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mim-entryToday we see the 2nd, 3rd, and 4th parts of the dream Jeane began yesterday (see Gauging the Pattern). The images take her on a journey where she is able to turn from her reactiveness to a state of observation. This allows her to adapt to the situation, even when a great storm starts tearing things up. Ultimately, this leads her to a state of bliss, as she has become in service to the greater Whole. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Then I go outside and first I’m outside by almost what would be like a concrete court of some kind, like maybe they used to play tennis on, but it’s just a bare concrete slab now. 

The day is rather sunny, and the other people are standing around talking over to my left, but I’ve walked over to the court and I notice that there’s a piece of rebar coming across the court almost like it used to hang something up, but then part of the rebar is leaning towards the court now. 

What I’ve noticed is that I can reach up, it’s kind of plastic rebar or something like that, I can reach up and, if I avoid the part where it’s beginning to slant down where it can almost touch the bottom of the court, I can keep going towards the end of the court to where I can use it to do pull ups.

So I’m shifting myself to where I can do some pull ups. While the other people are just somewhere else talking, I’m doing some pull ups for a while and kind of interested in that. Then I walk over and I look up at the sky and I notice that there has been some kind of a storm off over the mountains to the right, and it’s torn up chunks of earth that are sailing through the sky with things on them.

So there would be one chunk of earth with maybe a tree and some people standing there and they’re going sailing through the air, and another chunk of earth might have a small little outhouse type building on it, and another one will have something else on it, and behind all of that I can see really angry storm clouds from whatever storm it was that tore all of these up and sent them sailing through the air.

And then I realize that some of them are even coming crashing down. One of them, like this one with these people on it, seems to me like it’s sailing forward almost kind of in an exciting way and that they’re fine. They’re almost riding that chunk of earth like it’s a ship, but other pieces are going to come crashing to the earth. 

But I have this sense that, even if this building comes and lands right next to me I could just go in and use it as a shelter. I don’t seem to be bothered by that at all. 

John: What you are doing is, you’ve actually progressed the dream from where you’re actually observing or watching something about yourself, in other words the ability to naturally know how it is something’s going to fit, in terms of how you are. And so what you then do with that is you take that in as a recognition about yourself, and you use that to solidify, or strengthen, yourself so that you’re no longer blindsided by it.

In other words, you’re able to use the rebar, bar being a barrier, and rebar to do something productive like chin ups or something. You can use it to facilitate something. Then the dream kind of shifts in terms of trying to tell you about the importance of being able to catch up with this part of yourself.

In other words, this is an aspect of going into a certain depth of yourself in which you come to grips with something and you watch this mannerism, and pattern, and quality, and condition that you carry. In other words, it’s no longer something that can tear you to pieces like it could before, because you actually are looking at it.

This is really an amazing dream because again, going all the way back to the beginning, you are looking at something in terms of the way a pattern repeats, or the way you wear a particular mannerism of yourself.

And then in the second part of it you learn to take and utilize that to augment something about yourself that’s important. In other words, it’s not something that’s so despairing anymore. It’s something that you can build yourself up with. You can do chin ups with it, and as a consequence then, when the actual storm of events around you happen, you’re able to be calm, take them in, and not be all torn, twisted, and demented.

In other words, you have a portrayal of what would be considered most traumatic scenario, and you see in that most traumatic scenario, because you’re all of them, that you’re able to be calm, that you’re able to ride this out, or to flow with this in some capacity, as opposed to being all torn and twisted up.

Jeane: Then what happens in the dream is kind of symbolic. It’s like I’ve being given a quiz and, for me, in my mind, the quiz and the answer to the quiz becomes represented by this kind of ice cream cone that’s like a waffle cone. 

It’s kind of in the sky, a large one, a waffle cone with strawberry ice cream on top. As they ask you a question, and it feels like there’s a whole series of questions on this page or something, as they ask you a question the truth is the answer is always this really sharp inhale. 

