Posts Tagged ‘chaos in a dream’

gilbert-garcin-surrealism-in-black-and-white-5Perhaps you’ve noticed it, in these recent days, that things that once seemed so important now are showing us how shallow they actually are. The veils of things rise slowly in our consciousness, in a way that we never actually see them happen – and we don’t even know they are there. Yet when these veils fall away, even briefly, we have a chance to see them in proper perspective. And, when we do, we begin to remember what is really important in life. The question is, how quickly do we then forget? (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: In my last dream, it felt like I had gone into the office of somebody. She had us actually sit on a thing that was halfway on the floor, and she was like redoing my fingernails and something else.

But right before that she’d been doing something that was really kind of sabotaging or, I was almost like trying to get away from her, but I needed her to redo the nails. But the fingernail polish wasn’t coming off right. And she’s kind of scattered and somebody else comes in because she’s running late, and then she has to run into the other room and let her boss out. And so I’m just trying to sit and actually get quiet because I seem to have to let it finish.

At another point I go over to a case in the room, I’m looking at things that are in that case, which have interesting designs on them. And I tell her about some glass jewelry people are making now that’s very hardened glass, but it’s kind of intricate. And then I just sit down and feel like maybe if I just sit down and be real quiet, she’ll be able to finish what she’s doing because I have to get the polish changed.

But before that it felt like she was aggressive in some way, before I had gone into that room, and I’d been trying to stay away from her.

John: So the theme of the dreaming last night had to do with being able to take and access other levels of oneself, but only by first coming to grips with the way that we create a cause-and-effect orientation that gets in the way.

And so, the thing that’s notable about the initial vibration of things, in other words, you have an intent where you have to change a certain demeanor in terms of yourself. And the atmosphere that you find yourself having to do it in is revved up, or it’s aggressive, as you call it. And there is something that’s out of sync, or too chaotic, for this to happen as it needs to happen. And so, you have no choice, as far as you can see, but to try to take that which is chaotic and bring it to a stillness.

Now the part of the breath where the chaotic, and the revved up, and all of that is at, is on the in-breath. And the problem that exists is that, at this particular point of orientation, what is lacking is timing. So you have this on the in-breath, as a spaciality. Like I said, the theme of the dreaming had to do with being able to access other levels of oneself. And these are levels that are outside of time and space.

So you’re starting in something which is dense from the standpoint that it’s located on an aspect of the in-breath that needs to let go in some way to become more still. You need to be more still in order for something that you know needs to happen, to happen.

So, the person that’s doing your nails represents time. And so you know that everything can be okay if the timing comes together with the spaciousness, but for the timing to come together with the spaciousness, when you’re in a spaciousness that’s revved up, or chaotic, or the scenario seems aggressive, and where it’s all abstractive distractive – and you know that you have to stop that. You have to let go of that demeanor, which means you have to put it into a stillness. So that from a stillness, then, it can be in a mode that is ready to be touched by timing.

So when the timing is right – and the timing can’t be right if you’re spinning out – when the timing is right, which means when you get into a stillness so that you can wait for the timing to hit, the time is the out-breath. The in-breath is the spaciality; that’s space. So when the timing is right, then they come together, you find yourself in an orientation, now, in which, first of all what you’ve done is you’ve broken the bonds of a certain aspected demeanor that’s limited because of a discombobulation in terms of the breath. When you break the demeanor that keeps you in manifestation, and the denseness in manifestation, and you’re in a time and space outside of time and space, because time and space exists as something in manifestation.

Your dream doesn’t go there, but that is what happens next is now you’re in the orientation, or you’re in the stillness inside of yourself. In other words, you’ve pulled everything into a greater stillness, and it’s said that at interval where the in-breath turns the out-breath, from that traveling in God you can come to know the other levels that exist.

So you go beyond that, and you go to a point where you are able to experience the overall essence of all that there is. And because of the timing coming together with things, you can experience this with a knowingness.

