Posts Tagged ‘being connected to the inner guidance’

everything is connectedEasy to say, harder to do: we are connected to everything. What makes it hard to do has a lot to do with our inability to truly believe it is so, because if we did believe completely, letting go of our personal experience of life for a universal experience of life would be a trade we would make gladly – as everyone who has done it will attest. So, the question becomes, how deep in us, or how complete in us, is our belief? (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Well, in my dream I started out doing what I had done yesterday in my meditation dream. I went back into it. And what I had done yesterday apparently in the meditation dream that I didn’t properly fully report, or didn’t notice at the time, I’m kind of reminded of in this dream in that I had to come to the conclusion, so I go back where I had been yesterday to look for what is true.

Now what I had done yesterday that I didn’t quite report was that I had come to the conclusion that when I go back inside what I thought to be true is the opposite of what I think is true in the outer. And that somehow didn’t feel right to me, but that was kind of the conclusion. It was such a shock of what I saw back there.

And I remembered the strong sensation this left me with realizing that how I had thought things to be, the way I thought things to be for all these years, was a little off, and that what was true is kind of the opposite. So it seems I go back to take a look at that again, and I go a little deeper. And when I do I discover that what I really felt to be true is how it actually is, that the other was wrong.

So what this is saying is that you start on a process and a path in which you kind of naturally know what is true. Then you get a bunch of information that can tend and send you on tangents, kind of like what we have going on right now. And so then you come to believe that that is true – where it doesn’t quite feel right.

And then you come all the way back to the point to what you really knew deep, deep, deep down inside – and you were right at the very beginning. But, of course, there are levels to this, and so how does this apply?

So I go through three examples. One is I believe that everything that arises from within us, comes from us; that it may seem that we are affected by superiors or an energetic that is correlated to our lineage or Tariqa – and for the longest time this is true – but way back deep inside that falls away. Everything is us. We are God.

Two, that we are each God at the core of our essence. For the longest time, however, we experience life as if we are catching up with the ideal and are embodying a soul that is missing out in some capacity. That isn’t right. It’s misaligned is the better way of putting it.

Three, that when we buy into something, or when we sell something, nothing actually takes place; in other words, the actions that we do in the outer. It only seems like there is this dynamic, but on the deepest inner level the stillness still resides. The idea that there is something to sort out is nothing more than the never-ending perpetuation of some separation, or another experience as existing that we have taken in and pretend exists, that lies between who we are and God.

So that’s the meditation dream.

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quantumBeing alive raises so many questions, and one of the most mysterious is wondering what causes in us that great longing that so many of us feel in our lives. Perhaps it is the deep connection we have to our creator? But why would it be so subtle and mysterious? Because humans are neither slaves, nor robots to our creator. We have been given freedom of choice and we each must choose our service to the whole – it is not mandatory. But that doesn’t mean we aren’t given signals and whispers to show us the way. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Well you caught up with the theme, and so this is how I do the same thing, basically, but without the context of your dream.

In this dream I am looking to find a connection, an intertwined linkage, that I am able to tell is keeping things intact. I am carrying the notion that, rationally speaking, I should be falling apart and I am not. In other words, it’s like something isn’t getting worse and it should be getting worse – based upon this underlayment – as I used for your dream – that I somehow sense is there, but the outer isn’t corresponding in accordance with that, or so it seems.

But in this case there’s a reason for why it’s not, and that’s because I am connected to the other, I’m connected to this underlayment when in my dream I’m trying to act like, okay, if I can’t put my finger on it then it doesn’t necessarily mean that it exists. So under certain dictates, then, things should fall apart.

So something is there that keeps me connected. I can tell that this is so, but in the dream I can’t see how this is so. In other words, I can’t specifically give you the details. So I look and look inside. I do not seem to be able to even wake up because I’m on this expedition of having to try to see this, to find this, to touch this. I mean, I didn’t come out of this until 4 o’clock. I was really looking hard. I’m intent on figuring this out.

The way my body aches because I am in such a pitch, in other words, when I come out of this I flicker out of this at various times, maybe at 2 o’clock, 3 o’clock, 4 o’clock in the morning, and every time my neck will be just at a point where it’s like you could kink up or something. And when I move a little slightly bent and I know that, typically speaking, I should be doing harm. Your body isn’t designed to do that. And yet this is all factored into the process because of some underlayment or depth. It’s taking that into account where the body is letting go, too.

So I have the opinion that the normal way of looking at things is that what I’m experiencing physically, that I keep flickering back to and seeing the condition I’m in, it’s not like I’m dwelling upon it. I see it, but I don’t come any further out than just barely. But there is the sense that this should be unbearable, but it’s not, and I’m handling it. So that’s again evidence that there is this intangible feature at play behind all of this.

