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Jeane: I had a dream in which I was a therapist, but I seem to be working in a teaching setting. I’m moving to Portland, Oregon so I’m in my room saying goodbye to one of my students who’s a little bit upset about it.

This student is a woman and I’m talking to her about what she could do next. I’m encouraging her to get involved in a group or to stay in touch with me; I like to know how people are doing and we’re talking about that.

In the middle of our talk, a male supervisor comes in my room and looks in the closet. He discovers a box of evaluation forms that he’d put there and forgotten.

It’s kind of an interruption to my conversation with the woman because he has this kind of attention-deficit thing going on where he has to look for the forms, and wants me to talk to him later, but he doesn’t have any boundaries about when it’s appropriate to come in my room or not.

Then he leaves and I finish the conversation.

John: This is a dream about being able to be at ease with all parts of yourself. It starts off with you saying goodbye and counseling the student. But actually you’re counseling part of your feminine self in terms of how it can stay in touch with a linkage it has made.

In other words, something is changing, i.e., the dynamic upon which there’s a connection has changed. It no longer needs the same closeness or proximity because another means has opened up by which it can be recognized.

In the beginning, it’s important for a student to get together with the teacher and spend time around and in the presence of them. A teacher has a certain kind of energetic that can come across, or be taken in, or recognized, or awakened in the student.

In the image this appears as if it’s coming from the teacher to the student but, actually, what’s happening is the interaction is awakening a quality in the student that’s been lost or dormant. All the teacher is doing is acting as a mirror to cause this to happen.

Once this awakening occurs, then the student takes on this trait or quality through which they can begin to see their self connected to something originally reflected by the teacher, but is now a part of the student’s ability or linkage from within.

Because the image shows you leaving the student, it also means that you’re able to stand more on your own feet because you have a connection inside that you know how to reach, and you can reach it now when you couldn’t before. You can now take that and extend it out, in terms of others, and recognize yourself in them.

It’s a very interesting dynamic when this part takes hold. You’ll notice, for example, in our dream group a person will tell their dream and they want it interpreted from the standpoint that it was their dream and it’s what they’re going through. The analysis needs to resonate with them. But it also needs to resonate with the people listening, because there comes a point where the dream and the entire group interaction is intertwined. It’s not something that stands separate.

For the longest time, that person is going to insist that this is their particular thing, and that it’s peculiar to them and, as a result, they’re going to be identifying and holding themselves separate from everyone else, as opposed to intertwined.

And the dilemma that exists is they’re still acting like they have to sort something out, rather than recognizing that they’re in all things or that all things are in them. That’s still a state of traveling towards God, which is different to traveling with God.

Your dream is showing you, in terms of an overallness, that you’re not limited now to a particular place or space that you have made a connection to, so that you can be somewhere else and it can be okay because you have the means by which to hold a support system, in terms of yourself, in the overall.

See, the overall is a support system. Generally, as humans, we don’t use the overall. We rely upon our own devices, separately, because we see everything as distinct from how we are and, therefore, we rely upon on our own wits and mannerisms in terms of coping.

That’s how we tend to see it, but when we get to the point where we don’t see ourselves as distinct and separate, then that’s the point where we have an inner connection that’s supported by its relationship to the whole, and that’s what it means to bring the inner into the outer.

We’ll continue this discussion tomorrow, in The Big Drama.

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John: Yesterday you described a very deep dream (see Wings of Angels). In it, you have a tremendous connection within, that you’re able to bring through, which touches and reflects upward vibrationally.

When you’re able to bring that vibration from the inner depths into the outer, you’re actually able to hold a space of appreciation in having done that.

What you describe is something that I wasn’t sure I believed was possible: You take, and hold, a symbolic thread of value, and cause it to be instilled into a scenario in the outer (the dream imagery).

Of course, the quality of being able to do this seems to have something to do with the fact that you were also quite touched by what you witnessed (the Blackfoot ceremony and the images of angels kneeling).

And you recognized something about the volcano, and about the hidden depths of something within you – the old village underwater – that represents something latent and unconscious in you as a reflection of the way the outer reality is now (the new village). And you’re able to carry that across and through.

When you do that you’re…  I’m trying to think of that man – Drunvalo? – yes, he speaks about this. It’s like a shamanic act where you are actually bringing something into alignment. In his case he might be aligning crystals, or he’s working with indigenous tribes to awaken and resurrect something that needs to be brought forth.

The way Drunvalo tells it, it’s crucial that these things are brought back out as a linkage, when their purpose and time is appropriate. If that doesn’t take place, and the synchronicities don’t come together (they always seem to come together) then it will be too late for Mankind, in some regard, energetically.

That may be what you’re doing. You’ve got the Indian value (the quality of appreciation of Creation) working with the sense of the subconscious innerness, at a depth within that you’re in touch with, and you’re able to carry that across and take that which is on land and touch it in some capacity, which brings it to an awakened aliveness.

It’s an awakened aliveness in that you’re doing the touching because you yourself have been touched. That’s what it means to “appreciate” the coming together.

