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3gesSometimes we run amok. Or, we could say, a part of us runs amok, because are we ever really in full agreement with ourselves? Usually, one part of us overrides another part, and then we feel the stress of it. Sometimes it gets to the point where we have to send up flares, from ourself, to ourself, so that we can see where we are and where we’re headed. As we’ve said, we are all the characters in our dreams, and sometimes we act against our own wishes. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: This dream was preceded by two images. One image was that there were bugs everywhere and every time I turned a page the bugs just gobbled that page up, too. I just couldn’t get away from the bugs.

But, in terms of the meaning of this dream, I wrote I am feeling of chaos inside over a waywardness that I feel in the outer, and to know what I need to know in terms of my whereabouts, parts of self, what I am to do, what I need to see, who I need to be, etc. I need to set aside, let go of, a waywardness vibration that is unsettling to a heart that is able to put things out – to extricate itself from its delirium.

When basically I stop. It’s not a matter of being encumbered or unencumbered, although that’s one way of trying to look at it. I just need to settle back because something is coming into vision. There is a knowing, but I will not catch up with it if I’m in an unsettled state.

And then, also with that, there was an image of where this guy could take his head and he could stick it through a hole on the back of a chair. It was about yay big. And so to avoid some issue, or to turn his attention differently, he would take and he’d stick his head through this hole. I was just amazed how he got his head through this little small hole. I was wondering if I could even put my head through that small hole. I don’t think I could, but he certainly could.

And so when you take and you put all of that together, what I’m doing is I’m describing a breakdown, in the outer, that I’m feeling within, and I’m trying to reach beyond. And I am carrying an unsettling sensation, I can’t shake, of an impending chaos, which is something I’m not prepared for – that will overrun everywhere I turn – while I seek to deny and not face it.

That’s the condition that I seem to be encumbered with in the outer. But the meditation dream is much more interesting in that it portrays something more in terms of how something can work. It also portrays how I am that isn’t conscious enough in that process, but does portray

how it can come together and work.

In this dream, I see myself shooting off flare markers into a rectangular field. I have a sense of the field, it’s maybe about 80 acres or so, just to take a guess, and it’s a flat field. I don’t get the memo, but it is said that you shoot these flare markers you can’t go over a certain line. You stay within the center of this field. And from there, you can shoot these markers out to the edges of the field. In other words, this is how you’re able to denote your circumference of your overall beingness of this place, is you shoot these flares out.

But here I am with my flare gun, and you only have so many markers in order to denote this for purposes of being able to come back to it; for recollection purposes or something, because in the depth of where I’m at, in this dream state, I can see everything plainly and clearly. But that isn’t the point. The point is to be able to come back to these markers.

And so I don’t stay where the line’s at and I walk around the peripheral of it and shoot the flares off. And, of course, that leads to a disaster because these marker flares I eventually run out of before I’ve made it all the way around the field.

Now, fortunately, there was a woman that followed the prime directive of realizing that you had to make sure that you had to have things marked, or the ability to look at everything in the circumference of things. So she stayed where the line was at, and shot these flares out.

So when I ran out of flares, I realized, wow, it’s a good thing she’s doing it right, because there will be some flares. It would have been nice if there’d have been more flares, but I blew it.

And then I realize, oh, my goodness, there was some other crazy person that ran out in the area where we were shooting the flares off, and so there’s a whole spot that we didn’t dare shoot any flares into because we might hit him. And so I’m having to pull that into a depth of remembrance that I have to hold on to. In other words, I can’t just have the flares out there that I come back to as kind of a remembrance; I have to seal that image of this area.

The idea of being able to come back to the markers is almost an idea that still incorporates somewhat of a sense of the senses, where you can leave notes to yourself, so to speak. But a deeper depth, which this dream is portraying, is that to really get it you have to somehow or another have access to the knowingness from having freeze-framed it, so to speak, at an inner, inner depth.

So what occurred last night was that was the depth, in terms of the meditation. But in terms of the way that that is approached, the way that is being approached, the way that is unfolding that’s a whole other thing.

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r4G3We could say that any understanding of the universe, and its greater purposes, is on a need-to-know basis. First, we can see clearly that flora and fauna are not trying to solve the meaning of life – they live life. But we humans are different, and we are designed and coded to seek to understand our purpose. That is the journey we are meant to make. And, if we make that journey as a service to what created us, rather than an ego boost, we will attract and connect to the intelligences that will show us the way forward. In this way, the universe is a system that rewards those who choose to be part of its plan and unfolding. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: Now I tell a long story. I have this really long story about this. It’s a nice little dream story.

In this dream, I am the new guy in town. My reputation of what I am supposed to be, or represent, seems to proceed me. And so, in this town, there’s the town folk and hidden in the woodwork of things are all kinds of bugs, animal-like bugs that almost have a human quality aliveness to them.