In your dream you just knew it somehow, naturally, and that was that in this chaos of a spaciousness, you had to stop, and you had to find the stillness, because until you did that, till you quit the doing, or the spiraling, or this revving up, or the identification of something being aggressive or whatever you want to call it, until you brought things into a stillness, something couldn’t happen. And that which needed to happen was the timing, to come into cohesion with an aspect of yourself, that you had let go of, that is in the in-breath, the spaciousness.

The importance of doing this was way more than just breaking the limitations of the journeying of the in-breath and out-breath that go back and forth. Not just to break that as a reflective means that can keep you going in a circle and never getting free, but to drop into, and be shifted into, the spaciality in a way so that what’s in that spaciality, which is the great emptiness, the great nothingness, the great, great stillness, the essence of everything that exists, so that that can come out. And the importance of timing is essential, because none of it can happen without the aspect of the timing coming together.

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homingpigeonHow would you feel if the homing pigeon you raised never came home? As humans, we have been designed for a greater purpose than the cultural-focused world around us offers. Deep down, we all know this, but it is the highest aspect of our freedom of choice to be able to deny the spiritual urge we feel, and to continue to live a life focused on the personal. Yet, do we ever consider the pain this causes the universe? Humans are of the highest pedigree in organic life, yet from us the universe gets the least response. It can only cause a great sadness at higher levels. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: And then in the sleep dream, I am shown, and told, that in order to be effective I need to be in the heat of the action. Or, to put it in words as a meaning, contrast is important. There is something about outer contrast and projections that heightens the importance of stillness, and the significance of the primordial condition.

And this next one is a funny little dream. So, in this dream, there is an old woman I am taking care of who lives with me, or, in other words, she’s been taken out of an old folks’ home, somehow or another I’ve done that. And I have this apartment, and it’s like on the third floor, it’s like three flights of stairs that you have to go up to get up there.

And, of course, she’s an old person. When she looks out the window and sees the other people walking around in the street, that are from her old folks’ home, in a way she’d like to go down there but she can’t because of the steps and stuff like that.

So I ask her if she wants to go down there, but at the same time know that it is too much effort for her to go from here to there – or at least that’s the perception. You know, that’s the barrier that one puts in there, kind of an aloof barrier, right? And out of the blue she indicates she wants something more. She indicates she wants a glass of whiskey. I know she doesn’t ordinarily drink, so this comes up as a surprise to me. Isn’t that a funny dream?

So the meaning is something is missing in a person’s psyche to life if we live in the outer, removed from the conditions of those around us. To be like that is to be out of touch with life. Isolation leads to separation, abandonment, and aloneness. We are creatures meant to experience the heat and burden of the times; capable of experiencing the heat and burden of the times.

And also meant to experience the stillness at the same time, but not exclusively; it’s not this versus that. We are also here as a mirror to the essence of our being, in a caring way, and with an essential connectivity. We are intertwined in spite of untenable outer conditions. Accordingly, what appears, from our limited perspective, to be wayward, is actually a reflection of our isolation and separation from a greater wholeness.

And then, in the last one, I’m looking at the principle of the great transformation, which has to do with relating to an outer that is always in chaos: the great push. So, within that, there is a great push. It’s like a voice that’s talking about a great push that’s needed. The great push I’m hearing inside has to do with finding the stillness within the chaos – without isolating, or insulating one’s self from the chaos. it’s got to be done right in the midst of the whole shebang.

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eye-of-the-stormIt may seem counterintuitive to realize that we have to bring stillness into the chaos of life. And that means our personal stillness. We will never be able to calm all the situations we come across, but we can always control the inner stillness – once we have built that essence within us. And we build it through conscious practice, and we won’t be very good or last very long to begin with. But, over time, our systems will see that it is important to us, and support our desire to have such stillness. Then it will be our serene radiation, in a chaotic scene, that will bring a sense of calm and relief to those nearby. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Well I was a little unsettled last night, and I feel like the dream I had was a dream I’d had before. It was just a bit chaotic.

In this dream I’m a counselor, but I seem to live in a cabin that adjoins other cabins, that adjoins an area where people also go out and party. Then the office is down some stairs and over in front of maybe a lodge and things. And so I check with a secretary that I’m going to have clients coming, and I had run into some clients and tried to get them scheduled. It seemed to be couples more that I was working with. Everything’s just a little chaotic.

