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avalancheReading a book that has an avalanche in it, before sleep, triggers a dream with that same avalanche. Seems simple, and the symbolism of it is: something is buried or hidden that the dreamer wants to unearth, or make more conscious in themselves. What’s interesting is how often the most literal interpretation of a dream image can reveal what it is trying to show. Is what is hidden buried by a rug, or a blanket, or even a light snowfall? In this case it’s an avalanche, which points to the overwhelming feeling that is being experienced. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Well, my dreams last night were influenced a bit. I’m reading nonfiction book about a man from Montana that used to kayak and ski across like parts of Siberia and have encounters with the people that live there that raise reindeer. He does all this high-risk stuff and then he goes home to Montana and goes skiing and his wife is killed in an avalanche.

And so, in my dream I’m trying to find out if his wife being killed in an avalanche is an accident or if someone caused it. And so I seem to be pondering that in the first part of the dream. Just kind of looking at how the avalanche happened, or if it could have been caused by somebody. And that’s the first dream.

John: So, you’re plagued, or haunted by this situation, where this avalanche came and covered something up or killed this guy’s wife. The nature of the dreaming was to leave one in a heavy, weighted, vibed out, pressurized, sorting-out barrier, which is very groggy because one seems very overwhelmed with having to understand or bring out something that is hidden.

And there’s a meaning behind why some incident happens and it’s meant to awaken something, but it can also send you into a groggy state where you spin and you spin, as if it’s a mystery, or you’re veiled from being able to figure it out.

But when you have a condition like this, what happens is the huge stupor you go under, as a result of going around and around, it’s like a type of reverbing inside of yourself that just makes you denser and denser, or more groggy and more groggy. That’s there because you’re doing your best and not succeeding in getting something that you’re meant to catch up with to come through. A part of yourself is buried, and you feel compelled to catch up with that which is hidden or buried.

Now, this inertia inside, to understand this, to grasp it, is usually something that you are able to handle in a certain, controlled way. In other words, you’re able to keep it in check. But in this particular case it plagues you, it haunts you, to understand something that you feel you need to understand.

And this haunting that you have has to do with having awakened something on the inner, at a depth inside of yourself, and then you find that whatever it is that you’ve awakened, you may have speeded something up in terms of a kundalini energy that reverbs inside to try to understand it but, by and large, you’re not quite able to get there, to uncover what is buried, to understand the mystery of what it is that you’re meant to know—a responsibility, a mannerism that you’re meant to awaken.

And so, on the inner level, you come close enough to it, but you struggle to bring it the rest of the way through and bring it through. But in the grogged outer level, you’re left in a condition that’s awkward, and impinged, because all you’re doing is finding yourself in a great stupor, because you’re not close to making it known. And it has this heavy barrier on it.

Well, what I’ve come to realize is, whenever something is moving, whenever there’s this movement afoot, to have to realize or recognize something about the inner quality, that this, when it rises up, tends to be a bit out of the normal sequence and flow that you’re accustomed to.

And when it rises up like that, there’s an exciting energy that springs up and rises with it, that feels like almost an increased awareness in consciousness. But when the other doesn’t quite come through, you also then feel that you’ve let something down. You haven’t resolved it.

In other words, we’re on a path in which part of the awakening can even seem like you go into a deeper grog, almost as if it is a bit much. Because you can’t just spin and spin and spin, and not uncover. You have to get it to break through. If you don’t get it to break through, and you spin and spin and spin, you reverb and reverb, you kind of do a number to yourself and you fall back into a thicker, comatose state.

But as you flush a little of something of an inkling through, as you gain a sense of what it is that’s meant to be, that tends to feed on itself. But when you’re not making any headway and you’re meant to be able to figure it out, and the kundalini energy is astir to compel you to have to catch up with something and you don’t, then you experience this huge, groggy condition that plagues you. It haunts you, it sits there in the back of your nature, noodling you to get to the bottom of it.