And they’re all dormant. They’re all hanging back. They’re not being bugs, in other words. Let’s put it this way: not only are they acting real good, but you don’t even notice them. And the locals in this town are having an election, and, because somehow or another there’s some expectation about me, part of this election has to do with being able to stand up in the front and sing.

So everyone is there. And their expectations in regards to me are way out there, as I am now supposed to, so to speak, sing. And however it is I sing, supposedly indicates something. And so before going out there, it’s like I go through, inside of myself, what it is that I could possibly sing. There’s all kinds of possibilities, but I’m not really sure, so I just kind of leave it be. And I figure, okay, I’ll do it spontaneously.

So when it’s my turn to sing, I can’t think of a single one. And so I fall back onto some little simple, trite, ditty. And I sing: “This little light of mine, I’m going to let it shine.” Kind of an old, old song.

It is a song that I was compelled to sing long ago. This is a flashback now. I was compelled to sing this song, long ago, when I was coming to the process, and I came before a teacher, and the teacher, because he excelled in this particular area himself of being able to feel the vibrations through music and sound in the airwaves, he made everybody sing a song.

And so when it came to be my turn, that was the song I sang. And, when I was through, I looked at the teacher and he had tears in his eyes. And, of course, when I sang I closed my eyes and did the best I could, which wasn’t my thing. And so I see the tears in his eyes, and I go: how did I do? Then I said, “Was it that bad?” And he said, “Yes.”

But he saw what he saw that caused him to have tears in his eyes. And if that were a qualification for anything, in terms of how it needed to be, it certainly didn’t seem to affect what he did because I was selected, and initiated, by him, into the secretive techniques of Raj yoga.

So now it’s as if everything has come full circle. I’m up there and can feel the expectation – only this time it’s reversed. There’s the expectation placed upon me that is so loud that my mind goes blank. So I sing this little song, and I even forget the words. It’s kind of like in the design that it’s hidden like that.

And when I am done, chaos goes rampant. All the bugs and wood cutters come out and start acting up. Up until that point in time they were staying in their shells, and they’re hidden. So, as I’m walking along and all of this is going on, I see the sneer of one of these bugs – who sees no reason to not be just outright brazen, because obviously there was an apprehension of what I was about, and now they have seen that I’m not a threat to them.

You might say that we’re in a situation, in the world there, in this town, in which everything is flushed out into the open. I go up to this guy, kind of grab hold of him, and say, “Are you sure you know what you are doing? You expected me to be able to sing, or to come across in a particular way. What was the upside for me to come across that way? Do you really think that is the only song I knew? A trite, simple song, sung in a simpleton way?”

Meaning: I knew Leela long ago, that’s the divine play. And one of the outer conduct practices, that I came to ponder and look at, had to do with how you handle things as they were occurring in the outer.

It is said that there are three ways to deal with a problem in manifestation. The first way is you see the problem before it affects things and you take steps to deal in advance with the problem, so that it never really becomes that big of an issue.

The second is you deal with the problem while it is happening, and that’s where half of the people can see it, and half of the people can’t.

And the third is you wait to where everybody can see it. Other words, you notice the problem, you could do something about it, but no, you go stupid. You step back. You do nothing. You wait. Eventually the problem gets so bad that even those that are the most unsophisticated and immature, everyone, sees the problem. It stinks up the whole place.

When the rot is so great, and so widespread, that everyone gets it, you act, and you act with precision. No one questions whether your actions are right or wrong, because everyone knows what the problem is. And so when something is, then, effectuating itself upon whatever the issue is, they don’t sit and throw arrows and barbs at you because they are disgusted already in terms of the fact that this is such a problem.

They all can now see it because it’s as if the veils, that we’ve put in place in relationship to things, have been lifted. And then the consciousness comes into life as it is needed. That is a consciousness of awakening that is hidden, so to speak, by the Creator, purposely. The quality opens up from the top down, not from the bottom up. Meaning when it’s from the top down there are veils in place that kind of keep things that way.

We do not know how to see beyond the obvious. Everything that is rubbed in our faces is taken to be real. So, as a humanity, we have forgotten what divine revelation is about. The one being, of which we are all part, is an essence embedded within each of us.

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A perfect dive, circa 1975.  (Photo by Ed Lacey/Popperfoto/Getty Images)Here’s another interesting example that shows how the journey we take with our dreams during the night is connected, and the images evolve like a story – with the outcome of the story depending on how we respond to each scene in the dream. The first image shows the dreamer accepting something that he can’t really see. That acceptance leads to him eating a new food, a food with an aliveness to it. And that aliveness enables him to be sprinkled with water from a dive into the unconscious (into a pool). Each step takes the dreamer forward. Yet, if the response in the first dream was resistance rather than acceptance, the next images would have been completely different. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John:  In my dreams they’re very, very clear actually, in what they’re pointing out. And, of course, this is done through a sequence of dreams, and each dream makes the thing clearer and clearer.

