Pointing Outward

oeaThis dream has a frightening premise to its imagery, but it is speaking of an issue that almost everyone on the planet is dealing with: we seek solutions to inner problems in the outside world around us. What does that look like? An inner pain makes us want to become rich and powerful, or an inner pain makes us want to eat sweets, or an inner pain makes us obsessive about sex, or cleanliness, or just about anything. And this dream points out that inner pain requires inner solutions, and that begins with knowing that we all have a purpose greater than anything this culture can offer us, and that the universe wants us no matter what. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So in this dream, when it starts out, I feel like I’ve seen a man take a little boy, who’s wearing blue, and he’s buried him, or hidden him, and I’m afraid he’s abused him. But he’s hidden him away, so I have to go find the little boy.

And I feel like he’s hidden him in a locker in this room where he’s hidden him somewhere underground, so I am going through these rooms, on an underground level, searching for this boy. And it feels like there’s a servant in the background that I feel sometimes helps me.

So I keep looking for the little boy and, of course, the person who had the little boy even denies that he exists, or is not helping me find him. And sometimes I have to dig through mud, or I’m looking through cupboards where I feel like maybe he’s stuffed him in a cupboard.

And, at one point, my search leads me above ground almost to like a village square area, and then some of the villagers seem to show me this large structure that I kind of roll along the ground; I don’t know, it’s some kind of just a frame with things on it, and they show me where to plant it, or at least, you know, make it stable.

And then it feels like I start digging underground there, because now I’ve realized that there’s more than just a little boy that I think has been spirited away. And the little boy wears blue all the time, but there’s also some little kids with bright yellow hair – and some of the people searching for them have this really bright yellow hair, too – so I’m beginning to figure some of this out.

And I go to where they showed me how to stabilize this frame I was rolling along and I start digging there in the mud, and I suddenly reveal, down a level, the floor of a room and the wall of a room, and I see I can drop down underneath, and then there’s a whole underground structure there. I’m going to go searching for the kids there, and find them.

And now I have found that there’s something about the hair color, like whether have blue hair, or you have yellow hair, and touching your head in a certain way, and it can help me maybe locate these kids because I seem really intent on doing that. I’m not going to give up. That’s the whole dream.

John: So, what’s abused is something on the inner. And the attempt to hide is an energetic that is attempting to do something in an outwardly designed way.

And so whenever there is something that is conducting itself in an outward way, as opposed to an inner recognition way, it’s an absconding energy, in other words, it’s an energy like in your dream in which something has gotten lost and can’t be found.

An approach that has an outer design to it, corrupts. It has to acknowledge, or recognize, the inner in order for it to be valid. When it doesn’t recognize the inner, and has found a certain kind of dexterity in terms of trying to create a relative understanding of things in an outer capacity, it is working with the color of blue because blue engages the intellect, or the clarity, that one has in relationship to their surroundings.

It’s a higher-self color, but it can’t go anywhere, it can’t advance any, and eventually gets all caught up in going around and around trying to constantly figure out variables because the access of that is like a type of penetration into the lower levels of the higher-self – an access in that capacity is a trying to reach up in an outer capacity way. And it attempts to solicit and commission energetics that have an inner aspect to them.

The reason why it seeks to have energetics to have an inner aspect to them is because it knows something is missing, but what that sort of thing does is that energy that has an inner aspect to it is yellow, and what it does is it contaminates that, it absconds that energy. It doesn’t take the energy, that sort of energy, and figure out how to function in an inner capacity way. It takes that kind of energy and tries to turn it around to its outer capacity obsession. And something like that then affects the value of what needs to unfold, in that it is not breaking through. It is instead continuing to spiral, and spin, almost in a spellbinding way.

You can hear inner, but it cannot take that in in a capacity that touches a knowingness of freedom for itself. Whatever freedom it feels is a subrogation of that energy to serve, and function, and be reflected and point outwardly again – as opposed to accepting, and surrendering, to the inner flow.

