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Home sweet home is   could  this be  the ultimate treehouse...We are all complex beings, filled with defense mechanisms and fears we’ve gathered to ourselves in our lives. Yet on a spiritual path it’s not about fixing the past so much as it is managing our idiosyncrasies with our consciousness. In that way, we take the power away from them and can begin to experience the world as it really is. And we begin to understand what is behind all that we see. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I’m in a hospital ward and someone else and I – there’s a cot that’s pulled up with a man on it, and at first I think that we’re just supposed to guard the body on the bed, because somebody else comes and pulls the sheet back to see what’s wrong with this guy. I think he was a soldier.

And we see that his whole chest is open, you can just look in and see what’s in the chest cavity. It’s almost like it’s even preserved in what looks like a fluid. Well, the guy leaves, I mean the person who had looked, left because it kind of kind of upset him. And I’m there, I know that I’m supposed to stay with this person until the doctor comes and there’s someone else with me, too.

Well, then pretty soon this guy that’s laying there, that I think is dead, opens up his eyes and starts talking to us. He even gets up. He wonders why he’s there. He obviously wants to go back to wherever he came from.

I don’t want to shock him by pointing out that his chest is completely open, so I just try to talk him into lying down. He can’t leave until the doctor or someone comes, without me really having to explain to him what the problem is, because I just want to get him calmed down to where he lays down until someone comes that can handle this.

John: I don’t know how it is that a person’s ever going to get around the idea of not taking in and believing what one sees as being the situation or the literal truth. In other words, what you’re seeing is a person who should be unconscious, because he’s in a state, or he’s in a condition, in which you no longer cope physically, and yet he has a sense of awareness that is able to want to get up and go and move about, and go about whatever it was that he had been doing before he became mortally unconscious.

The theme of the dreaming was this gap that exists in terms of time and space. It’s almost like being able to say that if you’re really conscious, in terms of a wholeness way, there is no time and space.

The more unconscious you are, meaning the more confined you are to relating to things as if the outer is where everything is at, the more literally you take everything that happens around you. You dreamed this as an image that begged the question: how are you going to reconcile that image? Because what took place baffles the scope of comprehension that you have in terms of the way things are.

And it baffles that because you look at things in terms of having to make sense according to outer appearances. This wouldn’t be so if you saw it all as an aliveness of energy, that never dies, that is constant, that is an essence that permeates through everything, and that you are also not somehow separate or distinct from that.

In your fullness of who and what you are, you’re intertwined with all of that. And it’s because of that intertwining that certain amazing and magical things can happen. It’s because of that intertwining that things work in cohesion with each other. Indigenous cultures work with animals for example, instead of the animals in fear of the people, because there’s a recognized symbiosis, or basically an intertwined energetic.

Because the theme of the dreaming was to try to get one to let go of the way one holds onto appearances in the outer, because the outer reflects something just like a motion picture show – and it’s all fabrication, it’s all a flicker.

What makes those flickers what they are is the waverings that we have energetically inside of ourself. Whenever you cringe with a kind of fear, or react with a kind of wound, whatever little nuance you do sets off a different, inflective flicker, and that responds as if it’s an aliveness as a reflection.

And so we identify with each one of those inflections because we’re constantly splaying out thoughts that work into inflections, that work into outer appearances, and not holding onto the essence in which you go behind all that suddenly has a sense of appearance.

You have something that is totally bizarre, totally outside a realm of normal comprehension, to see if you can make the leap. Otherwise what you see makes no sense whatsoever, and if anything is somewhat appalling, and would cause you to fall back upon the inflection that you generated, that caused this sort of thing to have its energetic counter reflection – according to some inflection reaction, mannerism, trait, or characteristic that you had flicker inside yourself.

If you can’t step back from that, then your heart gets stabbed by the image, which means it shrinks. Because the earlier theme-ing in the dreaming was one of being able to recognize that a person needs to be able to sit in the condition of both conscious and unconscious happening simultaneously.

Now what appears to be unconscious is not unconscious, it’s part of the whole. What appears to be conscious, that we take for outer appearances around us, is really unconscious because we’re identifying with those appearances.

One needs to be able to hold all of that together, because the essence includes it all. But when one goes off on this tangent or that tangent, you throw yourself around. The key is to quit throwing yourself around, to know that you are doing that to yourself.

You can throw yourself around in such a way that you create wonderful results, or you can throw yourself around in which you create horrible results, but all of it is kind of a doofism, because you are acting out as if there is something important in terms of the outer, in some context, instead of the outer being a reflection, constant reflection, of where you’re at on an inner essence level.

In other words, where you’re at in terms of that. And where you’re at in terms of that is you picked an image that has a fear element connected to it, to which the fear element then turned around and laughed at you so to speak because it got up and walked – and how is that possible? Showing that the whole thing is a figment of one’s inflective imagination.

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In terms of symbolism, a key is one of the most universal. In Jeane’s dream, a car park in a forest leads to the question of who has the key? (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: This morning’s dreams, the first one I remember, I find myself parking my car in a parking lot in the forest. And it’s kind of a small circular parking lot in the forest. But then once I’ve parked the car, I notice I have to get the valet key to lock it, which tells me that actually the car had already been parked, and I must have come and gotten it, and then driven it back. Because obviously the main key is with someone else.

John: You’re having complicated dreams. I mean, that’s an interesting dream, too.

It’s like having a perception that has a reverb in it, which means that your perception goes along, and then reverbs or vibrates back, or amnesically loses a remembrance. Which means that it does that because it has a confusion in relationship to how it sees itself and its own sight or connectivity.

