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heart-esHumans are diverse beings and it’s good to acknowledge and celebrate that. And there are many paths and religious teachings for people to follow, not because there are many gods and many possibilities, but because it is useful to have many paths to the same destination – precisely because we are all so different. Each of us can find a path that works with our sensibilities, and can give us our best opportunity for success. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: The difference between your dream and my dream is, I’m trying to figure out the correlation between the out-breath and the in-breath – as if there has to be one – because you don’t just have that shift to somewhere else completely. You don’t just have that. That isn’t the end all, be all.

There is something more than just that, or so it seems, or otherwise this is a bad joke. It does seem that the flip side, or the mirror image, just like there’s light and there’s sound, there does seem to be something correlated to sound to the light, just quite how that works is this huge mystery, how the wavelengths come together.

I suppose, most people start off on a spiritual path complaining, and what they complain about when they reach a certain sense of awareness is that there is something more, and that they’re caught in not being able to access that because they’re mired in manifestation. And so you have all these religions of the world that all take and go on their leap-of-faith approach to something on the other side, and sit and try to hold the line, or find an acuity or something, with some inner depth of themselves, as they fumble and struggle through life.

And so it really threw me into a mystery. The mystery it threw me into is trying to determine the correspondence between the out-breath and the in-breath, as if there has to be a correspondence in terms of a cycle of creation. You can’t realize something in just a totally transcendent approach, and you can’t realize something in terms of a total noodling down here just in the physical. It’s as if they work in a Yin Yang way. At least that’s kind of the sense that the dream started to throw at me because it pointed out that there were these two ways, and I started to look at these two ways that exist.

So, in the meditation dream, I am shown that when you persevere like in a particular way, like through the meditation and whatnot, and you’re actually letting go and you’re going somewhere, finding some sort of otherness of yourself as a depth within, that current way of going will take you deeper and deeper. It’s the way that you kind of transcend, energetically, with karmic barriers and veils that hold a person back. And it’s the way one’s identifications, which veil, fall away. And it’s the way you become empty.

Like in my meditation dream I was suddenly coming back from a place that was so far inside that everything around me was lifted, in other words, it was like a total in-breath or something. But then when you come back down with the out-breath, it’s like there’s another way, because you’re coming back into life. And so I took it as them describing that, as if that is another way. Or maybe it’s just part of describing the out-breath effect, because it doesn’t follow this kind of thread. It tends to defy this deeper and deeper within design, and this path is a defiant path that challenges everything constantly, and one is honed in this approach by the way you let go in the School of Hard Knocks.

By School of Hard Knocks means this approach isn’t necessarily pleasant. You’re radicalized from a lower-self, going through like a type of purging process, that tears at the fabric of the heart. So whatever you’re holding onto, until it blows up, or goes to pieces, or shifts, is an intensity that seems contrary to the other aspect of the depth that you went into, that went deeper and deeper in which that was just somehow or another you let go of that.

Yet both ways awaken, or appear to awaken. Maybe one is illusive in that it awakens you to a heart that’s trying to vie and feel everything. Even in the out-breath way of awakening it becomes a heart that is carrying a pain of a perception, and a reflection. Which means this is like they’re mutually exclusive, because when you’re really, really somewhere else you can’t find the heart necessarily. Your heart’s everywhere. You’re at a depth instead, and when you’re caught in the condensed state all you can experience is the calamity of the heart.

So the first path is the inner path in which the physical reflections, which afflict the heart, fall away, and you find yourself more and more in a deeper and deeper depth within. And in terms of trying to understand this, this is often referred to as kind of the Bhakti subjective approach, but that is overly simplistic, and if you just look at it that way you can just be something high in the light or something and not have any grounding. So it’s almost as if the other system has to have some degree of involvement in the process, in which, by calling it the other system, which is the out-breath, you’re putting everything including the reflective conditions into the heart trying to purge that in some sort of annihilatory way.