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A Subtle Presence

1_sh_439132It becomes more and more clear that spiritual development, like any development or learning process, can only progress to a certain point – unless we begin to apply it into life. For example, if we learn all about music theory, but never play an instrument or write a composition, what has been learned will slowly fade away. By the living practice of our spiritual understandings we not only deepen it in ourselves, we add something good into the world for others to find. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: This is very, very interesting when contrasted with how the masculine dreams about it. The masculine has to look at it in detail, so to begin with everything is kind of incognito, in terms of the masculine, in terms of the consciousness that evolves. It’s like the clarity of things just don’t quite come through. I mean, you might have intuitions and senses about it, but it just doesn’t quite register.

And then after a long, long course of time the clarity or ability to experience something changes a bit, just like in meditation you initially just have a wonderful experience but you have no idea of anything. You don’t see anything, you don’t dream anything, you just wake up real soothed and it’s kind of like a type of glorified sleep or something – but it isn’t quite asleep.

Well, as time progresses as you get into this, this process has a way of kicking you out of the loudness of the outer identification, the orientation strictly to the outer. You’re trying to work from the top down to bring in the inner quality. And so the way the masculine would experience this is they get to the point where they can actually see the inches, inch by inch by inch by inch, as if you’re following the thread and suddenly you can see what you couldn’t see before.

And then it gets to a point where there’s a shift and you can’t see the inches anymore, and you’re still advancing, and when you hit that point in order to get back to being able to see the inches again, that kundalini energy that had awakened to the point where you could see the inches, has gotten to the point where now it has to have gone into matter and has to be lived. And so now what you see denotes something that has to be lived.

And so as you live that energy, or as you take it into something that has been unfolding within to something now in order to maintain something, you have to live that, or you have to take that into an expression. As you do that, then you start to see the inches again that had gotten all of a sudden too subtle where you couldn’t pick them up. And that corresponds to the idea that this is like now an awakening that is almost like a type of need to know basis where you have to be in a certain experientiality for it to be fed to you, or for you to be able to perceive it or to get it.

So that was like the meditation dream. I mean, it was kind of like a kundalini orientation. The masculine has got to eventually get to the point where it can see what the heck it is. In other words, it can intuit but can it see it? And it has to eventually get so that you can kind of see it, but then it gets to the point where it can’t see it anymore and that is where you have to go from the states of things that just echo around and go away if there isn’t a certain livability. And then when you get into the livability, that subtleness then can then become perceptively integrated. Let’s see if I wrote anything more of any significance about that. I remembered that. It is better than I remembered.

For a long time an individual develops within, and the progress seems inconsequential and goes largely unnoticed, especially in terms of the person that’s doing this, that’s on the path. They almost can wonder why they’re meditating, or why they’re doing this, that, or the other because it’s not on a level that you could put your finger on with your senses and your mind, most of it.

So there comes a time when what had been a process that was mostly of faith and trust, yields to the point where you can start to see inner signs or inner… you start to recognize things. You start to see things, start to note things. And this progresses to a point where the inner signs then get so subtle again that in order to stay with them you make it more conscious and real again in terms of a thread unfoldment that a livableness needed to also take place.

So in the dream that is depicted by foot long fish which symbolize a consciousness coming alive as an outer sensation that is invigorating and awakening. And to begin with it’s felt as quite an invigoration of kundalini energy and it is lived outwardly; it permeates into the outward as a dynamic. It is at this point though, through, the living out that then a visibility or energy is given or something or how you would say that, so that there is a further ability to recognize what had been too subtle to see.

Or to say it another way, it is one thing to experience the states within, and another thing to live them in manifestation, especially when you get to a particular point where a lot of the path has to do with just kind of getting yourself so that you don’t keep flinching at everything in the outer and you start to recognize that there’s the inner essence that’s the dealmaker of things that reflect in the outer.

So there comes a time in the path when the innerness must be lived – or it can’t be retained. And that is the central meaning of the dream image, and so there are two fish and one is selected to live out. Whether it’s selected over the other as an alternative or it is one at a time, it is hard to know because I only dealt with the one.

So how does that progress? In my sleep what ended up happening is first of all I have to advance this aliveness and outer/inner connection. In other words, I can’t just have it come down as something that’s really vibratory and then you figure out how to make the bits and pieces unfold. To begin with that’s how it has to work, and when it’s like that that’s just a precursor to something more. And this precursor when it’s like that pales in comparison to the awakening in which the perspective evolves as a kind of presence as an overallness to everything, to so much more.

