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ma0sdefault2For a person who finds themselves on a spiritual journey, there is often a moment when, in looking back at their life, events that didn’t seem to make any sense suddenly could be viewed as being a stepping stone on a bigger path. And events in a life, as well as the dream images, are constantly trying to nudge a person, first toward the purpose of life, and then toward their purpose within that. Why would it be like that? Because humans have freedom of choice, so it’s not automatic for us to respond. We have to agree to it. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: So, in part of my dream, the part that I remember less well, it felt like that I was going into a room I maybe saw my old friend, but he was there with somebody. But as I would go back and forth into that room, I didn’t necessarily want other people I was with, especially if they were younger, to see him because he smoked. It’s like I didn’t want them exposed to the smoke – but it didn’t seem to bother me.

In that same sense, it felt like I was trying to help some people find some places to park some vehicles, and there might be some horses that would park there, too, but the way it was laid out there might be a bus that would come, then there might be a little parking area and you might have to park it directly across from each other. And, again, I was concerned about whether people would be able to breathe correctly if they were right across from something that had exhaust.

But the main part of the dream that went on and on and on had less images and it was more like I was either going back and forth, or up and down, all the time between two areas. And again kind of concerned a little with breathing right, and maybe concerned a little with whether other people saw some of what I saw, not particularly wanting them to, but mostly I remember that sensation of going the back and the forth or the up and the down all the time, and that seemed to be what I was doing most of the dream. It didn’t have images with it, it was more of a sensation.

John: You’re doing the technique. I’ll tell you the dream behind the technique thing. I wrote up the technique and then you just were describing yourself trying to do the technique.

So, in the dream, there are superimposed designed steps that unfold. Of course you can take and try to walk through the field of those steps, because you are that whole process that’s evolved. Or you can just look at this in the generic terms that there are these steps that unfold.

In other words, as you go along, and you’re doing things in life, you are in the outer. You don’t realize that there’s something else going on inside of you, and so things just keep unfolding for the longest time. You’re not aware of there being something else.

But then there comes a point when you realize, and this kind of hits you by surprise, that everything that you do is part of a designed plan, and practically all of the steps that you take, what you’re thinking that you’re doing that generally is associated with some particular perspective or situation that you’re living in, behind each unfoldment is something else that’s inflecting from more deeply.

So what’s happening is there is this master design over things, and each of us then goes through these steps that are all in conjunction with this master design. And first of all you start off as a demerge. That’s a step which means you don’t have a physical body or anything like that, you’re just a vibration, and then you just keep evolving with these vibrations, going through things with these vibrations.

Well, initially those steps are an unfoldment design, and that what they do as an unfoldment, as a predestined unfoldment I should say, the design comes into place after you get to a particular point where a signature note has to be imputed into the human being. And that step, then, is the me, you know the quality or the characteristic within the whole that is you, that is a little different note than something that is just ordained, predetermined to unfold.

So the way to visualize this, and the way you feel this, is you are a type of will that’s unfolding that hasn’t yet constellated, at the very beginning it hasn’t yet constellated to anything that has a type of consciousness. And then when it gets to the point where it is meant to have a consciousness, then there’s the imprint that takes place, and then after the imprint takes place, then there’s a whole bunch of steps that occur as that little imprint then is part of what unfolds.

In other words, you’re biased based upon the signature note that you came that you had as one of those steps. And each signature note is a little different. And so there is a design, or master plan, or predestination in terms of the unfoldment, but with each person taking and going through each of those designed steps veiled, or biased, by their own little signature note.

And then as you get towards the end of the process, in other words, it’s like there’s a little beginning, and then there comes the signature note that’s your definition, and then there’s a whole sequence of steps. Within that sequence of steps are steps that you’re taking that a teacher can see is the journey of that soul in relationship to its quality or signature note.

And for the longest time that whole process in between, that whole process in between is kind of a bewilderment because you’re buying into everything that happens at each of those steps. Then when you get far enough into that, when it’s determined that you need to start to inflect back to what all of that was about, you then have two steps right together, one step and two steps.

Then you have these two steps way far in the process and those two steps wake you up, they may start to bring you back. You start to for the first time realizing that there has been a design and, as a result of those two steps there, you’re at this point of where you’re starting to recall. You’re starting to realize that if you were to look back at the whole unfoldment process and all of the steps that you’ve gone through in life, that you thought was about this and thought was about that, you come to realize that you were completely wrong. It was about something else too at a much deeper level, and you took it to be this way and it was about that.

