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aura_luceWhen we begin a spiritual journey, it can be seen as a type of reaching up, a way to rise above the planetary aspects (personal) to the more universal view of things (in service to something higher). But, at a certain level of development, that changes. That’s when we become a conduit for higher energies into this planetary world. And that is a very great service, to give access, because what is given access can then reach everyone else we come in contact with. This is one of the unique possibilities of our human design, and it brings new possibilities to the situation.  (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Well, in this next dream, it’s like I’ve gone into an office where I’m going to see a client. I’m going to be counseling. It feels like I’m kind of new to the office.

I have like a cubical, where there’s a lot of light, where I’ll be taking someone in and counseling. and then over to my left there’s a couch there, that’s just in the office area, where people can come and sit. And there’s a rather graceful looking woman reclining on that.

Behind there are three desks where various clerical, or secretarial staff, will keep things organized are sitting. And I’m walking around at this point in time, I don’t have a client yet, looking for paperwork, and looking for the paperwork history on the client I’m going to be seeing in a while, and just trying to get myself organized because it feels like I’m new to this office.

And then one of the gals tells me that my client’s here, but, just as I go to get my client and bring her in the room, I suddenly notice again, but more markedly now, this rather gracious lady that’s reclining on the couch. And I’m suddenly wondering: was she a client that had come, that I was supposed to see before this lady, and no one announced her? Or was someone supposed to be seeing her, and no one noticed she was there?

I can’t counsel one person with another person right there in the room that hasn’t been taken care of. And I suddenly look at one of the secretaries, who’s looking like, well, maybe they did forget to do something like tell me a client was there, or find whoever was supposed to see her.

The lady herself is very quiet and gracious and doesn’t seem to be worried about anything, but I’m suddenly kind of thrown off a bit because how did we all not, you know, take this into account or something? I’m kind of suddenly in a little bit of Limbo. I’m hoping I didn’t forget, you know, and if the secretary forgot I guess she’ll handle it, but it’s just kind of a feeling of being a little thrown off by that.

John: The thing about this woman is she’s completely relaxed and composed; you don’t see anything wrong with her. That’s the dilemma, all right. That pulls it together in relationship to my dreams. That’s why I was about to say, and said at the very beginning, that the nature of this kind of dreaming is that you almost wonder if you’re losing your mind because you start to perceive things in a slightly different context.

Previously our dreaming has been such in which we have to always denote where we come from, meaning, you know, that we’re grounded in a particular way and have to go through issues in life. And that we need to work off our edges, and everything else, in terms of the conditions in our environment.

And that, as we do that, we become more and more conscious in a functional way, having worked with As Above, So Below kind of a way, in which there is that balance and contrast, in that one is like Yin Yang, one supports the other.

But, in your first image, you took and you extricated yourself into a station in which you were able to relate, or project, across to others. You’ve gathered up all of your belongings, as best you can, in order to do that, and you’ve opened up a whole new can of worms in that process because you’re no longer working things out in terms of having to scramble in terms of the complexities of pressure in the outer.

You’re, instead, sitting in a position that has an effect that projects out, and that’s why it had the image. As you were telling it I was just looking at this image of a spiral going laterally. I couldn’t believe that that you’d be telling this, and I was just staring at this thing going laterally, like a spiral notebook going laterally. So then when you talk about the snakes and the snakes, and the image of a snake is part of the Kundalini going up, and the snakes are eating themselves; they’re crawling on the floor. So they’re being held by their tails and their heads are down on the ground.

But it’s a reversal, isn’t it? In other words, the snake climbs and goes up, and this is off the ground, held by the tail. In other words, the whole idea is the struggle in life is a little different now, in that you have something that you have to convey or relate. Can you bring it through? Can you bring it down?

It’s not a question of sorting things out anymore. It’s a question of causing; it’s a question of relating in a way that effectuates others who are still seeking and searching to figure something out. In other words, you’re in the band. You’re pulled into the band, and you had to gather up your belongings, and you’re spiraling sideways which means that whatever you do it effectuates something in a downward way.

Your change, and how you have to take something into account, is in relationship to that kind of flow now, or effect. In other words, you’re affected by how it is that others are able to relate in terms of how you are able to be.

So this is further accentuated with the client that sits in the office, that’s the sum total of an aspect of yourself. In other words, when a psychologist is working with the client they’re actually working with parts of themselves, and yet the client sitting in your office is complete and content and whole in and of herself. And yet you still have the sense that you have to bring something down into others, but you’re shown that the quality of yourself is meant to hold a particular space.

