Return to the Path

field-with-pathToday’s dreams are a continuation of the images discussed in Action and Reaction. As the scenes shift, Jeane finds herself alienated and on the verge of entering a dangerous part of town. But by reconnecting to her breath and inner guidance, what first appeared as menacing becomes the guide that leads her where she wants to go.

As in life, when we trust in creation, we are always in alignment and will end up where we are meant to be. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: It feels like, I know that in the background there’s a theme of talking with people about the breathing process, and that I was involved in that from the very beginning, but other people don’t know that, and I don’t necessarily tell them, but I have connections because of that.

There’s also the process I’m kind of waiting for the timing to get the speedometer right. In the middle of all of this, I think this is where I kind of drop you. I go to some resort where a whole bunch of people are meeting, and they have breaks from that meeting, and first I kind of scope out the resort because it has several levels on it where people meet, it even has a tavern area that’s in a rougher neighborhood somehow.

As I’m going through different levels, on a break to find out where to eat, it’s like I go to one table…

John: You’re fast forwarding and speeding up, and actually realizing that what you’re doing is traumatizing you. Your higher self is kind of catching up and realizing, in the dream that had affected me, in other words, you’re absorbing that. So now you’re realizing that even in this area it’s ridiculous that you’re falling for this stuff, and going through what you’re going through with the spiders.

So, you’re kind of catching up with this now. You actually deep down know that even this area is something that you have to be okay in, and you can’t make an exception or something in this area, and that’s why you’re coming back to the breathing, you’re coming back to a resort in terms of inside of you, and then I’m not there because you’re absorbing it.

Jeane: When I’m at this resort now, it’s almost like a break and I want to go make a connection around eating. And I go up to a long table and Middle Eastern women come to sit at that table, and I want to sit in the middle of them, but they don’t really want to sit with me. They want to sit and talk with each other.

That bothers me a tiny bit, but I just keep moving on, and I don’t seem to settle at any table, and then I go up to another level and I go into a room and I must have disrupted them a little, there was a group of maybe four Chinese men that looked like teachers that were sitting on the floor in a circle and one of them, I must have bumped him slightly, and he left the room for a minute.

I excused myself and one of the other teachers asked me if I knew who he was. I said I didn’t, and then he comes back, but they expect me to leave. I guess they thought it was rude I didn’t know who he was, and I guess I was thinking he was a little rude that he was a teacher and he cared about that sort of thing.

It didn’t seem quite right to me. So I’ve left that room and it feels like about this time, not having found any comfort in this whole area, I’ve gone down to the very bottom level and I walk through a corridor where there’s kind of food that they sell out of little stalls, and that’s interesting, but I go all the way to the tavern and there’s something about the tavern that, even though I don’t settle there, I feel more comfortable.

John: What you’re doing is when you make a certain adjustment or advancement, inside of yourself, where you link up with something that you now grasp or understand, it’s like you fast forward and you kind of shift, and everything around you in the collective doesn’t necessarily shift with you.

I mean it could, it should, eventually there’s a space inside of you that can accommodate that, and help facilitate that, but it’s not at this point in time necessarily shifting with you.

The teacher is you, in a roundabout way. First of all, you’re not quite accepted anymore, and therefore the teacher can’t really quite be the teacher. In other words, you’ve shifted and therefore the degree to which you think you need to be perceptible and graspable and recognizable, you’re kind of by yourself.

Even if you sit at a table, for example, it just doesn’t quite pull itself together. You’re alone at the table. The others are still in their bibble-babble or something, and as a consequence there’s a gap whereby the actual effect of your presence isn’t… well, they’ve excluded you.

And to the degree to which you see yourself even excluded, meaning a type of groundedness can still be there in a simplistic way that holds back a certain quality so it doesn’t disturb, to the degree to which there’s this distinction stuff going on, there’s a degree to which there’s this teacher that doesn’t quite work.

That teacher is you, that doesn’t quite work on that level of getting something that can come across, which would naturally come across as a type of force of nature.

In other words, in our dreams, we’ve had two types of forces of nature. We’ve had one force of nature in which it disturbs things, and almost like well, okay, that’s just how it has to be because that’s how a force of nature is.

