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M.C. Escher

It seems that when we become good at certain things in our life, there is a process where we learn, and grow, and practice, and hone. Yet, at the point of mastery, we are still letting go of all that work and just being in the moment of what we are doing. We switch from doing, to being. And in whatever process we can achieve that switch, we will have found a certain mastery of the flow of it. And never is that more true than in our spiritual pursuit, where we won’t find our way through understanding the journey only with our brain, but when we begin to live the process with the whole of ourselves. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Okay, one dream that I had, that I seem to keep coming back to, it was like I was studying these dots that were in-between two lines, or sometimes they were just out there. But somewhere you knew there were some lines that were boundaries for them.

And what these dots were, and they usually came in pairs, but I’d see at least four of them at a time, is that they would be where you would hook up like a sewer line, or some type of a water line, and they were supposed to be hooked up two at a time.

Well, everybody had their ideas about this, and sometimes people would just hook up to one of them, and they didn’t hook up two at a time. They just didn’t quite hook them up right, and then they’d wait to see how it worked. And I would just keep studying this to see, well, did it work if they tried it that way? Or do you hook up two or more at a time? Or, okay, if we do just go and hook it up the way somebody wants to try, is that going to work, or isn’t it going to work?

And it felt like I would go back and forth studying this and see. Wait, okay, we tried it with just one, is that going to work? As far as I know you’re supposed to do it this other way, the way they’ve already been laid, and I spent a lot of time doing that.

John: The step that one’s being asked to take, at this conference, is to let go of how things work and just go ahead and plug in to a natural flow. That is the way the human condition is able to function in an overallness that’s impossible to sort out. That is so much that it leaves one, by comparison, the condition that one’s in, remains always trying to sort something out, always fumbling about.

And so what you’re doing is you’re taking the principle of an overallness, where you have the energy lines and everything, and you have an ability to catch up with that which is a little more profound than the average person is capable of doing, and you’re able to recognize that there is a way of delving into a flow, or into the depths of that; there is a naturalness there.

And you see the naturalness in composites of four. When in a composite of four, that’s in an ordering in which there is a naturalness, in which you’re able to surrender and flow. But you also note all that’s there, and you can try this way, and that way, the variables, and when you do that you find yourself having to struggle, and contemplate how this can be, and how that can be – which means that you’re making things overly complicated. Because it’s meant to just be a natural flow. When it’s just a natural flow it doesn’t matter what right or wrong is, or anything like that. It’s just a natural flow.

The isolation of things happens when one tries to comprehend how something should be. And you can develop an amazing kind of understanding about it, but that doesn’t necessarily go anywhere, when you can just have the natural flow, if you just surrender to that.

That’s why Lewin is saying that there’s only three things going on: there’s prayer, there’s meditation, and then there is the dhikr, the attention to the name of God, an energized charged condition. And it’s charged by something that’s sourcing from the absolute, or sourcing from the innerness of innerness. In other words, it’s not just a human being anymore.

In other words it’s like, it’s a common misconception, and was kind of thrown out there initially by Lewin, that a teacher is a person just one step further on the path. The path is endless. You just have to flow. You have to let go.

And Lewin is no longer looking at himself as just a mere teacher. He’s actually referring to himself as the guru, and a guru is a very significant term. To be a guru you can’t have the personal intertwinements that could throw something haywire, or off. You have to bring in the full transmission.

And so I’m looking and realizing that, yes, it can be kind of interesting to try to understand why it is that things get pulled and tugged this way, and that way, and there are people here who are overwhelmed by kundalini energy and such, but that’s part of the process, that’s part of the tugging, that’s part of the download that’s happening, and they will sort that out.

There is a greater design towards sorting it out. One can take and look at trying to understand that, just like you can try to look to understand all of the energetic points that lie in between two parallel lines, two Ley lines of life. You can look to try to understand that, but the understanding of that, by going from this, to this, to that, to that, as opposed to holding one’s self in a wholeness, taking each one on as a wholeness, as a greater overallness – and you can do that with the dhikr. You can hold that overallness by a certain quality that you can touch that with, with the dhikr.

But if you lose that vibration, then you can still try to needle along, but you’re going one at a time, two at a time, and you’re messing around in which you are actually tearing yourself up if you attempt to do that – and you’re making this whole thing complicated.

Because what that image is also about is a means of being able to delve in. You have this in-between, and this vacuous space in-between is something you could delve into like water. You can go to the depths of something there, but you’re not going to go to the depths trying to figure it out.

Like the gal I was talking to the other day, wonderful, wonderful person, but is trying to understand the meaning of what it is that she senses in order to find a sense of peacefulness for herself – and you never can find that peacefulness. That kundalini energy that you have will sort itself out, if you surrender. You have to surrender to a naturalness; a naturalness that flows within.

Your human condition works when it works in that capacity. It doesn’t work when it is constantly having to follow a path, or to try to be in a particular way, or to have a grasp of something in a particular light of understanding. Those lights of understanding get in the way of the heart.

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SilenceTwo trains running in opposite directions is the scenario of Jeane’s dream imagery, yet what she hopes to achieve is a state of silence as she switches them on their tracks. In the dream world, both trains are representations of aspects of Jeane herself, so the dream is pointing to a desire to bring two aspects together, yet in a deep, heartful way. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: What I mostly remember about my dream it seems like I’m in this process of working with trains, and the trains go different directions; they’re on tracks. But it’s like what I seem to want to do is I’m switching out with somebody else who’s in charge of a train, or is a train. 