And it works a little bit like whenever you have something that you feel you absolutely have to do and you keep procrastinating in doing it, that slowly carrying that becomes a burden because, you know, you have to do that and you can’t quite settle back until you confront and you do that.

And so, there’s the feeling of this almost disempowers you because you’re not flowing with it. And you develop this whole idea that it’s really, really difficult, and yet as soon as you start to do it, you amaze yourself at how easy it is to do.

Well, that’s what it’s like when something has gotten near enough in one’s nature so that it causes leakage to come across but, because it may be such an about face, or a change, or a shift, that we’re not readily accustomed to making because we’re used to things being at a slower, more gradual pace, and that this has more of a breakup effect into a whole other set or sequence of realizations or orders inside of one’s self. It’s not a step you readily make.

You have part of yourself that veiled that, that attempt to keep you grogged out for your own well being. But the problem is you have got the kundalini energy, you’ve got this kicking around inside. It’s a miserable condition to wake up from because all you can say about it is, you’re beating on a threshold for something to awaken and you haven’t got a hold of it yet, so it leaves you strung out.

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Force-Of-NatureIn this conversation between John and Ann, the territory of spiritual development is discussed. When one is on the spiritual path, the changes that occur on an inner, energetic, level begin to radiate outward. Other people may sense this new energy unconsciously, yet depending on their own openness, the energy can either awaken something in them, or it can cause an allergic reaction to the more potent processes at play. Navigating these changes can test of a person’s resolve to stay on the path. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Have you been having good energetics in the morning?

Ann: Oh my goodness yes. It’s just incredible. Last week when you mentioned the shift, oh my goodness.

John: The thing about the energetics that one has in the morning is: do you ever feel like you are getting too carried away, like you’re on speed, too animated about things?

What do you think about that when you get like that?

Ann: Sometimes I think: what is that all about?

John: Are you okay being like that?

Ann: Umm, for the most part, but when I catch myself being way too speeded up it’s like there’s sort of an in-between state there, but when I’m too speeded up sometimes I’m usually okay with it, but then sometimes I have to just sit and relax a little bit and bring the energy down a little bit.

John: What you’re doing is you’re pulling it down and grounding it, and when you’re speeding up what you’re doing is you’re tending to get a little bit transcendent, or out of body, with the soul.

And so when you get a little ungrounded or out of body with the soul you tend to… you have an energetic speed and effectiveness and it’s something that is intriguing to others, but it’s something that you have to be a little bit careful of because around people that are denser, or have a more limited world, or are stuck in the need of power and control, you’re apt to ruffle feathers very quickly.

Ann: And lately it’s like it’s really happening with people around; I’ve seen that.

John: That’s kind of why it’s said that you kind of get to a point, if you’re not grounding yourself and bringing it down, you’re going to get to kind of a point where you’re going to develop maybe new friends, and alienate the older ones that are used to you – because you can’t be like that anymore like you used to be.

Luckily, I think it’s slow enough, and subtle enough, that it’s generally not that dynamic a principle of being that harsh, and it’s more along the lines where one buys the belief or illusion, that in the speeded-up sense that you’re at, that you can communicate this across to others.

You can go on that treadmill for a long, long time, until you realize that people are just lilting in the energetic that you are carrying in a speeded-up way. They learn that they only create anxiety with themselves when they fight it.

They know that they can’t readily accept it as them, but they know it’s not untrue because their body tells them it feels okay. But what it does is, to the degree to which you’re affected and communicating like this, you’re stimulating the etheric and you’re stimulating the unconscious in them, and often times you can make their world miserable for them and not even realize it, because you quicken something before they’re ready to be quickened with it.

And yet how can you be any other way? Now the problem is, if you’re yourself, and you’re doing this, what generally happens is you tend to take it on yourself in a self-conscious way, and you figure oh, I have to tone it back, I have to deaden it, I have to go slower, I have to become a little… you need to cloud yourself a little bit, shut down the animation and the speed.