In other words, you don’t have the Kundalini energy with the snake going up. You have the energy of the snake coming down, and you are sitting in a position with the spirals going laterally with the snake coming down. In terms of your setting, your setting is something in which the client that is sitting there is complete and whole, the client is yourself. Because it is said that, as a general rule, psychologists are psychologists because they’re on a path to discover something about themselves.

I mean that’s like an outer change. I think we shift and we change as we go about living in different environments. I think you shift and you change when you go to a program, and that for awhile things can be haywire, in terms of what you’re doing just before you go to a program, because there’s a sense in the ethers that a change is afoot. It’s almost like one’s shifting. Around here you may have a sense of responsibilities and this, that, and the other that’s quite contractive, and now all of a sudden you’re seeing yourself as having to hold a particular kind of position, or presence, or a way of being, and relate from there – as opposed to struggling to sort things out, climbing properly with the Kundalini energy you’re dealing with the depths of yourself in terms of the heights of something.

Instead it’s like you’re in an expanse that’s somewhere else, and now having to take and function from that expanse, in a more whole way, in relationship to an environment. You don’t go down into such an environment and try to sort yourself out in relationship to that environment. You instead go down into that environment as an effect.

In other words, your being is that of having a particular kind of effect upon life. And how that effect resonates back, is now what you contend with in terms of your way of being – as opposed to getting into the predicaments and having to sort out the complexities, and then contending with that from kind of like above/below, below/above kind of condition. Now you’re more in a level, or station, or something, a kind of quality station able to relate downward. That’s a lot like a teacher does.

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awakening-by-MynzahAnother word associated with spirituality is “awakening.” But what does it refer to? One aspect of it refers to awakening parts inherent to the human design that can connect us to higher energies and purposes. Another aspect is to begin to be more conscious, in a way that we begin to be the guide of our own thoughts and intentions – as a method of taking up, by choice, the responsibility of our relationship with what designed us – a very high calling. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In the next image, there’s a door that’s kind of like a door that’s bewitched with the outline of a character likeness that’s quickened. 

Looking at the door and instead of seeing it as a plain door you see something like an energetic imbedded in the door. It’s like an aliveness, almost ghost-like or something, very surreal-like, that’s part of the door. And everyone I know stays clear of this door because of its strangeness. 

I, however, am finding this oddity to be a curiosity item. So what I do is I will come up in front of the door and I’ll take my hand and I will go like that, wave it right in front of the door, and the thing will spark. It’s just kind of like static electricity or something will shoot; you’ll sense it, you’ll feel it, you’ll hear it pop.

And so I would experiment, I’d go to the top part where I see it, I’d go to the middle part where I see it, I’d go to the bottom part where I see this whole character outline and it’s the same thing, it just pops and pops. I might even imagine that under certain conditions it pops more. 

So finally I get the idea that it’s popping and there might be even a correlation where I wait a little bit to let the magnetism build up, and then do it and it pops more crisply or something. So then I get the idea, what happens if I fan it? And I go like this, like this, like this, like this real fast, fanning it so it’s going pop, pop, pop, pop, pop.

And eventually it quits popping because I’ve dissipated whatever that is. And, when I do that, I’ve actually, in this experimenting like this, I break the spell. I guess I was imagining that I could discharge the effect. 

Well, I did all right, and what happens is that something breaks. When the spell was broken it’s like the character imbedded as an electrical impulse in the door, after losing its charge, it comes out of the door and goes directly into me.

So a human being is intertwined with everything in existence. Very few have a focus, interest, or fearless nature to probe through the barriers of manifestation to access this intertwined aliveness. It’s all energy. It’s just, do we perceive it? Everything has an effect upon us. If you look at the carpet on the wall it has an effect upon you, on some more than on others. Some have a connection to it more than others – and how do you capture that sheer aliveness? 

And then in the final one, it’s kind of like I’m… this is all going to somewhere deeper, in that what we’re really talking about is the reason for why something is separate, amnesic, or hidden, or lost, or not coming through, or isn’t all there in one fell swoop. And so now we have to address the reason for that, why it isn’t always normal. 

The first thing I notice is I have a sinking feeling when it comes to something that is real important. And I wake up with the statement in my head: it has to do with forgetting something that I feel is necessary for my well being.

And then I go back and I recount the examples of the various images during the night of where I was not doing that, or in which I’m shocked because of something that’s there that I should know but I’ve forgotten that I know it. 

In one of the dreams last night I’m told about a piece of property that I can only barely remember. It’s like, do I own that property, I’m not sure, and I find myself saying that I need to do something in particular to protect that interest because I had forgotten about it.

