Posts Tagged ‘breaking free from the collective consciousness’

the-stages-of-a-spiritual-awakeningIt is a great truth of spirituality that everyone has to awaken for themselves – in their own time, and in their own way. Many ideas, events, or encounters in life can trigger such an awakening, but it still must be freely chosen by the person. The reason for this is because, in a culture that doesn’t esteem spiritual growth (relative to economic or career growth), the person who awakens must generate their own passion for the journey – and no one else can do that part for them. Awakening is the beginning of the journey, not the end. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In one of the dreams, like you, I am a traveler, only this time as a traveler I have stopped at a place to rest a bit. I don’t describe the outer scenario around it. It’s just a place… it’s like a two-room place, like a little shop or something. There’s nobody else there but the shop owner.

And I stop there, and then a short while later a bum comes in and wants the business owner or me to give him something. The business owner says to me, “Don’t look at him or he won’t leave you alone.” And he’s not thrown out of the place so, if he can’t bum anything, he at least can rest a little bit here. So he falls asleep.

And even though I haven’t really looked at him, or spoken, to him I know what it is that he’s really looking for, or asking for, and it isn’t the kind of handout that he has been settling for. He just needs a push and he will find, inside himself, the way to breakout of his stupor.

Well to me it’s kind of obvious, and so to begin with I can’t wait for him to wake up. But he just fell asleep and just keeps snoring away. Finally I shake him awake and I say, “Can’t wait any longer. Now is the time that we need to leave if we are going to make it to Libby today.”

I’m a traveler without any sophistication and the way you get there is you walk and, somehow or another I’ve got this figured out how I can walk the distance between Cow’s Bell and Libby in one day. And I just automatically assume, just on the strength of me saying so and recognizing that what he really wants is something more along these lines of breaking free in some capacity, in other words, it certainly has got to be nauseating to just bum and get some sort of creature comfort that lasts you half a day at the best, or something like that. He’s very temporal.

And this is a means of bootstrapping himself and taking a step. And he looks at me kind of in a taken back way. Of course I’ve done this in such a way it’s as if I’m creating the appearance that this is what we agreed to do, and I’ve never talked to him, so obviously he’s looking at me kind of shocked, but I did it in such a way so that it penetrates, and so he has to respond.

So he says, “Well, you go ahead.” And I say, “You don’t want to go?” Ad he says, “I’m staying behind in Cow’s Bell.” And I say, “Are you sure you’re okay with that?” And he says, “You go ahead.” I can tell that the idea of going, and walking, and stepping out like this is something that’s a bit much for him, and scares him. So it’s easier for him to be a bum and settle for creature comforts that he thinks he could find just hanging out, but deep down I know that if he were to take a step he will find that he could break that trance.

So the meaning is, I am a traveler who is a world that needs awakening. Many people are easygoing and just accept things to be as they are. That’s the shop owner. Often they are good people who give strangers like myself, and the bum, a place to rest. There’s nothing I can do for such a person, until they realize that there’s something more that they need, other than to just go ahead and take in their hospitality, and hopefully they see in providing the hospitality that there is actually something more, and maybe they can see how they intertwine more to what else there is as opposed to just resting on a certain comfort that they have, which I know has its limits.

So the shop owner, the first party, is trapped in his scenario. And then there are a few who are looking for something but do not know what it is that they are asking for, or seeking. They think it is some sort of temporary creature comfort concept. If they weren’t so weak in spirit, and therefore asleep, they might get it. The bum doesn’t really have anything holding him back; the shop owner does. What’s holding him back is his weakness that is just in his head.

So there is a way of perhaps affecting him. You’re not going to move the shop owner. So I try to shift him into taking a step, but he isn’t able to find the energy to break free. I had to push him with the opportunity, or present him with the opportunity, because you never know. Maybe the time has come for him to take a step to break free.

For him that will be a big step, a scary step, but at least I threw it out there and he had to at least swallow that as an opportunity, possibility, or option, even though he would fall back. And, in falling back, at least he will remember that there is something that related to him more directly as a person, and thus helped him to see himself more for who he really is, as opposed to something that is so beaten down that all he can do is act like an animal, so to speak, not able to rationalize through that he needs to be able to freely go back and forth instead of being helpless like this. I’m not asking him to do anything more than what I do, and come to know the free flow that is liberating.

