Posts Tagged ‘connecting to the stillness’

1000If we want to understand how a machine works, we can take it apart and see what makes it go. But what do we do if we want to understand living things – things we can’t take apart?  Well, we have to connect to them, in the same way that a shaman or medicine man in the past learned to connect to the healing essences of plants. And if we want to connect to something energetically, we have to do it from the essence in us to the essence in it, which means energy to energy. But, of course, we have to become quiet enough in ourselves to receive and translate that communication. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So, in the meditation dream, I find myself holding off from responding to an issue in which there is an invoking of an outer response. In other words, it’s an outer trying to get my attention, and so I’m holding off responding to it. And I hold off because I know, deep inside, that the response cannot be an in-sync reply. In other words, you can’t respond to the outer: reflections cannot meet reflections.

So I hold back, and do not reciprocate outwardly, because there’s something inside of me – and I consider it like the soul or something – which is refusing to move. It wants to just stay still. It won’t buy into this outer that is trying to grab my attention.

So I find myself surrendered to the inner stillness. In other words, I just can’t bite; that motion just doesn’t grab me. And so what does that mean? Does it mean that the outer vibrations are somehow or another absorbed by the stillness, or into the heart? And that my mind, that normally buys into the outer reflections, just cannot do it? In other words, there’s something that has gotten more meaningful, in terms of staying still with a more all-consuming heartfulness.

So that causes me to wonder: what is this stillness? And I come to ponder it as relating to the plane of the soul, which is where surrender and nonbeing come together, and where everything is absorbed. The outer is absorbed by this encompassing heart, or something.

In other words, the reflections aren’t separate. The reflections can all be taken within. And so, in other words, there’s always going to be reflections, but the reflections, you don’t take them with you in bizarreness, the reflections stay as manifestation still, in terms of the degree to which something has to act out vibrationally, with images.

And you’re always noting the degree of true stillness by looking at the greater teacher of the outer, that is manifestation, but you don’t try to change the outer in order to get to the inner. Such a mindset, in which the outer vibratoriness and corresponding images are something that you can bring with you into the plane of the soul, it just isn’t so because they are reflections. They veil the heart from the inner. They vie for the heart.

So what happened is, in my meditation dream, I was able to not reciprocally react because I was on the plane of the universal soul where stillness is natural. Now the alternative to that, of course, is an outer reflective in which the senses portray the reflective physical and the result, then, of something like that is kind of an ego orientation floundering as manifestation. In other words, putting out the vibrations and the images because vibrations and images are correlated. Or, to put it another way, manifestation exists as an outer reflection in which vibrations correspond to created images.

And so this has caused me to notice a psychic illusion. To visualize, within, an outer future unfoldment involves the taking of a vibratory energetic from the stillness into physical manifestation, and doing it this time in which you stop time, as if irrelevant. In other words, manifestation is a conditional reflection involving time and vibration which, densed down, becomes physical space.

So psychic inflections are a deviation in one of two ways in terms of the stillness. They are a deviation in that you can have a psychic quality in which you transcend time, so that you can come to see things backwards and forwards, and up and about, that’s a psychic trait. Or you can take and you could still be buying into time, but you can get rid of vibrations, in which case if you can get rid of the vibrations that then manifest into something physical because they constellate as something dense in the outer, if you can get rid of the vibrations, you know that have their way of having to live something through in a reflective denseness, then you can do things like transport or move objects. In other words, you can transcend space. So psychic abilities have to do with playing on the edges of time and space, that are important as foundational points to a vibrational imaged manifestation.

And so what has happened is it’s causing me to denote the subtler levels of vibration in relationship to looking at the stillness, in terms of looking at the stillness, in terms of the components that come out, that are the reflective manifestation. Thus you hold the stillness, and then the manifestation reflects differently. It’s just how it is.

It reflects to the degree to which it still imparts that which still has to be lived, and it still has to be imaged. It still is something that you’re not quite fully able to let go of. It still reflects that. You don’t come to the stillness by playing with the reflective outer.

So that’s an important distinction, and I can see how this can happen, in terms of a perception, because the out-breath looks like you’re bringing something down into it, and so, as an out-breath it’s like, you know, there’s a momentum and whatnot. It’s easy to catch this as something that is meant to impact the outer – but, no, it’s from the inner. That other creates a diversity where there is the seeing and hearing of things that are unfolding, but the unfoldment is reflectively oriented to the inner awakening.