So I am reaching and reaching, in other words, I’m going to catch this inner quality, but I never do. I fail to find it. I know it exists, however, because where I have been and the condition of my body while I am there neither is possible to maintain, you can’t be cockeyed, you can’t hold a certain state beyond a particular degree naturally with the body; it requires a certain movement or something. So there must be this intangible bond at play.

The evidence for its existence is as far as I can tell circumstantial, because I’m not able to get to where I am able to see it categorically. But because of the circumstantial evidence being as astounding as it is, I have no choice but to conclude that it’s convincing enough that there is no way for me to doubt that this doesn’t exist.

What I went through has proven to me that there is an intertwined aliveness that looks after me and keeps me together even though I can’t reach it in what is for me a state of nonexistence. I’m doing my best to break this nonexistent sensation that presides somehow over how I am, put my fingertips upon it, so to speak, to prove it to be tangibly real – but I’m unable to do it.

So that’s the meditation thing, but you could see how it fits with what you’re doing because you had the underlayment.

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Rene Magritte

Rene Magritte

Here is an example of the beautiful simplicity some dreams can use to communicate. The idea of going to a seminar, or seeing a teacher, can be thought of as “knowledge” or enlightenment of a sort, and here we find obstacles in the way of reaching the event. The ice that gets in the way shows a certain rigidity and instability. Yet, in the end, help arrives in an unexpected form. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: In this next dream, it’s like I’m living in what I think of as my husband’s house that’s very large and spread out over several kind of floors, or even a half floor, where you go up a little bit into the next area.

And there’s a woman seminar leader and a friend of hers that have come, and they just need to stay for the night before they go on to the seminar. And it feels like there’ll be a man at the seminar that’s someone that I really admire, too, that’s co-leading it, that never comes in the house.

And when it’s time in the morning for them to get on their way, and I kind of want to go to the seminar, too, when we go down into the very large entryway, this whole thing is large and spread out where I live, when we get down to this large entryway it’s kind of open to the elements and ice has formed on parts of the floor.

So I kind of show, the one lady has gotten up early, the lady that leads the seminar, and I show her that the only way to get across those parts is just to kind of slide on them. I mean you just have to kind of glide across and that way you don’t fall down or slip like you would if you tried something else.

And then after she has left, I turn around and the other woman had overslept and she’s kind of wearing a midnight blue cloak, and maybe over just still her nightgown, and she’s in a hurry and again I have to show her how I think you get around the places where the ice has formed.

And she leaves, but I have a sense that even though I’m really interested, and I might like to go, that I can’t seem to leave this house.

Then just as that dream ends, a group of Macintosh apples, just like a whole bushel full of Macintosh apples, spills into the scene. And probably to me, the characteristic about Macintosh apples is that they’re both red and green, they have that kind of patchy color.

John: What the dream is saying is that there is an aspect about how your attention is as a guest, or as a host, to a flow of life, in life.

There is something about that that isn’t as connective and as fluid over the situation, that isn’t holding the situation in a hospitality, or mannerism, that is healthy, that somehow or another what you’re doing is going through some motion, but there’s something that isn’t getting released.

The apples represent the healthiness that is necessary to flood the situation. The ice represents that which, in terms of the naturalness, is restrained or held back. And when something is restrained like that, what is also lacking because of the ice is a certain casualness and joy in the heart.

So the dream is indicating that something is unhealthy, that some aspect or approach is unhealthy. Now, I’ve been sitting and pondering this sort of thing as I notice that something is breaking down that is different from what I’m used to looking at.

You have activities that draw a person’s attention, and behind those activities is the idea of something that is unfolding. Those activities, and that which one thinks is unfolding, or has been acting as if that is something that is important for purposes of an unfolding, is being shut down, is changing. And the energy is being pulled away from that.

I recognize that quality as being in the air as things are affected by what is changing. This is hitting people who aren’t able to recognize, and accept, and let go; not hitting everybody. And it’s almost like what we dreamt last night is a big gulp of having to take all of that in, in terms of how it is in our life.

So, one is having these kinds of strange sensations. Your first dream has you taking and making note of the fact that there is something trying to wake up from some depth within, that you’re not necessarily in touch with, but you try to take the bewilderment out of it by having a dream that indicates what might be workable in that scenario – only to find out that however it is that you are situated in your house, which is a good house, a good basis to work from, but you’re not effective as you would think you should be able to be, from a hospitality standpoint, because something is missing in terms of the natural flow.

So something is missing in terms of the heartfulness or the healthiness, which is a heartfulness. So the apple spill is type of release.

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