It’s like if you had a clarity that saw something straightaway, the memory and everything would be right there. But if there are things that affect that clarity, because you had doubts, or you have issues that you think you need to sort out or something like that, then you short yourself out. Then you’re deviating back into something that has a personal aspect to it.

There you’re dropping the linkage to the whole, and there you’re assuming that something is separate from yourself, or that you’re separate from the whole, which is usually the case. In other words, that’s how you tend to see it usually – that you’re in some capacity separate. And if you’re in some capacity separate it’s the same thing as giving up a certain authority or power of your inner being.

Because you aren’t separate; you’re part of the whole. And as a consequence of you doing that, and having this yo-yo affect that goes back and forth and back and forth, that should know itself in the wholeness, but then keeps seeing itself in the separateness, you develop this reverb in the energy in which you can’t remember – you’re not staying abreast of the flow.

In other words, you’re losing the recognition of how something is designed to unfold – and you can have an awareness of it – and because you doodle back to something that’s bugging you or bothering you, you give up the energy of the intertwined recognition that you have.

It’s like going from an element of a type of consciousness, to a flashback, or I should say a huge kind of step back, to where you don’t quite get it anymore. And then you try to take it from where you don’t quite get it anymore, to remembering something. Well, how can you remember something? Because whenever you take and do that sort of thing, where you veil yourself with a mannerism, that’s when you lose the sight that was there.

This dream is actually kind of similar to the dreams you were dreaming last night (see The Hearing Center), in that the subject matter seems to be: What are the traits, or qualities, or characteristics, that one carries on an energetic imbalance? And it’s an energetic imbalance in which you still buy into relating to something separate from yourself.

Well, I guess what it’s doing is it’s showing you the consequences of doing that, that it causes you to lose the naturalness that you carry and automatically know. Because the pristineness of that is a quality that just sees and knows. And when you take and shock yourself with something else as being valid, and a separate thing for you to have to contend with, that blurs and veils what you were experiencing, when it was all open and free.

Jeane: I also say the dream kind of shows us that we’re usually given a key that will show us what the truth is; it reminds us.

John: Well, you had the key at the very beginning, but then you lost the key so the issue is how is it that you lost the key?

Jeane: I never lost the key. I just lost what the reality was. The key that was there reminded me of what the reality was.

John: It reminded you that you have to hold the center in yourself, because you always have the key. It’s not something that gets deferred. And in deferring, it caused you to forget where it was, because you always had it.

In other words, you took a step back and identified it as something going on that is separate from yourself, and therefore you forgot your overall remembrance of the key, the overall knowingness that the key is you.

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John: So, isn’t that a strange dream (see yesterday’s post, A Perception of Depth)? It shows a glimpse into the hidden levels that are available to us when we connect to our surroundings beyond our five senses (on an inner level), and then shows how all these hidden levels vary in accessibility depending on our personal state of consciousness.

It’s said that when things are really disturbed and shaken up in the outer world that generally what’s behind it is a degree of consciousness that’s waking up (the Sixties, for example), and when everything is stable and set and ordered, that consciousness is generally asleep.

So when things are carrying on like they are in the world today, it’s as if there’s a type of consciousness awakening in people. But from the denser perspective – which is our material world, egocentric viewpoint – we usually come from, we tend to think that upheaval implies that things are breaking down, and that results in an even greater denseness – a sleepwalking state of (un) consciousness.

In other words, something energetically is trying to snap us awake, or to switch something on, so that we are able to access a much greater sense of knowingness. This greater knowingness is astir on the other side (the unseen, energetic worlds) and what we see as turmoil in the world is its reflection manifesting through us. Something is meant to change, but we don’t consciously know what it is.

In the dream, when I noticed these deeper levels and tried to pay attention to them, they would dissipate. What this is saying is that the intangible knowing can’t be controlled by us, or made “ours” – it needs to be brought through into life without our changing it.

We must try to carry such insight through to the ground level (waking life), but to do so requires bringing the intangible into the outer. The closer we get to the outer life, from this state of knowing, the more we start to see everything in terms of separation, which makes the knowing harder to hold onto.

So, the intangible…  I love the sensation of how it reveals itself in some small and fleeting way. Yet because we still can’t help but see ourselves as separate from everything else in Creation, the transition into life doesn’t go smoothly – it gets interrupted.

When we lose the necessary focus and awareness, we lose the connection. The dream is indicating that my inner awareness (what is available to me as a knowing) varies depending upon the depth within. As I come back into the outer world of the senses – the image of waking up and going to breakfast – I realize I’m moving slower again relative to the others.

But when I try to regain the state of awareness (by writing it down) I’m able to feel myself faster than the others because they were being indulgent in the outer state – making small talk, disturbing me, etc. So we can see how these depth levels move back and forth depending on our connection.

An even deeper meaning is that this state of awareness cannot be fully taken in by our denser state, no matter how much we try – the connected state can’t coexist with with our state of separation. The awareness of the inner must be such that both the inner and outer can be embodied simultaneously.

If they can be embodied simultaneously, it would lead to a greater state of seeing and hearing. Then we would have insight into how and why things are changing in the outer world. In other words, we would be part of a process of both recognizing it, and enabling it to come into existence.

But try as I might in the dream, my efforts fell short. I lost it and was no longer aware of what I’d lost. Then instead of seeing the Real, I see only the reflections.

So this is a description of going up (inner) and down (outer), and trying to bring something higher back into the physical. I dreamed half of that process because I couldn’t bring the awareness completely through. There’s something more going on, and we just have to connect to that innate sense.

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