When you do that then you get poisoned, because now you’re agreeing to go along with the lowest common denominator, so that doesn’t quite work. And so what happens is you’re animated in the morning, and then you find yourself having to comport with the environment that you’re in, and by afternoon you can be a complete idiot again. And then every day it’s like that and then you sit there and you will say, why am I throwing away this energetic?

And you are throwing it away because you are feeling that to live this, you’re doing something unnatural – and yet you’re being your natural self.

Ann: Isn’t that interesting how that works?

John: When you are in an acuity like this, you often times have senses of things that may or may not be quite true, in terms of your understanding of say something scientific or something, but on an energetic level, it is true. That’s why there were things that the teacher used to say that weren’t exactly always true, but on an energetic level, the vibration that she was in, was entirely true.

That’s why there are stories that are told, like the training that Moses went through with Khidr, where Khidr did all kinds of things that were, from an outward perspective, really wrong, and yet on a vibrational level it was what was important. The outer appearance was not meaningful, nor the detail necessarily was not absolute in any regard. It was just kind of like something that lilts across in relationship to the space that you’re in.

But the space that you’re in is what is real and that’s what needs to be heard. So if the space you’re in is such that it violates the space of someone else who’s more nailed down in their being, then you’re going to create lots of commotion and turmoil.

Where you will make something dangerous for yourself is if you happen to confront somebody who is fearful, because in their fear they may then take whatever it is that you’re doing, without saying anything, treat it as the enemy, and start taking defensive postures against it so that they don’t have to face something in themselves that they’re not ready, or able, to face – and that is a kind of ignorance.

Generally speaking though they just walk away from you. Generally the people you know are good people and they just realize okay, okay, okay out of my politeness, meaning them talking to themselves, rather than get all worked up about it, which is what they would have to do because you have gone and you’ve tripped something in their unconscious; they’ll just get up and walk away.

That’s what this new energy, you’ve got to be careful with, because this new energy coming in lends itself to a way of alienating yourself from others, because you can so easily blow them away and you can maybe perhaps get to the idea, okay, this is the way I’m going to be, and then if you’re like that, then you’re a wrecking machine in terms of how others bounce away from you, or bounce off of you, and have to maintain their motif so as to not be penetrated.

It’s kind of similar, if you think, to the principle of how meditation works. It’s a little bit along those lines. When you first start meditating your meditations are miserable because it’s garbage that’s coming up – and more so than usual because you’re giving things permission to be like that.

So then when you reach a certain freedom, and you start exuding that freedom, on an energetic vibrational level, now you become a force of nature that is doing this to others, right out in the open, no meditation involved. You’re bringing something straightaway right into life.

So what happens is a lot of people then get to thinking that they have got to be a bit transcendent. Instead of bringing it down, they have to be more transcendent, and if you get more transcendent you can take yourself out of life, and you could become something that’s not relatable by others, because you are not finding the intertwined similitude that goes beyond the appearances of the physical.

You’re not submitting yourself to finding that, to touching that; paying the price of whatever that is. So the more you can be in the physical, the more grounded you can be, the more you can carry across this transcendent state, which is like the statement now of, feet on the ground head, in the heavens, or something.

You can actually marry those two states as a Oneness.


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spectral-double-spiralHere we continue the discussion begun yesterday in The Rules Have Changed, which described an energetic shift that has taken place on the planet. The nature of this shift can be felt by us in whether we feel flat, or elated? Are we disconnected because we are focused only on our personal issues, or are we connected because we are acting in relationship to the greater Whole? (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: There are parts of me that are just sore now, just sore… but when I try to communicate that out of my excitement to others, I leave them in a bit of a trance. Like I went to the dream group, and I shared this dream, and I’m realizing I have to be careful now in terms of sharing dreams, because within the dreams there is a potency of light or whatever, a quality, in other words, the deeper symbolism of the dream, to the degree to which that can be carried across and it being something that someone isn’t necessarily acute to, you’ll actually tear them down.

