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spaces-self-storageIn Jeane’s dream, she sees herself returning to a storage space from an earlier point in her life. The question is, does she need or want what has been left there? This is a question for anyone on the path, as we wrestle with letting go of old ways and patterns, and surrender to something higher. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I’ll start with a dream I had yesterday when I fell asleep in the afternoon. In that dream, I was going to visit an apartment where I used to live. It seemed like it was maybe on the second floor, and I was going to visit it because the people living there were moving out, and I had left some things in a storage room that was right next to the screen door on the porch where you went into the apartment.

The first time I went over, I just kind of snuck over in a way. I wanted to look when no one was around. I went into the storage unit and looked around to see what I’d left there, and there were some tall vases, just plain white glass vases, and some things in the storage room.

It feels like when I’m ready to leave there’s a little enclosure around the porch and the landlady must have a large dog and it comes, and I’m afraid it might bite me. But if I put my hands behind me it’s more like it just sticks its muzzle against my hands. You think it might nip, but it doesn’t.

The second time I go back the landlady spies me and I didn’t really want to be seen. I didn’t know her very well. I don’t know if she knew that I’d left some stuff in storage, so I don’t whether it’ll be okay to take it, or if I just need to let go of it, like maybe I’ve taken a look at it; maybe it’s stuff that I should just let go of.

I don’t know. I just tell her why I’m there. I explain, and then I know as I’m leaving again I’m dealing with the dog; it doesn’t quite nip, but it kind of presses against you before I go out the gate.

John: What your dream is doing is, this is causing you to note the quality upon which you have to feel yourself. In other words, this is an energetic that you can note in a lower, almost like utilizing a lower gravity self side of yourself, which is through the dog.

In other words, he’s the one that creates the “unawares” so to speak, as you go and take a look at something that you have established as an entitlement from long ago. You don’t currently have it. You let it go on purpose. You put it into storage.

You can go back now and you could retrieve it if you want, and if you do you have to take on a certain perspective in terms of retrieving this. You can do this, but you have to also note what this does in terms of how it affects you in terms of a disposition, or a perspective, or a way of seeing yourself.

The dilemma with something like this, is you chose to step away from this part of an outer/inner trait and development for a reason, long ago, as part of surrender and freeing yourself to be simple and nonattached.

Or in other words not have your attention weighed down because you wanted to make sure that you were focused upon something on an inner, deeper, other level that wouldn’t be distracted by a tendency in one’s nature to take on the mannerism, or appearance, or thought process of certain things that, once received, acquired, or maintained, one tends to look at and establish even a sense of security or something in terms of their image, self image, over such objects as part of their general, natural, overall being that such objects can come with.

Or you can let go of them, and become more empty and free, so that you make sure that you hear more readily, without that getting in the way, what you seek and want to experience and note inside of you.

Well, in the dream, it’s as if the point has come where you can go and you can now take back on those parts and, in doing so, you have to observe the lower-self trait, which is this dog, but the dog is a friend, and you are meant to be able to have a relationship with that part of yourself that can function energetically, and this way too.

In other words, it’s man’s friend, when before perhaps it was something that posed itself as a distraction. It is said that when you go on a path, certain karmas, and certain patterns, and certain natures that afflicted one, are pretty much absorbed or taken away.

It’s implied or said that the teacher kind of picks those up, so that you no longer continue to spiral out of control, because the teacher can see that this little bit of comfort or relief, once given, can enable you, through a backdoor process, to start to touch the depths of yourself.

It’s the same principle, in a roundabout way, of the missionaries in the West coming in and clothing, and feeding, and housing, the Indians, more or less thinking that they could put them in to a particular position where they would be receptive to the Christian ideas.

That’s the gross way of saying it. I don’t know that it actually worked, but that was the concept. But in this line of teaching, the idea that you are overwhelmed by activities that you have gotten caught in, and gotten lost in, if those are set aside, or taken on so to speak, by the teacher, in other words absorbed by the teacher, that you then can listen more with your heart and then realign yourself.

Now, it is also said that at some point in time those are then fed back to you, and they’re fed back to you when you have developed a certain consciousness to know how to carry those without them somehow or another grabbing your identity and sweeping you up in a particular way so that you are then lost again, and unable to hear that inner linkage or inner connection in the way that you need to always be able to hear it.