So now you’re able to tell that you’re part of something that is an unfolding divine. Now that that is waking up, now that that other is there where your attention switches to the whole – because you’re actually starting to look at yourself as a component of the whole, when before you had a kind of conflict of interest introduction there.

That was the mood and the tone that you unfolded by, so for the longest time you didn’t realize that there was something of a deeper depth underneath that signature note that really inflected what was the design, and how you’re part of the design, have always been part of the design, and that there is this preordained, or predestined quality to your being.

You come to figure and find that out when you hit those other two “me” steps way, way, way down the way. That’s when, to your shock and surprise, you come to realize that there’s a meaningful synchronicity, there’s a meaningful coincidence, to all of this.

When those steps come in that is when you’re able to then kind of bring the future to the present. What does that mean? What that means is that now all of a sudden you start to see that this has all been a design, and that you have been living in accordance with the design. And now all of a sudden you are able to ask the question, what’s going on? And kind of have an answer in terms of your connection. You can kind of see a linkage, an intertwining.

So the steps of life, then, instead of being a bewilderment, become something that is knowable, something that you can accept, something that you can go along with. And so now what continues to unfold is a closer and closer recognition into the overall, into the meaningfulness of something that is the big picture – outside of the alienation of the original one signature note that still has to sort itself out and be rescued. And as this gets more and more pristine, that is when you start to catch up with the vibration that is in keeping with the orders, that turns you back into the process of traveling in God, we’ll say, where you’re connected to the design.

When that opens up, that’s when it all starts to make sense. Every bit of how you’ve been starts to make sense. You can accept that. That’s when you can then accept your true inner power. That’s what it means to accept your inner power is to know the wakeup of those two steps of Kundalini energy inside of yourself – and then you follow in those footsteps, those footsteps follow out in terms of listening and abiding in that.

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journey_across_the_mountains_by_wildwassAs her dream images from the night continue (see A Perfect Conduit), Jeane finds herself shifting between climbing a mountain to cross a border, to the mundane of getting a haircut, to moving her father to a new state. What these images have in common is the theme of transitioning to a new zone. The mundane aspect of the haircut shows there are still old things that need to be let go of before the transition to the new area can be made. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: Then I remember a little bit of a dream where I seem to be climbing with some others. I’m climbing in the mountains in a foreign country. They’re very steep. 

It’s like I’m trying to get across the border, but what I remember the border is in these mountains, it’s very uneven, and you don’t even quite know when you’ve crossed it, and it’s steep, very steep.

You might reach up to climb somewhere, and maybe you can get through there and maybe you can’t, but then there are little villages or people that maybe come and finally help you on that climb. And I think it was on that climb that I saw an area where maybe the ocean came in and it carved this great big swath up the mountainside, and then it would retreat.

And it was different colors there, maybe there are caves there, too, because that comes back in the next dream.

John: All that this dream is really doing, and I have this component in mine, too, is that it’s showing that you actually have a certain focus and intention to take and go a place that’s the beyond of the beyond.

And so you kind of Hail Mary out like that, but the importance of the dream is to show that you have help. In your particular case it’s just a matter of flow. The villagers are going to help you as you have to transcend this journey, or go through this process. It puts you at the in-between state between two places.

Jeane: So then the dream I was having, when you decided we should wake up, in that dream it feels like I’m part of a family. 

I’m young, so I have parents. I’ve gone in to get my hair cut. Well, the hairdresser is a little distracted when she has other things going on, and so it’s like first she wants me to sit down one place, and then she gets kind of captivated by how my hair is looking in one area. 

I think I’m kind of a redhead even. Then she has to go outside for a smoke, so I have to find the right place to sit and the right chair to be on. I finally find this black chair that’s her chair. 

Then there was something she wanted me to stick under my forehead like a cap, which captures the hair so it doesn’t drip on you. I’m trying to figure out how it’s going to catch the hair, and how to get it on right because it just goes half of the way around your head – and where does it go exactly?

I’m going through all of those and finding this little scooting chair to sit on, waiting for her to come back from getting her cigarette. Then my mind is going to the fact that my father’s moving. We’ve been working in this one area, it feels like in Colorado, and he’s going to be moving.

And I see that when we move, he’s actually going to discover that place in the mountains where the water comes rushing in and you have caves up above. And I can see how the water comes in, and it creates all these kind of wondrous colors in the rock. 