And then in another aspect of the dreaming, I see a document that has some sort of humongous effect over my nature that I’ve forgotten, and just realizing it still exists gives me this huge sinking feeling. It’s like, wow, how could I have not noticed or paid attention?

And the meaning is, as I wake up little by little to things about myself, hidden within, I realize that I must be in some sort of amnesia because of my forgetfulness. I discover that by suddenly realizing that there are things I have repressed for some reason, or inadvertently forgotten, this sort of thing haunts me now.

And then I realize what I’m doing is I’m describing the human condition, and using myself as the example. My consciousness is blighted and a needed connection to the heart lost because I have lost what I need to face. Perhaps it was more than I could handle at the time.

And then I prioritize it as a number of things. First I see this as property important to me. Second I also see this as a document that I am shocked that I ignored. And then, third, I even detect it as a whirlwind of energy, only instead of it being in the door now, it’s different, and I do not trust myself as knowing what to do with it. 

I see this as an energetic image, like a character of myself, in which I go in and out of working with leaves, where on one hand I throw the leaves over my brother. He throws them over me. I throw them over myself, and both of us throw them over others as if we are able to create an illusion of invisibility and escape from something in our reality. 

Because the whole time that we’re doing this it’s like I’m definitely not hardly visible at all, and he is a little more visible, and the other people are much more visible, but all of it is done as if it’s all in a hiddenness. So to begin with we do this as if it is nearly make believe. That’s why it’s a type of hiddenness. The time comes, however, when the make believe touches repressed images and/or intertwined vibrations that we must face. 

So what I am saying as kind of a deeper meaning is that, whether I like it or not, there is a greater consciousness about things that is waking up and subjecting me to images, vibrations, and impressions that belong to me that have been repressed, hidden, or denied for a long time. 

To become reacquainted and responsible is to become more conscious. To become conscious is to take upon myself a greater perspective and responsibility over life than I currently realize is possible. It’s easier to pretend. 

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heartflameYesterday John described a dream involving him joining a baseball team (see Breaking the Spell). Here he delves into the deeper meaning of the internal, individual struggle to let go of the ego life that has been trained into us by the greater collective, as well as the implications for humans as a species, and what is required for us to make an energetic shift. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: The meaning of this is a shift is made first with the heart. The outer corresponds to the way the heart is able to permeate. The outer is a particular way, and can you correspond the heart to being able to permeate that situation?  

Now of course that’s a question that involves the feminine’s permission, because you can have this whole raw energy mannerism rise up inside of you, but it can be imbalanced to the timing, to the situation at hand, to what is allowed to be recognized or seen. And maybe it’s too much to be seen at a given point in time. Maybe the overallness of something of the feminine hasn’t cleared the space enough so that it would be too much and cause another kind of calamity.

That’s the part that you were working on in your dream. In other words, your heart is having to take on this whole overallness, so that it can accommodate that which can come through. And, first of all, you have to be able to balance out the imbalances of the collective, in terms of the lower self, and then you have to be able to create the conditions upon which the inner transmission and flow can come down into the outer.

That’s what your heart takes on in terms of the overall. My heart takes upon itself every level of existence, in terms of the quality of its focus and attention, and a thread of something that can come through, as a beam of light, or as a spoke, or as an inflection.

That’s why the masculine has this power, and a type of control issue that it has to contend with, and the feminine has to embrace that, subjectively see that it finds its cadence. And so in creation, that inner force is not very well developed.

In other words, the malaise of things predominates, or the collective outer predominates, and even those who are trying to reach to a hope that maybe something could be different, because what exists is not very good, are never sure how far a given heartfelt need can go. 

In other words, it’s like the collective malaise predominates. It needs the masculine to slice right through. It needs this fastball pitch, the increasing of the speed, in order to come right through. And it has to hold a consistency; and what a mess it will make if it doesn’t follow through with the entire game because there will be a collapse.

So, a doubt tends to exist because the dense collective, as things currently stand, as I have stepped into this ballgame I’m stepping in to where there’s a doubt that exists because the dense collective malaise is so pervasive, everywhere you look there is the stigma. In other words, the team can only go so far, it can have its moments, but everyone knows that it can’t break through. That’s the vibe that exists.

But the dream is saying that in spite of this, I am seeing myself as able to go inside, access this other speed, a speed in which there’s a need that exists for this to be lived and, of course, it can’t be lived without the feminine accommodation.

And if I do not bring it through, a jinx and spell will predominate because that’s the confusion that exists in feminine creation. Because such a vibe like this, this vibe that exists of a jinx and a spell, is kind of all pervasive in the surroundings that I’m placed in, unable to penetrate. But can I penetrate it consistently?

