Trusting the System

1-780101There have likely been more words written, throughout human history, about spiritual and religious pursuits than about any other subject. And there’s only one reason that would be true: because we’ve lost our innate understanding, and our natural connections, to help us on our way. No form of life requires an instruction book, which is what most religious tracts actually are, because everything needed to fulfill their possibility is already born in them, is already part of their design. Perhaps, then, it is best to trust the system that created us, and to also trust the body, mind, and spirit we have been given to fulfill our birthright. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So it feels like I kind of left pondering the design I could see, of how the sewer was supposed to run, and whether people wanted to try it that way, or try it another way. And then I had a brief dream where it feels like I’m in a house, and I feel like I’m more of a visitor, but I have some laundry I have to get done.

And so I go over, and I don’t know if it’s my mother or just another woman there, or somebody else in the background, the people that live there, they’ve already put in a main load of laundry but there seems to be a little space on top of the laundry machine where I can add in some extra clothes. So I’ve kind of stuffed some clothes in there, and I guess they’re going to fall down into the laundry machine to get washed at some point. That’s the way it works with that laundry.

I also see that I can go next door, or several doors down, and that’s where my cousin and his wife are living; maybe I could try putting some clothes in the laundry down there. But I look at that scenario and then I realize, then, I’d be kind of running back and forth between even two or three houses, because there’s several other laundry machines around. It’s probably better for me to stay on the one and see if this is going to work out, or not, so I would be there to take them out when they needed to be taken out. And then it feels like I go back to looking at the four line dots, and how they get hooked up again.

John: So what you’re doing is, again, when you’re trying to take and hook up all these dots and whatnot, you’re doing something in kind of an aloneness way. And when you’re taking and you’re looking at how everything intertwines, in other words, where you can take and go out into life and play with things in an intertwined capacity, in other words, putting laundry in that all mixes up with the laundry that’s there and whatnot, the only way that you know how to do that, the only way that you can naturally do that, is if you hold a particular quality, depth note, depth space inside of yourself where that innerness is able to then flow.

You could do all of that as part of a listening to an inner flow, an inner quality, and you can take and mix the clothes up, put clothes in there and go into a very complicated scenario in which you could have your ideas about what would be an answer, just like you could have your ideas about how to play with those dots, but it’s better to have a vibratory sense and try to permeate that into the atmosphere. And when you do that, then everything can fall into an order.

You don’t have to be the person that bicycles this way and that way to figure things out. It’s not going to work that way. The human condition is important from the standpoint that the human condition is something that we embody, and that we carry, and we don’t take this human condition as if it’s off to one side and try to steer it back into things. What we do is we just accept the human condition as it is, automatically, almost like in an osmosis of the overallness. The only way to do that is to adhere to something inside one’s self that sweeps a vibration.

All of these things come together: the prayer comes together with the meditation, because you’re kind of in a constant state of prayer, you’re in a constant state of meditation, you can be in a constant state of dhikr – which is a holding of something energized. But you kind of work at those as if there’s those three things that lead to the fourth, which is the wholeness, in which all of that comes together, and so you’re going back, you’re trying to take a step back, in your dreams, to try to find your way, so to speak, in terms of how to be – and you’re not allowed to do that without getting lost.

Jeane: Then it felt like the very last dream I had, when I fell back to sleep this morning, I’m in the same section of houses, the three houses that seemed not too far from each other. And, in the main one, it feels like I’m trying to find clothes now. Maybe the clothes have been washed, but I’m trying to find some clothes to wear for where I have to go.

And then I look in different places, because some clothes have been pressed and are neat, and some clothes they look neat but they’ve been worn before, and I’m trying to decide, like some of the clothes that have been worn before they don’t need pressing, but I do know they’ve been worn and they haven’t been washed yet. But they could be put on right away, but would that be appropriate to wear to the place where I’m going? Because I have to go back to a school, or somewhere, and I’m not sure. That would be the fastest, but there’s other clothes that I have washed, but are they pressed enough? I have to go look at them, and I think that was what I was dreaming when the alarm went off.