I don’t know how to figure it out. But I’m trying to switch into a process where the train becomes completely silent, so whatever process it is, you just switch maybe with another person who has been the train, or is the train, or running the train.  

I don’t know how it quite works. When you switch, if they’re running on one track and you’re running on the other, then when you switch, you want the train to become completely silent. You just want to absorb all the sound of it. 

In one instance, it feels like I’m talking with someone about the fact that I had already started that before we actually did the switch. That’s about all I could remember about it.

John: That is a good characterization of how something is taken back to a stillness.

A scenario for this could have been Kerri’s vision in which she is seeing a stillness inside of herself that relates to a time prior to when she got traumatized, and ever since her traumatization she took the traumatization with so much shock that it has kind of numbed her out, shocked her out, thrown her in kind of a tangential spin.

It has been the greatest effect upon her in terms of an outer condition, but when she goes into a silence herself, she goes back into a point that is very, very quiet, and from there she sees this vision of how something felt and was, in a very deep way, which is like a touching way too.

So, of course, we live in the outer, and we’re struggling to get beyond whatever it is that we have taken on, which has sent us spiraling in this way or that way. And so you, in your dream, are realizing that if you can cancel something like that out, that you go back into an empty state. 

So if you have a train that’s going one way. and then you could take and counter that with something that can go the other direction, the two can somehow or another subtract each other out and make a point of emptiness or quietness and maybe it works that way.

Well, what you’re describing is actually a technique that the Buddhists try to use. It’s called equanimity. That’s where you don’t get overly carried away in anything in particular. You hold a middle point. You’re not excited in one regard, nor are you depressed in another regard. You hold this point of balance inside of yourself. It’s equanimity.

So you appear to be taking, and looking, at what is necessary for you to go back and touch your heart because, if you hold this state, and you hit this emptiness, at the root of all of that is something that comes out of the heart. But to get back to that you have to stop the doingness and you have to stop all of the attention that goes off in a particular streamlined way.

And your dream symbolism is showing you kind of this state of quietness that exists when all of the activity is able to cross itself out. It’s a very interesting thing, and what’s more interesting is pondering what triggered it.

Because it’s almost as if a quietness triggered you to identify, or to work upon, to zoom in, to zero in, on the correspondence of that quietness inside you, and generate a dream, so to speak, that helped to facilitate that, as opposed to what would normally have been a state of focus or attention about something in particular, that deep down tended to trouble you.

And you probably didn’t necessarily know the degree to which it troubled you, but then you felt a vibration in which it could be different, and then that had you zeroing in again to be with this more real vibration.

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Jeane: Before going to bed I watched a movie about Iwo Jima, and the movie influenced my dreams. One dream had to do with the Japanese during the surrender. There are two Japanese officers talking. One of the men planning to surrender has turned into gold, or what appears to be gold. I think a soldier of lower rank is asking someone else in command about that, and I can see that there is this long road to nowhere, and there are people lined up – soldiers that are going to surrender – lined up into the distance, so many feet apart, standing at attention.

And the officer explains that there’s this gold dust, and if you have enough gold dust, then each of the men turns to gold. But it’s not like a gold that anyone can use, it’s just a dust that makes a person appear gold. It feels to me like there is just not enough gold dust for them to become gold. So the rest of the men do not turn into gold as the one man did. That’s all I remember.

John: Wow. That’s an interesting effect. That movie is told from the perspective of what was happening with the Japanese as they were trying to salvage something for the greater good of the homeland (a situation that even they knew was hopeless). As you watched that, what ended up happening was that it created a scenario for a kind of karmic flow in you. You were able to recognize that at the heart of the story was a kind of surrender that, if it were accomplished in a certain way, the result would allow the arising of something golden, rather than being beaten down and defeated.

Gold represents completion. It follows from silver, which is catalytic, to become something that is more grounded, with sensibility and reason. So your dream basically is indicating that you need to personally reach a type of surrender that is about letting go, instead of being about resignation or defeat. It needs something that reflects a true personal honor and depth. In other words, a type of surrender that has enough gold dust.

That’s an interesting way of healing oneself. We get thrown around by life’s events in order to be given the opportunity to observe, see the reality, and to let go completely. In letting go completely, something that is difficult and peculiar (viewed by one’s usual sensibilities and expectations), can become very revealing and enlightening. It’s enlightening in the sense that what might have been devastating no longer has that effect.

There is something quite valuable about this process because a human being usually functions in such a confined way that the reality of the greater whole is lost. We tend to go off on our little deviations and detours. But I’ve noticed that when we are able to absorb the difficulties or strangeness that life throws at us – without being affected internally, meaning emotionally scarred and such – it leads to a greater freedom. It leads to a greater heartfulness. It leads to recognizing that things occur that are unrelated to our expectations, and that’s just the way it is.

It reminds me of a story. A Buddhist told his followers that they were going to go see a man who was known to be one of the most evolved Buddhists in the world. So, he takes his followers into a nightclub and it’s loud and raucous and topless girls are dancing around. Immediately members of the group are wondering, “What in the heck are we doing here?” And they sit there in a petrified state because none of this fits with their expectations of spirituality. But they soon find that the person they are there to see is able to be there, yet not be affected by the environment. He is so pure in himself that he is able to touch the lives of the people there but not be brought down himself.

And so what your dream basically did was take something that could be appalling and crushing in its way, and you were able to see it with a depth of heartfulness so that it couldn’t touch you – you found meaningfulness in the futility. And in that is something golden, something complete.

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