Something Limiting

Somehow we have come to believe that we have to “work through” everything. That the way we solve things is to bang away at them until they surrender. But that’s not the way of it. Energetically, when we direct energy at something we strengthen it – no matter whether we want to or not (it’s the law!). So, the way to rid ourselves of something we no longer support is to let it go – consciously, having an awareness that we are letting it go. We want to starve these things energetically, that is how they shrink and disappear in time. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So this next one kind of adds a little color to the thing in terms of delusionality; it’s still delusionality. In the next dream, I am repressed and need to speed up. I see myself as being at an octave of 50, which is now like something that is condensed, but is condensed to the point that it knows it can shift into the overallness more. 

So I need to access that which is at 60 in order to come more out of a stifled condition. But because I’ve been back and forth a few times, I don’t see the 60 as sustainable, meaning it isn’t the answer, either. You know, it’s just what is going to happen: first it condenses, then it contracts. Things ebb and flow, kind of thing. 

So, I see the 60 as something I need to reach in order to be more at ease with how I am which will settle out in a way I do not know – perhaps, over time, back to 50. But this time, more okay with it.

And the meaning is, that in order to let go of a psyche limitation I have to live out, there is this, you know, when the breath is doing what it’s doing and connects to the dharmic effect of things, you kind of have to probe or live it out. And, as you do, you come to see life in a slightly different way by this going back and forth you do. Otherwise you get caught in things. 

And currently I am not accepting – at the speed of 50 – I’m not accepting the modality I am at, thinking that there is something more. So I think I must go through some outer emotions to get through and experience a letting go to the projections. 

You could say the scenario is I am seeing myself as if in condition and I would have an illusionary imagination that acted out like this as part of outer identification. None of this is going to be the answer. You can’t tell that. There’s something limiting about myself. And it’s a type of letting go. It’s an interesting type of catching up with the stillness. You don’t know how far that is. Could be eons away.

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A Kind of Harmony

We are all guilty of getting in a mood and wallowing in it, or letting an emotion run through us for days – somehow feeling we are entitled to these detours. Sometimes we even like it. But, part of our journey is to remake ourselves in the image of the universe, and let our own life be reflective of universal processes. And what the universe would do would be to find balance again, which often means adding something to the mix from the opposite side of the extreme that is playing out – balancing emotion with reason, or elation with groundedness. It’s a useful pattern for us to develop in ourselves, consciously. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I wish I pulled this dream out better. I’m in a setting that feels like a school building. And we’re trying to do some kind of a shift, and a whole series of shifts, and it feels like with each shift maybe you can claim some property in the school. 

And so there’s a series of us, and there’s a whole line of shifts that we can make. But, it’s like, right now the energy around the shifts is what’s called a negative energy. So we have to time it right in order to make the shift and get something. And if one of those negatives turns to a positive, and then we try to shift, it can change the whole deal. 

So there’s actually an advantage in when it’s a negative as opposed to a positive. But it means that you have to wait and time it right, too, and then try to make all the deals so that the property comes together. And if you’re seeing the negative turn to a positive, then I think there’s something you can do to make it turn back to a negative, but it means you also have to wait, you can’t do it right away. 

So I’m trying to wait for the right sequence of moves so that we can get this property and not have these forces that are against us take it. That’s the best way I can describe the dream. 

John: What you’re describing energetically is that, from the overallness of yourself, there’s something that is making itself known, that, in order to catch up with it’s timing, you have to look at how the ebb and flow is, from within.

It’s like you’re looking at the seed thought of something coming into fruition. And there’s a positive aspect and a negative aspect. But what you’re looking at is the positive aspect is something that just will happen on its own, so to speak, that isn’t where you need to put your attention, you need to put your attention on what you consider the negative aspects, because the grasping and the understanding of that is what determines what can or can’t be. 

So it’s a dream about a quality of something needing to come into fruition, in terms of a wholeness of your nature, a quality of your being. And you’re looking at what it is that holds things in check, or makes the difference in terms of what can be – because it’s a timing thing, it’s an out-breath, it’s considered kind of a masculine way of catching up, and having a grasp, an in-depth grasp of what is going on within yourself

Now, I suppose you could say, as a scenario that yesterday you felt like you were a little out of sync, or functioning in a capacity in which things were coming out of you that weren’t in a balance, that you recognize, in terms of a balance and a flow that carries a kind of harmony through things. And that part of what was going on, that felt good to you, that had a breakthrough component to it, it was almost as if behind that was something that was over the top, or needed a better understanding, in terms of how it could be from a standpoint of timing. 

And you are experiencing this quality of something shifting and moving around inside of yourself as something that had a meaningfulness to it, but also it had to be done in a way that fit in terms of a sequence of unfoldment, or the timing. So you were doing this in an outer way yesterday, and so then you took this into the dream world, and you were looking at how to catch up with, or be at a schematic of reference inside of yourself that is conducive to an unfoldment that is coming through you, and that it needs to come through in a way that is able to be received without creating a disturbance that negates a quality behind it that is important.

And so you know that there’s something behind it that is important. And you note that when it comes out in an over the top gushing way that it can’t continue like that. It can’t continue like that because there’s something about it that isn’t quite conscious, properly conscious, and when you settle back you come to notice the flickering of the timing aspect – as if that is something that is important in terms of the transmittive whole.

