Posts Tagged ‘being affected by our environment’

pulled-in-all-directions-megan-bell-honigmanOur dream today echoes much of the reality of daily life, i.e., in it Jeane feels pulled in all directions at a chaotic family gathering. Is this just a reflection of the pressures of holiday time? Not really. The symbolism behind the images points out that, as we develop on our spiritual journey, we have to take on more and more of the natural Wholeness of things. Until we are able to embrace this Wholeness, within, we will feel the tug of aspects of our identity that aren’t quite ready to let go.

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Jeane: One dream I’m at my dad’s house, and there are a lot of people there. The people in the house, it’s almost like they’re trying to get a meal together. My niece is there, a lot of different people.

I seem to be sleeping out in the yard, near the hillside, and maybe one of my nephews is sleeping out there too, or great nephews, it’s someone younger, in the same area but not in the same bed.

I remember at one point I leave the house. I’m trying to get the food together and I’ve gone out and I’ve gotten some food, but I’m a little worried that I’ve got cookies but they don’t have nuts in them or something. But I’ve taken that food in and then I’ve gone out to check on my bed.

Well, for some reason a bunch of twigs have fallen on my bed, and there’s a little hole in the hillside next to my bed where it’s almost like a little, I don’t know, something about the size of a doghouse, except it’s just dug out of the hillside.

I look at that because I want to make sure there are no snakes in there. Then I push some of the twigs off my bed – that looks a little suspicious, too. There are all these twigs and leaves on my bed, but I don’t seem to knock them off the bed, I just move them around a little to make sure they’re okay, because there are covers under that, so I don’t seem to be bothered by that.

Then I go back in the house because I’m still checking on whether people have food. I mean, it’s just really crowded with people. Then I’m going to go downtown and that’s kind of like a shift in the dream.

John: So the purpose of the dream, the energetic purpose of the dream, is that as you’re watching yourself dream this, you notice that your attention is going this direction and that direction, as you’re having to cook something, or you’re having to do this, and you’re having to relate to a lot of people.

In other words, some part of this dream, with all of the activity of you having to move around in it and deal with all the people that are there, and all of that, some aspect of that rubbed an energetic off on you that left you overwhelmed. An image of your bed was a way of coming back and trying to go back into a consecration of the energy so that it isn’t all over the place.

The purpose of dreaming something like this was to get you to recognize and identify that, as you take on a greater beingness as part of a Whole of yourself in life, you have the challenge of figuring out how to do that without losing boundary control, if you know you’re taking and dealing with a big party and all these people and whatnot.

At some particular point, if you felt the vibration of that, it kind of estranged you from how you would like to feel yourself, and it can create even a type of frustration; you know that you’re not necessarily being true to how you need to be. In that frustration you can go and, in terms of trying to redirect it, it’s like the twigs, and a cave or something on your bed?

You’re trying to find some sort of order. Twigs actually can represent how something is every which way, but the fact that it is on your bed and whatnot, it’s like you’re pulling it back together so that it doesn’t leave you, like in the main part of the dream, having all of these people milling around and you’re having to do this, that, or the other in terms of a responsibility and obligation amongst all these people. If you look at yourself, it rubs off on you.

In other words, something gets taken away from how it is that you’re able to be. You lose a concreteness inside you. And the other image is trying to go back, noticing that things or twigs or everything is destroying and whatnot, and trying to pull it back together into a focus.

Only the difference in a dream like that for you, versus a dream like that for me, is you have to accommodate it in relationship to a greater Whole that you’re able to connect and tie into.

In other words, all of it has to be absorbed as an overall cadence that’s in your world. When you can do that, is when you can actually then start to have a meaningful effect in terms of touching things, because that’s when you will have developed a greater Wholeness to it all.

The dream isn’t going there necessarily showing you that you do that sort of thing. The dream at this particular point is getting you to realize and identify how it is that you’re being affected by your environment, and that you need to exercise a kind of discipline and take yourself out of that in order to be true to yourself.


