An Expansive Dynamic

In dreams, often the more extreme the image is, the more resistance an inner shift is facing. Here we have a young boy, or a fledgling aspect of the dreamer, being teased with being thrown out of a window. But we can think about such images as conversations with ourselves: sometimes we have to raise our voice to make a point, or to make clear the importance of what is possible in the now moment. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: I wasn’t going to write up the sleep dream, I was going to kind of consider my sleep as being in some sort of peculiar delirium because it was nonsensical, and silly, so to speak. But this is a type of silliness that’s inclined to not take things importantly, and thus to point out that there is a greater feel to something that has to be there than what is situated appearance-wise.

And so there was a sequence of dreams, they’re very hard to grab because I’m dreaming in such an intangible way that’s almost bizarre. In other words, doing actions that don’t necessarily have any significant meaningfulness, but they are extremely meaningful because they play with the atmosphere of letting go and breaking things up, especially moving away from any kind of set mannerism

So I see myself as being inclined to do things that, like I say, break conditions up around me. For example, I’m in this room, and I’m teasing a boy, a little kid, and he has a kind of a set demeanor. So, in order to break his trance a little bit, because that’s the fun thing is the kid’s mutable. 

So I pretend like I’m going to pick him up and throw him out a window. Of course, this is all done in play where it creates the whole sensation of what it would be like to be thrown out the window – and who knows what that’s going to be all about. And that’s done in terms of shifting a certain demeanor. 

So, when he objects, because he could get hurt, or everyone likes to stay in what is comfortable, or they deem as comfortable, I act like that’s not what I’m hearing him say. I keep pretending that some part of him is asking me to do this to him.

And so what this does is cause the boy to realize, in a kind of make believe, because I pretend that what he’s really saying, even though he’s saying one thing, I’m pretending I’m hearing another, it’s almost like creating a reflective spell to echo in him the idea that what he really enjoys is feeling more dynamically free and expansive. 

In other words, he has to sit and ponder what in the heck: could I really pretend this? What in the heck am I really pretending? I must be hearing something, or I wouldn’t be acting like this. And so it causes him almost to flip, as to whether there’s a part of him that wants to break out of his shell. It causes him to inflect.

And so the dreaming last night took on a more expansive dynamic in order to open up a greater capacity – to challenge set bonds that exist around one in order to recognize more from within. Or, what you could say is a kind of intangible, greater beingness that is an all things. 

So what is going on is I’m finding myself more interested in playing with various aspects of perceiving through feeling. That’s what one is doing. In other words, incorporating the feeling, or the principle that permeates behind the denseness of things, where we go off with our minds and senses and see ourselves just that way. 

Being able to be like this enables a part of myself to go from a setness of a dense, physical identification. The key for this to work is that I have to access within, and without, a rhythm that accommodates both as the real oneness of being. Or, if that doesn’t quite work, at the very least, causes a reflection to denote that there’s more than meets the eye.

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The Same Degree

iklw893In the “woke” world, people are having to confront their personal biases which, for a long time, might have been accepted as “normal,” depending on a person’s upbringing or the area they lived in. Perhaps that is a sign that we need to become more aware of our inner biases, the ones that cause us to dismiss subtle energetic nudges we may sense, or to think that deep spirituality is for someone else. We are all spiritual beings, we just happen to live in a disconnected world. It is a freedom of choice for each us to answer the call of the spiritual, which we are all designed to do, and it is also a safety because the universe will always be there for us, it just might not be here for us – i.e., in this society and culture. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: That’s very similar to my second dream, which is hardly a dream in a way, in that in this dream it is my impression, as I’m seeing myself affected by things in life, that the situation I am looking at is providing me the most direct test of my being.

In other words, you’re being tested to figure out how to wrap something up, and, in the process of your ideas of how something is to be wrapped up you get yourself all contorted. And in my case, what I mean by that, the situation I’m finding that I’m in, in a roundabout way I could say that I wouldn’t fall for most things, or, in other words, the situation could’ve been simpler.

In other words, my idea of having to contend with stuff, just like you have your ways of having to contend with things, only this time I’m reporting it to myself that if it wasn’t like this, then something would’ve been lost, or left, that’s desired to grasp.

