Posts Tagged ‘closing the gap between inner and outer’

womanWe speak often in these posts about the relationship between ourself, which feels very separate, and the universe. And it seems important to understand that this is a relationship like any other – to create a deep connection requires belief, patience, and a passion for what is possible. Each of us feels separate in our own unique way – it happened by being born in a human body – but we can all be reunited in the oneness of everything when we realize that that is what we have been designed to do. It is our life’s purpose to reconnect in a meaningful way. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: The opposite effect shows that there’s a gentler way of being able to hear what is being communicated by life all the time around you. In other words, you don’t have to put yourself in a predicament where you hear by way of stupidity, by way of density, and eventually realized yeah, I can’t be doing that because that really makes me odd.

So this other way requires you to be grounded and the new meaning occurs where there’s a type of touching and awakening from an aliveness connective in an inner way.

And the way it’s portrayed, from the masculine perspective, I go up to a woman who is sitting at a table by herself. In other words, she’s a total stranger to me as far as I know. Her back’s to me and there’s no sense that she knows who I am, or I know who she is.

It’s just that something about that situation needs to be tweaked. Ultimately, though, I do recognize her because an alivening happens that causes something to open up. And what I do is I walk up behind her, I take kind of her head and I tilt it back and I kiss her on the forehead. And I kiss her on the cheek, and I kiss her on the neck, and all of that is exciting to her. And when I do this, it breaks a stupor where something is just frozen – it needs quickening.

The meaning of this is what I’m doing is awakening and quickening life. When something is energized everything glistens. Being alone – in an outer way – takes one away from a natural consciousness that exists.

This is the opposite. If you could see this, this is the opposite of the other where I think I have to maintain a certain hiddenness or mannerism off to one side in order to hear it because otherwise it gets all lost in the overall sense of things all around me.

I am haunted by anticipations in other words. To be haunted by anticipatory energies means you’re too alone. I now know that. It means something about you in your approach carries too much aloneness.

And so you have these two areas presented and that closes those two areas together because I present first one extreme and then the other, that closes those two areas together. And so it’s like you have to put together all that exists in between.

So now I’m seeing myself as having gone through a day and went through all kinds of flashed images that happen during the day, and each part of whatever it is that I saw at the end of the day is required to communicate, to relate about that particular aspect, always being aspects of myself.

It’s as if a book was written of everything that occurred during the day and now comes a summing up. And so I am finding it uncanny how these topics, each of these people or parts, is required to speak on a topic. And I’m finding it uncanny and I’m learning a lot in terms of what each of these people say, or talk about, that seems to be tailored just for them.

Now, of course, because I’m kind of nonchalant and aloof – I’m just there to listen – no way that I participate in any of that. But then I’m glancing ahead in this book of the day events, of which there are seven, or eight, or nine different things that are being broken out, suddenly I notice that my name is there where I have to talk about something. And I thought I was getting away just fine being in my aloneness and aloofness, distant in a comfortable way, was my perspective.

And then I’m looking at an aspect of part of the flow of the day. Like during the day, before of course we got to the point where there’s the recap, there was a period of time in which there was a meal, kind of a cafeteria-type meal. I just came in by myself and the food’s out there and it’s kind of basic food and I grab my plate.

I’m half lazy. If there’s a little food already on the plate I don’t have to dish up I’ll take that. I’m just all self-assuming here. Need some extra potatoes? Well, I just scoop those out of the pot with my fingers.

And then I go to sit down and everybody’s sitting in all of the seats, but there is one right at the end of a kind of a bench that can kind of catch a corner of the table. Well, I can make the best of that. I’m not all that social, so I go over and squeeze into that seat in kind of a clumsy and awkward way.

And the person that I’m squeezing in next to asks me if I was affected by the bad weather in the area. And I mention that where I was at there was only six inches, meaning it was a nonevent, it wasn’t bad. And this person mentions how they had 12 inches and so, to be polite, I say, “Gee that’s a lot, that had to be bad.” But basically I’m still being aloof and callous.