And when I shared it with the dream group, I was shocked. I was shocked. I was sending people reeling left and right when they wanted to kind of understand more about it, and I was explaining it, and then those that I would have normally, in my judgment nature, would have been kind of not expecting them to be grasping much, and would have kind of somewhat screened out, gosh, they were with it 100%.

I was impressed. I was impressed. Those that I thought should have been fine, weren’t, and those that I would have never anticipated, got it, were recusing themselves really, really well.

Now, what I also know, and see, is a capacity of something that is happening now that I never realized was something that I was capable of being able to be part of. In other words, it’s like if I do something, if I say something, if I’m relating to somebody, I expect a here-and-now response.

In other words, I expect a certain kind of feedback of relatability or understandability. But now I’m realizing that as long as I’m true to whatever it is that I’m fetching, that the effect doesn’t have to be something that I have to absolutely be able to put my finger upon.

Because of the way things are intertwined, I actually touch something inside of them, and then what I touch I go back and take responsibility for. If I threw something off, I feel it, so I carry it. I carry it within, and I am actually transforming, or healing it, in this kind of way, so to speak, not really, of course. It’s just a way of saying it, because things are intertwined.

However it was that I threw something a little askew, I pick up on that which has been thrown a little askew, but to the degree to which I mirrored something, that mirroring something works almost in kind of a prima materia catalytic way, and is sorting itself out.

And maybe they come to understand it, or grasp it, or get it a month later, six weeks later, the next day after a good night’s sleep. But if I base what I’m doing on what I’m seeing right in front of me, I would never do it.

So this is a type of recognizing, or I should say honoring, not recognizing, honoring the quality of my own soul, and trusting that in relationship to the world’s soul.

So you can allow yourself to make a commotion or to disturb something, and then you take responsibility for it. If you feed something that enlivens or creates an aliveness, so that something more that is designed and someone can come out or start and have a better way of coming out, it just really, really makes you vibrate.

It doesn’t mean that it’s coming, that it happens, but if it’s given a chance, it feeds you. It feeds you. In other words, you then monitor that from some quality inside. You don’t really realize you’re monitoring it. All you know is that some part of you is feeling good, and is in a kind of elated way, and that elated way corresponds to something that had been bottled up being able to spring free.

You can go along and, all of a sudden, the precursor to how you feel this new energy, which is a little bit from the standpoint that you’re going along and all of a sudden you start to feel flat, or dead, when you had been feeling good – that’s because you disturbed something and created a kind of confusion.

That confusion, based upon how everything is intertwined, you’re picking up on that. Or if it’s confusion in the outer, it is more than what you’re capable of taking into account – you’re picking up on that, and it is swallowing you a bit, and it is veiling you a bit, and creating a blur.

You have to get to a point where you hold the pristineness, kind of like the story of the guy, the sheik or whatever, that went to a funeral. And then this person comes to meet the sheik, and he’s talking to the sheik’s wife at the house and she explains, “My husband went to a funeral” and so the guy that’s coming there has never met the sheik before says, “Well how will I recognize him?” “Well, you will recognize him because when he leaves, he’ll be the only one that’s still carrying a light above his head,” or in other words a certain quality.

The others will have gotten caught up in the situation and the moods and mannerisms of the situation will pull them down, but he will be able to have not only transcended that, but he’ll be upholding something because he has gone through all of that and the intertwinedness of things doesn’t throw him around in the bewilderment like it does everyone else.

So there is one central rule that makes this work. The central rule is that it gets brighter and brighter, it gets more and more acute, it comes out louder and louder – this quality inside that’s changed – when you work outside of yourself, when you do something for the betterment of something else, and you figure out how to do it in relationship to a quality of yourself that you may have, left to your own devices, approach very, very personally, but now know how to flip it in a way so that it feeds the greater Whole.

If you start doing that, it’s unbelievable how this affects you.


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