So what I’m doing is I’m coming to recognize that I actually seem to need an outer atmosphere where I am compelled to face a shadow part of myself, in a more intensely direct way, because if it’s too simplistic I just don’t wake up. In other words, the scenario I choose isn’t just intense. It’s kind of like a dream that enables one to actually somehow kind of laugh at it, but not of course at the time, and so in being able to step back there’s a thankfulness that it was the way that it was because I am able to somehow not stay as deluded as I might have stayed – if things were simpler, where I didn’t have to probe or go to some sort of more direct depth inside of myself.

In other words, I’m thankful that the illusions that I’m presented with, that are not just intense but they repeat when I don’t get it, over and over again, and what is also interesting is it’s a little bit like in a football game where you see all the different angles of the play, I see it from every angle there is, and, from some angles I protest defensively, but when the entire situation is revealed I’m inclined to get it.

So as I notice what I am buying into in the outer I’m grateful that the reflectiveness I have chosen to experience in the outer is the way it is, because I seem to need every bit of that to break the grips of my reflective identity trance. Well, that was the sleep dream.

The meditation dream, I see myself abiding in the light. In other words, I go to some sort of really deep depth inside and, as still as it is, I still somehow denote that I’m engulfed in something.

What I’m engulfed in, what I’m abiding in, is, at this point yet, just a type of vibrational presence that’s all-encompassing. And, while in this all-inclusive radiating spatiality, this abiding presence that’s deep within, as I see it deep within, exists and radiates it in however that atmosphere is within, radiates everywhere.

So to come back, in other words, to kind of come out of that and start one’s way back into where you have dreams and reactions and such, to come back is to lucid dream myself as if moving about in this light more freely. Instead when I was there initially, as a vibration, that had an overall exuding presence it was just the stillness, but now I’m starting to move about a little.

And I get finally to a point where it is time to open my eyes, and that’s when I notice that the vibratory presence not only just doesn’t dissipate when I’m back in the outer, where I seek to make myself known, but I can’t make whatever that was as a presence known because not only is the stillness gone, but so is the presence that is part of it.

When you lose that you kind of get to grappling, and you get into indulgence that grab a hold of you. And from what seemed obvious when I was more present in the light, and in a vibrational overallness, I no longer have the sensibilities. You tend to contend with things, and what’s missing that is kind of the mirror, is this vibratory presence that you have that you can exude with. You have to have that as kind of a listening tool, or otherwise you get caught in every little thing that gets thrown at you. You don’t hold the note.

So the significance of the experience is that I am noticing a meaningfulness I am trying to wake up with. This meaningfulness is a vibrational presence. This meaningfulness is kind of becoming more and more apparent. In other words, I’m kind of noticing this, in myself, as there being something there as if I have a watcher kind of quality.

Yet, even so, when I come back into the outer I come back as some sort of aspected thought that has usurped the meaningfulness. And what is meaningful is, how much of this am I able to radiate energetically? That’s what’s meaningful, in other words, not that I come back as a thought. That means that something has gotten lost, or washed out, and it’s behind that is what is meaningful.

So, a permeating, from inner into outer, when deep in the inner to try to bring it into the outer, is getting engulfed. Instead of engulfed as an innerness, it’s getting engulfed by the reflective outer effects. What I’m beginning to notice more and more is when I hold onto the inner vibratoriness and exude to reflective inflections, to some degree, a subtleness from the inner touches.

The same degree I’m talking about is outside of time and space. The same degree is what nourishes life. The same degree is what our dense nature veils. The same degree is what the heart yearns to experience in everything it touches. The same degree, in its inner most condition, is all there is.

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Working Out the Details

AwakeningImage1888When we awaken it’s not all at once – it’s a gradual process. At each stage we need to incorporate what has been opened up in us. That requires us to see where we have resistance and then work on releasing that. It could show up as anxiety, stress, or even anger, in our waking life, which is one reason why the guidance of dreams can ease what we process during the day. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I seemed to mostly have one long, involved dream. And in this dream, it’s like I’m in a schoolhouse, but several stories tall. And when I go up in the schoolhouse and get up in the top story, although there’s still a slanted roof there, it’s divided from the room across from it. So there’s like six feet or so of just air space there.

