And then the Chinese man who served us kind of indicates to me that, no, I need to taste the sauce that’s already on the fish, that it’s going to be the right one.

John: So, you’re taking and you’re describing, in the first part of the dream, what it is and how it is that you’re meant to be in order to bring something forward through yourself as a knowingness – and that you won’t catch up with that knowingness if you just sit back in a submissive way.

And then when you shift and seem to go somewhere, what you’re actually doing is this is not a traveling per se, in a physical sense that is. It is instead a reverting to a way of perceiving, inside of yourself. In other words, this other process brought you to a point where it causes you to shake yourself out into perceiving more directly, internally. And that’s important for you to be able to recognize the unseen, a language that works in that capacity.

You don’t quite pull it off. I mean there’s a walking through a doorway and all of this stuff that occurs, but you don’t have the instantaneous visualization of what that is like. But you’re getting closer. You’re still cluttering something up in terms of its real subtle quality that speaks in this nonverbal instantaneous knowing way. You’re still apt, when left to your own devices, to mess up the naturalness of it, but at least you’re starting to try to settle back and give it a chance; in other words, realize that the sauce is unfolding for a reason, or it has a reason to taste it, to recognize that first. In other words, note the difference between what is provided in a natural language inner unfoldment way, versus what it is that you are still inclined to do.

What you’re talking about is something that in my dreams I go into quite a bit of depth about, especially the initial dream. I too do not handle this, naturally, very well. However, I shake closer to it because it’s more of a masculine kind of energy way.

And you come closer to it by seeing how you are situated naturally already, and have to honor the naturalness that already exists in the environment that you’re in, and that this is your way that may look a little more indirect, but it is your way in which you catch up with that language.

I catch up with the language by way of overtly dealing with it in kind of a way that connects. In other words, I move the force or something around, and it kind of then comes and finds itself via inflections that spring out from kind of going through a heart center. And because the heart is connected to everything that exists, I find that intertwining, I recognize that intertwining, and am able to speak vibrationally to that – and in that way am able to find a nonverbal language that, when properly and completely and readily done in this way, causes things to shift, change, and unfold because we’re all on the same page. There’s no diversion.

That’s kind of how I do it, and you can come to know it by how whatever it is that’s unfolding is unbalanced and that there is a more natural way that it needs to be twined and folded for it to more succinctly link. You come to know that through allowing yourself to recognize that which you are able to naturally feel when you are yourself, in other words, not affected by influences around you.

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creationdBeing on a planet, we are as far from our creator as we can get. And we are designed to awaken to the journey back. But our creator will never hit us with a lightning bolt to get us to pay attention to that fact. (Even if that happens, the message won’t be: Wake up! But it may cause a person to listen to themselves more intently.) We are meant to choose the journey because, in that choice, we are offering ourselves in service to what our creator is intending for the whole. But we are neither slaves nor robots, so it is our freedom of choice. And this causes the subtle urgings inside of us to get drowned out by louder things. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: The thing that I have been noticing is how things open up, and open up, and open up on levels. And then there is a quality in which everything has an aliveness about it. And you come to know that aliveness on all of these different levels, and then you come to start to see yourself as different, in that you’re used to trying to see yourself as having a name, and being such and so, and having a particular personality that everybody knows you under.

They know that you do this, and you do that, and you act this way, and you act that way, because that’s who you are. And so that becomes a definition that you’re caught in, collectively. Plus we have all of the collective stuff that we put on ourself, in that we function and go around and we see the world through our senses: there’s a picture on the wall over there, and that there’s four walls in the room I’m in, there’s a bed here, and there’s this and there’s that – and all of that seems separate, all of it seems different and unique.

And so, as a consequence, that becomes a level of being. And so, as a result, other things that are going on don’t catch your attention because your definition of aliveness now has a modality about it. And you’re going to have a hard time breaking any modality that you have come to adopt because everyone else sees you as that way, and so and so good luck then, in terms of a greater wholeness, or a greater oneness, catching up with that in terms of you reaching the higher side of yourself. How do you break that?