One woman I’m going to see I think by herself, and I’m trying to go back to my cabin, and I’m thinking I’ll go through the backdoor because there seem to be so many people around. And I start to go down one dark way and I know it’s a shortcut, but then I look there and it’s all dark on both sides and you’d almost have to crawl part of the way. So I’m deliberating, because I’m a little bit started in that passageway with her behind me.

Then I look again and I see what looks kind of like an ominous man standing in this passageway, down near the end of it, and I think this just isn’t that smart. You can’t even see what’s anywhere in here; it’s too dark, it’s long, and I don’t like the figure of that man there.

So we back out and I take her another way. Now, I still bring up to a passageway that’s a shortcut into my backdoor, but just when we’re about to get there some policeman stops us because he thinks we’re breaking into my place – because we’re not going in the usual way.

So then I have to end up, I think, going through where the party, or the patio, is to go and see her at my place. And then, as I leave there and I’m going back to the reception area, I run into an area where different people are sitting, and several clients are there, and I introduce myself because it feels like I’ve met one of them and her husband but I hadn’t met the others. And I’m not sure about the timing; like I am not sure if I am actually supposed to see them next, or if I had other people scheduled.

And then the receptionist is a little miffed with me because by taking someone in the back way she hadn’t realized I was with somebody. Then I realized that my next group of people I have to see it’s actually three couples, or six people, that are sharing children that they’ve all had amongst them, between marriages and divorces.

So then I take them back to my place and I’m trying to sort them out – so I actually get out a blackboard. I’m trying to put names up, having one of them put everybody’s names up, and which kids are with whom, when, and where, so I can at least just sort out the players and know what’s going on here. And I think that was when I woke up.

John: Although it’s hard to see, in the dream, what you’re doing is you’re contending, or evaluating, how to relate to chaos from the standpoint of amidst the people, or quietly. In other words, the chaos is just the natural order of things.

The place that you have, if you go in the front door it’s just going to be over the top chaos, and yet the people you work with live in a kind of chaos. In other words, you’re having to sort something out. And so the idea is: can you isolate that sort of thing in order to get it so that it makes sense, or balances out?

So what you find out is that on your first attempt trying to come in through a back way you create isolation, you create a distance, you create gaps or barriers. There’s a darkness. So what you’re doing is you’re taking something that exists, in a realm of chaos, and you’re trying to deal with it in an isolated way – and that seems to raise more questions than it answers. And then you go at it again, only this time the situation has gotten louder in terms of the kind of chaos, the nature of the chaos, the complexity of it.

In other words, before it was just like one person or something, and now all of a sudden it’s three couples and they have all the kids, and which kids go to which? And you’re going to try to do that in an isolated way, a quiet way. And so the whole point of it is, you can’t avoid it.

In other words, if you ponder that image of having to deal with three couples trying to figure out how to pull all of that together, in relationship to separating it out from the chaos, coming at it in an isolated way, you find yourself unable to make a proper distinguishment. Yet this is a choice that you’re trying to make because going into the front, or facing it head on, seems way too wild.

So what is this dream trying to say? Well, the theme of the dreaming last night had to do with examining and taking a look at the fact that we live in a life in which around us is nothing but constant chaos. The outer events of things, our senses and everything is constantly engaged in that, and it is a reflection. And out of this chaos, one has to find the stillness. Out of the chaos… you’re dealing with the principle of the great transformation.

In the chaos you’re meant to catch up with the stillness. The tendency is to try to screen the stillness separate from the chaos – as if you could distinguish this over here, and that over there, and you actually can’t do it. This is a key bit of information in that it’s easy to recognize, or to come to know, or to see that in the up and downness of the breath is a lot of bewilderment and spiritual illusion, or, you might say, the flux of transformation and chaos. And that there is a stillness, but you are not going to catch up with the stillness by taking and pushing away and trying to create an isolation, or a separation, from the ordinary chaos of things. You’re in the midst of that. You have to contend with it.

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