Forces from Within

The unconscious is a powerful force, but it should not be seen as a dark and dangerous place – although images that arise from it can appear that way in our dreams. These images are telling us a story about us, and about our relationship with ourself. When a new aspect of our inner life is awakened, or re-awakened, it can seem as though it is a bomb about to go off. Yet perhaps that speaks to a level of suppression and resistance rather than any intrinsic danger of what is arising. Sometimes it is our responses to things that reveals to us the most about our inner processes. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So I had this long dream. In it, I seem to have a house that’s like one of the very first houses we lived in, that sits back. And then next door to it, a young man that I met in college that I went out with, is living with his mother, and maybe a brother.

And the setting is more stark than it actually was in real life. Between the two houses is a little hut, a little storage unit. It feels like at first I come from where I come from, which is more to the left somewhere where I seem to actually be staying because I must come down and check on the house. And it feels like I’m going out with him. 

But first in almost a playful way he constructs something that’s in this little hut between the two houses, he constructs something on the floor that I deconstruct, but I realize it actually could be a bomb. But I seem to know how to deconstruct it without setting it off. It’s almost like he thinks it’s a joke or something, but I know it’s also a bomb. 

Well, at first this is kind of playful, but then it seems like it becomes less playful; it’s a real bomb. I still seem to be able to deconstruct it; I deconstruct it again because it would blow up the old house as well as his house. But then what had been playful before becomes serious and wicked looking, more metallic bomb that I don’t know quite how to deconstruct that one. I have a feeling I might be able to do it, but it would be very tricky. 

And he comes and stops me from doing it and takes me to his house and locks me in the back room. Well, at this point, I’m not sure what to do, because I might be able to deconstruct it, but if anything disturbed it everything would be blown up. And then I think about, what can I do? Well, if I call the bomb squad, I’m not sure how much it would really blow up. But I realize that could actually be irresponsible because if they don’t know what they’re doing, they’re just gonna make it worse. 

So then I find a way to break out of the back door of his house. So now I figure you know I might just have to try to get as much distance as I can between me and what may blow up. But he finds out and he starts chasing me. 

Well, I feel like I can get ahead of him, I have a really good head start, and I’ve gone down through the town, I’ve gone down to a little canyon area, I figure if I can get across this area and across the water to the other side I’ll be okay. But one of the problems is we have this little dog, and she’s been following me and she’s old now. So she can only follow me so long, and then I have to pick her up. Especially when I get to the water, it feels like I’m gonna have to carry her, and he’s found a paddleboard or something so I feel like he’s gonna catch up with me. 

So I have to let myself go out into the current, because I’m trying to save me and the dog at this point. It’s kind of gone down into an area, but I don’t know if it’s going to actually go over a dam, so I have to kind of divert us a little because I really just can’t leave the dog to her own fate. And I don’t know how much of the town he’s going to blow up if this goes off. It feels like that’s when I wake up.

John: Well, the interesting part of the dream starts with your old house. And it’s a place that you don’t really carry a present day memory or association or connection with, as far as you know, other than that it is something in your distant memory past. 

That’s an assumption that you shouldn’t be making. The reason why that old house is there is because the pattern upon which you’ve unfolded is meaningful. The pattern which you have unfolded in the outer tells its own story. And, in that story, in the way something has unfolded over the course of time, there is something that is revealed there, in terms of that, that indicates the responsibility and a quality in terms of how you are and who you are. 

Now, because that is so old or ancient or took so much time or is so far in the past, you’re not inclined to recognize that it is all reflective of something more, something at a great depth. However, because you went through this, and were there, this has caused you to develop a sort of understanding or recognition. The recognition you’ve developed is that if something that is unconscious goes off that it will destroy everything. 

So you are finding yourself in a situation in which that unconsciousness can possibly wake up. And the go-between or in-between is this little hut. And when you come to know that that little hut, that things are going on between what you went through ages and eons ago in terms of development and understanding, and where you’re at right now, that in that little hut, something is coming into focus that has to do with making the situation bigger. It causes the blow up, in which the situation is bigger than who you are. 