All of a sudden a light bulb went on: that direct flow coming from inner into outer comes from another higher-in-the-light place. On this path, deep down inside of myself, to try to figure this out, to try to understand this as if there is a sacred math and geometry and everything else into a flow that can be applied to where you can catch up with the God principle, so to speak, as it is in play in manifestation.

Now because I have adopted this mannerism, or this motif, all of a sudden I’m having dreams that are helping me in this area, adding and giving me information in this area. It wasn’t until maybe last night that I started to realize, aha, this is what’s going on.

Let me give you an example of how we’re influenced by this dynamic of something coming from inner into outer, that we veil ourselves away from, in order to function as so-called adults. You probably remember as a kid where you used to have this little heebie jeebie about the boogeyman. And you could even get into the imagination where you could create a whole sense that there was something like that that existed; as a kid that was very real.

As an adult, you got rid of the childish game. What if that was real? Real in the following way: that deep inside of us we really do know that everything about ourselves, the way we conduct ourselves in the outer, the way we have our nuances, the way we bicycle around things as if they’re all separate, we know that that’s all an illusion. So what would happen if you penetrated, or broke, that illusion?

Well, great fear would come in because you need that illusion. That’s when something’s coming after you, and you’re falling, and you’re going to crash, and you’re going to be destroyed. You never do hit the ground, of course, but you’re falling. That’s where you get those strange sensations. Where they’re coming from is they’re coming from a part of you that is everything, and so the fact that you’re trying to hold onto something is running a defiance against how you really know yourself to be.

And so, every now and then, you slip up. You ease up a little bit, you forget to make sure that that hammer is my hammer, and that painting is my painting, and this house is my house. You slip up a little bit and, when you let down your guard, this other slips in.

And it does one of two things to you. For the average person, when their ordered nature is disrupted, it drives them crazy, makes them very fearful. And then there are those, and we’re meant to be those, who suddenly realize that there is an aliveness about everything, there is a process that supersedes how it is that we’ve pigeonholed ourselves, that takes and directs us, and guides us, in a way that is an inner coming into outer. It’s not something that functions the other way around where we dictate what goes on.

And when it’s like that there actually really is a principle behind it all, and that you really can catch up with it. So as you start to catch up with that, then one thing leads to another and the next thing you know is you’re starting to ponder the molecular makeup of things.

Well, you notice for example that your body is kept alive by eating food, and you need to have a little greens, and a little this and a little that, a little protein, and that makes for a healthy body. And somehow or another the body refines and excretes from all of that; it gets what it needs out of that

And so on a scientific level inside of yourself you can be looking at how to go through the molecular just to the direct vibrational energy of the food that it is that you really need, instead of just eating in a dense way, and some part of you grabbing it in a way that’s very, very subconscious to yourself, and that keeps the body going with what it needs, and you don’t know how that’s done of course. And the rest of it’s discharged because you’re in a dense realm.

But I now am dreaming about how to try to understand and look at the vibration behind everything that is the direct food, without any roughage, in other words pure on pure. When you then take and you do that, and of course you’ve got to understand the first part had to do with being able to understand what’s coming and going, trying to understand the future a little bit in terms of the God principle.

And then in this next phase you’re coming to recognize that you are keeping yourself under these trances because if you didn’t stay under these trances you scare the bejesus out of yourself because you need these trances, or otherwise nothing exists, and you don’t know how to function in a mode in which nothing exists.

And so then if you can accept that maybe nothing exists, because something inside of you knows different and better and is outside of the veils, then all of a sudden, if nothing exists, then you don’t want to be taking something that’s dense and throwing that into your stomach so to speak. You want to go and get directly to the molecular and just get the pure essence. Let’s skip that step.

And so then when you skip that step, you then come full turn then back to the fact that you are held in a trance based upon the schematic that you live in. Now let’s say that the schematic you live in is you have a house, and outside the house is a tree, and this tree is leaning towards the house. And you sit there and you just spend all of your time worrying about what can happen if this tree were to fall onto the house.