So it’s an interesting dream in that the theme of the vibration is one in which you are paying attention to what it feels like to take on a particular quality, or image, or mannerism, which is something that you have earned or have established as something from long ago, in your nature, as a way of being, that was set aside in order for you to experience the world, or life, or yourself, differently.

And now it’s time to bring that back and include that, as opposed to keeping it, so to speak, repressed or, using the prior example, taken on so to speak by the teacher, so that it wouldn’t affect your way of being.

But it also could have been actually repressed, because a person can do this to themselves as well, where they recognize that something was more than what their nature could naturally carry, in terms of the way they wanted to see themselves, which was a way that wanted to be more conscious, or more free.

And so they could give it away at that particular point in time, and then everything would sit in kind of abeyance to see what unfolded in terms of their development, before it would be something that would have to be given back, or received back.

 

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Yesterday, Jeane’s dream had an encounter with an alien force (see An Alien Shift). From the same night, John dreamed of visiting another world. Both dreams point to a shift in what is required of those on a spiritual journey – and an elevation of what is possible for the human to become connected with when we let go of the personal and physical tethers, and embrace the Wholeness of God and creation.

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John: In my dream, somehow or another, I apply maybe more of the quality of feeling how this brushes the heart differently, this new shift or change or whatever it is that one contends with, so that I’m able to come and recognize this whole other level, and what it’s like.
It doesn’t seem, when you initially look at the dream, that’s what it is. But when you feel it on a heart level, in relationship to how you had contended with things, you have two choices: either to look at it in terms of something almost undermining and deceptive, which is in your case some dominant force coming in. Or you can actually shift and look at it in a greater overall, with the specifics of how that functions now.

And then you will see that it’s a new reflection that is possible to catch up with. And it’s like everyone kind of knows that there is something like that. They just don’t have any inkling about it. They don’t deal with it at all.

Like you have the teacher that you know is this force, as he describes himself. He’s like a “howling wind” or something. And he’s described a few traits about himself, like just because he doesn’t look at you doesn’t mean that he isn’t seeing you. And that there is this recognition that, in the space where he is, he can absorb, or he can relate, or he can take on certain traits of estrangement that you might be in.

I remember once in Germany I was really off and didn’t know anything about how I could change or fix any of that, and just happened to wander in and saw him sitting in this room, and he never saw me, but I turned and saw him and went out. And just that process of having stepped into that space took all of that away.

And the reason why that works is he’s able to put you in his heart, and actually this is a whole other level of awareness. This whole other level of awareness is akin, in some capacity, to an understanding that can emerge if you’re not sitting there having to deal with the shadow dynamics and the hostile forces. You can come to grips with this quality inside yourself. And, actually, he is aware of that, and that’s what he’s able to touch to cause you to suddenly shift from a denser part that has consumed you.

Yesterday I felt this denser part. I did a step back into this denser part, and realized how you can trigger, from this denser part, even phone calls and whatnot because you’ve now stepped into an energetic that feeds the universe, that invites this sort of thing to happen.

And then, at the same time, I realize that another part of me has been trying to function in this other octave, having dreams saying that the byproduct of what you do is what is alive. Not the actual thing that you do, but the byproduct of it has a life, or lives on, or flows, or touches, or is an aliveness.

And we’ve come to look at that as perhaps this is a big shift and difference because ordinarily you would tend to wonder if your effect can have something to do with connecting with the collective energy, and thereby finding a resonance where something then changes in the world.

And we’re finding that we can’t do that anymore and, as a consequence, we go to a deeper depth inside ourselves and we find that as we take and we work with characteristics and qualities in life, it’s the product outside of ourselves that’s reciprocal.

In other words, it’s the carrying, it’s the attention that we place on something, which has an aliveness. And the interesting thing about that aliveness is you live in this new aliveness. You don’t live with the collective response anymore. You live in this higher octave of a consciousness that exists as a result of you having an effect that touches things with your light, and the effect of that, the effect of that is what has become real – no longer the collective that has to be won over or something.

So that’s a dream that’s a precursor. That’s right on the threshold of this shift to what you’re describing as an alien force, and I’m recognizing it as a quality and a trait that exists in the teacher. What’s so interesting is you really then start to see what a huge dynamic this is, because if you have the audacity to toy or play with the teacher, you might actually find out that what you’re assuming to try to portray, or show them, is something they already know – and they know it, how?

