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pur67What do we hold onto, in ourselves, when things begin to get out of hand? For many, it is the love of a family, or of an individual, for others it is a God, or a belief system. But there is a great strength within us, designed to help us navigate the unknown, and it is our human design. We are absolutely meant to find our way into the service of the whole, yet we also need to survive whatever we come across so that we are able to continue working for creation. And it is that combination, knowing that we have a greater purpose, and that we have been designed for it, that is our best path through any adversity. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In the next dream, or the dream that actually was preceding this, was this thing where every page I would look at the bugs would suddenly be all over it, you know blot it out, and I would turn the page and the bugs would just sweep into that page. And I would turn the next page and the bugs would sweep into that page.

It was a question of this accentuation of this heebie-jeebie thing that I feel, in which something is falling apart, is breaking down. It’s temporarily broken.

And then also with that there was an image of where this guy could take his head and he could stick it through a hole on the back of a chair, that was about yay big, and so to avoid some issue or to turn his attention differently, he would take and he would stick his head through this hole.

I was just amazed how he got his head through this little small hole. I was wondering if I could even put my head through that small hole; I don’t think I could, but he certainly could.

And so when you take and put all of that together, those two images in the dream, what I’m doing is I’m describing a breakdown in the outer, that I’m feeling within, and am trying to reach beyond, and I am carrying an unsettling sensation I can’t shake of an impending chaos – which is something I’m not prepared for – that will overrun everywhere I turn, while I seek to deny and not face it. Interesting huh?

That’s the condition that I seem to be encumbered with in the outer. But the meditation dream is much more interesting in that it portrays something more in terms of how something can work. It also portrays how I am that isn’t conscious enough in that process, but does portray how it can come together and work.

In this dream I see myself shooting off flare markers into a rectangular field. I have a sense of the field, it’s maybe about 80 acres or so, just to take a guess, and it’s a flat field. I don’t get the memo, but it is said that when you shoot these flare markers you can’t go over a certain line. You stay within the center of this field; you can’t go over a particular line. And from there you can shoot these markers out to the edges of the field.

In other words, this is how you’re able to denote your circumference of your overall beingness of this place is you shoot these flares out. Well, I heard that you’re supposed to stay and not go beyond a certain line, but here I am with my flare gun – and you only have so many markers in order to denote this for purposes of being able to come back to it, for recollection purposes, or something – because in the depth of where I’m at in this dream state I can see everything plainly and clearly, but that isn’t the point.

The point is to be able to come back to these markers, but I don’t necessarily recognize the importance. And so I don’t stay where the line’s at, and I walk around the peripheral of it, and shoot the flares off and, of course, that leads to a disaster because these marker flares I eventually run out of before I’ve made it all the way around the field. If I would’ve stayed more in the center and shot from the inner and shot out towards the outer, it would’ve been different.

Now fortunately there was a woman that followed the prime directive of realizing that you had to have things marked, or the ability to look at everything in the circumference of things. So she stayed where the line was at and shot these flares out to denote markers for purposes of recollection or remembrance.

I have to seal that image of this area so that when I come back and this is no longer crystal clear, you know, because it might be clear in what I’m dreaming, but it’s not going to be crystal clear when I come back to this place. That from the flares that I can find and such, and from having documented at a depth inside of myself this gap where no flares are at, between the two points I can impute the other if I can just hold onto a deep, deep, recollection that this was something that I can’t lean on the remembrance to anymore. I have to have a direct knowingness that is held with inside of myself.

In other words, I don’t have the tools. The idea of being able to come back to the markers is almost an idea that still incorporates somewhat of a sense of the senses, where you can leave notes to yourself, so to speak. But a deeper depth, which this dream is portraying, is that to really get it you have to somehow or another have access to the knowingness from having freeze framed it, so to speak, at an inner, inner depth.

So what occurred last night was that was the depth, that was the deeper depth, in terms of the meditation. But in terms of the way that that is approached, the way that is being approached, the way that is unfolding, that’s a whole other thing.

That approach has to not get torn asunder, or impacted, by things that are going on that are going to be hard to contend with. There’s like bugs everywhere, denial and everything, because certainly it just can’t be, you know, and yet it will be.

And yet, at the same time, in spite of all of that going on, the table place setting is that of the meditation dream in which one has to not lose those deep, deep inflections that are freeze-framed in your nature. Don’t shock yourself out of those. There’s a need to hold onto them, not let the outer create the amnesia that then spills – as the amnesia of the outer dictates – spills into a letting go of the freeze frame vibrational qualities that are just imbedded naturally, and function within a depth of one’s self, in spite of the outer conditions of things. Isn’t that interesting how it all pulls together?

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