The significance of the dream is I am dreaming about the atmosphere of beingness. I have learned to travel without reserve. I have also come to know that the reason others are not able to be this way is they are held back by their surroundings, that they think they need, such as the shop owner, or they don’t know their real need because they remain asleep in a beaten down way from having settled for creature comfort handouts that keep them from growing up, or breaking out, of an unconsciousness.

These are the two primary types in life. Everyone is able to relate to each of those types to some degree or another. Only when you let go of all of that are you able to see yourself with the open eyes and move about more freely in life.

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red-book-3Jeane’s dream offers a good reminder of how we are all the characters in a dream. The real people are representatives, in the imagery, of some aspect of ourselves. So the question is, what are they doing? Are they moving closer to us, or further away? Are they the masculine or feminine side of our nature? As we develop, we begin to bring all the disparate parts of us into a singular alignment, and our dreams can show where there is resistance, or where we are getting along well. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Well, I have two long dreams and I know I had a little prequel and a sequel that were brief.

The very first dream I had last night I didn’t really pull out, but I remember at the end of it there was something where there was something white that was almost like foreign looking, could have even been an animal, that was popping through from somewhere else and that it just totally delighted me.

That’s all I remembered of that very first image.

John: At least it delighted you and didn’t scare you, because the animal popping through is raw energy that’s like a masculine. It can be too much, too. Fortunately it wasn’t.

Jeane: So I woke up at 5:00am with this long dream. Now in this dream, initially you and I are staying almost like in a hotel complex in a city, in a very complex hotel building actually.

In that dream, the initial part of it, I would just have to say there’s a lot of going up and down and around into all the different levels of the hotel, in the boiler room, the spas, all sorts of places.

And then I’ve left there and I’ve gone to a home in the countryside that you and I have, and this home is built on a hillside. And it’s a lot of glass with redwood, so lights can actually kind of just shine in all over from all over the house.

When I go out to this home on the hillside, your brother shows up there. And it feels like in the kind of like daylight basement, because it’s on a hillside, it’s like all the floors actually open out to ground level, but on that level there’s also a loft inside the house and on top of that loft area is where your brother has been staying.

And he’s come and he seems to be wearing kind of, I think he’s wearing blue. He’s kind of bright, but it’s almost like he’s fallen in love with me or something, so I’m kind of frowning on that. Then he just leaves.

But I don’t know where he’s gone. Has he gone somewhere else in the house, or where is he? You haven’t followed me to the house and I can’t figure out where you are, and are you going to come?

I do go outside once and there’s a neighbor, almost like a little bit of an obnoxious neighbor woman, who lives down below somewhere. I have seen her at one point, and then I’ve gone back in the house. I always seem to be looking for your brother when I go back in the house and I don’t know where you are: are you going to come, or what are you doing?

I don’t seem to be able to leave the general area of the house. When I go back in the house, after having been outside for a while, I find all of these people in the downstairs anteroom and they’re actually smoking.

They’re all different ages. They seem to be a family, a kind of related family, and I explain to them we don’t smoke in here so they reluctantly put out their cigarettes. Initially I assume they must be your relatives so I’m stuck with them, right, but then I start questioning them more closely and realize they’re not relatives at all.

It’s like the neighbor lady down below had just seen that we weren’t occupying the house and she’d sent them up there to stay. So I make them all leave because they’re not related. But there is one little girl in the group that’s kind of interesting, and when I’m outside on one of my walks again I run into her.

She even has a device in her hand that looks like a cross between a flashlight and a weapon, and you never know how she’s going to use it, but she’s actually friendly towards me and we have some kind of a friendly encounter – and I feel good about that.

And then I go up on the hillside and I run into a Native American man who lives in a little trailer up there. So I run into this Native American man, almost more South American in that he kind of has a poncho he wraps around him.

He has this big red setter or some kind of a big dog that he has a muzzle on because it runs at you. And I tell him the dog doesn’t need a muzzle, and the dog runs up to me and just licks me while I take off the muzzle.

And then I go back to the house and you’ve finally shown up. And I want to explain to you about your brother because I still don’t know where he’s at, and you kind of laugh about it and say that your brother’s gone to live in Tucson.

And now it feels like you’re back in the house. And that’s that first dream.

John: You’re doing a parody with the collective conscious. In other words, you start off kind of in the collective conscious, in which you’re amidst all kinds of people in kind of a great big hotel/motel.