Well, when it’s like that you’re causing something to suffer, and you’re suffering. And then you have another force of nature in which you actually get it, you recognize something, and then that then alienates you from the normal collective of things and, therefore, the fact that you’re alienated means you’re no longer properly plugged in to creation, and therefore the teaching can’t quite happen. The teaching is like what, a teaching to yourself, or you as a teaching to the Whole?

Jeane: So anyway, I’ve gone down to the bottom level where there’s a tavern, and I walk along a corridor before the tavern where they have little stalls where they serve food and I kind of look at all of that.

I get to the tavern and I know in some ways I’m hungry, but I just can’t seem to settle. I may even pick something up because I know I’m carrying something in my arms, but I’m not sure what it is, whether it’s food or whether I’ve still got the speedometer, I don’t know.

I’m not being quite comfortable settling in the tavern, even though I seem to make a connection with someone there. I go outside and it’s dark out, and there’s snow all over the ground, and that area is a dubious area of town and I start walking across to where I want to go, and then I get a little confused about which direction to go and I start to go down one way and some kids that could even be like teenagers that could be little hoodlums or something kind of start jiving or talking to me.

They’re walking in the dark too, and you don’t know whether to feel threatened by them or not because of the way they tease you, but they cause me to turn and go a little different direction instead. And I realize that even though they come across like they might be threatening, they’re actually, through their little teasing, directing me in the right way.

The other way wouldn’t have been the right way to walk. It would have been not only in a rougher section of town, but it just wasn’t the right place to go. Then they’re kind of walking a ways behind me, but it’s like they want to look like they’re menacing, but they’re actually kind of getting me to go where I need to go.

It feels like I walk across the snow to some area where I get into a boat that’s going to take me where I’m going.

John: In the other part there was still the food too. That part is understandable, you’re not quite able to integrate and be with the people anymore because of some part in which there’s a gap in terms of how you relate and therefore that cuts off the inner teaching process too when you find yourself alienated.

What this is doing is, the reason why it was so hard for me to follow it before, was because the dream carried a sensation with it in which the heart started to dance. The heart started to dance because what you’re doing in the dream is, even though you have a few hiccups and whatnot like where you can quasi deviate, you now have a perception that knows how to hold the course.

In other words, when you go out there and you see yourself following a particular flow in a particular direction, as soon as you start doing that, the heart opens up and is kind of dancing in a joy inside, but then you meander off with these hoodlum alley kids or whatever.

In other words, now the little deviations aren’t as loud because you have caught the cadence of something in your heart. You have caught the cadence instead of it suddenly causing and creating a cloudiness that fogs over and chokes you. There’s almost like a rejoicing, or a joy, that has been reached as a type of breakthrough – so you hear that.

You somehow hear that. You somehow know that. As soon as you broke through you set in motion that, so that if you go down an alley and you run into kids and whatnot, it’s like they are all part of streamlining and shaping this sort of thing.

In other words, it’s like a step back in order to take two steps forward again. Normally that might be a whole other episode to have to contend with, but now that all works – that is all pulling for you. That is all working in terms of what is unfolding.

Technically, instead of taking it personally or something, with regards to the previous image in which you were not able quite to partake of things because you had put yourself into a place that was not hearable, and therefore you weren’t hearable to yourself, and therefore nothing could be taught or recognized.

You somehow or another got back to the timing, got back to the depth, knowing that you needed that as an underlying schematic that had been laid out at the beginning. You went back to that, and then took a step then in terms of going deeper inside of yourself to follow a flow.

In other words, instead of fighting the situation, you realized how there is a flow, you followed the flow, which means you transcended all of that as a barrier to yourself. And as you followed the flow, your heart started to dance and a joy started to open up.

You noted that on some subtle level inside yourself. Maybe you didn’t quite finger it or point it out to yourself, like a masculine would be inclined to suddenly perhaps recognize, but it became like a type of tuning fork because then when you’re presented with a kind of barrier obstacle, it actually is part of the path of the process.

The process is to go with the flow. The process is to not try to command or demand something. If one does, then one doesn’t have the flow. If you were still uptight in the prior image, if you hadn’t realized that there’s something more, so the teaching could continue, and the connection can sustain itself, you would have been in bad shape around the hooligans.