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John: At first I didn’t even think I was dreaming – it seemed like I was actually seeing how information comes through. Then I realized, yes, I’m dreaming – it’s not a pure, inner dialogue.

For example, I saw that everything that happened during our trip to Egypt was relevant and depicted something that was unfolding. But what we saw on the surface could cause us to be reactive. Some days it was too hot and we were uncomfortable, and in many instances the vibration from the people begging in the street was severe. The trip, at times, actually felt a bit arduous. Because of that, there was no way we could fully grasp what it meant.

Therefore there were a lot of barriers to us being able to read between the lines and get something back, as a language, or a communication, from everything that was before us. Still, Egypt, seemed to be a portal to something else.

The distractions I just described happen all the time, in every environment. It’s hard not to let the surface events of life completely engulf us. Yet Egypt seemed to invite a certain focus of attention, almost asking if we could decipher what it had to say, or to appreciate it in some deeper fashion.

The way I saw this in my dream was that everything that happened around me had information contained in it. This information appeared to me as small pods that I could squeeze and they would reveal what was really going on at a deeper level.

If I didn’t acknowledge the pods, i.e., if my inner noise (reactivity) predominated and I didn’t realize that there was something more within the pods, the knowing of that would come to me as a dialogue, or a revelation.

In Egypt, for example, when I saw the children begging in the street, I had an appalled reaction; I let it affect me, generating an inner noise that deafened me to anything else. These surface mannerisms surrounded me in a kind of sloppy denseness, but behind them was something much more.

So these images have to do with an ability to pull events apart, so to speak, to reveal the deeper relevance behind them. It felt like everything was speaking to me in this way. I was being shown how to get the essence, or purity, from the situation, which on the surface appeared untouchable or unapproachable.

In one particular image, I was told that some strange type of animal gave milk – I don’t think it was a cow or a goat – and she would reveal her mysteries if she submitted to me for milking.

I had to have a particular focus that was clear-cut, and I had to exude a certain presence, only then would I have sway over the animal. Otherwise she would be wild and would maintain her separateness. This animal must have had 30 or 40 teats, and from each one I would just get just one drop of very pure essence milk.

As I was going around I saw that there were people who had some other pods and I would squeeze those little pods and their substance would drip into the milk, to give it some other essence.

I noticed that when I felt a tendency to get indulgent, the animal would get restless. She was willing to surrender if my intent was part of the flow, but if I started pondering things and trying to figure them out, then I caused a break in the natural unfolding.

This next image was the closest one to revealing what I perceived in this directed-voice way:

There was a series of images that were trying to direct me to look at them in a settled-back, quieter way. If I did, I would see something that I wouldn’t see if I was just identifying with the surface chatter, or with the outer chaos of things.

If I could maintain this quieter view, then I was able to experience a free-flow dialogue that indicated what was going on around me, i.e., how life was being touched, how it was awakened, and how it was revealed to me on this other level. For that to happen I had to let go of any personal involvement and be natural with this all-inclusive, revelatory dialogue and flow.

There’s also a deeper meaning in that there’s an impulse in my nature that sometimes causes me to predict things in a forceful or definite way. This imagery is showing me that when I do that, when something in my nature gets too loud, it veils my connection.

We all get punished for the loudness in our nature because, if we’re quieter, we can actually hear what’s meant to be. If we’re really loud, then all we’re doing is getting caught up in our own neuroses; i.e., neuroses that make us think that something relevant or important is going on in the outer and, thereby, excluding the more subtle importance underneath.

What’s important reveals itself when we settle back and take in the vibration, quietly and appreciatively, and note the subtle connections and flow.

What’s really happening in these scenarios is a violation of the flow, and this causes me to become ungrounded. Whenever I identify with the flow in a personal way, I’m disturbing the natural connection. If I were to stop doing that and let everything speak to me in its way, a most gracious appreciation for how everything intertwines would be recognized.

In a sense, my reactions take me away from the essence of myself. Everything is here for my benefit if I can let go of projecting myself onto it. When the heart is quiet and tranquil, creation reveals itself. It’s only in terms of the whole that a consciousness of connectivity is reached.

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