I forget how that was represented in the dream, but that’s the best way I can convey it. Now, people might not pick up that pattern, that no matter what the question was, it was always the same answer. It was like if you had a multiple choice, it was always going to be A. 

However, what was important to notice was that then you had to listen for the nuances, because yes, it may always be the same thing, a sharp inhale as I would call it, it may always be that but, beneath that there were nuances that were giving you all this other information. And if you just focused on aha!, I figured out the answer, you were going to miss all those nuances.

John: One loves the one, two, three, and then four because the thing about the four part is it gives you new information. Only is it really new information, or is it information you should have known all along?

So whenever you’re affected by something that’s traumatic or shocking, the tendency is you stop your breath. The tendency is you may even exhale, in a type of shrinking grief and dismay, but the answer is to be able to always embrace whatever it is. To have the space, to have the ability to take in, to embrace, to carry back whatever it is

In other words, it’s like why is it that you observe? In other words, no matter how traumatic something is, why is it that you take and observe this? Well, you take and you observe this in order to absolve it, in order to recognize something, in order to take responsibility in some capacity.

So if this is also then an aspect of seeing yourself, then that aspect of something being seen, in the greater context of things, is where something gets taken all the way back – where the image gets taken all the way back, which is the in-breath. And so that image is not taken all the way back when you react, when you take something literally as a state of shock, and it hits the heart, and you shrink.

What the dream is telling you, is that every time you have one of these variables, the key and the secret to being able to be calm, relaxed, and serving a function, or a purpose, like as the God’s idiot or something, that, different than everyone else who takes all this stuff personally, and seriously, and gets whacked, and their breath stops, or they even have a despairing out-breath, that you automatically have an in-breath that releases, that is a breath back to a Wholeness – instead of further compacting in a density.

Because when a person has traumas and stuff happening in their life that’s out of the ordinary, and they don’t know how to ride it, and go along with it, like you did in the third part of the dream. You were able to see yourself just able to be there, and go along for wherever, and however it is.

To be able to do that is, as you indicted at the end of the dream, the ability to simply recognize that you don’t have to shrink, you don’t have to contract, you don’t have to try to cause something to manifest in a despair, you don’t have to have those synapses with their hidden, repressed, and suppressed characteristics coming up and blindsiding you.

You know that, you recognize that, you can let go of that, you can take an in-breath. And to live like this is very much, almost from a shamanistic way of saying it, like being able to recognize the friend is your enemy, and the enemy is your friend.

In other words, a person who sees somebody as bad, or as an enemy, will contract, react, get uptight, do this, that, or the other. But if you see them as actually revealing something that you need to note, that’s a tremendous in-breath of letting go.

So your dream is giving you instructions upon what to do. Now, we’ve heard these instructions over and over again. Whenever a person is in some sort of traumatic condition, they can quit breathing. And someone else who has a little better sense of things can look at that person and realize they’ve gone into a type of shock, and say keep breathing, take a deep breath.

We can hear this over and over again, but until you actually have a kind of experience of the importance of that, and even can get a glimpse of how this all fits within the matrix of a greater Whole, how that takes something back and brings back information, is a return of something that adds to the overallness, just like the ability to watch. This is a higher octave of the ability to watch, to observe and to note, and learn how to be able to be at an equanimity, and just observing, and watching as opposed to reacting.

The higher octave of that is to then take this back with almost a glee, and a refreshment, because when you take it back with an in-breath you hit a bliss, you hit a wonderful state, and you have the image that supported this as a type of grace in that you had the… what was it, an ice cream cone?

That’s the answer to how you handle traumatic conditions. You learn to automatically not do the typical that keeps everybody all pent up and bound up. You looked at what it was that could naturally fit, that you had a natural awareness of how something naturally fit, or how it naturally affected you, and then that led to being able to take whatever it is that comes rolling along, the rebar, the repeat, the recycle, the reverb, the any kind of pattern, and because you’re able to watch it, and see it, you’re able to gain something from it.

