It curious how things change. It may appear to us that everything happens gradually, step by step, but the change happens instantly. Even in learning to ride a bike, we keep trying and trying and we still don’t know how. Then, suddenly, we do, and what we have gained can never be taken away from us – because we are actually different. It is the steps and effort that eventually help us make a change, but the change can only happen when the criteria has been met, and then it changes forever. This is important to understand in our journey, because sometimes we may feel like we’re not getting anywhere, but the truth is: we are getting somewhere, but we’re just not there yet. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Actually, the theme of the dreaming was about switching, and how that process works. And, of course, what was being challenged is our concept, in terms of how that works.

Our concept is we are inclined to think that we go from one place, from inner into outer, or outer into inner, in a sort of sorting out way, as if there’s a gray zone, as if we awaken between the two aspects of our overall beingness. An aspect that’s on the inner, that is more than we can know and catch up with, that, among other things, embodies all the planes of light, and an aspect that is in the outer, that embraces, and seeks to embody, a quality of an essence put into thought, to create a concretized domain. And we don’t sit and awaken in the way that we would like to believe, in which we think we do, as a process.

We don’t go and do this in a gray zone, meaning sorting out the inner and the outer. That idea that it works like that, a process of going home, so to speak, a journey, that’s actually all illusion. You’re either one place, or the other, and we’re always in, so to speak, both places simultaneously – or as close to simultaneous as possible – because you have the in-breath and the out-breath, and on the in-breath you’re in the inner, and on the out-breath you’re back into the outer, and it’s not a matter of distinguishment as a means of being on the inner and in the outer.

It’s not a distinguishing game between the two. It’s not some sort of sift and sort. That’s a bewilderment zone. That’s an amnesia to the breath that causes us to connote that way. It’s kind of like black-and-white. It’s a switch that’s just boom, boom, not with all of the commotion. Yet in the plane of the outer, in the plane of manifestation, we long for something more that is, so to speak, our beingness in the light, the unseen light. And in the plane of light we quest for a human body. In other words, we are both an inner and an outer, simultaneous. And the gray zone, where we use the mind senses as if we’re going somewhere, to create the sensation of a journey, that’s all spiritual illusion.

So that’s what I came to learn from the meditation dream and the sleep dream.

So, in the meditation dream, there’s a way of sugarcoating manifestation, from the inner level of existence, as being correlated to the underlying essence therein, that can be shattered. In other words, you tend to try to correlate it, but it needs to just get shattered. In other words, it’s a distinction that we make out as if there’s an awakening in a more and more kind of way, instead of a sudden and abrupt shattering.

In other words, what I experienced inside was I was suddenly given an experience where this in between process that we go through, that’s kind of like a gray border area, or zone, in which our mind senses and whatever it is, and everything vies for the heart as we’re trying to sort this thing out, suddenly went poof! And when it went poof, I saw this as either all in the inner, or all in the outer. And then I saw that it’s always both, because that’s the nature of the breath. Where the in-breath turns to the out-breath is the essence of it all, and where the out-breath turns to the in-breath, in manifestation, that’s the longing to it all, put into a concretized nature.

So, in the dream, I was shown the distinction between inner and outer, meaning that there is nothing in between, and the distinction was not some sort of steady seeking in a matter of degree way, like a journey, but an abrupt shattering of the veil. The veil was completely shattered, not experienced as a matter of some sort of ever increasing degree. This stunned and shocked my sensibilities. I hadn’t expected this. I just didn’t know, or wasn’t going around realizing, that the distinction is so black-and-white.

So why was this important? It is important to know the difference as being black-and-white as a shattering of a veil between the two, you might say, planes of inner and outer, and all of the levels that that might be, as opposed to a gray zone approach where one is lost in the abiding, as if there is a distinguishable in between, which introduces a touchy feeliness into the equation.

You don’t sneak up on consciousness. You let go of a distraction, in an abrupt black-and-white switch; just drop it. That’s why the practices of stopping your mind and all of that stuff are to get you to realize that it’s just a switch, it just boom. You’re either there, or you’re not. The gray zone area is where spiritual illusions and self-deception abide. We make all that up. This is what we do to ourselves in our quandary.

In other words, you flicker back and forth. You short out, because you can’t make the compromised gray zone work – because it doesn’t really exist. It’s a spiritual illusion of one’s nature because awareness isn’t something that’s approximate. In other words, the awareness of both places, there’s no approximation between the two. It’s one, or the other, and everything else is noise, spiritual illusionary noise, that we make up and cause that to be like a journey. The mind tries to make the distinction, and, in doing so, causes the flickering sensation that’s the spiritual illusion.

When the mind and senses stop pretending, in a this and that way, the gray zone will fall away. There is either physical existence, or light, i.e., black-and-white. To say that there is an unfoldment process, in which we awaken, to aspire to an ever unfolding higher self, is a head game. When you take the head game out, there is just the breath. The gray zone demeanor we delusionally self-impose veils us from experiencing the black-and-white consciously, or the breath consciously.

The mystic can experience the in-breath plane of light, and the out-breath’s gravitational ghost energy planes of existence, the back and forth of the breath is not a complex science. The illusion of there being a mind sense orientation is what makes this seem so, because the mind sense orientation is correlated to the planes of physical existence.

So when it is said that everything must go to shift from black to white, as a way of saying it, this means that the mind sense orientation, suited for physical existence only, must stop. A human being cannot take the mind senses into the light. Or, to put it another way, the mind senses veil us from a conscious in-breath.

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