And yet, you’re required to fix it. In other words, you can’t call the bomb squad, you’re required to fix it. And yet you can’t fix it, given your current condition, because you also have the responsibility of making sure that you don’t hurt anything. In other words you’ve got the old dog that has to be taken care of. Plus your means of moving about to try to cause something to break free, you just don’t seem to have the acuity tools to make it happen. But you are shown that the whole process involves following a flow, a guidance of a flow. And if you can get into that flow, then you can maintain an unfoldment, you can start working with an unfoldment. At least work with the unfoldment to the point where you blow yourself up in another way if you go off the edge of a waterfall. 

So the theme of the dreaming last night had to do with being able to realize that everything about oneself, and what one has done, is meaningful. If you go back and you take and you look at that, you can see that as if that’s all a type of dream. Something has changed as a result of an inner awakening understanding so that you can go back and you can pull all of that together and say, oh, okay, that’s what’s been going on. 

Or, another way of saying it, that you’ve been under the guidance and influence of forces from within all along – you just didn’t know it. And now you’re getting to a point where you can recognize how something is interconnected and intertwined over the space of time. And in doing so you’re seeing how something that may have occurred over the course of a lifetime, or a prior time or whatever, is meaningful in the here and now.

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In the Game

downloadSometimes it’s very settling to understand how to read the images in our dreams, because when a dream has terrorists trying to blow a place up, a young girl being found dead, and the game of baseball, it could be easily mistaken for stress or insanity and leave a person upset all day. Images such as these are called “loud” dreams because they intend to grab our attention, because of how important the message is to us, not as a way to scare us. Haven’t we ever raised our voice to make a point? So it is in our unconscious process, where we can be shown the status of our current struggle. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I only remember one dream last night. In this dream, again I’m an adolescent girl. I’m with a group of other adolescent girls and boys, and we seem to be underground in kind of a cave-like area under a city, and we’re there because we seem be being tutored by a group of terrorists who are actually planning on bombing something at some point, we think. And, of course, unbeknownst to the terrorists, most or all of us are actually trying to figure out what their target is so that we can either stop it or report it.

Now one girl, she kind of sees on something kind of the side of a red sign, or a picture of a red sign, that’s like in a field or something, so that she’s beginning to put together the information and finding out what the target is.

And they take us one day to actually watch a baseball game, in a nice suburb where we can actually get there. We can get to a room kind of under the stands from our cave structure. And we can see the baseball game being played by a bunch of adolescents. And part of me figures out that that baseball field is probably the target that they’re going to blow up.

And a lot of doctors’ kids kind of are playing baseball there. It’s an upscale place, and then I go back in the cave structure and I find that this one girl that had figured out where the target was and was going to report everybody, I find her body hidden behind some rocks, in a cavern, dead. I know she figured it out, and they must’ve figured out she was going to report it.

So then I’m thinking that I have to figure out now how to get the information out, because I’m pretty sure where the target is, but I’m thinking, especially since she’s dead, maybe for me I’ll try it by one of the boys who’s a terrorist likes me, maybe I can get him to take me out on a date or something, you know, like I can get access to the outside so I can report it. Anyway, that’s all. Then I started waking up.

John: So the theme of the dreaming last night is gaining access to an unfoldment, from within, of what you are able or meant to catch up with in terms of a kind of inner Book of Life or destiny that’s already kind of laid out, or intertwined, within.

And the fact that they are like terrorists, and such, means that it still is this inner process that’s still something that is deemed or considered to be kind of foreign from you. In other words, you haven’t quite fully grasped what that’s meant to be about. And, of course, if you did, you probably then wouldn’t have to be going through the awakening process. You would then  probably be out of here – like the little girl that was found dead.