In other words, if you purge it completely enough then you can’t find the heart and the great expanse again. This is the approach that burns off the karma in a living it out kind of hard, heartfelt way. And being able to go along and live in the outer and, somehow or another, be okay in that is kind of the Raj yoga way – but it’s a painful journey.

In the dream I like the way that I was able to see myself suddenly lost, very very deep, and was coming out of that deep capacity. Under this scenario, or quality inside, or however, or even system, I seem to be at an inner depth as if I woke up there all of a sudden, or was shifted there, in one fell swoop.

The second scenario was pointed out to me as something with an entirely different sensation motif. It is also part of the out-breath and therefore has an intensity to it because you’re coming down into the multiplicity. Whenever there are identifications, of which there are going to be, by the heart to the reflective physical images, there is a lot of pain and collateral effect, which means that there’s the offsetting reactivity or reactiveness. And a reactiveness is nothing more than the heart have or the mind and the senses trying to figure out what’s going on, trying to create an understanding of the reflection.

The reason why I had this experience is to point out that it is so much smoother to let go and be taken. The other approach fights and struggles every step of the way. However, this predilection, being how I am in terms of contending with the outer, is a system whereby I suffer a lot in the outer – and hopefully do not blow myself to physical pieces prematurely.

A person who is too afflicted by the outer can have physical ailments, you can have a condition shut down that can cause personal injury. All kinds of strange things can happen. So if I’m able to handle this, I set the table for being naturally shifted in a letting go way, that’s if you’re able to handle it. If you’re not, then you just go around and around and around with it. The two seem to work side by side, or hand in hand.

The second approach, in other words, you know I can’t deny that there’s the out-breath right, so they have to be working hand in hand is another way of saying it, but I didn’t look at it quite like that. I just noticed that in the depth inside it was like when I saw the other, I realized that they’re both there, and they both have the same intent to try to get you somewhere, or try to awaken something up. It’s just that the second approach dials things up in one sense, in an outer context, so it’s doing it more quickly, or so it seems. And if I’m able to let go of the reflections that tear at the heart, and tear one up on a physical level, I can suddenly catch up with the inner depth, which maybe lucky, maybe not everybody can. Maybe some people just never can get out of it and the trauma just builds and builds until it drives them insane, or burns them up.

So I guess what I’m saying is that there are two versions to the process, much like flip sides of a coin. There is what I would call the Bhakti in-breath, and there is that which goes into life as an exhaled out-breath, which one could call maybe the Raj part, which has to contend with everything in the physical plane of reflection vying for recognition. Because such vying is reflective there is the appearance of multiplicity. The more I contend with that as being so, the more I afflict the heart with reflections that incite the senses and ego mind to intervene.

The definition of ego mind is a mind driven by sense perception, contracted from its true inner home in the overall essence of everything, everywhere. The true inner home is a piece in which time and space are incorporated within, and the without is located within at a quiet inner depth.

The subtle inner note is more alive, or so it seems, when the letting go Bhakti side prevails. When the Raj side is present there is the impression impressed upon the soul that there is work to be done here, in other words, caught in the illusion. You’re putting this stuff in the heart. The illusion veils until we reach beyond with the in-breath. We’re veiled by the limitations of a bifurcated, reflective physical plane.

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i000To really be connected and in the energetic flow of life requires, if it is understood, a deeper sense of responsibility. That begins with taking responsibility for what we radiate into the world and around others (i.e., is it a coarse or fine energy because of our state: anger, compassion, kindness?). The next elevation from that is to make possible the energetic fulfillment of a given moment, which becomes possible when we are intertwined. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: The first dream just seemed to be like I was dreaming about elections, but elections in a distant country where people had been… maybe someone had been king, or people had been kings, and now they had to run in elections, which they didn’t always understand.

And I would say that sometimes a king might even be surprised if he actually got elected, but it just felt like there was this kind of rough and tumbling running for an election, and looking to see who got elected, and how it was odd when they had countries where you used to have one type of the way that someone ruled, and now that same person might have to run in another system. And sometimes they might win, sometimes not. That was the first dream.

