Posts Tagged ‘chaos in a dream’

homingpigeonHow would you feel if the homing pigeon you raised never came home? As humans, we have been designed for a greater purpose than the cultural-focused world around us offers. Deep down, we all know this, but it is the highest aspect of our freedom of choice to be able to deny the spiritual urge we feel, and to continue to live a life focused on the personal. Yet, do we ever consider the pain this causes the universe? Humans are of the highest pedigree in organic life, yet from us the universe gets the least response. It can only cause a great sadness at higher levels. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: And then in the sleep dream, I am shown, and told, that in order to be effective I need to be in the heat of the action. Or, to put it in words as a meaning, contrast is important. There is something about outer contrast and projections that heightens the importance of stillness, and the significance of the primordial condition.

And this next one is a funny little dream. So, in this dream, there is an old woman I am taking care of who lives with me, or, in other words, she’s been taken out of an old folks’ home, somehow or another I’ve done that. And I have this apartment, and it’s like on the third floor, it’s like three flights of stairs that you have to go up to get up there.

And, of course, she’s an old person. When she looks out the window and sees the other people walking around in the street, that are from her old folks’ home, in a way she’d like to go down there but she can’t because of the steps and stuff like that.

So I ask her if she wants to go down there, but at the same time know that it is too much effort for her to go from here to there – or at least that’s the perception. You know, that’s the barrier that one puts in there, kind of an aloof barrier, right? And out of the blue she indicates she wants something more. She indicates she wants a glass of whiskey. I know she doesn’t ordinarily drink, so this comes up as a surprise to me. Isn’t that a funny dream?

So the meaning is something is missing in a person’s psyche to life if we live in the outer, removed from the conditions of those around us. To be like that is to be out of touch with life. Isolation leads to separation, abandonment, and aloneness. We are creatures meant to experience the heat and burden of the times; capable of experiencing the heat and burden of the times.

And also meant to experience the stillness at the same time, but not exclusively; it’s not this versus that. We are also here as a mirror to the essence of our being, in a caring way, and with an essential connectivity. We are intertwined in spite of untenable outer conditions. Accordingly, what appears, from our limited perspective, to be wayward, is actually a reflection of our isolation and separation from a greater wholeness.

And then, in the last one, I’m looking at the principle of the great transformation, which has to do with relating to an outer that is always in chaos: the great push. So, within that, there is a great push. It’s like a voice that’s talking about a great push that’s needed. The great push I’m hearing inside has to do with finding the stillness within the chaos – without isolating, or insulating one’s self from the chaos. it’s got to be done right in the midst of the whole shebang.

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eye-of-the-stormIt may seem counterintuitive to realize that we have to bring stillness into the chaos of life. And that means our personal stillness. We will never be able to calm all the situations we come across, but we can always control the inner stillness – once we have built that essence within us. And we build it through conscious practice, and we won’t be very good or last very long to begin with. But, over time, our systems will see that it is important to us, and support our desire to have such stillness. Then it will be our serene radiation, in a chaotic scene, that will bring a sense of calm and relief to those nearby. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Well I was a little unsettled last night, and I feel like the dream I had was a dream I’d had before. It was just a bit chaotic.

In this dream I’m a counselor, but I seem to live in a cabin that adjoins other cabins, that adjoins an area where people also go out and party. Then the office is down some stairs and over in front of maybe a lodge and things. And so I check with a secretary that I’m going to have clients coming, and I had run into some clients and tried to get them scheduled. It seemed to be couples more that I was working with. Everything’s just a little chaotic.

One woman I’m going to see I think by herself, and I’m trying to go back to my cabin, and I’m thinking I’ll go through the backdoor because there seem to be so many people around. And I start to go down one dark way and I know it’s a shortcut, but then I look there and it’s all dark on both sides and you’d almost have to crawl part of the way. So I’m deliberating, because I’m a little bit started in that passageway with her behind me.

Then I look again and I see what looks kind of like an ominous man standing in this passageway, down near the end of it, and I think this just isn’t that smart. You can’t even see what’s anywhere in here; it’s too dark, it’s long, and I don’t like the figure of that man there.