It starts off a little vague, because in the meditation dream I realize that life is more dynamic, and vistas open up, when I go along with and I accept the guidance of a person that I know I can trust. This is a person whose face I don’t see in the dream, yet anyway, but I know to be a masculine presence who is introducing the change, or is part of the change.

But even though what I see is there, it isn’t at this point in time something that is unfamiliar to me. It’s not familiar to me, either, so it’s something that I am inclined, though, to go along with. And because I don’t reject the process, and go ahead and give the unfoldment a chance, I come to recognize and realize that this awakens me to a more expansive position, or set of possibilities.

The meaning is, the dream is pointing out that when I quit controlling the conditions around me and follow an expansiveness of the heart, I awaken. What I am coming to know is that I am able to embrace within more of the overall than I realized was possible. I am normally not a person who’s up for change. However, because the new vibration there carries an awakened expansiveness of the heart, I am finding myself to be more joyfully creative. There seems to be something to this as my heart is anxious to see what this new expansiveness reveals.

So then there’s a repeat dream in which I am looking at a new food that I am told has some organisms in it, but this is what you have whenever you are dealing with the natural. I am told in advance so I won’t be too reactive. In other words, the food there isn’t quite too my usual expectations. In other words, I’m used to having things in my food.

So I recall seeing something a little peculiar; I just recall I have a memory of that. It didn’t stop me in terms of partaking of the food because I was aware that this could be so, in other words, told in advance of what to expect. And so I was able to let go of what would normally be a concern and accept the food as is.

As I’m looking yet now again at the food, it’s a little bit like a dessert because the food has a white topping on it. And, as I look more closely, I see what looks to be a bug in it. I stick a pin-like object down there and extract what is either a small spider, or a fly, and to my surprise it’s still alive. In other words, it’s just not sitting there dormant or something because it looked dormant.

So I yell out to you to come and see what I have found, more curious than anything about what your reaction will be because you hate those kinds of things. To me it’s not that big of deal because I’ve come to kind of accept that there could be stuff in this, but I’m always surprised when I see it, too. Or, in other words, I’m not all that concerned because I was told at the beginning to expect some organisms that are part of this food.

So the meaning is: there is a curiosity and excitement at having found this new food that has another aliveness about it.

In the next dream I’m in a room waiting for an event to happen. I’m sitting in the back. I’m not feeling ready yet to check in. I’m kind of in the back row, and people are gathering, and it doesn’t look like anything is quite ready to happen. So I’m not paying attention to where I need to be sitting, and each seat has a birth date on it. And so you go and you sit where your birth date is at. That’s where you’re supposed to sit, and I’m sitting in the back row. I finally decide it’s time to move up to sit where I belong.

I’m standing in the row trying to make out where my seat is, because there’s all kinds of people sitting in this row. I do not see the seat that has my birth date on it, so I ask someone who is sitting in this area, perhaps in my seat, and she says, “Oh, am I sitting in your seat?” In exploring this further, she says, “I believe this…”,  meaning those who are in this area that were sitting in seats here, and she mentions the place where they were taken from this area.

And suddenly she gets up, along with others in this adjacent area, as they proceed out to wherever it is that they have to go. So I’m not sure what to do. Do I follow? I forgot kind of where she said they went.

And then suddenly the dream shifts, and I’m in an open stand area that is next to a diving pool. Okay, what this looks like is like sitting in a stadium, where you have stadium seats, only it’s a small stadium, and it’s out in the open. And then to the left there’s a very small barricade and on the other side of that is a pool, a diving pool.

And so suddenly, from the diving pool area, a guy jumps off the diving board and makes one of the nicest dives I’ve ever seen in terms of the entry into the water.

And I comment to the person next to me what a wonderful dive it was, you know, and it’s kind of amazing that that small splash, as small as it was, as fate would have it, it even sprinkled some droplets of water on me – even though it was a perfect dive. I mean so it was a surprise that I got hit by those small droplets after such a wonderful, almost no splash dive.

So as I look across at the diving pool area, I see this guy’s girlfriend moving in position to do a dive. I comment to the friend next to me that I bet she is as good as he is in terms of being a wonderful diver.

The meaning of this is, this is a guidance dream providing me with more information in terms of an evolvement. And, as things evolve, I observe that this takes into account a plunge into things in order to awaken anew; plunge into the water, or into the unconscious, or a plunge in some fashion in order to awaken anew. And it’s an intended plunge; it’s something that one knows how to do, that one’s equipped to do.

And from the prior dreams, I have a better idea what this is about. I was okay in those dreams in accepting the unfoldment therein, and partaking of what was offered. The message in the prior dream referred to consciousness. And the deeper meaning is, I believe that I have gotten involved in an aliveness that seeks to make its presence felt in life in a newly awakened way. My challenge is to pay attention to how it is that this is meant to unfold.

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