John: That’s an image of coming down, energetically. In other words, it’s like you’re used to a scene. You used to have a scenario in which there’s a certain kind of natural aloofness and order to things. And so that means there’s a separation, a custom separation, and that conditions prevailed and prevailed and prevailed just the way they were in their set way and now, all of a sudden, you have to contend with the fact that you have to come down and you have to do something that enables you to be elected. You can’t sit upon some throne or something, up above.

But there’s also something more to this, and that is that you do this in a way that is able to be designed to the process. In other words, before you weren’t able to be resigned to the process. There was always something that was able to be aloof, and now you’re able to be resigned to the process. And even more so, it doesn’t matter. If you get elected, you get elected, and if you don’t, you don’t.

It’s not like it’s a big deal anymore, which means that technically the atmosphere of a stature has fallen away. And it’s almost as if like if you get elected or intertwined, you carry a responsibility. It’s not something that’s an achievement. It’s a responsibility. It’s a sense of being, but it’s not a kind of being that’s aloof.

Jeane: So the other dream I have it feels like at some point I’ve gone and visited this very wealthy man at his home, very kind of elaborate home, old fashioned almost like an old English home, lots of wood, and butler, and that sort of scene.

And I must have done something that angered him because I feel like he tossed me out, but I had been fascinated because of these Limoge coffee or tea cups they had. They were white with golden lettering around them, or pattern, Limoge pattern. And I knew they were very old. They were antiques, like even I think one cup and saucer might be even worth about $3,000, at least that’s what I seem to know about it.

Because of my fascination with these, I go back when he’s not there and the servants let me in. They even give me a cup of coffee in one of these Limoge cup and saucers. And I’m sitting there and I’m visiting with a friend of his that comes by, another young man, and we’re talking about the Limoge cups. He hadn’t really thought about them before, but I find them really beautiful.

But we’re talking about that and just visiting in general and relaxing there in this guy’s library, when I hear the guy come home unexpectedly. So then I set everything down carefully and decide I’ll hide behind a door, and maybe he won’t come in the library or, if he does come in, then I can dash out and get out of the house. But I have a feeling he’ll run out and catch me. I don’t really know because this is the point in the dream when I wake up.

John: What this dream means is that you find yourself in a setting in which there is something within that setting that you are able to embrace, or encompass, in a quality that is necessary to facilitate it being able to open up. In other words, every situation and every setting has a depth and a meaningfulness that is important in terms of the way it can come across and go into life. And what the dream is portraying is that you have a nature that is able to discern that sort of thing. In other words, you can be placed in a situation and come to know what is most meaningful in terms of how it is intended and meant to unfold.

The cups that you saw, a cup is used to serve and this serves in a very special, unique, high quality way. And so you are designed in such a way so that if you’re placed in a particular scenario, you’re able to see how that scenario is meant to unfold, and you’re able to accommodate accordingly in a way of holding that space. It isn’t just an over-the-topism. You are able to discern the poignancy behind the scene. The scene may have something that is over the top about it, in and of itself, but you’re able to draw out that which is most meaningful.

In other words, this is like information that’s giving you a greater meaningfulness of what is meant and is ready to open up.

And so you put the two together and you have, first of all, a type of flow that comes down that doesn’t just sit in a precocious way with things. It is able to bring it down into something that’s touchingly meaningful. And it does that in a way that isn’t forceful. In other words, it’s not about trying to reestablish a different kind of orientation. It’s part of an intertwining that you do that, from what had been a kind of hanging out aloofness that didn’t come down.

And when you’re able to function and flow in this way, then you’re able to support and accentuate what is meaningful in the environment that you find yourself in. Isn’t that interesting? It’s how that flows together. Wow.

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James Alan Smith

The flow is always available to us, yet it is always moving on. If we lose our connection, it moves on without us. That means we have to realign ourselves and reconnect – to where it has moved to, not to where we last were. That’s the nature of the real reality: it’s constantly evolving forward whether we are with it or not. Can we, as individuals, afford to be left behind? (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: The next dream points out just how far off one really is in terms of doing this process. I mean, you tend to see yourself as having experiences and certain realizations, and so you’re inclined to think that you’re making headway. But in the next dream it shows that our idea of what the flow and the naturalness is, if we really, really were to denote how it is, we are really way, way off, and that we are constantly blowing it, and blowing it in ways that we can’t make it back up. It’s like there’s just too much in life to be able to make things up where you miss something.