So we back out and I take her another way. Now, I still bring up to a passageway that’s a shortcut into my backdoor, but just when we’re about to get there some policeman stops us because he thinks we’re breaking into my place – because we’re not going in the usual way.

So then I have to end up, I think, going through where the party, or the patio, is to go and see her at my place. And then, as I leave there and I’m going back to the reception area, I run into an area where different people are sitting, and several clients are there, and I introduce myself because it feels like I’ve met one of them and her husband but I hadn’t met the others. And I’m not sure about the timing; like I am not sure if I am actually supposed to see them next, or if I had other people scheduled.

And then the receptionist is a little miffed with me because by taking someone in the back way she hadn’t realized I was with somebody. Then I realized that my next group of people I have to see it’s actually three couples, or six people, that are sharing children that they’ve all had amongst them, between marriages and divorces.

So then I take them back to my place and I’m trying to sort them out – so I actually get out a blackboard. I’m trying to put names up, having one of them put everybody’s names up, and which kids are with whom, when, and where, so I can at least just sort out the players and know what’s going on here. And I think that was when I woke up.

John: Although it’s hard to see, in the dream, what you’re doing is you’re contending, or evaluating, how to relate to chaos from the standpoint of amidst the people, or quietly. In other words, the chaos is just the natural order of things.

The place that you have, if you go in the front door it’s just going to be over the top chaos, and yet the people you work with live in a kind of chaos. In other words, you’re having to sort something out. And so the idea is: can you isolate that sort of thing in order to get it so that it makes sense, or balances out?

So what you find out is that on your first attempt trying to come in through a back way you create isolation, you create a distance, you create gaps or barriers. There’s a darkness. So what you’re doing is you’re taking something that exists, in a realm of chaos, and you’re trying to deal with it in an isolated way – and that seems to raise more questions than it answers. And then you go at it again, only this time the situation has gotten louder in terms of the kind of chaos, the nature of the chaos, the complexity of it.

In other words, before it was just like one person or something, and now all of a sudden it’s three couples and they have all the kids, and which kids go to which? And you’re going to try to do that in an isolated way, a quiet way. And so the whole point of it is, you can’t avoid it.

In other words, if you ponder that image of having to deal with three couples trying to figure out how to pull all of that together, in relationship to separating it out from the chaos, coming at it in an isolated way, you find yourself unable to make a proper distinguishment. Yet this is a choice that you’re trying to make because going into the front, or facing it head on, seems way too wild.

So what is this dream trying to say? Well, the theme of the dreaming last night had to do with examining and taking a look at the fact that we live in a life in which around us is nothing but constant chaos. The outer events of things, our senses and everything is constantly engaged in that, and it is a reflection. And out of this chaos, one has to find the stillness. Out of the chaos… you’re dealing with the principle of the great transformation.

In the chaos you’re meant to catch up with the stillness. The tendency is to try to screen the stillness separate from the chaos – as if you could distinguish this over here, and that over there, and you actually can’t do it. This is a key bit of information in that it’s easy to recognize, or to come to know, or to see that in the up and downness of the breath is a lot of bewilderment and spiritual illusion, or, you might say, the flux of transformation and chaos. And that there is a stillness, but you are not going to catch up with the stillness by taking and pushing away and trying to create an isolation, or a separation, from the ordinary chaos of things. You’re in the midst of that. You have to contend with it.

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xsfYesterday, in A Deeper Part, we saw a turf war between elements of the inner life. And some battles are not easily won: what is entrenched in us, and what is satisfied by our inner status quo, can put up tremendous resistance to the new: to the baby or child figure in a dream. Here the battle rages on, and the figure of a minister (spirituality) is running away to the new life (wife and baby). Yet because this type of outplay happens within us, our system seeks always to reconcile the different sides. In this case, that leads to a scene of chaos and plague! (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: In the next dream, it feels like at first I’m kind of observing, there’s this small town, and there’s a minister in the town who has left the wife, or woman, he was with originally. I have the impression he left her for this other woman, because the other woman has had a baby. And it’s a really sweet baby.