Until you let go of that idea you can’t shift to another level, because that idea that that tree could fall on the house is going to victimize you. So you’re now under the spell of the tree energy. In other words, it’s like the tree played a game on you, and it has got you in its trance, that it’s going to fall on the house. And now your whole consciousness is based upon an intelligence that can’t get beyond the tree mentality.

And so I wrote up a reason behind all of this is something like this: If a person is on a mission to understand the process of how life unfolds, you know, and what’s going to happen in the future and things like that, where you find yourself having to break through the veils of things around you to let go, in other words, to catch up with the God principle, then it naturally follows then why wouldn’t you also then start to consider the molecular structure of all of life in terms of trying to get to just the pure energy?

And then, if you’re doing that, and then you realize that both animate and inanimate objects are in some way bifurcated away from the all-pervasive aliveness that is who we are, that you then start to realize that the atmospheres and such that you’re in, and the things that are affecting that atmosphere, are also steering you into a consciousness that has a control over you.

So how can you catch up with the aliveness that’s a wholeness? When in manifestation they see things separately, when experientially all of that in manifestation needs to correlate to the oneness. And so you get down to the crux of this, is to what does the word “we” really mean? And so there’s an old saying: “We are the ones we’ve been waiting for.”

And so the letting go really is a letting go. It’s a letting go into that something that is the beyond of the beyond. And that we have to go through this smaller than small, a fumbling about with limited faculties, that somehow or another run their course. And when they run their course they run their course by us becoming frustrated, us realizing that we can no longer feed ourself in that way.

And so when we can no longer feed ourself in that way, we reach to a need, and that need takes us outside of ourself. And as you advance according to this need, opening up from within, where you’re getting the answers from within, everything about you starts to change, too. You require different food to take in. You can’t eat the same dense food anymore. It becomes subtler and subtler. You are already getting more and more refined molecularly, energetically.

And so the key is can you read the signs of this unfolding? You have an intuition. You have a sense about you that knows, that just naturally knows, there’s something so, so, so much more. And when you really get that sense there’s something so, so, so much more, that’s when you’re ready to actually have the inner experiences, that come through, that we call the higher self.

Until then, we stay and we satisfy ourselves with our conceptualizations, in terms of lower-self motifs, and identities, and pigeonholings and all of that sort of stuff, until we just can’t stand it any longer.And you have to get to the point where you can’t stand it any longer. As long as you can stand it, then it’s going to keep happening. You only rise to that other denominator of yourself on a need-to-know basis.

And so that’s why it seems to be such a long around and around and around process because you have to get to the point where it isn’t a matter of creating a better widget way, it’s a matter of actually totally completely letting go so that something more of who and what we really are, that is everything there is, that’s the nothingness, so that that can actually come through, take hold.

That emptiness is scary. And now you’re falling, or there’s something chasing you and it’s going to get you, it’s going to do you in. Those dreams give way to not being able to find where you’re at.

Eventually that has to give way, too, to where you’re able to be comfortable with nothing – without having to have a particular definition.

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the-stages-of-a-spiritual-awakeningIt is a great truth of spirituality that everyone has to awaken for themselves – in their own time, and in their own way. Many ideas, events, or encounters in life can trigger such an awakening, but it still must be freely chosen by the person. The reason for this is because, in a culture that doesn’t esteem spiritual growth (relative to economic or career growth), the person who awakens must generate their own passion for the journey – and no one else can do that part for them. Awakening is the beginning of the journey, not the end. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In one of the dreams, like you, I am a traveler, only this time as a traveler I have stopped at a place to rest a bit. I don’t describe the outer scenario around it. It’s just a place… it’s like a two-room place, like a little shop or something. There’s nobody else there but the shop owner.