So that flashback hits, and now I’m back to having glanced ahead where I have to give this talk, that’s coming up. At first that throws me off: what do I have to talk about? I’m not even relating to any of these people. I’m just getting by here.

And these talks in a way, if you were to kind of label them, they’re kind of like adab talks because they talk about traits, and characteristics, and qualities – just how to be. And because I’ve conducted myself in an off-side way and alone way, I’m surprised that someone was watching, that somehow or another that all of this was taken into account and that something there that my mannerism has been sitting in is important, needs to be revealed to close the gap.

So my talk is called Polite Posit. I don’t know what posit means, but Polite Posit. I’m not sure what to say because when you have a talk like this what you need to do is be more personable; I can’t have this talk from an aloof way like I’ve been going on. So I have to change somehow.

So, in my opinion, in order for this to come out I need to be more involved, and the only way I know how that can be is for it to be more interactive. So I plan on setting the ground rules as follows: let everybody know that they can feel free to interrupt, and that they have my permission to put me on the spot about anything that they feel is reflective and we’ll see where that goes, in terms of how that fits, in terms of polite mannerisms.

That’s how you close the gap, right, between too aloof and too personal, because one is too something, and then the other is too confusing. And therefore there is a distance, and in between there is a natural politeness.

What you’re basically talking about is one sitting in its aloofness is kind of an innerness that isn’t grounded, and the other that is sitting in life is an openness that is unconscious, so to speak, and therefore can’t come through.

And so what you have to do is put the two together and the way you do that is you can’t challenge this stuff. You have to have kind of a mannerism that is light, polite, and tosses this stuff out there in such a way so that it’s all acceptable, it all makes sense, so that there isn’t the peculiarities that sit there and create an uneasiness like the discussion over the weather.

I was just going along with that conversation because where I am at six inches that is nothing, 12 inches, oh yeah, now I have to pretend a little bit because where I’m at I got off scot-free. But then I got to realizing that for most people six inches is a lot of snow. Just because for some reason it’s meaningless, I can ignore that or overlook it, doesn’t mean that that’s being polite, that that’s being relevant to an interconnected wholeness.

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8488031In this meditation dream, John is confronted with one of the greatest challenges of a spiritual life, and that is allowing oneself to become a conduit for higher energies. We often struggle thinking that development is something we do personally, yet it is really something that is done to us by our continual exposure to higher energies. If we can let go to that, then higher energies can use us as a conduit into the physical realms – which is the real nature of the relationship between us and what is higher.  (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So in the meditation dream, I’m confronted with a scenario in which there is a straightforward result that I’m close to, that I can feel. It’s like kind of an input or something that is there that is kind of a sight, even, that I have. 

And even though I’m close to that, there’s something more, like a flip side to that, that is also necessary that has some things that have to be sorted out in order to create a result that reveals by reflection a replicable magnitude or effect. 

So the way I’ve come to understand this is that change always happens upon the inner level first, and the representative vibrational correlation in the outer tends to, we live it in such a dense way that it’s just kind of like symbolically reflective of something that’s information within light. We live it reflectively in manifestation as something that is dense.

But the flip side of that is in the light, is information in the light, and so that’s what the first part is like. In other words, the first part is in catching up with something in the light, but now how do I take and I carry it forth in manifestation to find the one-to-one corresponding corollary? 

Or, in other words, what is revealed from within has its reflective, as I call it, corollary in the outer. And this correspondence seems harder to recognize because you don’t have it in the light anymore, you have it in the density of manifestation. So, a great care is needed to recognize within the overlapping correlation, or overreaching, or however you would say it, or underlying or however you would say it. 

And if you overreach, which means you go beyond what you perceive from within, which means you violate the flow, then that creates a lack of balance and a collapse can follow. 

So in the dream, I looked at that which was made apparent. Then I evaluated what it would take to manifest the same effect right through the planes of limitation. To do so would bring the inner flow right down energetically into the plane of manifestation.

And the meaning is it’s one thing to experience an inner breakthrough. It is another to be grounded consciously in order to manifest it in the outer. That is the challenge, when met brings the inner that is more mystical, that’s seeable from within, into the outer as an alchemical correspondence. 