And so he and this woman that he’s with now, and the baby, it feels like they’re going to travel somewhere, maybe just even visiting somewhere for a day, and they’ve gotten a train. And I’ve noticed this, and then I seem to go back to the church that he came from, because it’s like I just kind want to observe the scene, like I’m kind of feeling the energy of the baby and her, maybe some people at the church, and how do they feel about all this?

And so, after observing this, and observing the congregation, and looking at the church a little, it’s like I have the sense I want to go back and get on the train, and find him and the woman and the baby. But when I get on the train, the train suddenly has several cars now of people, and it’s very chaotic.

The first car I walk through is like chaotic, and the second car it feels like people are spread out on the floor, and there’s blood, like maybe everybody died of some virus, or plague, on that one. And then I have a little more urgency to start walking through the third car to find them, because I can’t seem to find them. And I think that’s when I wake up.

John: That’s an image in which there was a certain established mannerism connection that existed, in terms of an overall, in terms of a certain overall, and that mannerism has been skewered by another variable that took what was set and caused it to go out grasping for things, trying to establish a whole new way. And what ended up happening was that it got put into a dire, very diseased, distressed condition, and that, try as you might, you couldn’t do anything in terms of finding this in its distressed and dire condition.

So you can’t find something in its distressed and dire condition. So the whole thing starts off with something that has a quality about it that isn’t able to handle the quality that it has. In other words, it’s a gifted kid, he’s been brought in the situation, you’ve had something to do with bringing this to be, just like the minister is gifted in his way to be able to relate to a congregation, in that he has a certain quality about him that’s established. Then the gifted kid acts up, goes catatonic, and is about to destroy everything in his environment.

And then the minister goes off into something else that looks better in the other side of things, and finds himself on a train, or appears to be going on a train, appears to be going away, and you are looking to try to figure out if there’s a way of bringing him back, to pull the two together. But you’re not able to find him because everything on this train is in a state of disorder, and diseased stress.

It’s like the first dream and the third dream are correlated, from the standpoint in that there is a gap in there. In other words, the gap that exists is the cohesion that had been between the minister and his congregation, and between this genius and his school.

That in-betweenness is interesting, in terms of something that needs to be found in that way of awakening, in that there is something about you, there is this aspect about you. In other words, more so than however it is that you’ve been, there is this aspect about you that needs to come to know itself, and that sits in between.

Both your first dream, and your third dream, none of that is happening. That second dream offers, or suggests, an awakening because it’s in the second dream that, as a consequence of whatever it is that’s been happening in life, you come to realize that you are not necessarily what you seem, in that you have a whole aspected quality nature inside of yourself that you don’t know anything about, and that you need to catch up with, that you need to find, and that that is apt to change the way you could be.

Because this dream seems to be an answer to the first and second dream, because either that or you reverb back and don’t get the memo, because the first dream there is something in the setup that has huge possibilities, and then there’s the derangement that happens. And, what went haywire? Well something in the middle got missed, and that’s the indigenous, or the in-the-blood quality of something. It somehow went bye-bye, got forgotten, got lost. Something especially strange vibrationally shorted all that out.

And in the second dream it was also like a type of shorting out, in that, at first, you had something there that was acceptable. In other words, a minister and his congregation, and a setness, maybe, with his wife, that then all of a sudden needed a different pizzazz. That got shorted out, so to speak, the steady-as-she-goes got shorted out, and now this whole thing is thrown into a whole other way of being, totally askewed way of being. And, in this askewed way of being, the minister and whatever he’s going off doing has jumped the train, has got people dying of the plague, and chaos everywhere, and nowhere to be found.

This is not painting a very good predictive picture of things, in relationship to the scenario, but what it is pointing out, which was something I was pondering, too, what it is pointing out is it’s pointing out something in the middle of all of this. The little process. In other words, the shorting out word, where what is behind the shorting out, or not shorting out? And it has to do with catching up with something of a greater knowingness about one’s self, that’s in the blood, or in one’s nature, that hasn’t come to the fruition it needs to come to.

That’s interesting. So it’s almost as if the whole chemistry of the stuff is a haywire-ism, but within that haywire-ism is something more that could come to fruition.

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