And I stop there, and then a short while later a bum comes in and wants the business owner or me to give him something. The business owner says to me, “Don’t look at him or he won’t leave you alone.” And he’s not thrown out of the place so, if he can’t bum anything, he at least can rest a little bit here. So he falls asleep.

And even though I haven’t really looked at him, or spoken, to him I know what it is that he’s really looking for, or asking for, and it isn’t the kind of handout that he has been settling for. He just needs a push and he will find, inside himself, the way to breakout of his stupor.

Well to me it’s kind of obvious, and so to begin with I can’t wait for him to wake up. But he just fell asleep and just keeps snoring away. Finally I shake him awake and I say, “Can’t wait any longer. Now is the time that we need to leave if we are going to make it to Libby today.”

I’m a traveler without any sophistication and the way you get there is you walk and, somehow or another I’ve got this figured out how I can walk the distance between Cow’s Bell and Libby in one day. And I just automatically assume, just on the strength of me saying so and recognizing that what he really wants is something more along these lines of breaking free in some capacity, in other words, it certainly has got to be nauseating to just bum and get some sort of creature comfort that lasts you half a day at the best, or something like that. He’s very temporal.

And this is a means of bootstrapping himself and taking a step. And he looks at me kind of in a taken back way. Of course I’ve done this in such a way it’s as if I’m creating the appearance that this is what we agreed to do, and I’ve never talked to him, so obviously he’s looking at me kind of shocked, but I did it in such a way so that it penetrates, and so he has to respond.

So he says, “Well, you go ahead.” And I say, “You don’t want to go?” Ad he says, “I’m staying behind in Cow’s Bell.” And I say, “Are you sure you’re okay with that?” And he says, “You go ahead.” I can tell that the idea of going, and walking, and stepping out like this is something that’s a bit much for him, and scares him. So it’s easier for him to be a bum and settle for creature comforts that he thinks he could find just hanging out, but deep down I know that if he were to take a step he will find that he could break that trance.

So the meaning is, I am a traveler who is a world that needs awakening. Many people are easygoing and just accept things to be as they are. That’s the shop owner. Often they are good people who give strangers like myself, and the bum, a place to rest. There’s nothing I can do for such a person, until they realize that there’s something more that they need, other than to just go ahead and take in their hospitality, and hopefully they see in providing the hospitality that there is actually something more, and maybe they can see how they intertwine more to what else there is as opposed to just resting on a certain comfort that they have, which I know has its limits.

So the shop owner, the first party, is trapped in his scenario. And then there are a few who are looking for something but do not know what it is that they are asking for, or seeking. They think it is some sort of temporary creature comfort concept. If they weren’t so weak in spirit, and therefore asleep, they might get it. The bum doesn’t really have anything holding him back; the shop owner does. What’s holding him back is his weakness that is just in his head.

So there is a way of perhaps affecting him. You’re not going to move the shop owner. So I try to shift him into taking a step, but he isn’t able to find the energy to break free. I had to push him with the opportunity, or present him with the opportunity, because you never know. Maybe the time has come for him to take a step to break free.

For him that will be a big step, a scary step, but at least I threw it out there and he had to at least swallow that as an opportunity, possibility, or option, even though he would fall back. And, in falling back, at least he will remember that there is something that related to him more directly as a person, and thus helped him to see himself more for who he really is, as opposed to something that is so beaten down that all he can do is act like an animal, so to speak, not able to rationalize through that he needs to be able to freely go back and forth instead of being helpless like this. I’m not asking him to do anything more than what I do, and come to know the free flow that is liberating.

The significance of the dream is I am dreaming about the atmosphere of beingness. I have learned to travel without reserve. I have also come to know that the reason others are not able to be this way is they are held back by their surroundings, that they think they need, such as the shop owner, or they don’t know their real need because they remain asleep in a beaten down way from having settled for creature comfort handouts that keep them from growing up, or breaking out, of an unconsciousness.

These are the two primary types in life. Everyone is able to relate to each of those types to some degree or another. Only when you let go of all of that are you able to see yourself with the open eyes and move about more freely in life.

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