In other words, this is a domain in which there is a waking up process that occurs, and we have to sort all of that out in relationship to an amnesia and neuroses that we have, that veil this from being obvious. And so you’re going through the motions: things that need to happen for you to come to grips and grasp what is meant to be are occurring.

In other words, a baseball game is the outer portrayal of life. I mean baseball is considered the American pastime or something. I mean it has a very significant meaning in terms of its portrayed importance in terms of the American way, so you’re taken into the outer. You’re shown all of this; that’s why the outer is considered the greater teacher because, as you’re going through this however it is that you feel yourself, or however it is that you’re reacting about things that are happening around you, those reactions, those mannerisms, those kinds of reverberations that you go through, they all play out in the outer around you.

And, if you are awakened, you know what that is about, what the meaningfulness of that is. And so you have this whole process. I mean you are trying to catch up with some hidden inner depth of what’s meant to be, that you know is important to the overall life. You have your notions in the dream on how this can be done. You have certain mannerisms that you’ve adopted to try to do that.

One is you have this contrast inside of yourself between how it is that you see yourself and how that is, as an effect, that is attempting to do something, because you still see yourself as separate in some capacity, you see that then, as a terrorist, or a danger. In other words, you haven’t yet figured out how to accept all that there is as being you.

So you’re trying to sort that sort of thing out. That’s one aspect that we all go through, and we noodle around and adapt our way of functioning in relationship to an outer that has its seeming contrast. And then you have the approach inside yourself where you take and you throw yourself into the game. In other words, you kind of go along with what is done, what is unfolding, and you try to go along in two different ways.

The first way is kind of like accepting that this sort of thing has something to reveal, has its notion, and so you go into the game of life, which is the baseball game, and therein lies a great opportunity to come to grips with what is really real. Well, that’s kind of like coming into the physical body and having to go through and live a lifetime in this kind of an existence – that’s the game of life. We’re living it, and are we going to, in terms of living this game of life, come to understand what it is that’s really real.

And then there is kind of the side note where you will go along with pretending that you’re part of all of this that’s unfolding, that it is all kind of an act job, or an illusion. You’re willing to go along with that in order to see something behind it all, in which case now you’re acting like you can understand and figure this out from the standpoint of carrying a certain consciousness, or wit, or intelligence that’s unique and separate from the whole.

And so you go along with the whole, as you sit there and figure that by going along with the whole, and being observant, that you’re going to figure out what it is all about that way. At no point do you point out what would be kind of a fourth process, or step, in which you come to know yourself as just something that’s intertwined with everything that’s going on. And when you are able to fully embody and embrace that, then there is no mystery, there is no need to discover anything, and that’s when you kind of die before you die, which is one of the things that makes me ponder and wonder about the gal that is found… Where was she found, behind a what?

Jeane: It’s almost like in a cave-like area, into another cave.

John: Yeah, that’s where she found the hidden of the hidden. You know, it was all with inside of herself. And so the whole dance and whatnot kind of came to an end. When it comes to an end, she’s died before she died. In other words, it’s like a depiction of not having to maintain the hoopla anymore because she had gotten to where she needed to get. She had come to recognize.

Now that’s kind of a haphazard way of trying to portray something, because that’s just kind of a quiet rendition that happens off to one side. You don’t put a whole lot of significance in that. In fact, you act like it’s all the more important to try to find out something that she must have stumbled upon, that you still need to stumble upon, in your separate capacity of sorting things out.

Instead of realizing that, for her to have gotten it, means that all of this then lost its hoopla, its song and dance, and therefore it was game over. As opposed to still thinking that one has to untwine what is happening, as if it has a separate capacity, instead of it all being completely intertwined.

The theme of the dreaming has to do with playing with the Book of Life, and so what is there that you’re meant to catch up with? And so this is your storyline of how it is that you’re trying to catch up with what is meant to be caught up with, in terms of a consciousness, that is the all pervasive you.

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