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Staying the Course

t182Timing is an important factor in life, and in dreams. We often may find that we feel ready for a change, and we’ll become impatient for that change to happen – even to the point where we might force things that shouldn’t be forced – just to speed things up. In such situations, if we’re paying attention, we might get a dream something like this one, where the dreamer has the desire to leave, but every direction she turns seems to point to her staying. That doesn’t mean forever, it may just be for the time being. Sometimes there’s still something left for us to learn, before the next phase begins. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So I really just remember one dream that went on a long time. In this dream, I’m living in a house with other people and, at one point, I go to visit a boyfriend who has his own apartment that’s down the street and up some stairs, and spend the night with him.

Then I come back and I’m thinking about moving out of the house to live with him, but then I become aware that the lady that’s in charge of the house has also been with this boyfriend and thinks that she’s going to move in with him. Well, this is kind of a surprise to me, so now I can’t move in with him because obviously he has this other girlfriend, too.

At the same time what this has done is thrown the whole issue of who’s living in the house into a bit of chaos. Because she believes that she’s moving out of the house now, she begins showing me parts of the house I hadn’t seen. So she shows me all the rooms, including the inner room where she lives, as though I’m going to take over the house when she leaves.

But I realize though I had been planning on leaving myself, and although I won’t leave to go live with the boyfriend now, that I don’t really want to be taking over this house that she was renting out, or that someone else owned and she was in charge of. I’m not sure how it worked, actually.

Meanwhile there’s other people that rent there, so I’m looking at their rooms or at them, too. And then there’s a family with two young girls that seems to have moved in. And these girls are really mischievous and are kind of trying to cause some problems. And, at one point, I leave the inner room and I go open a door and the girls immediately like bow down on the floor as though they’re in a mosque or something, but I know that they’re really up to some kind of mischief so I tell the kids that actually I have secret cameras all around the house and I’ve been filming exactly what they do to show to their parents – so to not try to pull all these pranks.

And that seems to stop the pranks because I don’t seem to see the kids anymore in the dream. But now I’m trying to figure out what to do because I realize, you know, from leaving the house sometimes and visiting people and then coming back, I realize that if I stay in the house you have this whole house and yard and everything to run, and I had been planning on moving out and I wanted to simplify.

And I think the lady that had been running the house was thinking that if she moved out, I would just move in. But since that’s not going to happen, I have a feeling we may all have to be leaving the house because we’re having some discussions and it feels to me like no one really wants to take over running the house the way that she did. Most of us are trying to simplify. On the other hand, that may mean that we have no one to run the house and, as I look around, I’m not sure that it’s an easy situation out in the world anymore to just go rent a space that works either. So I’m trying to figure out what it is that will work. I think that’s when I wake up.

John: Your dream has one simple theme that runs through it, and that simple theme is to “hold the course.” In other words, there’s nothing to be found in terms of going out the place, or moving out or, in other words, trying to extend into the outer. There’s nothing to be gained by doing that.

That instead you’re being kind of told, shown, caused to feel, that in spite of all of the ideas about this, or that, that the catching up or revealing comes from taking and having an overall presence in the place where you’re at.

In other words, you already know a certain degree of what is going on within the place, and that you are realizing, by the way circumstances seem to be, that there’s more to the place than meets the eye. But in realizing that there is also an uneasiness, in terms of having to sort out all of the complexities within the place, and so you can get caught in that, and trying to figure out ways to pedal that or to spin it off even. Thinking that by spinning it off that will ameliorate the uneasiness that you feel – but it won’t.

In other words, the latent driving force of wanting to make a transition, or to move out, or to shift somewhere else, that vibration is just not being supported in that it’s a want, or an interest even, so to speak, but the position you find yourself in seems to require the need to stay the course – because there are more rooms there than you realize, and things aren’t done yet, things are still in the process of balancing out. And there’s still a revealing that needs to occur.

You can’t pretend to see what you don’t see. You can feel the imbalance, but you can take it another step, in terms of your presence there, so that somehow it can resonate. So it’s kind of a dream telling you you’re situated the way you’re situated, and have to contend with what you have to contend with and, in doing so, you’ll find whatever you find, if anything. That sounds kind of dull.

Jeane: It was.

John: But the other, which seems more glamorous, in other words, the grass is always greener on the other side of the fence kind of thing, is…

Jeane: An illusion.

John: Yeah, it’s only going to get you more disoriented, because if you can’t handle where you’re at, how are you going to handle where this other is? You’ve got to have that base figured out first, and you haven’t fully owned your own space where you’re at yet.

And so it’s kind of a dream that I guess has a question behind it in terms of this, that, and the other and, as you look around, you don’t find any supporting evidence for making the transition. Your inner world does not give you any supporting evidence. It just shows you that there is still more to be revealed, and that you’re perspective about things is maybe right, and maybe wrong. I mean probably somewhat right, but you also carry a responsibility to everything that’s in this place and just because you can have an inkling about what’s going on doesn’t mean that that goes anywhere.

In other words, it does you no good to pretend, with the prankish side of yourself, that you see where it’s going and what it’s doing as if that’s going to cause something to change. It won’t change, especially not if you’re planning on leaving the house. And you’re pretending that you have an idea of what it’s about, while at the same time carrying in the back of your head this idea of being able to go somewhere else, eventually go somewhere else. In other words, you’re not accepting where you’re at, kind of having a dream that keeps going around and around to which, when you look at the facts, seems to suggest that you need to stay the course.

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