But instead you recognize how the hooligans were part of your play, part of the integration, part of the spiritual path.

So in your dream, you took and, in a roundabout way, created an image of inner and outer coming together, because you had an inner unfolding, and then all of a sudden you had this outer nuance running into the hooligans, and then all of a sudden, yes, they helped you.

It was a heck of a dream with a lot of action going on.

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What’s Going On

Here is the third installment of this conversation between Ann and John. We continue the discussion of the inner energetics coming into the outer, through a dream image, as well as how it works in practical ways in daily life.

Our prior posts on this theme are Tearing the Threads and Coming From Within. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Ann: I’ve had kind of interesting dream shift, sort of, and what’s been happening is I’m dreaming very, very, very deep and when I wake up I know wow I’ve been somewhere very, very deep and I can’t necessarily pull out all of the images, but I’m able to pull out some images but then there’s a message. It’s almost like… and I’m writing down these messages now that are coming. I’ll wake up and it’s just like I know the message or something…

But the images, there are some images like I’ll share one with you but it’s just a shift is what it is and there’s one I had here. Um, I’m going through my little notebook here real quick.

In this dream all I can remember is I’m standing outside and I’m looking like at the horizon or something and I see these… like there are pyramids. It would be like a pyramid and then a reflection of a pyramid below, almost like below the horizon…

And they’re pyramid shape and they’re almost exactly opposite so the pyramid of course is pointing up and it was all these prisms and it’s all very clear when I was looking at these pyramids up, and then of course down, meaning it’s exactly a mirror reflection like below the horizon were all these rainbow prisms, just prisms of these lights.

And that was sort of the only thing I could remember from the image but yet when I woke up it was like something came through that just said: it doesn’t matter, it’s all the same.

John: It is all the same, yeah.

Ann: And so I wrote that down and I’m getting some of this kind of stuff you know were these like waking up and just sort of knowing something but not necessarily being able to pull out all of the images.

John: There’s a phase like that in which technically what you’re also catching up with is your skills at the same time, because behind that is a magical ability to utilize that in an interesting creative way, that would baffle most people, because within your image you have both the seeing going on…

Ann: The what, the what?

John: The seeing. In other words you have the energetic that is the type of seeing. In other words, you have the pyramid and a pyramid focuses the vibrational energy so that something is concentrated and can be made known.
Anyway, what you did is you took it into sound. You took it into a knowingness that brings it through, and then you were told that it really does not matter… Because they’re the flip sides of each other.

In other words, you have taken the subject that I talk about like okay there’s the mystic and then there’s the alchemist and you put them together as out-breath and in-breath boom one and the same thing. It doesn’t matter.

Ann: Wow. Well that is interesting isn’t it?

John: What I’m trying to remember was what was the second part you said? I understood it but I have forgotten what you said.

Ann: Oh, just that at the top it was clear prism and below were the rainbows sort of below on this horizon, and then I was just standing there looking at it. I was very deep in dreams and then when I woke up it was just a message or something that the message was, it’s all the same, it doesn’t matter, and so that is what I wrote down.

John: When it is brought all the way through it does not. In other words, if it sits as a mystical energy, as an inner, which is the masculine’s limitation, then in order for it to have… no matter how true it is, it’s not valid if it can’t be brought through, and of course then if it’s a little off you can’t see how you are off or losing something energetically.

If you’re not able to bring it through so that you have to have the experiences of the imbalance or how it is that you are energetically off. What you’re doing is you have concentrated this into a focus and you have brought it down into the horizon which you created the image of bringing it through.

Most of it is being introduced as something getting concentrated and shaped and coming down through the aspect of the person, the aspect of the pyramid, all of that accentuates the keenness of the vibration, of the energetic vibration. And then when it’s brought all the way through or it’s upon the horizon or into manifestation, you don’t quite complete that 100% but I’m not sure that you have not either not completed it 100% or having gotten it, because you’re the feminine trait and you’re looking at this masculine principle, and then that whole thing is, so to speak, demystified again when it says that it doesn’t matter. It’s like all the same.

Just like another way that we’ve talked before somewhat about this is we’ll say light and sound are the flip side of the same coin. It’s just at different levels of vibration, different levels of speed.