It’s just like really a sight to see because it goes up really high, and it has all these different colors in the rocks, and maybe you can go up even higher and there are caves. This is an area maybe even where people would have protested war, and maybe my dad works in the defense industry, so I realize that when he sees all of this it’s really going to change some things for him because it’s not something he has been exposed to before. 

That’s when you woke me up.

John: That’s actually very deep again, because the whole jerking out of a situation, which was like a rescue, or a help, or an extraction, it’s like you are part of a natural flow, and when you’re part of a natural flow, things help you.

What you’re doing is very arduous and difficult, but things help you. And even though it looks rough and ragged and arduous and difficult, it actually is mountain, waterfalls and things… I mean, you know, it goes from a stark image to an image in which something is in a whole different schematic.

In other words, you actually are going into a whole new zone of yourself. You’re dropping some sort of energetic motif that had been holding you back. And so the first part of the last dream has to do with having to feel what it’s like to feel the stodgy of the smoking part, the part that’s kind of in a habituation and kind of off to one side and discombobulated.

And you are sitting in a barber thing to get your hair cut or done or something, knowing that that’s going to come back, and that process is to put you into a different framework. And then you’re able to see that this framework has to do with you being in an entirely different place, like in Colorado or something like that.

In other words, a whole different setting is designed to occur. You see this by way of the fact that that’s how you’re finding and seeing your father now, which means that’s how you’re finding and seeing this quality of yourself in a different, connected way to something so much more, which hadn’t been there, but is now suddenly in the equation.

It’s in a different state even. The huge sensation of this dream is noting how to plug in or deal with your dad in this other state. Which means that you’re shifting to this other state, that you’re able to allow the energies to flow through you, those which help you. To me it is like an extraction, and it’s very difficult.

And all you had to do in order to get it was to realize that you can’t be making a big deal out of anything, up or down, inner or outer, because you’re in-between. And because you’re in-between you have access, you’re an access vehicle for what needs to unfold or transpire.

It goes back to kind of like what we had talked about in dreams before, that you’re not the will of God, but you have access to it. You have access to this flow that comes through, and that access, the person who is able to be the watcher, or the guide that brings it forth, to see it unfold, that’s the co-creator quality. That’s what the co-creator quality looks like.

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Spiritual journey’s are often triggered by a sense of longing that can never be quenched by anything we can obtain in the outer, material world. Here, Jeane’s dreams involve a feeling of sadness, where a person on the journey can sense the nearness of a deeper connection, yet can’t quite hold onto it. That causes a sadness over the loss of what has been briefly glimpsed, yet has slipped away again. It points to the idea that we can evolve forward only when we are ready, and each step of the way our fitness is tested. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: The initial part of the night I seem to be having this dream where I was kind of repeating an action. And the action was that there was a Scandinavian play, or part of a play. It had a particular name to it that I never did pull out awake.

I must have wanted to absorb it because what I’d do is I would back up to the edge of the bed, or wherever the play was going on, and I would put my back up against it until I’d absorbed that part of the play. So wherever it was going on, that’s the side I would back up to, until I kind of absorbed it.

And I would do that again and again and again. And that particular part of the play seemed to have a name, and it was Scandinavian, and it was masculine, and that’s about all I could say about that part of the dreaming because it just kept repeating that way.

John: The theme of the dreaming last night had to do with some sort of waiting or apprehension that exists. And it’s hard to just stop and wait and try to let something kind of unfold, noting that something is missing.

And it’s missing in that it doesn’t mean that it’s gone for good, it’s just that it hasn’t quite come into the equation, or back into the equation. That’s how I would dream it, in a literal sense. The way you dream it is, in terms of how something is a little out of the ordinary. You attempt to touch and absorb, touch and absorb, touch and absorb and that’s how you denote the apprehension.

In other words, in the overall you’re feeling apprehension, and because of how your higher self sees yourself, you realize that the way you deal with that is you have to take it in. You have to absorb it. You have to somehow or another process that through yourself.

And it’s not flowing very well because you’re kind of having to contend with this new sense of awareness about you, in this particular way that is. And so all you can do is try to touch it and absorb it, back up and touch it again and absorb it.

In other words, work at it bit by bit. It’s like an aspect of something that’s unfolding and in order for everything to be okay you just have to go through this process of taking it in and absolving it, so that your equanimity, your balance, how it is that you’re able to contend or carry or be in the Whole, is balanced.