John: So in this dream you were spending most of your time trying to figure out how to attire yourself?

All of that still is working with the same energetic motif, or vibration, of a spirit energy, in which you’re trying to ascertain or sort something out in relationship to the overall.

At one particular point it was probably a pretty interesting step to be able to see the Ley lines, or the vibration lines, and then to see the depth of things included in the overallness – and how you could delve into that. But what happened is you developed a pattern in which you didn’t just delve into that with the right vibration. In other words, it’s like which comes first, the chicken or the egg? You’ve got to hold the vibration. You’ve got to hold the sense, and then it’s all there. And so you don’t quite have the right sense, and so you’re trying to figure something out in the first dream.

In the second dream, you’re still trying to figure out how to blend the clothes together, as opposed to realizing you could just throw them in and hold a particular space and they will all come together, in other words, having a trust in terms of a quality of how it is that you’re able to feel something in a manner of reverence.

That way you’re adhering to this inner, as it is in the outer, because the outer place is it can flow, is for it to flow in. And, in the last dream, instead of you having a sense that automatically knows, that dresses according to the vibration that you automatically feel, you’re trying to steer the vibration around to help you make distinctions in relationship to what would be appropriate as an attire.

And the thing that doesn’t jar other people is when you hold the invisible quality of this vibration behind the breath, and when you hold a quality of light, or softness, of the prayer meditative state of yourself, that doesn’t jar other people. What jars other people is when you’re caught up and bicycling around in your way, as they’re bicycling around in their way.

This just kind of leaves something in kind of a general overallness that can leave them a little bewildered, because they don’t get the edification necessarily that they seek. And if you’re trying to attire yourself to what they would like to see, then you’re very close to having to appeal to the edification of what it is that they seek as well, and you’re not able to hold this quality, and this space. It’s the only real thing going on. The rest of it is all kind of a waywardness.

So what your dreams were doing was showing you how you would step back. The process that happens is we have trapped in our synapses patterns, and mannerisms, that we readily fall back upon. And you can be speeded up to a particular point, but then it can be over the top – just like it takes awhile to make a soul pregnant, or however that expression is – you then find yourself, when you take a step back, you find yourself then where you come to see where you resort to how you sort it out – as opposed to realizing that there doesn’t have to be any sorting out on your part. It’s already sorted out. You can trust in the system, so to speak.

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Getting in the Game

metionHow does the universe decide what happens next? In many cases, it’s according to a predetermined criteria. Babies are born, generally, according to a level of development. It is the same with the onset of puberty: the developing body meets a criteria of readiness, and the changes begin to happen. It is the same with our spiritual development: the universe can’t give us our next, higher, changes until we meet a criteria of readiness, meaning we have let go of the aspects of our inner life that no longer fit, and therefore block, what we are trying to be with. When we do let go, what awaits can then connect with us. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Then, in my next dream, I’m in a fairly large house. I’m visiting, and there’s a man who lives there who seems rather seductive of all the women around him, including me. His mother’s somewhere in the background, or at least another woman who has some relationship to him, and he kind of seems to go from room to room fairly rapidly. And I have the sense that I’m visiting and I’m scoping out what’s happening there.

Then there’s a shift, and I come back, and everybody’s seated at a table where they’re playing poker. At first I just observe, although sometimes people will try to hide a hand from me. He’s in charge of the game. He’s like the one who deals the cards, and passes out the chips, and supervises everything.

Well, at some point, I decide I want to play the game and that’s kind of alarming to, I guess, the women around me that know me because it’s not normal for me to be that much of a gambler. But then I have to figure out if I have enough money to get into this game. I think it takes at least $100 worth of chips or something.