And that in a human body we tend to get confused and relate to the lowest common denominator, which is through our senses. But then, through our higher self, we can tend to recognize that there’s information coming from within that we can catch up with, that shapes how our lower self can operate or function.

And so what you’re doing is rather than getting all of these semantics you’re just basically saying okay, one can focus the vibration and the energy and bring it through, or it can be there, and it really doesn’t matter. In other words, if it mattered you’d pay more attention to the energy that’s getting focused and going through all these gyrations, and want to go into that as opposed to bringing it through.

But you’re focusing it to bring it into manifestation. You’re creating a flow from inner into outer.

A masculine that feels like it’s got issues with the feminine is going to want to go the other direction.

And what’s important that can help manifestation or help the lower energetic octaves, the dance that we seem to all have to play here, is the ability to bring it right on through from within, to recognize that as the flow.

I mean, in your image there’s no doubt that you recognize what the flow is. That’s why your dreams are interesting compared to my dreams or Jeanne’s dreams because you have a different energetic correlation to it. In other words, you already have a kind of understanding that in some way I may be battering things around to get to certain aspects. That’s a very advanced naturalness.

Ann: I have been having that a lot lately. Oh my gosh, I feel like I’m just so in depth, I mean very, very deep.

John: The thing about that is there’s no shadow dynamic there. In other words, you’re not sitting there fighting some sort of rear guard thing where you have a body double or something going on, and you’re having to run or to chase or you are affected or you are scared or any of these other dynamics in which it just isn’t quite coming through or something is a barrier. Instead you have got the pyramid, you have got the prism going…

You know, you’re bringing it on through.

Ann: Interesting isn’t it?

John: Now, a lesser dream of the same sort of thing would be like a person falling.

Ann: A person what?

John: Where they’re falling, a falling sensation.

You know, and they’re going to die, and they have got to wake up before they hit the ground. Something like that. In other words, there’s a gap, there’s a barrier in terms of bringing the inner into the outer through. The two can’t intertwine. See, you’re intertwining, too.

You’re using the prism, you’re using the pyramid, you’re making the intertwining. You’re doing something that’s a little alchemical even. In other words, you’re taking the vibration, knowing that there’s something that helps facilitate this with the pyramid and with the prism, so this is almost like a turning of lead into gold, on an energetic level, so that it comes through.

It’s fascinating how all of this is, how we are able to… Each of us perceive slightly different the same thing. That is why it appears that this goes on and on and on and on forever. There are infinite levels. In other words, it’s like the dreams like I have with Jeanne can be of a nature, of one nature, and then with a flip of the coin something that you have carries it into this whole other octave.

Oh, the other thing that has come up… this used to confuse me for sometime and that is… and I have seen people confused by it too by saying oh, I can’t tell you this or I can’t tell you that, kind of thing. You can tell a person anything that will come through you.

If it won’t come through you there isn’t a connection of yield within the other person. It just won’t be there.

Ann: Say that again now. That’s very interesting.

John: You can pretty much tell a person anything that will come through you. You can pretty much tell them – it will come through you. In other words, you’re not in a position of saying that I shouldn’t tell this person this, or I shouldn’t tell this person that, even though you want to, and you stop yourself because as you think about it, it’s not right for them or something, but you know that you can say this to them, you know that you could say it to them.

If you know that you could say it to them, it’s okay. If you can’t say it to them and you’re trying to say it to them, then it’s not okay.

Just like what we talk about, what we just talked about right now, I do not know that with Jeanne and I we’ve ever had quite this kind of a conversation. But for you, this is common sense. It’s already there for you.

The caveat to this… there is one caveat. The caveat to this is to be careful in terms of the collateral damage that you create, and so on an energetic level, based upon a little bit of what came in last night, you have to know how to take something away.

In other words, there are certain things that I know that I can say to Jeanne that would hurt her feelings. They would be irreparable. I automatically know that. I don’t ever say that because I also automatically know the reverberations that that would set off.

And even though she might think that she can get beyond that, technically, it will still be malingering somewhere back there as a faint memory, or as a type of distrust or something, or abandonment, or rejection, or however it is that these things get misconstrued, especially when you have certain tendencies in your nature in terms of certain image woundologies that are there. I see those and why go to that?