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325quasara_1Humans live in motion and seek, through their life, the deep inner stillness. The stillness, from which all movement arises, seeks to connect to that movement through the human. We are the only creature refined enough to offer creation that service. We are part of its unfolding, not the other way around, which makes what each of us does with our lives of great importance to the whole. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: The way this has been coming across is: beginning and end are one and the same, up and down, inner and outer, above and below, basically reflections of the same time.

There’s only a oneness. There are not two gods. There’s not this Satan and this other, and each religion tends to have maybe has evil another separate stream of evolution. Really what we consider evil is usually just ignorance.

That causes me to ponder maybe even what is considered evil is just a different octave of ignorance – which means it’s all God yet. It’s all a letting go, because in the process of redemption and awakening you’re having to go into the depths of yourself in order to scale to the heights of yourself.

And that whole sensation is a sensation of taking a journey of which there is no beginning and there is no end. You are always complete. At some point you realize that it’s all complete. The whole thing was done as part of an eyes and ears or something way of happening, and so it’s the journey that’s real.

But now I’m not so sure, because even in the end the journey has to end, or otherwise you’re continuously trying to make things subtler and subtler and subtler in a greater and greater more consciousness. And therein will lie a problem. And thus I’m sitting and seeing what might be meant when it says that no one group, or tariqa or whatever it is, can do this work.

If you took all of the answers, if there was a total of only 100 questions in the universe, and you took and were able to compare all of the notes and put it all together, you could get 100. You could include everything in it, and when you include everything in it you have an absolute total stillness.

Or otherwise you’re still going to have the greater jihad of this and you’re always going to have the battle of the sects. And yet the differentiation between them when you back up to the storyline seems pretty, pretty trite. And yet out of that has devolved a raging war over there.

This is an interesting paradigm to catch up with, and it caused me to ponder the whole quality that some people have that is a rebellion, that is a rebellion and a push off towards what they see everybody else going through.

And it’s almost as if they have a repugnance towards that and that repugnancy from that end, call that a direction or an end, is no different than the repugnancy of someone who thinks that they’ve got everything figured out, they’ve got the best wife, the best house, the best job, the best bank account, whatever it is that makes them feel all hunky-dory in that direction.

The other is a sense of security from a sense of knowing something somehow, someway, and maybe there’s a quality typically of a cynicism in both directions. You pull the plug on both of those and that inflects something so much more; so, so, so much more.

Thus you come to understand the meaning of forgiveness. And the forgiveness is part of the letting go that opens everything up. But if there’s still going to be the holding on, in some little context, maybe I’ll still keep a little piece of the action there just in case, just in case. It’ll give me a good jacket if the weather turns bad.

And then all of a sudden I went through the crackup, and the crackup was the shock of the stillness. That was my crackup, suddenly realizing that you weren’t always constantly trying to have spiritual solutions to everything, that there’s no such thing as that. There’s just the letting go.

The exposure is very, very important. In other words, you’ve got to be in the world, but not part of it, so to speak. You’ve got to have that exposure. You’ve got to walk through that door somehow, jumping off into that void. Unbelievably scary. Just the shock of that obliterates the dreaming on the inner dream level, just like the shock of the senses hitting when you open your eyes obliterate the dream level of the sleep.

And the same can be said in another way. Now that I am lucky enough to be able to meditate and have experiences in the meditation, that sets a particular octave. I don’t necessarily understand it. A part of that octave is the stillness, and then there’s the contamination in it.

And then when I go to sleep and have a regular sleep dream, then I get a reconstituting kind of attempt to align it. Then when I wake up and have pulled it out, then I have to put it into a context of “in the world, and out of the world” or otherwise it’s bookish. It doesn’t do anything then, either.

So this is more like the process. What we dream now, we dream for the future. And what was dreamt in the past we are living that now. Thus we are at this point where we’re at this crescendo of things coming together. And how is that going to be?

There always has to be something more. Who knows what it’s going to be. With my eyes open I don’t see the revelation everywhere. I only am seeing it in infinitesimal glimpses.

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RingofFireSolarEclipseHow can stillness or nothingness be the goal of a spiritual path? Perhaps the answer lives in the realms of being a perfect conduit between what comes to us from above, and what we experience in the outer and send back to the universe. That is a service that should not include our biases and likes and dislikes. We can think of ourselves as a Mars Rover, sent here by creation to send back information about the realms of matter, so that the universe can better evolve. And it’s a critical job to the purpose of the whole. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: So to put it in to context, it was like a door in which the door can be described, you can come up to the door, you can know a lot about it, but you have to step through it. And when you step through it, everything kind of changes.