You are able to build yourself up. You are able to do pull ups and, as a consequence, you’re developing a certain kind of auric space, as opposed to being all neurotically worn to a tizzy so that every little thing causes you to fall into despair.

You’ve developed an auric space so that you can go along with the ride of things as they happen. You don’t have to be all beat up on every little inflection of something that’s out of the ordinary and, as a consequence of being able to do that, you naturally then know how to take the in-breath.

It’s actually become something that, for others, would be traumatic, and be, oh what a horrible scenario, but for you, you find peace and bliss in all of that that is going on.

So it’s a pretty deep dream.

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gillartwavesIn this dream scenario, John isn’t struggling, or striving, to make something happen. He finds himself in a situation, a card game, in which he is outmatched by the person he is playing with. Just like the human, relative to creation, we find ourselves in an unfolding that is not something we can control. When we surrender to the greater process, we find ourselves in the grace of higher things. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In my dream, the perception as I was having this dream as I was sleeping, or looking at it in my sleep, was that this reflected or represented some sort of continuation of yesterday’s dreaming.

Although, when you look at it, you can’t see how that is, but that was the sensation of it. So I almost didn’t want to write it up because it was like, okay, it was a continuation of yesterday’s dreaming and to begin with, to start writing it up, I’d be writing up yesterday’s dream because I still kind of remembered it. And yet then I have to put in this version? In other words, it’s intended to take the vibration of yesterday and progress it, is what this is doing.

So in the dream, there is a woman who has this really amazing quality in which she has the strength in terms of her natural card playing naturalness, that it’s obvious that you don’t… why bother even play the game? It’s obvious what the outcome will be.

And so that caused you to kind of step back as a consequence, because where you see it like that, it’s like you’re not even in the equation. Then to my surprise the following occurs. This is something I hadn’t expected, so I do not know what to make out of it, so it seems as if I’m just observing or playing along. It all appears kind of happen chance. 

What happens is I draw a hand of cards that is able to match up against her invincibility. To begin with, this just leads to kind of a close card game, but because I don’t take it all seriously, because I’m not in this sort of state of mind, even though all the cards I have, on one level, should indicate that I could win, but it’s not something I’m thinking about. 

It’s not a game of competition to me, it’s just a scenario. And so I just see the final score, and she still wins, but it’s close. At least it was a card game, when before it wasn’t even a scenario that was connected or close. 

Because I draw the cards, and I do this over and over again, I don’t think anything about it, it’s just something that seems to keep happening and happening, kind of like a state, I learn to play them. I start to learn to play them, with a kind of a clarity of focus, although I don’t try to make anything of it, because this isn’t my thing.

And as a result, what I notice is that I have this ability to offset her strength, and this makes some sort of difference. Because what I see as a difference is as follows: I do not see myself to be a natural card player like the woman is, because you can tell she’s a person that sees this as her life, and a way of being. And for me the whole thing is… well, I’m just part of a scenario that is part of like falling into something – kind of dreamlike.

But that’s how it is to me, but to the women it means something more. She seeks to get together with me though, as a consequence of noticing something, in order to channel the overall effect in a way that pulls the two of us together into a mutual combination. 

Now this isn’t my contrivance. It seems to be hers. In this way what had been an amnesia on my part, and that I wasn’t paying significant attention to how I am, leads to a coming together which enlarges and enhances the natural flow which had existed. It doesn’t enlarge it, it just enhances the natural flow which had existed. 

But how does it enhance it? That’s the thing that’s kind of odd, because instead of me seeing the situation over the top, I just see it as, it just is. It’s just kind of a scenario that’s demystified or, in other words, rather bland. From my perspective this is simply a linkage and nothing more.

So the meaning of this dream is, I cannot help but wonder if this is a dream that is betraying an energetic that is being reflected into the outer, in some way that I am barely noticing? If so, then this is part of a dharma.

In other words, when you see something that exists, or occurs, and it doesn’t necessarily make any sense, and yet it goes on and goes on and goes on, you have to sit there and wonder what is there about the chemistry of that action which causes it to be the way that it is, because it must be about something. 