Now I open up my purse and see that I do have chips in there, and then I have little containers where I might have other chips, and there’s somethings that I have taken home. I don’t know if I have enough because I have to try to sort and find out where I stashed things. And then some things are inside of other things, and then I will find some chips but I’m not sure what their value is. Some seem of higher value, and some seem like they’re just a dollar, and it feels like we want chips that are at least $5 and up.

And I know I have maybe half the amount I would need to get into the game, but I don’t know if I have all of it because I can’t figure out the denominations of some of the chips. And the game is going on around me, and I’m trying to see at what point I can get into it, and I think that’s when I wake up.

John: So what you’ve done is you’ve created a kind of above and below scenario, in which your perception of the way things are affecting you, energetically, still carries a motif of influence as if you’re having to contend with the issue. It’s as if it’s having a vampire effect upon you.

You’re failing to see that that issue is not something that is too much, but because the energetic feels to you like it haunts you, in some fashion, that takes liberties in some fashion, you are feeling overwhelmed by that, in other words, almost like vamperized by that.

So that takes and sets the condition of how it is that you’re able to conduct yourself, because with that as a deep underlying way of perceiving, vibrationally, yourself in terms of the overall, with that as a conditionality, what that means then when you have to flip the coin over to put what you are aware of consciously, or to put a consciousness that flows through you, into action, as if this is an action now that is lived out in existence, because of a bias perception that you have that is inclined to not see what this overallness is all about, in terms of its beingness that isn’t vampirish, but is you. But because you see it that way, you’re not able to fully come down and be grounded in the game of life.

And so no matter how you try the same essence, when taken into the physical, because the game is now created, in other words, first it was an essence coming down into you, and now that essence has been reformulated into something that’s created, called the game of life, that you just don’t have the chips, you just don’t have what is needed, because you have a reaction, an energetic reaction, that isn’t quite totally letting go – or able to totally let go. And if it were able to totally let go, then you would be acting and functioning from a state of true freedom, a true emptiness, a true non-beingness, a pure energetic essence.

And that pure energetic essence then, in a manifestation, would have a connection and a flow, that connection and flow being represented by the chips – or what is made available to your hand – you would have all that you could possibly require naturally there.

But these two inner and outer images work hand-in-hand. The reason why the flip side of the coin can’t be that way in the outer is because, on an inner awareness level in terms of how you’re feeling yourself and seeing yourself, you still have some sort of perceived oppression. In other words, instead of seeing something that leaves you totally free, and is an overall essence that can come down and through you, you instead see it as something that you are having to contend with, that is vampirish yet, as opposed to totally free – meaning you haven’t totally let go. You’re not totally embracing that which can come through you and, therefore, you cannot act in a way that you could be conducting yourself in the game of life, which would be the inner into outer. That isn’t able to be possible. That’s quite a dream.

So, when you put that dream back into the matrix of things, what you end up with is in that dream you are shifting and having to take in something more, but still are doing that in a type of limitation which isn’t totally free. In other words, it still is affected. Maybe it’s affected in a new way, but it is still affected.

And in the second dream what you’re doing is you’re showing, you’re revealing, that what you’re taking in is still biased in some fashion, contaminated. It isn’t clear and clean. You still have qualms about it, in other words, as if in the first dream that other is there to the degree that it is because, from the second dream, there is still some sort of qualms that you have, vampirish, or conditional, or however it is. And, as a result, your viability and functionality in the outer, because there’s only the inner flowing into the outer, and you haven’t caught up with the fullness, the total completeness, of the inner flow, which would take you into an emptiness, a non-beingness, you’re still holding out – and therefore you don’t have access to all of your chips as you play the game of life.

When you’re still struggling to find your chips in the game, you’re still acknowledging something, which means you’re still creating a defense mechanism to what is trying to flow freely into you. And you’re taking it in as vampirish, and thus, even though in the first dream you have made a shift, it still isn’t complete. There’s still an element of beingness that has come in. It might be a greater beingness, it might be able to take in more, it was something that is important to who you are, yet is something that you had hidden, or something that had been hidden, that you’re now able to open up to, but within that there is still limitations, and therefore still a kind of collateral outer effect which has been portrayed, in the second dream, in that you don’t quite have all of the essence chips at your disposal, the inner essence chips.