This brings up again, on an energetic level, another little aspect to it. You always pitch to a person’s strength. There’s something weak about yourself if you always pitch to their weakness, so that you can always stay ahead of the game.

Ann: That is so absolutely true. That is so true, always pitch to a person’s strength.

John: And when you do that everything opens up wonderfully. More things open up than could possibly open up, but when you pitch to a person’s weakness, so that somehow or another you win or something… You’re tearing yourself down at the same time.

Ann: That is so absolutely true isn’t it? Oh, my gosh.

John: And how many people will do that? I find it fascinating. It can be just nothing more than let’s say a ping-pong game, and let’s say I know that the person has got a horrible backhand but a wonderful forehand.

Hit to the forehand. As I keep hitting to the forehand and it gets better and the person’s confidence gets up, then when the ball goes to the backhand the person does pretty good, but if I keep hitting to the backhand I tear them down and then when I go to the forehand it’s all discombobulated too. See, you build up where the strength is. You build it up and then amazingly they find their backhand.

And now if you’re grooming and shaping them and you’re hitting to the forehand and hitting to the forehand and they suddenly get real full of themselves like they are better than they are, then you could change the flow around a little bit, and now you’re kind of shaping them, but you’re still not beating them up by going exclusively to their weakness. You’re just getting them to inflect a little bit. Recognize a little bit, to be able to hear a little differently.

Ann: I love that. Always pitch to a person’s strength.

John: A good example of a righteousness in terms of not doing it and instead of carrying a righteousness, is I remember I used to play a lot of volleyball and you would have six people on a side, three guys and three women per side, every other one, and so the guys are always better at spiking the ball and stuff like that, and it’s easy when it looks like it’s a close game to suddenly think okay, maybe I should step in front of this woman and hit the ball because she’s liable to goof it up and this is an important point.

And if you start doing that you are going to throw the whole cadence of the team off and if… You know, you’ll get into positions where maybe you will have the ideal formation where you’ll have a woman in the center for setting and you’ll have the guys on each of the wings for spiking and blocking.

If the team is really flowing it’s really not going to matter. You can have the guy in the center with two women on the wings and it will still work – if everybody is scrambling and is in sync. When this really got proven to me was the volleyball team I used to play on suddenly and there would get to be quite a few of us that would show up so we could make six and six on each side because we just played and switched back and forth you know to kind of keep an interesting flow.

Well, these two guys showed up and one of them had played on the Polish Olympic team, and the other one was probably a close second or something. Anyway, he was his compadre. And they get out there and of course they’re the cat’s meow and the next thing you know they’re taking… and I would jump as high as I could jump to try to block this guy and this guy would hit it over the top of my block.

Fortunately for me he would do that because if he hit into my block he probably would hit with so much force it would break my glasses and everything else, but I have to play my game so I jump and try to block it and he’d hit it over the top – you wouldn’t even see the ball it would get smashed down so hard.

Well, next thing you know you’ve got these two guys hopping all over the place in front of everybody. Well, what’s very interesting is our team scrambled to beat heck and scrambled and scrambled. We did not have any of this nepotism. We could beat them.

The reason is because they would go… The principle of an inner coming out would get stuck, would get entrenched. Even the guys on that team that are good would figure out how to goof up if the ball would happen to be hit to them and these others couldn’t run in front of them.

The women, forget it. The ball would just bounce off of them and go back to the ground. They all played much better than that of course, but these hotdogs running around, they stole all the energy, they killed the soul.

And they would lose it because these two guys couldn’t be everywhere, and again it’s just the nature of how important this inner is to come in. When these guys were running around doing all of that, they killed the flow of the inner and it caused the identification in terms of the outer that was going on, and in the identification with the outer stifled you because that wasn’t where the action was. It’s dead, viewed strictly from an outer perspective.

Another way of saying is… and I was constantly pushing the team to try to hit this zone in which everything was magical in the way the play would happen, and you’d only hit it for like a few minutes and then it would fall off in some capacity where somebody picked at another, or someone had a self image complex or something, and affected them, this recognition of how this innerness works.