So the duty seems to be such a natural fit that there is hardly a noticeable effect on my part, in other words because I’m not paying attention to the consequences. What had seemed huge in relationship to how I had been perceiving things, seems to have demystified because how I had seen something was huge and big and beyond the scope of even being able to pay any attention as to what this means.

Now it is not even a question – it doesn’t even matter, it’s demystified. It doesn’t hold the hugeness. In other words, there’s just a natural language which makes sense, so that the flow becomes so natural that I do not put in any result of some imaginative context. I just observe the beginning of what looks to be a natural evolvement. I do not have to take into account where this is going. I just see that the fit corresponds.

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fractal8In this series of dream segments, Jeane experiences what can be called a new schematic. What has changed is her ability to be more fluid with sudden changes in her environment. Being able to maintain a flow, no matter what comes up, is a fundamental aspect of experiencing the world of the Whole, rather than our much smaller world where personal involvement and old reactions cut us off from the overall.  (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: My next dream I think it has two little segments in it. In the first I’ve gone back and I seem to be staying, or living, in an apartment complex I’ve lived in before, which has several room compartments to it.

But while I’m in the back part of the apartment unit, talking to whomever is there with me, I notice that the landlord is letting some people move in to a front part of my apartment. At first I go up and look and I can’t quite tell if maybe there’s just a room that opens up to another unit and that room is open, so I’m seeing it, you know, the door slides open, or is she actually moving people into the front part of my unit, without having talked to me about it?

So I can’t really quite tell what she’s done, but it seems to be done anyway. It’s kind of a wealthy couple. I don’t know them. I’m not quite sure how to relate to all of that.

It seems to be a done deal, however I feel about it.

John: So, the key to this dream is that you should try to relate to whatever that is that’s the couple or whatever who have moved in, is because it’s just like in my dream. What’s happening now is, the dynamics by which you blocked, or stopped, a certain thing from being able to happen, or changes and shifts to be able to occur, you’re no longer doing that because you don’t have the shadow dynamics and the peculiarities that get in the road and keep you going around and around.

And so the dynamics of what this young couple is all about is important for you to look at, because it’s now depicting an aspect of you in an overall way, which you’ve been able to catch up with as a consequence of not having those barriers, and those resistances, and defense mechanisms sitting in the way.

Because this is something that whenever there is something that is just suddenly there, like in your house, you have to look at it and recognize it as something more about you, just like you can have dreams in which you discover other rooms, and various sizes and shapes, and dimensions and peculiarities about the house.

Well, now it’s not a question of those kinds of dreams so much as it’s that you’re opening up to a greater beingness that you have to now accommodate about yourself, which may have been veiled from you – your ability to see it, and recognize it, and appreciate it before, but now that it’s there, you just need to embrace it for what it is, and how it is, because that’s you in a way that you had veiled before.

Jeane: I remember a little segment then where I try to go somewhere, and I’ve gone out and it seems to me like I’ve gotten on something that’s almost like a ship. I’m going for a picnic. I seem to have invited my ex along, and that means that one of the Basenjis is coming, too. At the same time, I’m trying to relate to him and keep a distance, you know, he should understand it’s just for the picnic or something, not really a relationship here.

It feels like I leave for a second, and I realize we’re on a ship, and I look over the ship’s side. It’s like maybe a storm has come up, and I see this, and I’m trying to balance like I was sitting almost like on what was a picnic table, and so I can feel like I can slide over the side any second.

So I’m looking over the side of the ship, and I see suddenly there’s like this huge, some type of mammal that’s been caught and brought up alongside the ship. It’s almost as long as the ship is, like a whale, except it’s flatter and broader. I mean, it’s something I’ve just never seen before.

It feels like when the ship stops, that I even can get down and walk on dry land, and go over and touch the animal, or some other huge animal showed up now, a turtle, and I can go over and actually put my hand on the lip of the turtle and get close to it as we walk by.