And you’re going up and down, going in and out, going through the affairs of life, and what you need to do in order to catch up with something more closely inside yourself is you need to step aside from that. You need to access something that’s part of your higher consciousness.

You somehow stiff-arm away from that into this house in which you can seek to attempt to find a greater depth inside yourself that you can’t find when you were down there going up and down and around and about amidst the masses. To some degree you have success because you open up a connection to your higher self that is trying to get closer and closer to you; that’s represented by my brother.

However, your identification is still upon something within manifestation, or creation, and that’s represented by me. And so you haven’t sorted out how to pull the two together. You seem to see one of them as infringing upon the other, as having an impact that undermines the other.

When you leave the house it’s like you’re kind of in a state of bewilderment as to how he is, how I am, but you’re trying to be open and receptive and you have been put in this position, or have gone into this position, like I said, so to speak, stiff-armed yourself from the collective.

So that the next thing you know, when you drop the demeanor, the collective just tries to move back in because you haven’t yet taken in the wholeness of it all. Well, you realize that that isn’t, that in terms of you trying to form an identification in terms of what is important and what is real, I mean it’s tough enough to figure out whatever happened to me and the situation with my brother – and he seems to have an intrigue that touches or affects something and causes something to awaken.

But you can’t have that sort of thing going on. Well, it’s like you’re in a state of bewilderment because that isn’t how it is, in terms of your idea, designed to work. And so you report back to me that this sort of action, or mannerism, is occurring. As part of this, however, before you report this back to me, of all of that which had come tumbling into the house there is a quality of yourself represented by this little girl that’s interesting, that experiences a kind of awakening, that’s different.

In other words, you don’t totally rebuff and dismiss everything there in terms of this greater overwhelm. Something of this part seems to still be there. And it’s because there’s something of this part that still seems to be there that when you take, then, and are trying to understand and trying to pull together the quality of my brother and myself  – and you have this little space sitting there in your conscious unconsciousness tinkling around just a wee bit – it somehow does make sense to you, then, when you’re told that my brother has gone to the southwest, or to Tucson.

In other words, that which you need to find is aspected in another place. All of that needs to be pulled together yet, and that is actually a kind of going into the outer. And yet at the same time it’s a type of the inner. But at this point where you’re at, you still need a certain kind of acknowledged recognition that has to do with me, in terms of what you’re able to grasp, and pull out, and see.

In other words, this is your filter mechanism towards getting more and more awakened. The other is like too much, and so you’ve created distances and mannerisms so that it is taken in at a pace that you find acceptable.

The interesting thing is the dream starts off with you recognizing that there’s something about the collective in the outer, and the way it goes up and down and around and about, that that doesn’t make any sense. So you take a step into yourself by going to this other place which is more like a home for you, another home away from all of that – because your home is also in this other huge motel or hotel, but you can’t handle that in and of itself in terms of the collective outer.

That’s all too much, so you go into this inner depth and it is too much for you to handle, so you then have to make another division inside of yourself in order to try to experience, or realize, or recognize something. What you’re kind of finding yourself doing, in one level, you’re becoming narrower in order to try to experience something. In other words, you’re simplifying in order to experience.

And on another level you’re recognizing that there is this whole other, too, but all in its due time. And so the choices that you’re making is you find yourself in a dream like this choosing to familiarize yourself and be awakened in a certain specific way and, as you do this, some other part of yourself always knows that there’s more, that there’s so much more.

But, be that as it may, this is how you see yourself having to approach it, and be attracted, and interested in the process – because the other is too bewildering.

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Here we explore the nature of what it means to allow what wants to awaken in us, which requires quieting the noise and distractions of the outer world, in us. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: When I went to bed last night I’d brought my iPad in and my plan was to put on the ear buds and listen to some guided visualizations, but I turned out the light earlier than that because I realized I was too tired and I’d just go to sleep.

So it felt like the first part of the evening my dreaming felt like there was some kind of energetic push/pull going on with the iPad, there was some kind of energetic connection from there to me, and I was just kind of reading the energy. That is the best way I can describe the early dreaming.

It was just watching this energy flow that was pulling me to something that was on the table next to the bed, and I’m assuming it was the iPad.