They know it because they have had to put you inside their heart, and so they have to work with the dynamic of how you are. They have taken that on, and they have to work with that dynamic already. So all they have to do is sit in a subtleness, and a quietness, and they can already grasp that space.

So as they grasp that space, if you’ve taken and you’ve intruded upon something that kind of has to be contended with that way, then that means that you have to start to participate in seeing it from this aspect of things as well. For you it’s called the alien force.

In the dream, I and two or three others, so there’s three of us I believe, and we’ve traveled to this new world. We’re at a place where we’re able to creep up, or sneak up, on people who live here, who have traits that are much different.

And of course we’re sneaking up, and we’re not going to let them know that we’re sneaking up because we want to observe it, to begin with, the idea being that maybe we go back and report what we’ve seen or something. But for the time being we’re not going to make contact, we’re just going to look.

In other words, it wasn’t our idea even to stumble upon these foreigners or people of this new world, but we have. So we approach, but to keep from being detected, because we see some of them kind of coming in our direction, we hide behind a large round rock to let the natives pass by.

And I tell my two cohorts, that they need to be exceptionally quiet, because I seem to know that these natives have a perception that works differently. In other words, they can know and recognize that something’s there in this area, and so just because we think we’re hidden, and out of sight, and quiet, we’ve got to be very, very careful because somehow I have the suspicion that they can tell.

One of my friends is acting like he knows the level of hearing that is typical, and he knows how sight normally works, so he doesn’t pay any attention to me and he continues to whisper a bit, which would probably ordinarily be okay but he’s continuing to keep kind of some noise effect.

This bothers me, and ordinarily, from his perception, would be okay, but I seem to know that anything like that, even the slightest of ripples is detectible. The thing is we were the ones who thought that we were creeping up to observe, but in this dream we are the ones that are observed and don’t even know it.

What happens is, at some point, I step out with the other two from around the rock, and there in front of us is what looks like the entire nation. They’re standing there observing us even though we’re behind the rock thinking we’re hidden – and they’re all there.

They’ve been tuned in and were monitoring us in a way we hadn’t imagined as being possible. They’re so familiar and so knowledgeable of us that when I step out, one of them who’s kind of the leader of them all, because there are a cast of hundreds of them now, one of them refers to me by my name, as I walk around the rock. And he just says it in a real calm, bland, accepting manner.

In other words, there’s no tilt, there’s no edge like you would expect: okay, here’s a couple of strangers! He just acts like we’d related before or something. And that’s when I realize that they are advanced beyond my imagination. And they mean us no harm, because I could tell by the way that they talked that they’re totally accepting.

It is they that are being really totally quiet. In other words, we didn’t know the art of quietness. It’s they in their actual quietness that enables them to not disturb or awaken us. But I’d stepped out and there they are.

I am told that no one, from where I am from, even knows that they exist, meaning in this denser part of myself, can even suspect or know that they exist because you’re dealing with other things. You deal with the shadow dynamics, you’re dealing with all that stuff.

And in your case you’re dealing with that force that’s trying to take over at the beginning of your dream, so you’re not going to know that they even exist as long as your attention isn’t ready and able to take in, as you did, the aliens.

And in my case their called something from another world. I’m told then that they do not want to be revealed, and I’m kind of asked, can I stay quiet? Or will my general demeanor leak out to others from my country?

In other words if I go back, how am I going to handle what just took place? They’re kind of trusting us with this secret that they have, and can we carry it in the same silence that they are? Because you would be desecrating it; you would not be honoring it. You wouldn’t be true to this space, which has a kindness, and an understanding, and an acceptance.

In other words, it doesn’t have the normal reaction. But the dilemma I have is I know that I’m not sure if I can keep this to myself. And I figure that I have a better, closer possibility of being able to keep this to myself than these other two characters, especially the one guy that was mumbling away, not even having the sense that I did that you have to be even quieter.

So if it’s nearly too much for me, what about my colleagues? Golly, won’t they blow it? I’m impressed with the natural kindness I can see that exists with these people, that is part of the space. So I wake up, not knowing if I am up for the challenge, in order to shift to this whole way.

The meaning is, I am trying to be very coy, but my actions are louder than I realize. I don’t seem to be fooling anybody. I tried. I am just out of my mind thinking I can hide my nature and whereabouts from those I think I am observing, who shouldn’t be able to see and hear me and my colleagues.