Jeane: In this next dream, I’m living in a house with three levels. On the top level, in this little room that was very white and clean, and had nice windows in it, and two beds, was where I was with my ex.

And I’ve separated from him, and I’m living kind of on the middle level. And on the ground and middle levels, there are other people that live there and a whole bunch of activity that goes on, even a little café or something.

John: So, you’re living on the third level or the…?

Jeane: No, I’m living on the middle level.

John: And on the middle level there’s all this other going on too.

Jeane: Yes.

John: As well as on the first level.

Jeane: Yes. I’ve been down there a certain amount of time. I think I’ve been doing more of that absorbing. I seem to remember some of that going on there, too, where I was trying to absorb that again.

And then at some point I go back up to the room that we had shared, and a woman friend of mine and then a masculine figure I don’t see clearly, go up with me and they’re all going to guide me through a breathing session, which will help me clear. Well, I lie down and start breathing; I’m trying to get into it.

My ex leaves the room because I guess he’s diabetic or something and he has to go get an injection, and then the other two people start smoking. Well, I’m trying to do something where I am really clearing myself with breathing right and they’re smoking, so obviously this isn’t working too well.

I have to make sure the window in the room is open. I don’t know if they stand back or he comes back, but I realize it’s really time for me to tell him that I’m leaving. He felt like he was giving me space to get myself together, but I realize that I need to leave.

So I look around, and I see my grandmother’s quilt so I fold that up because I want to take that with me. I just realize that even though I haven’t finished clearing myself with the breathing pattern, I need to tell him I’m leaving. I start to tell him that, and he’s indignant because he figured I was just taking space to get my head together, and maybe we should talk about this or that.

I said if you want to talk about something we can talk about you drinking. It was like, I don’t want to go there. I just want to get focused on my packing, but all I can really see that I’m clear I want to take is my grandmother’s quilt. I may have some clothes and stuff, but anyway that’s when I wake up.

John: This is a dream where sadness can come. It can invoke a sadness because what happens is you take and you go to a type or aspect of something that is opening up and waking up in a higher self part of your nature. It’s like a third level. In other words, you step out into that to see how that is. And in doing so, you can’t stay there.

For some reason or another you also have to deal with things that are pent up or part of your nature of your past, so you have to come back down like in the middle part of yourself where the collective and all this stuff is going on. And of course there’s an even lower self of that, that has somewhat of an influence on the middle area, which is not really that big of a concern upon the third level.

And there you have to try to absolve yourself of what all of that is in terms of its effect upon you. And as you work to absolve yourself, you develop a clarity, and as you develop that clarity, then you’re able to shift back up to the third floor. As you shift back up to the third floor you have an awareness about things that is different. Before you might have accepted… you were accepting kind of a period of time like a trial basis or something. You know, it was still new and original and fresh and innocent to you, but now you have a higher pristine sense of it all.

In other words, you know more how something needs to be up there, whether it’s right or not right. In other words, where you may have ignored things before, now you can’t. You notice the little imbalances up there that occur on that level, that you weren’t aware of, now you are aware of them. You can see the smoke and you can see this and you can see that.

Now what you’re trying to do is you’re realizing that you can’t stay in that condition. Something has to shift because it is not right for you, because you’re also part of creation, you’re also part of the middle area. So, you actually take a step back. You make a decision to leave that, and you try to hold a memory, though, of what you consider important in terms of a certain depth by having to take something that has been shaped or quilted together, that has been knit together. You try to take that with you back down into the confrontation of things.

You are holding something that is unconscious, it is making you sad in some fashion, and that something is a subtle agitation and you’re not able to quite shift that, you’re not able to quite absorb that, and it works as a type of very subtle pressure. However, what you’re doing, what you end up doing in the dream, is you have this image where you end up succumbing to that tension as opposed to working it through.

The way this becomes a dilemma is, as you progress, and as you grow, what may have been wonderful on one level, you start to develop a sight to where something is missing in other ways, in other regards, in terms of your responsibility in a conscious way. And it is about a type of responsibility.

You have one thing you have to contend with in the third level, and you have another way of taking and being able to deal with things more with a separate aspect inside of yourself that has its own light and mannerism. You have another way of dealing with it on the second level. On the third level when you come to see what all is involved there, it can be a bit overwhelming.