John: You must be building into something new, because that’s a flashback to an old habituation or pattern that causes one to get caught up in the indulgence, instead of an inner flow, which is uncharacteristic of where your normal dream process takes you.

That’s why I’m suspecting that it’s a precursor to another shift or something, because that’s a backward image. This is what happens to most people, most of the time, who are not connecting to an inner flow.

They find themselves driven by their preoccupations, which act as if they have a will of their own, that drive them to have to support, or to sort, something out. And so this malingering kind of preoccupation, and in some instance a type of checklist of doingness, seems to control the perception, and thus keeps them veiled from accessing something deeper.

Jeane: In the other dream I had it’s like I’ve gone maybe with some cousins to visit my mother’s mother at her home, so it’s my grandmother’s home, and apparently my grandmother had been gone for a period of time and she’s returned, so we’ve all gone over to visit her.

And there’s kind of a certain free flow with visiting her. There’s even a dog around, but at one point she leaves the room, and I look at my cousins and I tell them that my grandmother’s going to take off again.

She’s actually out of the room checking into a cruise or a tour, or she’s going to do something, and I realize they’re a little shocked by this, but to me it’s just that for some reason my grandmother doesn’t like to stay at home. She wants to go travel. She doesn’t want to just do it the traditional way where she’s there and you go visit her.

John: This is an image of something opening up, in other words, a greater dimension reaching out, in that everything is there. Meaning you’ve got your cousins and you’re all going to visit this quality of something that’s your grandmother, and it’s not a stale environment. It’s an environment that’s shifting and moving about, and keeping things fresh and alive, which is not how it has seemed with regards to accessing the deeper parts of yourself in the past.

Usually when you access the deeper parts of yourself, you’ve had a kind of stigma in terms of those parts being somehow, in their ancientness, set or preordained in some fashion, as they open up and awaken. And in this image you’re finding that the grandmother part, or the ancient part inside of you, is on the move.

It’s going to be interesting to see how it is that your dreams integrate with mine. I haven’t figured that one out yet. We tend to dream in some sort of to-and-fro, that has a pattern to it, so I guess we’ll just have to see what evolves.

I guess the theme of the dreaming must have something to do with an aspect of our self shifting or waking up, because the first sentence that I wrote is: I’ve experienced subtle awareness that is on the verge of slowly waking up. I can see this in a dream in which a part of myself that is still conscious is yet getting in the way, so that at the very last second it keeps me from reflecting upon a consciousness that is quite tangible. I mean, it’s that close.

In other words, it lies just beneath the surface of an awareness that seems even like it’s in the outer too, or in the environment of the outer. I am shown that what is happening right at this point in time is that when the energetic of what is going on is on the verge of a breakthrough of awareness, it seems like something unfortunate comes over me.

So when I settle back I see myself by doing this, allowing something within to get my attention and in doing so it makes a breakthrough. What happens is I reach an unshakable awareness that is so strong that it seems as if it was always within my grasp consciously.

In other words, prior to that of course it was just out of reach, and now all of a sudden it’s like always been like this. When I am like this, it is easy to assume that I have an unbreakable connection, and always had such a connection, even though others around me find this, and in my perception when I look around me as well, it is illusive to others.

Fortunately, I do not go off the deep end that is also there, because to do so would destroy or destabilize a good thing. I am able to tell I still carry within the shadow dynamic of being of an awareness, that has an imbalance in it, because I can sense the flip out.

I am so thankful that I am able to hearken to the deeper roots within. In other words, I seem to somehow be lucky enough to do that, because this other is not that far away and could easily just happen as well.

And even though there are times when it is easy to lose the fluid and flexible and easygoing way, and to do so would be like getting in the head, in some capacity, and tearing something tenuous and precious asunder.

You might say this is a dream that starts off with a sense of, like yours, of something slowly waking up, only in your particular position you actually are in it, as it’s waking up with the grandmother no longer where she should be in a quiet easy way. I mean, she is on the move and as part of that waking up, you find yourself in this new way of waking up, you find yourself kind of going back to a beginning kind of quality, where you’re taking into your frame of reference a kind of indulgence, an indulgence that has a mundane aspect to it, like a starting over aspect, in this new way.

Because what you described at the beginning is very typical of how most people tend to perceive life, only it’s in a shallower motif.