In other words, the question is, am I allowed to stand out with my heart and permeate the situation? If I lack the endurance to see the focus through and through, in other words, if there’s a giving up, which is a denial, then the collective imbalance, or the lower vibration of things will sweep over the scene again. So once I start, there’s no stopping. It has to be seen through.

I guess you could say I’m all in with the heart. The step back is a confusion and pain that creates a lack of focus, and thus a confusion, obliterates a potentiality, and keeps a change from coming into manifestation.

If you put this together with the first sensation scene, the gauging and timing of the way the heart is to be focused, in correspondence with the inner flow, is imperative to keep an eventual over-the-top crack-up from occurring.

Of course, in a way the masculine is just the masculine. The feminine aspect has to have some sort of sense of this overall condition that exists out there, has to clear the space, so to speak, create the overallness that gives things permission, or it cannot happen.

The way this dream fits with what occurred last night is this is kind of like a follow-up on the theme of how things work in terms of the two halves of God, the half that is in creation that the feminine has a responsibility with, and the other half that’s kind of the raw energy, off the ground, outside of creation, but linked to the creator, which brings through seed thoughts that can effectuate things.

And therefore you have the play and the dynamic of how the dense unfolds, if the two can come together, the inner and the outer. The issue and the dilemma that was raised in the dreaming yesterday, that being the day in which you were to be given information that had to do with where you stood in creation and in life, because there are two ways of trying to make this happen.

Actually, there are variances of the system. There is the idea that a human being can slowly become more conscious and catch up with the higher self. That is always going on as a schematic. It goes on in terms of a very dense and repetitive approach, and it goes on in which there is the devotional element that works with the heart in order to speed the thing up, and facilitate it to come through faster. That element involves having to catch up with a lineage, an energetic transmission, which exists in the big picture of it all, the macrocosm of it all.

But the human being that sits in the microcosm has all of this kind of busted into pieces. It’s segregated because of the density of things, so it doesn’t have good linkage. It sits in kind of an amnesia, and so in that amnesic state you can have a teacher that comes through that can bring the memo through, but then the teacher then can orient you to the two halves, and then you have to develop that inside of yourself.

Because a human being typically has a problem dropping the ego completely. There’s a question of whether that can be done when you’re in a state of a density here, and the density exists because there is a motion and a certain kind of flow that is associated then from the stillness.

Can this be done in creation like that, or does something in creation have to somehow or another have two split parts, a part that is in creation and another part that is somewhere else, able to hear the hints and catch the hints?

Or can we skip a step now and have all of it right here in creation, under the watchful guidance of a greater vibration, and that component work as a flow that permeates out and over things? Or does everything have to be inflected as hints and stuff, always from the other side? Because if it can actually be right here in creation, as a lived quality in creation, yes, there has to be a vibration of the lineage from somewhere else, reflected as the teacher, and as the lineage that goes through the teacher, and is with the teacher.

But if it can be right here, then it can make itself known and visible to everyone. Otherwise, it tends to be leaving people behind, and the possibility is actually reflected somewhat in this dream in terms of the game. 

The scenario is a condition that permeates and will exist unless something can come through, and have the right and the permission to come through, and the consistency with the permission, in other words it doesn’t somehow or another second guess itself to be able to come through, create the visible change so that everything is uplifted, so that there’s a shift in the speed.

And the problem is in how one is inclined to see themselves energetically, and when you’re in the senses of the physical, of creation, it’s very, very difficult to change the octave of how you take in the stimuli understanding of things. So you are inclined to stay at a pace in which more problems exist because that pace then has such a limited heart container development.

If, however that can be, then it’s really a force of nature in that regard, because everything gets lifted up. It can’t help but plug in. Everything functions according to a type of momentum, motion, momentum, but the momentum is all directed in different ways in terms of people’s different motions, and ways, and mannerisms, and interests, and personal intentions that get in the way.

But there is a momentum that breaks through it all, that is pure, and it is clear, and it is clean, which can feel exhilarating, which is able to sweep up all of the levels. Again, the ability for that to happen, the permission of that is of a feminine nature, that’s what it has to give to life as a quality of its overall being, heartfully, so that the masculine can bring through the protection, the seed, the inflection, which can tweak something into making the shift to another speed, which has always been possible, but has not had the integrated quality of this feminine permission before.

And it needs to be, now, because otherwise the malaise that exists, the mood of that, the tone of that, the heaviness of that, that’s just so much suffering, that is so much confusion, and it looks catastrophic in terms of where it’s going.

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