This imagery fits in with the your other dreams, too, in that you’re finding yourself able to suddenly, out of the blue, wear something, or be something, that you wouldn’t normally see yourself as wearing or being. You just suddenly find yourself like that and it’s like a flash where you break through – a snap, or a pop, like in the first dream where you just break through to something.

That transition can be a bit much, it can be a bit shocking and a bit traumatic. When you get to the point where you can soften that, meaning to touch it with a softer and softer heart, a greater and greater appreciative heart, and recognize the beauty of it and you in that space – well, you’re blessing that space and that space is blessing you.

That’s why you have this aspect of it being angelic. But it’s an angelic that has pink associated with it, yes?

Jeane: The bodies of the costumes are made of pink feathers, and the wings are either pink or a very unusual shade of blue.

John: Blue is usually associated with tremendous insightfulness, where you just know something. Pink is associated a little bit more with the shamanic quality – more like the color of the phoenix rising from the ashes.

So we have a combination of those two having come together. The blue is on one side of the heart, in the higher self, and the pink is an appreciation color in Creation, it’s more shamanistic. It’s like red: red is shamanistic, but in your dream it’s a pink color – it’s softened down. It’s softened down because you are experiencing recognition and realization.

In other words, you’re not just using your energy as a type of power that you don’t understand – you do understand what you’re doing. It’s very touching because there’s an angelic side of you that’s able to look out over the affairs of something. 

That’s a very interesting access, or contact, that you’re able to see inside you, that becomes possible because you come to know the space with such appreciation that it causes this other thing to arise within it. Because you’ve touched that energetic, it just has to come out. It can’t stay dormant any longer – you’ve touched it.

At first it could be shocking, but then it’s just “boom!” – you’re there. When it comes out, then we can ask, “What degree of depth does it have?” From where in your subconscious are you bringing this across, and what are the greater qualities?

Then, as you keep holding this space, it keeps getting more and more angelic. In other words, you’re stroking something, in an indigenous Blackfoot way, with an appreciation that’s touching because you caught up with it. You’re no longer in so much bewilderment. 

When you get out of the bewilderment you actually develop a way of listening and hearing something that, in your particular case, can hold that space – just straight out of the blue hold the space of that.

That’s a very deep dream, and I’m not even sure I’ve been able to do it justice.

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John: Yesterday I described, in the first dream, a type of perpetual motion boomerang that wouldn’t lose its force no matter where it went or what it came in contact with. Yet when I tried the process myself, with just energy, the strength of the energy diminished and became distorted.

As the second dream begins, I’m sleeping on a couch in the dining room. You’re sleeping in the bedroom on the other end of the house. Perhaps I’m only napping, but it’s evening.

While I’m deep asleep, I don’t notice that someone comes in the front door. Because no one is awake or aware, they take the rug that’s right in front of the door. I somehow sense that something has happened and I get up, in my groggy way. I look out the window in time to see a small car driving away. 

I intuitively sense that something has been violated or stolen, though at this point I don’t know what has been done. In other words, I’m not awake enough to realize that the person in the car was the culprit.

Some part of me knows and registers it, but I’m slow to put the pieces together. Then I look around and realize what has happened. What I was sensing is suddenly confirmed when I notice, “Aha, the rug that’s supposed to be there is gone!” 

I quickly look around and I’m relieved that the rug is all they took. They just did a quick snatch; they didn’t touch anything else.

I make an announcement, from where I’m standing, to you, as if you’re going to hear me from the bedroom. I make it as if you’re going to pop out of your sleep when you hear what I have to say – that we’ve been robbed while we were asleep.

Before there is any response (I haven’t gotten your attention yet), I realize even though I still am drowsy, I know that I can’t really ground my reaction, or realization, until I get your reaction. In other words, I’m reserving my reaction (masculine) because it still needs to go through you (feminine).

The way I wrote this on my note pad is this: “I’m holding back what to make out of this until I see your response. The only thing I fear is that, now that this has happened (and this is the protector, masculine way of something in a groundedness), the energy has perhaps been penetrated or pierced such that there could be a further violation if we don’t fix something about how we are.”

So the imagery of the first dream involves being trained, from within, to work in a new way in the outer – in my life. Yet when I attempt in the dream to go out on my own, to make an energetic projection into the universe, I fail to keep it from distorting and I suffer the blowback.

With the images from the second dream, I can see that I’m not realizing a type of vulnerability within me until after the fact. The image shows that I go somewhere – to sleep – and in doing so I let go of a linkage. That linkage is from the inner into the outer.

In other words, when I’m in a sleep state, I still need to be attentive all the way through. I struggle to keep up with the events that are transpiring around me when I go to sleep in this way. I am required, however, to hold both the inner and the outer simultaneously in my consciousness. Otherwise the rug can be pulled out from under me.

In the second dream, the way I work with this new energy suggests that I’m not as attentively rooted in creation as I need to be, and that makes me vulnerable to events that can blindside me.

Ultimately, the dreams are saying that I’m unable to sustain the essence of the inner – the connection to the inner – when I don’t keep it together in my outer life.

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