This inner into outer is like going from light, where the information is made known energetically and vibrationally, to the plane of sound that is alchemically correlated to manifestation. The oneness, as light and sound, is intertwined, and it is like an extension of the light and its imbedded sight, to the correspondence with the planes of sound lived as manifestation. 

That’s kind of an interesting statement isn’t it? 

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green_handThe higher self and lower self, the inner and outer worlds, the universe and the human being. Each of these are in co-relation and seek a greater merging. Humans are the conduit at the heart of these fundamental universal processes, if we choose to respond to our design. Yet we must do so by our own freedom of choice. The unfolding of the universe is not determined by robotic response, but by our choosing to respond. It makes it harder for us, but it offers so much more possibility for us and for It. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So in the meditation dream, I seem to be going back and dealing with the polarities of being in the outer, versus what it’s like in the inner.

And from the meditation dream I can see that on the inner level there’s this area that is subtle and flexible. It’s able to handle a lot of change and diversity and, as a consequence, there’s a fluidity there that seems to undulate with life.

And then, by contrast, if I look at how it is that I look at things and relate to things in the physical, or in manifestation, that seems very linear, or I don’t seem to appreciate or adapt to outer changes quickly enough. As a result, I experience life in a way that is more slowed down and narrower.

It seems that, over time, a gap has formed between these two states, my higher self and my lower self, you might say, or the inner and the outer. You could say that the density of the outer in the physical is functioning at a slower speed, and maybe one way of saying that slower speed is it’s accessing life as if it was created just out of sound, and therefore it’s not seeing behind that the true light.

And you could say that on this other inner level, the veils lift somewhat and so that there is a greater perception, a greater attunement to what is meant to be. I guess you could say then that this is akin to a greater speed, and a freedom, because you get glimpses that aren’t possible, or so it seems, when you’re in the veils of manifestation. 

However, I also can’t help but recognize that the two states are reflective of each other, but it’s at what feels like different points in time. I was trying to figure out how it is that I can explain this, for I have a sense of knowingness about what’s about to take place, yet in the physical you can blank all of that out and act as if nothing is that big of a deal.

And so I can’t help but notice that the experiences in the outer narrow down or, in other words, are more drawn out, and have this sense of greater proximity, or more hands on. Yet on the inner the experiences approach a kind of central unfolding overall vibration that kind of emanates throughout everything, as if you’re gaining some sort of access to something that permeates or intertwines with everything, as if it’s in light, I guess is the way you’d say it. 

Because sound is manifestation, and light would be something that could traverse a greater domain. In that there is a quality of a potential and intended destiny. So when you try to reconcile the two states, you end up with kind of a condition as a person that’s a little ominous, because in the outer there’s just a sense if you force yourself to look at things more closely, there’s a sense in the bones of a bigger picture unfolding from the inner – that is, if you have some sense of that awakening. 

Otherwise, you don’t have that connection at all, and you just go about as if everything is going to be okay. But to the higher self, to the degree to which there is this inner connection at this time, which is creating a shift, you can’t pretend anymore. You can’t get lost in the minute detail of the outer that keeps you from seeing a bigger picture. 

So as things unfold laboriously in the outer, that pace that you see when you have a more speeded-up quality of the inner is kind of nauseating because it’s acting delusional.

So there’s this peculiar dilemma of, how do you cope with both? Because when the higher self can surrender and accept the outer, instead of seeing it as nauseating, and slowed down, and dulled out, and full of veils, and estranged from what needs to be, if the higher self can accept the outer, a wonderful receptivity is possible as the impulses that come out of the light into a physical manifestation make for a more direct, even though it’s slowed down, experience of the divine, which may be more veiled, however, because of the denseness of things but, because of the immanence, in another way it’s almost more graspable.

So, for those who can bring the two states closer together by bridging the illusory barrier between light and sound, there is the heightened and greater aliveness of an intertwined universe. 

To become more intertwined is to become nearer and dearer to the essence of the self where nothing is going on. This is where the beginning and the end are One, as this is where pure experience is at rest.

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