Aglow in the Dark

John: This dream uses a very bizarre image to make an interesting statement.

In this dream a woman, who has passed away, is so regal that she glistens in death.

The community in which this takes place has never seen anything like this before, so they don’t know exactly what to do in this situation. The body, however, is not allowed to go through the normal funeral procedure because the locals interfere.

Everybody is dazzled by the natural beauty that emanates from the dead body; a few people step in to lay claim to the wealth. The locals, however, don’t realize that this is a wealth that mortal hands are not able to claim. The reason the body glistens like gold is because of an inner quality that has survived death, which still emanates like a shadow force. 

I know that the body is not made of real gold, but it appears that way to common eyes, or to the novice, unable to recognize that at death the inner beauty can still radiate. This particular body radiates so much that it’s mistaken for something of material value in the outer world.

What’s not understood is that the inner has come into the outer, and that the rules of the outer have nothing of value to add to such a process. In other words, it’s blasphemy for the outer world to lay claim to something it lacks the consciousness to understand.

In the dream, I find myself blown away by the sight of this body. No matter what position it lays in, the body emanates a radiant glow. If it’s rolled over, or turned from end to end, it makes no difference. The radiance comes through.

This makes no sense to the casual observer who thinks that they have an insight or say in what transpires, for no other reason than that the body passed away right before their eyes in their community.

The meaning here is that the outer world doesn’t pay proper attention to what’s right in front of them until it’s too late. The dream is saying that humans, on the whole, don’t recognize when they are in the presence of higher essences. The inner truths of life continue to elude us.

In the dream the local people, where the woman has died, see her beautiful radiation only in terms of its material potential; they see only that it may somehow benefit them in the physical world. But the radiation itself speaks of the wealth that’s available, to all of us, on the inner plane.

That people only see the special quality of the woman (the feminine) after she has died, speaks to the idea that we, as a species, recognize what is important when it’s already too late. When the inner comes into the outer, it is but a reflection of the truth, yet even then can go unnoticed and unrecognized. Mortal eyes see it only in a mortal way; that’s how it is when the veils remain.

The inner can only truly be seen and experienced when the essence that shines through is taken in, or understood, in a non-outer way. Generally, our brains and our senses dominate our experience of the world around us, taking in stimuli and trying to quickly sort it out according to established criteria.

The inner operates at a higher speed, yet in a way we need to slow down to perceive the truth of other levels of reality. When the brain and senses are fully engaged in the ego perspective of life – the idea that everything happens to “me” – rather than recognizing that we are all a part of something much bigger, it is the living who are already dead.

Fully in Life

John: What is really interesting about your dream yesterday is that a part of you knows that everything that happens to you is an opportunity to sustain and hold onto this “note,” something that you already have inside you.

If we watch ourselves closely we see that we can be in a certain place within ourselves, yet if the phone rings or something new happens, we get an initial rush and lose that state inside. If the person on the phone is not someone we want to talk to, then we get this feeling of dullness and we have lost the note we were holding.

When that happens you are losing the ability to carry the note through into all the things you are doing. That is where you want to be in yourself, not adjusting and accommodating every “difference” you encounter, but radiating the note inside of you into everything you do.

When you can do that, you do not have all these different “breaths,” there is only one breath. There is one breath in your whole lifetime. But when you cannot do that, everything external to you has its effect on you. In the dream you are trying to meet this man, and the other man turns up. But because he is not what you expected, you move away from him to keep searching.

So the man that turns up is read by you as a distraction, but he’s really not – he’s the one you are seeking, but he appears different from what you’ve imagined.

So you’ve cut yourself off from what you were looking for. It happens automatically with the breath – immediately, simultaneously – as soon as something doesn’t “fit” in the way you want it to fit. So instead of holding the note inside, and being of one breath  – which is the simple cycle of creation where everything that exists is all part of one thing – you end up fragmented and separated, and tossed around by what you encounter in life.

None of this separation needs to happen. What can appear to be a nightmare situation doesn’t have to be if you recognize it as a dialogue between the outer world and your inner world. You can’t limit the dialogue to what you are expecting, you have to relate to whatever comes your way.

In other words, when you step from an environment that is comfortable, into an environment that is uncomfortable, we usually begin to make accommodations and adjustments. The first adjustment is with the breath. That adjustment is an act of shutting something off, rather than being able to gently recognize that this is a dialogue.

