Posts Tagged ‘closing the gap between inner and outer’

blueIt has been said that one mark of a developed person is an ability to live in contradiction – to hold two opposing ideas as both being true. And we can see this contradiction in our very act of living: we are a spiritual being, yet we exist in the physical world. And we can be completely spiritual beings while in the physical world. But, we get into trouble when we forget the spiritual side and only live in the physical world, because then our “better half” loses its connection to our life, and the universe loses the opportunity it has in us.  (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So then I go to the sleep dream, and in the sleep dream I delved into the process in order to cover an important aspect. In other words, I delved into this process orientation, that one tends to think that they have, in order to expose an important aspect. And, in doing so, I notice that the breath just simply carries this overallness of a beingness back and forth.

And to lay the table of it, how that is, we touch the crown of all there is in the interval where in-breath turns to out-breath, which there’s kind of a quickening of the inner essence of all that there is. And then you have the out-breath, and in the out-breath you’re touching the interval, where out-breath turns to in-breath, the essence of a longing for something more that is exemplified.

Now for there to be a complete cycle of creation, where you get the inner, and you get the outer, and you get them all simultaneously, you have to be able to go up and down at the same time, so to speak. In other words, not just first one way and then the other.

So everything is founded in the breath, although we take the breath for granted. By taking it for granted, there’s no paying attention to our beingness. In other words, we remain in an amnesic state. And, when we’re like that, then we’re in a kind of a confusion, a bewilderment, for the heart to sort out.

It’s as if the heart, then, always knows that it can be both places simultaneously. But when we don’t have the up and down simultaneous, the whole breath, there is this quality that’s like a gap, in terms of the heart feeling its wholeness, and thus a bewilderment and a sorting out – or a sense of a sorting out, or a sense of a vying of first up, and down, as opposed to up and down simultaneously where you won’t have that.

And the tendency is to have this in this loci because there is this presence, herein, that is enhanced gravitationally, in a kind of mind sense orientation. And, in this loci, we turn to our mind sense duals. We are inclined to take the in-breath as just an inflection, as opposed to a depth, a beingness.

When like that then the out-breath is starting out by carrying down a thought from the essence of stillness, which, when it starts carrying it down, becomes lost or consumed, absorbed in the plane of sound and collective consciousness thoughts, but when you have the in-breath and the essence there, it’s never really abandoned. The in-breath, when unconscious, even unconscious, is always beckoning as a reminder of the way we are in the planes of light.

The sad thing is, we get lost in the mind sense outer orientation, and its thought-upon-thought compromising, thinking then that all that we pick up, or denote, especially in an out-breath, momentous way, is concretized – and we call that manifestation – as if we’re going to now try to sort our way back into something more from something that’s concretized, using, again, the tools of our mind and senses. It just isn’t going to work that way. We’re just going to be going around and around in a kind of spiritual illusion, even though we have plenty of hints and inflections from the in-breath, if we could only note it, which is the plane of light of ourselves – and then some.

So the inner is our beingness in light, and the outer is our beingness in manifestation. When in light, we quest for the human body. When in manifestation, we quest for the unseen light. From the meditation dream, I learn that the gray area we think is an awakening of our being, is a vibratory ignorance and spiritual illusion. The inner and the outer, the in-breath and the out-breath, are black-and-white distinctions that are loud and clear, not gray as we tend to believe when we hearken to our amnesic plight, imagining that we are in the awakening process.

From a bifurcated way of looking at it, we tell ourselves that the awakening process is true. The awakening process is true only in a spiritual illusionary sense of painstaking bewilderment. Such bewilderment is likened to a waiting for the heart to stop trying to sort out the buying/selling dynamic of the out-breath/in-breath, so we are in the outer, and in the inner, distinctly, and simultaneously. There is no gray area process in the end.

In other words, that’s just a bewilderment, or the mind senses in this loci imaging and creating a spiritual illusion. So we create a spiritual illusion here, and then we lack the substance of holding and concretizing something into a seeing and hearing when we’re in the planes of light. So it’s kind of like we have to pull both together in order to be what we really are, and, in that sense, we arrive at our God nature, or essence.