The colleagues are just other parts of yourself. Of course, there is a part of me that is close enough to realize that this needs to be in some sort of silence and super quietness, and I suppose that little part was just enough so I could shift into this whole other level of awareness, knowing that it exists instead of just surmising about it.

And if a teacher is taking you on, he’s put you in his heart so your every mannerism is actually observed. And if you do something where they have to blink, or make note of it, just like in a shamanistic thing where it surprises them, or they have to take note of the wrinkle, they make sure that they fully take into account something. They go back and they observe through this quiet space. It brushes across the heart. They have to take everything out of the equation so that they don’t bias it in order to see what it is about.

My attempt to hide, which is our way, we are always hiding when we have some sort of motif that we’re coming from, reveals how conscious or unconscious you are, the degree to which you do that.

And these people, or this other part of myself, this greater depth, can monitor that conduct and whereabouts from a connection they have to the heart. This is a connection that one has to make, that is something that I’m seeing that I have to make, that is awakening now. And if that were to happen, that makes everything visible, visible to the quietness. In other words, you feel the undulations instead of your own racket.

So, you can say okay, let’s see if we can figure out this deep meaningful scenario? Well, we sent this dream to the teacher. And when I sent him what it is that I am trying to sort out from within, which is a type of arrogance, but the arrogance can be taken out of it if you’re to put yourself into a similarly situated quietness, aware of the subtlest mannerism.

So the challenge is can I emulate that, can I actually do that, and can I find the place inside my heart where there is this quietness that is in touch with everything that is going on? So there’s an even deeper meaningfulness aspect of the scenario, and that is, this whole process is yet another way of working with reflections, but now you’re working with reflections more towards the total quietness – or a reflection of a reflection.

In other words, you have one set of reflections like in your dream, which starts out and indicates that you’re having to work with a loud force or something, and ordinarily that’s as good as a dream gets because until you get that figured out, in terms of sorting out your higher self and your lower self, you’re not going to catch up with something that functions on a level of the higher self only, or “in God,” so to speak, quality, where you deal with what you consider aliens.

So, I’m concerned that a secret that I feel as important will leak out into a denser world. In other words, I can’t necessarily be entrusted with it, and I’m looking at this. Meanwhile, an inner space exists from which I am watched, that is wondering if I can keep this secret of secrets, the quietness that makes it all come together.

This exists in a silence where all is revealed. This simply inflects off of the heart that is interconnected. In other words, if you merge into the teacher, or accept and don’t thrash around, and accept the sameness of yourself that is placed into the heart of the teacher – you get it, you get it.

And you do the same thing: you take everything that’s happening and you put it into your heart and you then can really see what’s going on. And the degree that you’re involved in some capacity with whatever it is that’s happening around you, it is the quality of the heart resonance that is the aliveness, not the collective reflection denser stuff.

That kind of thing, whatever light it had, or clarity it had, is more in relationship of an understanding. As the teacher would call it, it belongs to the school of 10,000, instead of the esoteric school, which doesn’t have very many people because it works in a silence, and in the hiddenness, and it’s just a few.

And it’s important to know where you’re at, and if you’re in the 10,000 and now you’re sorting things out, and 10,000 might be able to make a difference to kind of manipulate or change or have an effect upon the reflection of things, but the other kind of touches it, in its silence or in its secretive secret way of being, which is the consciousness that every person, and I, am meant to reach some day.

But it’s a whole other octave because God has created creation and he’s hidden himself in that. If you are connected to that, you’re under those orders. You do that because you’re taking in what God wants. This creation is meaningful, even though it’s reflected in what ordinarily appears to be a very dense and lower way of being; all of the levels are in it.

A and so he as a teacher comes in with this other level, that is normally so foreign that very, very few recognize that it twines like that, that it actually twines through the heart of things. And I am able to know that. So as I reach that sight, I know their lives – meaning myself and everything – is simplified by an insightfulness that awakens a connection that flows from within. It awakens a connection that flows from within.

So you can see, this is what the secret of secrets is all about. That’s a whole other thing. Who really participates in that? It’s hard enough just to know that everything flows from inner into outer, and that you’re caught up spending most of your day contending with outer effects, as if that’s what’s dynamic. And then dealing with those denser reflections that way.