A sudden change in the temperature is saying something to you. A phone call from someone you don’t want to talk to is saying something to you. The appearance of a man you are not expecting is saying something to you. The thing is to hold the inner note – don’t be dislodged by what comes – carry that inner note through, from you, into what you come upon and have to relate to in life.

Very, very interesting. If, in a dream, you see yourself cutting off different avenues that you are heading down, then you are maintaining a separation between the external and the internal. In psychology, that’s called subrogation, i.e., replacing one thing with another (one man for another in your dream).

I used to get furious at myself when I first recognized this and didn’t know how to do anything about it. I would experience some wonderful energetic, but it wouldn’t be sustainable by me because every little thing would disrupt it. I would be swept along by every new situation.

I consider this a kind of blasphemy. If I’m having this wonderful experience, and yet I throw it aside at the first sign of something else, then I’m truly making a mockery out of what is given and awakened inside.

Well, we all go through this. The point is you can still have all the ups and downs of the experiences in life, and still hold that note. We are meant to be fully in life, as it is.

The Fourth Level

Jeane: In this dream, all the characters are male. There is a big, tall guy with bully-type energy; he’s heavy set. He is the right-hand man for someone who is like Jerry Falwell – someone who is fooling the public, in this case to do with business. Then there is an 11-year-old boy with whom the large guy is pretending to be friends. And finally there is a small man, a Jackie-Chan type, who knows martial arts, and he is a good guy.

At some point the 11-year-old becomes aware of the scheme that is being pulled on society by the older guys. I get the feeling that he has put all his information into a book; he is carrying the book and some kind of statistical manuals.

The big guy becomes aware of this and begins chasing the kid to get the books. He realizes that the information can’t get released to the public.

The chase seems to go on all over the place. I don’t remember everything about it, but it goes through a new construction site, and there was a cow, wet concrete, all kinds of things.

The 11-year-old is just trying to get the information to the martial arts guy, whom he trusts. He knows that once he hands it off, the other guys cannot take it back.

It seems as though, at one point, the boy tries to hide it and the big guy pretends to be a friend to get the information. While doing this, the big guy grabs the book right before the kid can get it to the martial arts guy.

At that point, the big guy takes the book back to his boss and they are going to go on with their scam. But when he looks back at what the boy is doing, he sees that he has gone to the martial arts guy and pulled from under his shirt the statistical manual.

The manual is covered in white plastic and they tear that open. It is only then that the scammers realize that what they thought was a statistical manual actually is the material that will reveal everything, and the martial artist and the kid have it.

John: This dream is a wild scenario that shows various energetics that somehow lack a tangibility – they resist being nailed down in concrete terms. In this swirl of energy is all of life. There is a struggle going on to try to maintain the images, or some image.

Images in a dream are a type of energy that forms into a density, into something of substance. Because you are seeing a swirl of images, you are left trying to make sense out it. In other words you are back to the drawing board.

So, in a effort to try to make some sense out of it, you formulate the image of the book. It is like the book of creation, from which something can be drawn. This is your way of saying that by going back to the root of understanding, you can move back out from there and try to make better sense of things – an understanding that is not a scam.

The deeper essence of this dream is that if you can go back to where you exist as a swirl of energies, where you don’t see yourself as separate from creation, you can then be directly connected to the energetic and its potentiality. You are in a place where the images are yet to be formed. Somehow or other, this is all associated with a Divine plan, or the book.

Jeane: Yes, because it is wrapped in white and carried close to the heart.

John: But the sense of this book is that it’s not separate from who you are – it is who you are, too. It is the merest of substances that you’re able to grasp. It has the overallness of the container, as well as the nothingness.

It is similar to what has been described as the four levels of dreaming. The first level is very fundamental, recognizing that there is something not real about life; there is an illusion aspect to it.

The second level is where you can recall that you dream, but you have no idea what you are dreaming or what the dream means. This describes another state of illusion, different from the state of the first level, yet still an illusion.

In the third level you are beginning to grasp that there is something behind the dream. You begin working with the symbolic imagery to intuit or glimpse what is real that inflects from behind the dream image.

The fourth level is where you do not even have the dream image, you just have the energetic. This state touches upon the concept of being able to say that you are God, like the Persian mystic Al-Hallaj announced, which is the epitome of blasphemy because nothing is like that in a physical existence – it is only like that if you are in a world in which there is no form and there is nothing but energetic.

So you dreamed this energetic as an overallness. I suppose that is the more feminine way of doing it, to be able to just sit and let all of that be something that permeates outward. You are at that point of nothingness, in an energetic way.