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No Differentiation

Spiral ProfileIt can be difficult to grasp the concept that everything is a oneness, or to actually experience that feeling in everyday life. But what that concept is trying to bring into our consciousness is that, to make a spiritual journey, we must shift our allegiance from having a connection and responsibility to external events, to having that connection and responsibility to what is happening energetically, both within us and around us. When we are in such a location we can still live our lives, yet we are with the flow of energy rather than separate from it. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I had three dreams. In the earliest dream, what I remember of it, is it felt like we were sitting in a large space – such as where we sat down before the fountain yesterday – except the space is empty of people. And there are these thin canals that run through that space.

And it feels like I’m focused on an area near the end of the canals where there’s just a slab or something across it, that’s blocking the flow right now, because I have to look at like when I remove these blocks where I want that flow to go. I don’t know whether it’s water, or it’s just energy, but I’m kind of studying it out about where to have the flow go when I remove the blocks – because they can kind of go right, or left, or we can kind of direct it.

So I’m just studying all of that out, and that dream has a kind of very expansive feel to it.

John: So what you’re doing in this dream is you’re taking the scenario of a letting go, which is where one can come and just disappear in the midst of the comings and goings that are all around us, absorbed in the sound of the universe, which is kind of like being able to just sit in the rushing water of things. In other words, let that just be as a quality that pulls all of your attention away from, and out of, everything around you.

You are taking that as a natural, overall inner effect. It’s like you’re weighing it, on the one hand, and then on the other hand you’re trying to denote, as if you’re trying to understand, as if you’re trying to explain, or work out, a means upon which this is something that can be readily always done. And you’re finding that whatever it is that you look at is differentiated, and when it’s differentiated there are issues, and obstacles, and blockages.

And that you’re comparing it like this, or you’re looking at this, it’s kind of like a scale thing, meaning a weighing of things, as if you can take and use an emptiness to weigh, or penetrate, a something that’s going on, instead of realizing that the emptiness, and the stillness, doesn’t exist when there is any kind of differentiation, or an attempt to catch up with what it’s about.

So what you’re doing is you’ve got a state of letting go, a state in which a stillness exists, a state in which everything around you has no effect upon you, a state where you just go somewhere. And then you have the question mark that still exists, in relationship to yourself in the outer, in terms of: how do you flow, and where the blockage is, and how is that to be understood?

And that part is always going to go around and around, and will never be able to figure anything out, because it is coming from a perception that is based upon there being things that are differentiated, or that you differentiate a finding of yourself within the differentiations. And as long as you are inclined to use this sort of mental linear way of scoping, you will never just completely fall into an overallness that is you.

In other words, the dilemma that one finds themselves in is that their senses take and want to be engaged, and need to be understood, and when they’re quiet for awhile, or still for awhile, as soon as they come out of their stillness they try to catch up with what took place – and it never can happen.

We let go because everything that was around us was and became us. We went into the stillness of that. When you go into a stillness in such a way, everything then that comes by is touched. It’s touched in some subtle, subtle way. When you are in a state of froohah in your nature, you are infusing and projecting that, that differentiation, as if it’s real. You’re projecting that into the whole.

But when you’re in a state of a stillness, where you let go of everything and everything goes into an emptiness, and a quietness, well, in that particular case it was like we were in a state that was like a meditation in which 45 minutes went by as if it was five minutes.

So what your dream is doing is, it’s kind of like doing a left hand in a right hand way on an inner level, and the reason for a dream like that is for you to recognize, vibrationally speaking, the importance of the innerness in relationship to the outerness being something that spirals back to its essence – and that essence is you.

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