The purpose of the dream or the theme from last night, is to instill an appreciation that is not going to go away when times are difficult. In other words, it is to make it so that you do not flip out or go backwards, or crack up, or turn your back upon something vitally important. In other words because this helps you gain a better sense of what’s vitally important, and what’s subtler in terms of what is going on.

Because to lose that would be like becoming a disingenuous person, who can’t help themselves. And to flip out would create the appearance of you being a kind of monster, in other words, really bizarre, especially in the face of another kind of knowingness that something is important.

The inner dreams and awareness flicker within, in order to keep me from becoming a beast that I cannot like, because if I become such a beast I lose all sense of common decency. Fortunately I have a living example that has just occurred in the environment in my life, which, in its way, reflects the graciousness as a thankfulness. It was being with Mike these last few days at the trade show seeing how he is able to be thankful and able to take in a wonderful flow around him and never let any of this go to his head.

My tendency is when I take and I have a whole sense of where I really get something black-and-white, so succinctly, that it can lead to a type of arrogance, and Mike doesn’t have any of that. In fact, he even slights himself a bit in his graciousness when he needs to actually, and has a sense of how better to probe out to learn things, but because he has got such a huge entourage around he’s trying to make sure everybody’s content and yet he’s the one that has got to know how to steer the ship and make the big decisions. And they’re looking at component parts and he needs to look at the big picture.

And so in his graciousness you almost wonder is he going to be allowing himself enough time for that to happen and it seems to work out for him.

The deeper awareness of this dreaming is that it is possible to see the importance of something very subtle coming into being when I am able to be in a world where I’ve surrounded myself or opened myself up to being able to set aside my denser preoccupations, so that this side of itself can come across in a more gracious or respectful or nurturing manner.

Then I have an image that tries to create a corresponding symbolism with that deeper awareness statement that I just cited above. In the image I am before a structure that goes straight up high into the air. What it looks like is it’s a little bit like a base and it looks like there are a few steps at the bottom that you can see from a short distance, and then it stops, like it goes straight up again and then maybe there’s a little cut.

But it is gaining height going more and more straight up all the time, so in order to handle something like this that goes up in the air, if you just looked at it it would seem impossible to scale.

At the beginning however there are steps that are barely perceptible from a distance that one can climb. Only after you climb these steps do you notice that there are still other steps that may take you in a way that’s even steeper, that you wouldn’t see from the ground, that you only reach when you get past say an initial level.

And so it goes. It seems to be like this, on and on, as you keep going steadily and steeper up something that is hard to believe can be scaled. If you were to stop you would be hit with the idea of wondering that it won’t take much to slip and fall or something, and then all would be for naught.

With that doubt in mind, a shift in the image occurs and this is what now unfolds. I find myself standing in the only car parking spot in the area in which the surface is covered and designed by sawdust.

In other words, there might be all gravel parking spots but this one is a square in which the sawdust has been laid out in it, and around the corner to my surprise comes a woman who sees me. It seems like a fluke because a moment before she was blocked off from seeing me by an object in the way.

The significance is the sense I get is that it works like this over and over again. In other words, it’s like the scaling of this thing that goes straight up in the air. Just when it seems impossible something is there at your disposal, or awakens synchronistically, or however, so that you are able to keep going on and on and on and on.

Or, in other words, just when I am on the verge of blowing it, or think I am out there floundering, I am able to suddenly find, within myself, the right spot at just the right time in which something is able to be there as needed.

In this last dream, this last dream really puts it to the test to understand what this means. In the dream I am told that a woman bought The Flamingo [hotel]. Isn’t that interesting? A woman bought The Flamingo.

This makes me more interested in figuring out the change that is occurring. To begin with, I do not seem to know where I am at. It is like being in a trance. As I start to come out of this, I notice that I am walking off the sidewalk on a lawn, going towards a building entrance.

It is dark out, so I do not notice the wet spots that I suddenly walk in and get my feet wet. I do notice however that the lawn must have been recently flashed, you know how they tear everything up around here to make it grow better, because it is very thin and mostly dirt.

The meaning of the dream is I am still assimilating that which is different about the environment I am in. I haven’t yet awoken to how it is that I am meant to be. I’m looking for the entrance that will take me inside. I have wandered off the beaten track looking for the entrance.

I know that things have been stirred up, and that this is supposed to make things better in the long run. I am not yet seeing what lies before me, but have a good sense of where I am heading.

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