That’s just a little segment I remember before the next dream.

John: So, similar to the first dream that you just told, you’re again contending with something that is changed in terms of something inside of you. You only have the slightest inflection that it has to do with the Whole and the fact that the creature of things that has shown up, also looks like there’s something else there that could be a turtle, and turtles always depict the overallness of the world, the affairs of the whole of life.

And so you are having to accommodate and contend with that as part of your overall universe, which ordinarily, in prior dreams, would have been such that if something like this was introduced into your scope of attention, you would have grumbled, and complained, and been felt peculiar and weirded out.

And you would have had your reactions, and the reactions would have been what the dream would have been about, as opposed to now when you have the dream like this, there aren’t the reactions, and instead there’s the situation and then the situation is having to be accommodated and what that is about in terms of how you adapt and adjust to that in relationship to the greater aspect of it being in the Whole, of all that there is, is the schematic of how you’re coming to see your being, which is extremely close to this whole idea of being merged into a Wholeness.

Jeane: Then I just have a little segment where it’s like I’m staying at a resort of some kind, and I’m trying to go somewhere, and when I go up and go across a passageway, suddenly the passageway is filled with some kind of a meeting that’s going on – like a Lion’s Club meeting.

There are all these tables that just start right where the door is, and chairs on each side, so it’s almost like I practically fall down into a chair at the table, about two or three seats in. And then suddenly someone is serving me a plate of food, and I’m looking, I think there’s turkey and some rice and something else, and I’m kind of regretting that there are no mashed potatoes.

And then this woman across the table points out to me that there are also some mashed potatoes somewhere on the plate. It feels like I take a bite of something, but then I’m suddenly feeling like, I really don’t know if I’m supposed to be eating this meal. I don’t know if this is my meeting for sure. I feel like there’s someplace else I have to travel to.

So I get up and I start to move away, but then I suddenly realize, well should I have paid for the meal, or at least tipped someone? I’m confused, but the room is so crowded that to try to go back into it there’s no place to move. I’m just not sure what it is I’m supposed to do, and I’m not even that clear on where it is I’m going.

John: Yeah, it’s similar to the last dream that I told (see Forward Motion), where the first aspect in my dream was that there was the flight that I would normally take in which everything is all orchestrated and laid out and planned out to the point where you don’t have to contend with any peculiarities or variabilities, and so there’s a certain control that you have over the situation.

And therefore you find comfort in the fact that it’s going to unfold in a way that is predictable and therefore there’s that creature comfort that you now have. Now, that of course is thrown away, and I have no idea about the new schematics of how the second flight is going to be, so much change has been now introduced into the Wholeness of things, so much shifting has taken place, so that even the flight doesn’t necessarily leave on time, and that you have to be prepared for whatever the peculiarities might be that come up in a moment’s notice, because everything is subject to change.

It’s no longer as established as it used to be, and so you have to prepare for the total unexpected, and you have all of that going on in this dream. It’s distinct from how you would normally expect an overall dream to be, in that you now have to contend with this whole other set of schematics that’s taking place.

And that’s just the way that it is when you open up yourself to an overallness that has more subtle changes and variabilities that are taking place. You’re going to have all of these other schematics that are now part of your consciousness, which weren’t there, and weren’t even factored in, which you stayed separate and away from, you now have to absorb, or contend, or work with.

And if you can’t do that, then you’re going to suffer collateral damage. And what you’re doing is you’re noting that, somewhat affected and bothered by that, but not to the point where it keeps you from being able to be, and flow, and take on, and function.

The key is, is you’re noting the idiosyncrasies through the dream world. And then in the outer, whatever the idiosyncrasies are, they can seem much worse, and much more complex, and much more in the way, and all of that, but because the pace of the inner is going at some huge multiple more than the pace that you’re functioning and flowing with in the outer, you’re now at that point in the dream process where you make major strides just by being able to have that happen inside – and pull it through.

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