When it’s coming down it’s loud and it bolts all over the place, and you have to make way for it, but then as it settles in it kind of goes into the energetic that you live in manifestation, and it acts in a way that permeates from that. What I carry has a depth in it, and by that I mean there is a presence when the energy is permeated into manifestation.

In the meditation dream it is coming through from the inner and is experienced as a quickened aliveness, but then as it settles and constellates this evolves and carries when it evolves a more encompassing presence which just permeates out. It becomes more of a subtleness. A groundedness prevails and the transmission is subtle. Whether that’s mystical, or whether that’s magical, it just is because it does effectuate things, but does it subtly.

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An Intangible Bond

quantumBeing alive raises so many questions, and one of the most mysterious is wondering what causes in us that great longing that so many of us feel in our lives. Perhaps it is the deep connection we have to our creator? But why would it be so subtle and mysterious? Because humans are neither slaves, nor robots to our creator. We have been given freedom of choice and we each must choose our service to the whole – it is not mandatory. But that doesn’t mean we aren’t given signals and whispers to show us the way. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Well you caught up with the theme, and so this is how I do the same thing, basically, but without the context of your dream.

In this dream I am looking to find a connection, an intertwined linkage, that I am able to tell is keeping things intact. I am carrying the notion that, rationally speaking, I should be falling apart and I am not. In other words, it’s like something isn’t getting worse and it should be getting worse – based upon this underlayment – as I used for your dream – that I somehow sense is there, but the outer isn’t corresponding in accordance with that, or so it seems.

But in this case there’s a reason for why it’s not, and that’s because I am connected to the other, I’m connected to this underlayment when in my dream I’m trying to act like, okay, if I can’t put my finger on it then it doesn’t necessarily mean that it exists. So under certain dictates, then, things should fall apart.

So something is there that keeps me connected. I can tell that this is so, but in the dream I can’t see how this is so. In other words, I can’t specifically give you the details. So I look and look inside. I do not seem to be able to even wake up because I’m on this expedition of having to try to see this, to find this, to touch this. I mean, I didn’t come out of this until 4 o’clock. I was really looking hard. I’m intent on figuring this out.

The way my body aches because I am in such a pitch, in other words, when I come out of this I flicker out of this at various times, maybe at 2 o’clock, 3 o’clock, 4 o’clock in the morning, and every time my neck will be just at a point where it’s like you could kink up or something. And when I move a little slightly bent and I know that, typically speaking, I should be doing harm. Your body isn’t designed to do that. And yet this is all factored into the process because of some underlayment or depth. It’s taking that into account where the body is letting go, too.

So I have the opinion that the normal way of looking at things is that what I’m experiencing physically, that I keep flickering back to and seeing the condition I’m in, it’s not like I’m dwelling upon it. I see it, but I don’t come any further out than just barely. But there is the sense that this should be unbearable, but it’s not, and I’m handling it. So that’s again evidence that there is this intangible feature at play behind all of this.

So I am reaching and reaching, in other words, I’m going to catch this inner quality, but I never do. I fail to find it. I know it exists, however, because where I have been and the condition of my body while I am there neither is possible to maintain, you can’t be cockeyed, you can’t hold a certain state beyond a particular degree naturally with the body; it requires a certain movement or something. So there must be this intangible bond at play.

The evidence for its existence is as far as I can tell circumstantial, because I’m not able to get to where I am able to see it categorically. But because of the circumstantial evidence being as astounding as it is, I have no choice but to conclude that it’s convincing enough that there is no way for me to doubt that this doesn’t exist.

What I went through has proven to me that there is an intertwined aliveness that looks after me and keeps me together even though I can’t reach it in what is for me a state of nonexistence. I’m doing my best to break this nonexistent sensation that presides somehow over how I am, put my fingertips upon it, so to speak, to prove it to be tangibly real – but I’m unable to do it.

So that’s the meditation thing, but you could see how it fits with what you’re doing because you had the underlayment.

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