So, in this dream, I’m taking a dance class. To begin with I’m able to kind of limp along, and kind of fake it, because I realize I’m just not getting something. In fact, I am so bad at it that I realize that when I look at others, especially those that seem to be doing just fine, and they can do it effortlessly, I realize that my struggle of not getting it stands out, as far as I could see. It bugs me, it bothers me, but I still have hopes of squeaking through in the class. In other words, if I just keep doing it and whatnot maybe I’ll get my D-minus or something, you know, be passed more or less but, not really have mastered or caught up with anything.

And this is a class that is graded. It counts for two credits at the university I’m at. I hate it, and I’m so sensationally thrown off by it that I skip a class, purposely skip a class, as if, you know, at least I don’t have to subject myself to the misery now – for at least this time. But I didn’t take into account that upon having skipped a class, now I’m really out of it, and there’s no way I can catch up. There’s no way I can really go back.

So the dream ends with me observing the class off to one side, towards the end of the class, and I’m noticing that those who I had admired before, that were able to do things kind of naturally, and fluidly, and effortlessly, have now been put into positions by the teacher in which they direct and even lead others. And so there’s a wonderful flow to it all, in other words, instead of it all just being one awkward collage, that it has a whole quality to it that undulates with different ones able to do other things with the class. It looks really good, in terms of what they are doing.

It’s at that point that I realize that, for me, it is hopeless and that I am going to get an F. I’m wondering if this will keep me from graduating. Usually you have to have a passing grade in everything to graduate. I wake up dreading the fact that I am going to have to make this up, which means take it over, to graduate, something I hate to do because I passed at it the first time.

And the meaning is, the earlier dream set the theme. It indicated I had to adhere to an inner into outer connection as part of the Tariqa, meaning the flow, or the process, or path that I’m on, and in that dream that is what I saw as having unfolded. And I had, as the dream indicated, a certain natural way that I seemed to observe it. And maybe I was even in that dream thinking I was doing better than I was, because in this dream I notice if you fail to stick to, or catch anything, miss something of importance, or when you drop off when things get difficult that that puts you in a process of experiencing and miserableness, on a sensation level, that is equivalent of the vibration of blowing it.

And, in the end, you realize that if you had probably stuck it out you may have gotten by although it wouldn’t have been pretty. So in the end in I notice that those who got it, and found their naturalness, turned out to be very inspirational and directive and added to the whole beauty of the whole process of flow, in terms of themselves and others. I was impressed to see this, and in seeing this realized that the teacher had seen this all along – because when I was blowing it and whatnot I acted like I was able to kind of hide behind the radar screen, but you don’t hide behind anything.

So in the first dream, as hard as it is to find what is natural in the unfoldment in life in the outer world, I am seeing that I have a natural linkage to the understanding that the unfoldment is inner into outer.

In the second dream, I’m unable to take anything for granted, lucky to be barely getting by. The miserableness of the struggle is accentuated. Again, this is a flow of something that you have to catch from within in order to do it, you can’t just memorize certain actions because dancing involves a flow. It may have some set principles that you start with, but then they have to fall into the flow.

In this dream I realize that checking out from a key element of the unfoldment process is something I am unable to make up. In other words, I can’t just suddenly get it by osmosis. In other words, I can’t skip one week or whatever and so I fall away from the process, which means when you fall away you’re going to have to do it again.

Such a dream can’t help but cause me to wonder to what degree is that happening now, and in ways that I am not getting it? The dream is also designed to cause me to wonder what it is in the outer that I am doing which points this out. I say this because when a person is relating to the outer in a way that isn’t working out for them, in terms of an unfoldment, that the outer points back to some inner flow natural awareness that is a bit askew. Like they say, as above so below.

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