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womanWe speak often in these posts about the relationship between ourself, which feels very separate, and the universe. And it seems important to understand that this is a relationship like any other – to create a deep connection requires belief, patience, and a passion for what is possible. Each of us feels separate in our own unique way – it happened by being born in a human body – but we can all be reunited in the oneness of everything when we realize that that is what we have been designed to do. It is our life’s purpose to reconnect in a meaningful way. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: The opposite effect shows that there’s a gentler way of being able to hear what is being communicated by life all the time around you. In other words, you don’t have to put yourself in a predicament where you hear by way of stupidity, by way of density, and eventually realized yeah, I can’t be doing that because that really makes me odd.

So this other way requires you to be grounded and the new meaning occurs where there’s a type of touching and awakening from an aliveness connective in an inner way.

And the way it’s portrayed, from the masculine perspective, I go up to a woman who is sitting at a table by herself. In other words, she’s a total stranger to me as far as I know. Her back’s to me and there’s no sense that she knows who I am, or I know who she is.

It’s just that something about that situation needs to be tweaked. Ultimately, though, I do recognize her because an alivening happens that causes something to open up. And what I do is I walk up behind her, I take kind of her head and I tilt it back and I kiss her on the forehead. And I kiss her on the cheek, and I kiss her on the neck, and all of that is exciting to her. And when I do this, it breaks a stupor where something is just frozen – it needs quickening.

The meaning of this is what I’m doing is awakening and quickening life. When something is energized everything glistens. Being alone – in an outer way – takes one away from a natural consciousness that exists.

This is the opposite. If you could see this, this is the opposite of the other where I think I have to maintain a certain hiddenness or mannerism off to one side in order to hear it because otherwise it gets all lost in the overall sense of things all around me.

I am haunted by anticipations in other words. To be haunted by anticipatory energies means you’re too alone. I now know that. It means something about you in your approach carries too much aloneness.

And so you have these two areas presented and that closes those two areas together because I present first one extreme and then the other, that closes those two areas together. And so it’s like you have to put together all that exists in between.

So now I’m seeing myself as having gone through a day and went through all kinds of flashed images that happen during the day, and each part of whatever it is that I saw at the end of the day is required to communicate, to relate about that particular aspect, always being aspects of myself.

It’s as if a book was written of everything that occurred during the day and now comes a summing up. And so I am finding it uncanny how these topics, each of these people or parts, is required to speak on a topic. And I’m finding it uncanny and I’m learning a lot in terms of what each of these people say, or talk about, that seems to be tailored just for them.

Now, of course, because I’m kind of nonchalant and aloof – I’m just there to listen – no way that I participate in any of that. But then I’m glancing ahead in this book of the day events, of which there are seven, or eight, or nine different things that are being broken out, suddenly I notice that my name is there where I have to talk about something. And I thought I was getting away just fine being in my aloneness and aloofness, distant in a comfortable way, was my perspective.

And then I’m looking at an aspect of part of the flow of the day. Like during the day, before of course we got to the point where there’s the recap, there was a period of time in which there was a meal, kind of a cafeteria-type meal. I just came in by myself and the food’s out there and it’s kind of basic food and I grab my plate.

I’m half lazy. If there’s a little food already on the plate I don’t have to dish up I’ll take that. I’m just all self-assuming here. Need some extra potatoes? Well, I just scoop those out of the pot with my fingers.

And then I go to sit down and everybody’s sitting in all of the seats, but there is one right at the end of a kind of a bench that can kind of catch a corner of the table. Well, I can make the best of that. I’m not all that social, so I go over and squeeze into that seat in kind of a clumsy and awkward way.

And the person that I’m squeezing in next to asks me if I was affected by the bad weather in the area. And I mention that where I was at there was only six inches, meaning it was a nonevent, it wasn’t bad. And this person mentions how they had 12 inches and so, to be polite, I say, “Gee that’s a lot, that had to be bad.” But basically I’m still being aloof and callous.

So that flashback hits, and now I’m back to having glanced ahead where I have to give this talk, that’s coming up. At first that throws me off: what do I have to talk about? I’m not even relating to any of these people. I’m just getting by here.

