Posts Tagged ‘being and nothingness’

tunnebImagine what we might be like, as people, if we had never been hurt, or mistreated, or told we were not good enough, or if we had been given every positive opportunity, and an ideal education, without fears. We would have developed no psychologies that limit our freedom to express ourselves, purely, cleanly, as a life responding to life. We could just unfold like the flower of possibility we are. That is something like the sense we can reach if we let go, in our spiritual processes, and open ourselves up to the energetic wholeness of the universe. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Like I say, the whole dreaming last night was process oriented, and what I did was all process oriented, too, in that it starts off in which, in the meditation dream, everything is presented before me, for all to see, is in physical manifestation. In other words, it’s like I start with everything, everything as manifestation, and yet I also know that there is more.

So to try to understand the roots of it all, the greater moreness of things, I even become like a type of genealogist. And suddenly I come to know that everything, that moreness, that which is more, that everything is light. And, for some reason, even though this should be apparent, in the dream, I hadn’t expected everything to be light. For some reason that blew a concept within, in terms of what I believed needed to unfold or correspond.

So as a result, a part of me was even rejecting, then, what I was seeing. And so to reject what I see when everything turned to light, now what? Well, I didn’t know what, what. It just wasn’t quite… you know, it just had to be something more, so I gave up. I gave up because everything that exists in the essence somewhere as light and, if that’s it, then there isn’t anything that remains which is tenable.

In other words, somehow part of me still wants to hold onto something tenable, or something more. I have no idea what that something more is that I’m anticipating, in other words, caught on this anticipation upon anticipation, but whatever it was, it wasn’t in keeping with whatever this conceptualization that I had in terms of how things unfold because it just went from manifestation to boom: all light. Nothing left. So with everything being light it became demoralized, in a way, and at a loss, in terms of where or how to turn to find what I still was seeking.

So what is going on is I wouldn’t know the truth if it was right in front of me, as plain as day. The reason is because I carry a context, somewhere deep within, of how this must be that I am not letting go of. In other words, something yet that I’m still sensing. I am veiling myself from seeing the essence right in front of me, which, in this case, is presenting itself as being light.

And the meaning is that, in my dream, in physical existence, everything reduces, everything becomes light, everything goes, and there’s nothing else but light. And so I’m not able to handle this because I am caught up in some sort of conceptual questing.

To be like that is to be caught in a yes, but, kind of demeanor. Or to put the sensation I am still carrying in another way, I don’t know how to stop. And I don’t know how to let go. As a result of that, the meditation dream then is indicating that if I were to be at a point where there was nothing tangible to hold onto, as a beingness, I would still be at a loss because I am constantly expecting something else. Isn’t that an odd meditation dream?

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spaceThis dream makes the point that whatever we have attachment to in life adds a kind of weight, or denseness, to us. It is something that, ultimately, needs to be let go. In Egyptian iconography, the heart of the recently deceased is weighed against a feather. If the heart is lighter than the feather, then the deceased is allowed to proceed into the afterlife. How are we to become as light as a feather? By understanding that the universe isn’t here for us, but that we are here for the universe. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, in the dream, the dream intent is to show another person how you let go. It’s almost like a contest. He has his way, I’m going to have my way, except I have to do this, and I am being hit with, having to be attentive to the physical.

So the challenge begins. I go into the dream confident that I can prove the point, however, at the end of the dream, I’m still holding onto something. In other words, I’m still attentive to something in the physical. I can feel that there is an effect, or an after-the-fact thing, that still remains.

As a result, the effect, that after-the-fact thing, that remains as a quality, makes me somewhat heavier or denser. In other words, because I am deep in the dream, I do not realize right away that what I have done is limited by that, and that what I have done is still revealing something to life and, as a result, there is a limitation which remains. Because as long as you’re portraying, or expecting, or doing something upon life with an intentionality, then you’re not being truly, truly empty.

The person I was trying to win over in this contest is a person who is able to go somewhere so deep that when he comes back he is empty. There is nothing to point out. He is like a feather in terms of his inner emptiness.

The meaning is, is the theme of the meditation dream is about the process of letting go into levels of stillness that are beyond physical awareness. As an image to exemplify what I mean, if I am a piece of property can I access the city water, and sewer system, imbedded in the property without carrying any consequential reverberations to pay attention to?

In other words, could I just do it, or do I have to pay attention to it? And, if I do, then there’s that added weight, and that added weight is a beingness, a potential beingness, in regards to being different than, meaning does that negate the nothingness, is it different? Is there a way for there to not be a limiting effect – whenever I access latent energies imbedded within – which, when latently still, are empty, but when activated does that cause an attention, or a beingness, that then has a distinction?

In other words, beingness and nothingness is of two different polarities. So, in the dream, I am aware of the nothingness and the beingness simultaneously. I still do not know how this is to be, meaning how do you resolve the two? Because in the dream the beingness was like a weight that I accepted in order to be in life, in other words, to pay attention to the physical. And the nothing was an emptiness in which the myriad of vibrations remained latent therein or, in other words, they weren’t vibrating about.

So in the dream you could say that both states existed – because I’m all parts in the dream. I’m both the one that went into the stillness, too, and I’m making note of this. I don’t have an answer for it. In other words, this was the challenge.

You saw how you did it; for you it was a nightmare. For me I’m making note of it. I don’t have the answer to it, and the reason why there’s no answer for it was it was like that Tao statement that you read. What it said was, that both are states of mind, yet.

Both the beingness and the nothingness are states of mind, because there’s something even more than that, and that when we portray it we’re still portraying it as a state of mind – because we’re not able to actually be that, to be any of that. In other words, even the nothingness is a state of mind like the beingness. And so, I don’t know what you do with that.

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