But to begin with it is kind of intriguing, and so you can indulge and go into that, but ultimately it becomes very daunting and you can always find something in terms of the tension and the mannerism of that on the third level that can cause you to basically say enough is enough.

In that evaluation, you come to see things that you normally hadn’t paid any attention to before, the smoking, the this, the that, the drinking, which is basically just saying that there is something that is energetically off. And so you have to take what you’ve reached, and step back with it.

What’s really interesting about this is, this is actually kind of a dream that I have seen myself do. I have seen myself take and look over into a space, first of all giving it a good go, and then concluding that this is somehow too much for me, or I’m not ready, or not qualified, or whatever.

And then I step back, and then I go into a type of what I used to call a controlled waiting, knowing that I had stopped and would have to wait. And I had essentially reached some sort of crossroads where I couldn’t figure something out, couldn’t absorb it, so I realized that I just then had to go back and take the beating in the outer, knowing that at some particular point in time something would be ready to take that in again.

And that I believe is what we go through, at points in time in our life, and everyone goes through that over and over and over again as they progress. As something opens up there’s always the question as to whether you’re ready for that, or you want to contend with that, or not. You’re seeing that mannerism or that aspect inside of yourself, based upon denoting the pattern or the mechanism of change that has occurred. So this is set off, this whole thing inside of yourself.

And what you’re actually also looking at is a type of social paradigm that exists, in that, especially in our parents, there was always an expectation and a way of being that, once it got established they just accommodated and accommodated and accommodated. And we are of a generation where we realize that we make changes to things, that we adjust, that we shift, and to some degree that can be a little daunting and baffling to something that’s more used to an established set order.

As a consequence, we do this energetically – all of the time. More so than maybe we realize, because the more unconscious you are, the more irresponsible you’re able to be. And if you’re really, really unconscious you could just malaise along on the second level or even the first level, which has some parallels to the second level because it’s reflective, and it’s in the outer, although the second level is deemed one that has more understanding and the first level is something that’s really just pure lower self.

And you’re not pure lower self. You have the overflow of the lower self into something in which you have an understanding, and if you have taken something with you to be able to better cope there, because the third level, the way that it’s opened up, you’re not quite ready to embrace and that third level opens up things as an awareness in which it too is unsettling. Things in consciousness are unsettling.

Your first dream started you off trying to absorb all of that, and then after a while you got familiar with the back and forth and the back and forth and the back and forth trying to absorb it, kind of being caught in a reverb.

And so when you’re like that, you have two choices to make. One is that somehow or another it goes away because it is absorbed, or falls away based upon the higher self, or you don’t have to contend with it anymore because you go into a space, and you justify and rationalize going into that space, and it’s a space where it’s numbed down, or dumbed down, and it’s no longer something that afflicts you.

The problem with this kind of transition inside of yourself is, it’s an interesting one to make and we all make it from time to time, and that doesn’t work either, because what’s happened is you did tweak something, and even though it wasn’t right, and didn’t quite make sense, and wasn’t something you were quite ready to take on – you can’t forget it.

And so if you then take a step back from that, there is the memory of the other that just doesn’t totally blank out. Somewhat it does, maybe for a period of time, but not totally. And so you’re spurred on in some strange fashion as a result of an uneasiness, and so the real sadness that exists, is actually the recognition of that, not fully embraced or taken on.

So the deeper aspect of your dreaming is that first of all the reverbing we’re trying to absorb, and then in the recognition of these different levels, you actually have an even deeper, higher self recognition of something that you’re overwhelmed by. It’s not something that is clear to you. The imbalances are kind of getting clearer to you, but that higher part isn’t quite there, and there’s a sadness that it’s not quite there.

What this dream is essentially – gosh this is a subtle dream – because it is essentially holding you culpable. In other words, it looks like you’re making a decision in the present, in relationship to an energetic, but basically it is an aspect of a reverb of a repeat in which you said or turned back before.

So as you get closer and closer and closer to a higher-self breakthrough, you’re going to have this level of sadness, only because within your psyche is a recollection of having taken a step back before and tried to go amnesic in relationship to it, and carry something back with you to make your step back easier, something that you had shaped and quilted before, and tried to be able to live and play with that.

And you can get by like that for a while, but to the degree to which there is something really latent that’s been touched or awoken or seen as being there on the horizon, you don’t quite completely, fully lose that, and so in your unconscious you continue to hold a type of sadness in regard to the potentiality. That’s a very deep dream.

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