And these talks in a way, if you were to kind of label them, they’re kind of like adab talks because they talk about traits, and characteristics, and qualities – just how to be. And because I’ve conducted myself in an off-side way and alone way, I’m surprised that someone was watching, that somehow or another that all of this was taken into account and that something there that my mannerism has been sitting in is important, needs to be revealed to close the gap.

So my talk is called Polite Posit. I don’t know what posit means, but Polite Posit. I’m not sure what to say because when you have a talk like this what you need to do is be more personable; I can’t have this talk from an aloof way like I’ve been going on. So I have to change somehow.

So, in my opinion, in order for this to come out I need to be more involved, and the only way I know how that can be is for it to be more interactive. So I plan on setting the ground rules as follows: let everybody know that they can feel free to interrupt, and that they have my permission to put me on the spot about anything that they feel is reflective and we’ll see where that goes, in terms of how that fits, in terms of polite mannerisms.

That’s how you close the gap, right, between too aloof and too personal, because one is too something, and then the other is too confusing. And therefore there is a distance, and in between there is a natural politeness.

What you’re basically talking about is one sitting in its aloofness is kind of an innerness that isn’t grounded, and the other that is sitting in life is an openness that is unconscious, so to speak, and therefore can’t come through.

And so what you have to do is put the two together and the way you do that is you can’t challenge this stuff. You have to have kind of a mannerism that is light, polite, and tosses this stuff out there in such a way so that it’s all acceptable, it all makes sense, so that there isn’t the peculiarities that sit there and create an uneasiness like the discussion over the weather.

I was just going along with that conversation because where I am at six inches that is nothing, 12 inches, oh yeah, now I have to pretend a little bit because where I’m at I got off scot-free. But then I got to realizing that for most people six inches is a lot of snow. Just because for some reason it’s meaningless, I can ignore that or overlook it, doesn’t mean that that’s being polite, that that’s being relevant to an interconnected wholeness.

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8488031In this meditation dream, John is confronted with one of the greatest challenges of a spiritual life, and that is allowing oneself to become a conduit for higher energies. We often struggle thinking that development is something we do personally, yet it is really something that is done to us by our continual exposure to higher energies. If we can let go to that, then higher energies can use us as a conduit into the physical realms – which is the real nature of the relationship between us and what is higher.  (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So in the meditation dream, I’m confronted with a scenario in which there is a straightforward result that I’m close to, that I can feel. It’s like kind of an input or something that is there that is kind of a sight, even, that I have. 

And even though I’m close to that, there’s something more, like a flip side to that, that is also necessary that has some things that have to be sorted out in order to create a result that reveals by reflection a replicable magnitude or effect. 

So the way I’ve come to understand this is that change always happens upon the inner level first, and the representative vibrational correlation in the outer tends to, we live it in such a dense way that it’s just kind of like symbolically reflective of something that’s information within light. We live it reflectively in manifestation as something that is dense.

But the flip side of that is in the light, is information in the light, and so that’s what the first part is like. In other words, the first part is in catching up with something in the light, but now how do I take and I carry it forth in manifestation to find the one-to-one corresponding corollary? 

Or, in other words, what is revealed from within has its reflective, as I call it, corollary in the outer. And this correspondence seems harder to recognize because you don’t have it in the light anymore, you have it in the density of manifestation. So, a great care is needed to recognize within the overlapping correlation, or overreaching, or however you would say it, or underlying or however you would say it. 

And if you overreach, which means you go beyond what you perceive from within, which means you violate the flow, then that creates a lack of balance and a collapse can follow. 

So in the dream, I looked at that which was made apparent. Then I evaluated what it would take to manifest the same effect right through the planes of limitation. To do so would bring the inner flow right down energetically into the plane of manifestation.

And the meaning is it’s one thing to experience an inner breakthrough. It is another to be grounded consciously in order to manifest it in the outer. That is the challenge, when met brings the inner that is more mystical, that’s seeable from within, into the outer as an alchemical correspondence. 

This inner into outer is like going from light, where the information is made known energetically and vibrationally, to the plane of sound that is alchemically correlated to manifestation. The oneness, as light and sound, is intertwined, and it is like an extension of the light and its imbedded sight, to the correspondence with the planes of sound lived as manifestation. 

That’s kind of an interesting statement isn’t it? 

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