Now last night I finally pulled a certain anxiety together in that I am able to see and was seeing, now going beyond this negative of where, okay, the running question had been, are we going for a reset here? How is this going to work?

Because I can see where you could say that there is a reflective problem – in terms of where you could have these subtle deviations that result in all of these different tariqas, and religions, and spiritual practices, and processes, and paths and whatnot, that all have the same intent of going towards a oneness but don’t quite get there because they have some little subtle hinky in the note.

And last night I worked out… first of all what was happening is I was realizing that if I was in a stillness, I wouldn’t dream. And that at a depth of that stillness there was a way of knowing things, and because a human being has put inside of themselves everything in the universe, there’s a way of knowing what is, what’s to be, so to speak.

If you can totally, truly get out of the way and be in a total stillness, any kind of state, any kind of equivocation goes on, the biases then prevent you from actually getting it, actually seeing something.

So if you can actually be in the stillness, and at home in the nothing but nothingness, you then have, and I was shown, three prominent levels in the stillness. Now I don’t know what the stillness is, I can’t tell you anything about it, I can’t tell you where the motion is to it because there was no motion, all I was shown that there’s the 110, 130, and 150, three key aspects to it. And so I go, wow! And that’s all that I’m left with in my meditation dream. Then when I go to sleep, I’m presented with having to operate in a way that totally lets go.

And so that dream starts off in which I am sitting in a bunch of chairs, and there’s a teacher in the front, and all of a sudden everyone has to get closer. And so there’s this movement to shift to the front, and you make this in a non-thinking way. You’re just automatically drawn.

It’s just like an osmosis vacuum with the exception that, for some peculiar reason in the shifting forward, I was a little too slow and ended up in the lap of somebody already sitting in a seat. And this time, when I look to move forward, now I’m looking to move forward, I’m acting as if I’m trying to move forward, and so now it’s contaminated.

And then that image shifted to me being kind of out in an open area and there is a young girl that’s there that I’m talking to, that I’m relating to. And so I’m talking about there being a stillness I guess to everything, and that suddenly this discussion comes around to proving it. And so I say the way I can prove this is by asking a question or two.

So the first question I ask is a question that tunes or hits the vibration of the energy in such a way that it creates a reaction, so she’s spinning around doing this, that, and the other and, obviously then, because I’m connected to everything, I even lose the question that I was to pose – let alone getting this to where it proved that the stillness is everything.

So when she stabilizes and that collateral effect has kind of dissipated, I think of the next question. And so what I say to her is I say, “This next question I’m going to be presenting two things, neither of these are true. Which is the least true? Which is the least true?”

Understand now this is all along the schematic of trying to prove to her that the stillness is everything. And so I say to her, “Which is least untrue: putting yourself in the hearts of others. And when you say the hearts of others means the involvement, the attention, and the scopality that goes into everything in the outer that we do, where our perceptions go out like that.

And, ultimately, if you then reduce it an individual level, you know, you’re developing empathic abilities and sensitivities that deal with the perception of you being able to feel them, or seemingly the senses that you’re feeling them, inside of them, and you’re able to then kind of recognize something. But that’s the reaching out, that’s the putting of your heart in things.

And then the second is: “Putting everything into your heart. Which is less untrue?”

Immediately what ended up happening is, there she goes. She’s spinning away, and her eyes are flashing around, and there’s a little delirium going on because this is something that has not been sorted out, our aligned, in terms of a getting it, kind of thing, of a letting go kind of thing.

And so when she finally slows down and stabilizes and kind of is back again, then I say to her, then I change what I said a little bit, and I say, “One of them is actually true, but then again it has an untruth in it from one way of looking at it. And the other is actually untrue, but it has a truth in it from another way of looking at it.” And that’s where I left it.

And then from that I came to know that the process upon which, in terms of the shift, being able to go through the door, what that means and what that causes to happen. I’m going to use the term used for this in terms of presenting this as a subject matter. It’s called the Ring of Fire. And inside of each person they have to go through things in life until they have dropped all of even the subtle nuances, until you actually can hit a stillness. Because otherwise you’re still affecting and biasing, in some subtle way, everything in the outer around around you.

So you have to hit the stillness in order to, the way it’s put, is to be able to do the work you have to hit the stillness to be able to do the work, or otherwise you’re still going to be putting your little note to it. Just like you have the little Chisti note, you have the little Naqshband note, and on and on you could go. When you’re able to do that, you’re able to do the true work.

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