And what amazed me is when you were in sync the ball would come to maybe the worst woman player on the team and she’d take a swing at this thing and the guys would be up to block it and she’d hit it at some cockamamie angle and it’d go over the net barely and it dribbled down and hit the ground. And it would be incredible how often that could happen when you were in sync. When everybody was in flow.

Even the weakest of all players, the ball had eyes for them, and would move in accordance with the rhythm… the inner flow.

This is a huge subject… This is a huge subject and of course at that time the way I pondered this subject had all to do with my attitude and putting pressure on things and trying to push things and then comes the shadow dynamics and then comes the reaction and all of that.

You skipped all of that in yours. You just used the pyramid and the prism and you know, the heck with all that other malarky. And that gives it away. In the end it’s like… What was the statement in the end? That’s what gives it away. Oh, it really doesn’t matter or something like that, right?

Ann: It’s all just the same.

John: It’s all just the same. It’s all just the same.

Ann: It doesn’t matter, it’s all the same.

John: But that’s not my perspective. I had to push the team to try to find this rhythm and some people get mad because they don’t like to be pushed. They’re doing their best because there’s a fine line between being pushed and being judged.

So, one lives their whole energetic life… And you can spend a whole life doing it and not realize that that’s all there is going on.

Instead you could look… like I could look out the window here and I can see the cranes up and they’re building something, oh that’s what’s going on, let me go over and see what that is, as if that’s what is really, really interesting. It has nothing to do with anything. It’s an energetic and the whole motif behind it.

Can I catch up with that? What is that trying to say?

Ann: Boy, isn’t that fascinating? Oh my. Wow.

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A Natural Way

Jeane: In my dream it felt like I was on a river. It must have been somewhere like Egypt (where we recently traveled) because I see that the people are wearing Galabiyas (a traditional Egyptian garment).

It seems as though there are three different things you can do with a boat on this river. I think one is that you can go up or down the river, and another is that you can go across the river. The third thing to do, especially if you hire a guide (it’s difficult without a guide), is just swirl by yourself from one spot to another, wearing one of the Galabiyas. But you have to know what spot to swirl from. It seems you can swirl from one spot to another, and another, and another.

Sometimes you can do it kind of invisibly, and sometimes you’re visible. I think you might need a guide if you want to do it invisibly. I’m not sure how it works exactly, but that seems to be the option I’m studying the most, trying to figure out how that works.

John: The theme of this dreaming is, how do you carry yourself, or how is it that you’re able to be  – when you feel okay about everything?

In other words, there’s a way of carrying yourself, you could call it a manner in which something vibrates through you, that, if you’re attentive to it, sweeps you along into a flow. In that flow you naturally find a spot, if there’s meant to be a spot that’s most natural to you, and from this spot you’re able to go to deeper and deeper depths in this naturalness that you feel inside.

This dream isn’t meant to put you to the test about some personal nuance, or some awkwardness, neurosis, or complex, or anything like that. Instead, it’s a dream that draws your attention to an energetic vibration that you’re carrying, and proceeding through life with. When you see yourself doing this and note it about yourself, you recognize what you’re doing and see that everything is okay as you do it.

If anything, your dream indicates what happens to you, and what’s meant to unfold for you, as you travel deeper within. You’re able to go places and appreciate things in your environment, yet none of it actually impacts, or affects, or sticks on you in a way that pulls you down, or pulls you out of the flow.

So you’re able to use everything that happens around you as part of that flow – as a wholeness. You’re able to enjoy all of that and, in so doing, you just keep spiraling more and more within this resonance.

I guess it was important for you to see yourself in this way, not having to try and do anything in particular. When you’re able to be like that you find yourself a part of a natural overall flow – there’s no resistance from you that prevents it. You find that the things you enjoy carry that quality, and you go about, doing the things that interest you. You carry this manner as a way of effortlessly being.

In this image, it’s not a specific matter of being situated in some way. It’s just a matter of you going ahead and allowing yourself to appreciate what you feel, in relationship to the activities you do, which are just part of a greater flow. You don’t attach any personal indulgence on it, which would cause you to disconnect.

Instead, you’re putting your attention upon something that opens up more and more from within and, as you go through life, there’s a kind of joyousness to it all. So I guess the dream is showing you that you can have a sense of joy, appreciation, and you can resonate with that, and that alone enables you to free flow through life in a natural way.