You have to get way beyond really knowing that it’s inner into outer, so that it’s not just a matter of words. That quietness, that is the dynamic, that makes this all linked; it’s a quietness. It’s such a super quietness, that it enables everything to brush by and touch it, and in its super quietness it has the awareness of everything.

And so one could have an inflection about what is needed in the world in some capacity, that has maybe a right focus and intention about it – but how do you work with that in relationship to the only thing that really is going on, which is the super quietness that is everything. And you have to come to grips with that, and then you go beyond the catastrophe that can be described in terms of this dense level, and that’s what it’s really all about.

It’s not the play itself, although that’s the way that you look at it and talk about it, because that’s the denseness that everyone is caught up in in greater and greater degrees of pain and suffering and confusion.

Yet behind it is that individualistic light, that is the light of the whole of everything, that can just be in the state of a quietness that presides over it all, as not only a wholeness in the feminine, that takes into account everything in its being, but also as a masculine that is touched and in tune with the secret of secrets, and what that means as an importance of the quietness. So it’s not just plop, like in the feminine. It’s also aha, the attunement, noting the attunement, honoring the attunement.
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Jeane: I had a dream in which I was a therapist, but I seem to be working in a teaching setting. I’m moving to Portland, Oregon so I’m in my room saying goodbye to one of my students who’s a little bit upset about it.

This student is a woman and I’m talking to her about what she could do next. I’m encouraging her to get involved in a group or to stay in touch with me; I like to know how people are doing and we’re talking about that.

In the middle of our talk, a male supervisor comes in my room and looks in the closet. He discovers a box of evaluation forms that he’d put there and forgotten.

It’s kind of an interruption to my conversation with the woman because he has this kind of attention-deficit thing going on where he has to look for the forms, and wants me to talk to him later, but he doesn’t have any boundaries about when it’s appropriate to come in my room or not.

Then he leaves and I finish the conversation.

John: This is a dream about being able to be at ease with all parts of yourself. It starts off with you saying goodbye and counseling the student. But actually you’re counseling part of your feminine self in terms of how it can stay in touch with a linkage it has made.

In other words, something is changing, i.e., the dynamic upon which there’s a connection has changed. It no longer needs the same closeness or proximity because another means has opened up by which it can be recognized.

In the beginning, it’s important for a student to get together with the teacher and spend time around and in the presence of them. A teacher has a certain kind of energetic that can come across, or be taken in, or recognized, or awakened in the student.

In the image this appears as if it’s coming from the teacher to the student but, actually, what’s happening is the interaction is awakening a quality in the student that’s been lost or dormant. All the teacher is doing is acting as a mirror to cause this to happen.

Once this awakening occurs, then the student takes on this trait or quality through which they can begin to see their self connected to something originally reflected by the teacher, but is now a part of the student’s ability or linkage from within.

Because the image shows you leaving the student, it also means that you’re able to stand more on your own feet because you have a connection inside that you know how to reach, and you can reach it now when you couldn’t before. You can now take that and extend it out, in terms of others, and recognize yourself in them.

It’s a very interesting dynamic when this part takes hold. You’ll notice, for example, in our dream group a person will tell their dream and they want it interpreted from the standpoint that it was their dream and it’s what they’re going through. The analysis needs to resonate with them. But it also needs to resonate with the people listening, because there comes a point where the dream and the entire group interaction is intertwined. It’s not something that stands separate.

For the longest time, that person is going to insist that this is their particular thing, and that it’s peculiar to them and, as a result, they’re going to be identifying and holding themselves separate from everyone else, as opposed to intertwined.

And the dilemma that exists is they’re still acting like they have to sort something out, rather than recognizing that they’re in all things or that all things are in them. That’s still a state of traveling towards God, which is different to traveling with God.

Your dream is showing you, in terms of an overallness, that you’re not limited now to a particular place or space that you have made a connection to, so that you can be somewhere else and it can be okay because you have the means by which to hold a support system, in terms of yourself, in the overall.

See, the overall is a support system. Generally, as humans, we don’t use the overall. We rely upon our own devices, separately, because we see everything as distinct from how we are and, therefore, we rely upon on our own wits and mannerisms in terms of coping.

That’s how we tend to see it, but when we get to the point where we don’t see ourselves as distinct and separate, then that’s the point where we have an inner connection that’s supported by its relationship to the whole, and that’s what it means to bring the inner into the outer.

We’ll continue this discussion tomorrow, in The Big Drama.

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