It’s like there’s been something going on where I’ve gotten up there. I’ve been looking at the scenario and what I’m trying to do now is for the school kids that have come up, I’m trying to get them down from there, or out from there, because of this split in the roof.

And about the time that I’m figuring out ways to try to get them down, I realize there may be some curtains that are hooked at the top of some windows and if I use the sashes on the curtains to swing across and then drop, that if I could land on the other roof, that might be a way down. But then I realize there’s someone who’s in opposition to this that’s standing on the other roof.

So, I’m trying to figure out all my options. And then this one teacher does manage to come up and communicate to me that she has a classroom in the building on the other roof. And, if I can get some people to her class room, that there’s a way down from where we are.

Now, I could swing across in this, but I see that the person who’s in opposition on the other side is starting to call on their side to start come swarming up, and they would try to overpower us, or block us, or maybe even throw us off the roof.

John: So, what you dreamt is a schoolhouse is something that’s catalytic again, in which there’s a process that’s happening that’s educating or awakening you. And that you’ve become more aware of what is taking place when you start to awaken up.

You start to realize that there’s the gaps or the airspace between things. And then you go ahead and, instead of describing it as a type of airspace, you describe it as a curtain, which is like a veil. And then you point out that you then have to figure out how to come down.

And so then it becomes the process of how do you play with the veil in order to come down. How do you go across from inner into outer, or from one side to the other. You’ve discovered something that you didn’t know existed when you went to the upper floors of the schoolhouse, and then you realized that you had a curtain that you could work with, that you could swing back and forth with, but at the same time then you had to go across a gap or something.

And then all of a sudden you complicated it some more, with there being opposition, or other things that were going on, or greater confusion that was happening, so it wasn’t as succinctly visible. And you could have taken this into wondering, okay, how do you get your students down? And maybe you could down and maybe you figured out that means, but then again how do you connect it and bring it across and communicate it so it’s even and equal, so that everybody gets it?

So you’re dreaming in an awakening process; that doesn’t mean that everything around you is awakened. And you’re realizing that you’re being forced or compelled to confront the veils of things. And I could have had a similar dream, except I might have been more irritated by it all because it shouldn’t have to be like that, where you have to somehow or another, figure out how to untangle or untwang it.

You look like your source of the irritation was that you were starting to bring in forces from the other side that were opposition now or something, as opposed to starting to see it as a flow that went up and then comes down.

In terms of coming down, you are going to have some issues about that. That’s where you were starting to go off. You’re going to have issues about coming down, even though the coming down was a matter of swinging back and forth with the veils.

Jeane: The only other thing that continued to go on from there, like you said, that one of the issues that then came up is that there may be some little students that I had to try to figure out how to get down, now that the teacher had pointed out to me there was a way.

Once I could get over to the other side, if I could get them over to the other side, and get them to our classroom, then we could figure out what the way down was, but some of them are pretty little.

So, I found some cardboard cutout scenes, like you know, when you go to the movie theater you see those big cutouts of scenes from the movies, but these were maybe like fairytale scenes. And like a book, you’d read out of in the classroom, except they’re big. And if I put that against the wall I figured that, for a short period of time, I could hide some of the younger students behind them until we could get them.

But right now, mostly what I’m trying to do is try to figure out how do we get either some on the way down or get some help up to us, before the opposition kind of would figure out where we were and start to overpower us.

John: So what you added, at some point, you apparently even understood the dream, because in understanding the dream, as you were dreaming it, you did something to earmark it for future memory. And, you may not realize this, when you were hiding students behind cutouts you were creating a symbolic aspect. Kind of like putting something in suspense, so that it could be brought forward later.

A dream brings one information reflectively. Well, you had this dream, you understood what this dream was; you realized that it was an unfoldment. It was an awakening – it had an experience aspect built into it. In order to not lose that, you created a symbolism within the symbolism of the dream: the cutouts for the kids to hide around. So that as time progresses and as things unfold, and as there’s still some sorting out that needs to happen, when it’s all said and done, they could be brought down then.

I thought that was cute. I’ve never seen you do something like that. Understanding a dream and then you put in a symbolism within the dream itself, as an earmarker to help you follow the experientiality of what the dream is all about. Wow! Knowing that there’s some nits and grits that might still have to yet be worked out. That’s interesting!

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