A Magnetic Aliveness

Russell Kightley
Russell Kightley

Sometimes our dreams provide a symbolic snapshot of what our internal or external struggles are about. Other times, as in this example from Jeane, our dreams seek to lead us to understanding or connection. In this image, Jeane is in line to get a dance partner who will be a stranger to her, and she is thinking about how to time it to land on her preferred one. But if we trust the universe, and ultimately we must, it will make the right internal connections for us. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.) This post was originally published in August 2015.

Jeane: My first dream takes place in a bar. It’s like I’m sitting and looking – there’s a dance area that’s next to a pool table, and I’m sitting actually a little distance from that, kind of opposite where the head of the table would be, kind of studying things.

People line up around one side of the pool table and then as they come to the other side they get a dance partner, and then they dance until they’ve gone to the end of the pool table, and then they get in the line again.

Well, your partner is determined by where the line has moved when you reach the dance floor. And I’m studying out this whole system and I realize that of all the people that I see waiting to kind of pick up a dance partner, there’s only one man in the line that I might actually think it was okay to dance with.

And so like how would you actually figure that out? How can you get your timing right? Because I’m not sure I’d really want to dance with any of the other characters I’m seeing around the dance table or the dance floor. That’s the first dream.

John: What you’re doing is you’re looking to find a connective focus and flow that is something that you’re able to let yourself go into. Which means that you’re experiencing the oddity and awkwardness of activities, per se, because you’re sensing that there is something missing in terms of how you are in terms of your ordinary connective focus and attention – because you are recognizing how it is that that touches you in some specific way inside.

And so because you have a sensation sense over how it is that something needs to be, in terms of you having an overall well being in terms of it, this is like recognizing from somewhere deeper within a magnetic aliveness that is pulling you to something more real.

Because you don’t know what that something more real is, your mentalness or synaptic nature is inclined to look at the activity that is going around and around and attempt to factor into that activity that which would give it a greater meaningfulness.

In other words, you’re experiencing something that is trying to pull you into a greater realness, but the best you can do to denote that in the dream image is to take that back in terms of the senses, of your senses, of the situation, of the image, and your mindfulness in terms of what you’re able to perceive and think about that, and attempt to make it come across and seem better so that it corresponds to that which is attempting to pull you into a greater state of meaningfulness, of realness.

And this is a realness that you can’t put your finger on, per se, that is in motion inside of you, that then affects your attention and the way you conduct yourself in the outer, and so your dream has created this perspective, has created a storyline, that is symbolic to this process of unfoldment – even though the storyline dream that you portray, as if that’s real, it is instead depicting something else that is out of reach, and out of touch, and unknown to you that is having an effect upon the situation to which your mind, not knowing, and even in your sleep not knowing what that is, puts together this image, this dream image.

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It’s very easy for us to consider ourselves human, although there are many actions in this world that should be understood as sub-human. Yet do we often wonder what it means to fulfill the human possibility? When a flower blooms it has realized its perfection. What is that fulfillment for a human? There is not a single bloom, perhaps, because we are multiple in our design and each unique in our way. Still, our physical incarnation combined with our spiritual power are a design, and within every design is the path to its fulfillment. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: In my dreaming last night, I even was hearing the word inferred, like, say, Dean saying, that such a person is a realized person. And I kept thinking, what’s a realized person? Because he refers to himself as not having become a realized person, or not having quite made it. 

And yet he goes round and can say that something is a realized person. In my dream, I’m even seeing him say that. And so I keep saying, well, that’s very positive for him to use that flippantly about whatever it was that he was referring to in the dream. 

And then I realized that it’s the essence that’s always realized. And that we bifurcate that, all the way to the point where we make all of this substance around us to contend with. And then we go around trying to solve and play with that. 

The danger that we face is that we have some degree of success at evolving, as if we’re evolving consciously, evolving in terms of vibrations, able to take the vibrations into different iterations. And have no idea that we, as a vibration of all vibrations, are language, the vibrations actually can speak. In other words, I can see the vibrations get to a point where if you can accept all vibration, if you can accept the vibration, if you can truly, truly accept the vibration, and you can accept the vibrations within the vibration, you end up with something that has language, sound. Has sound, has language, and then can act like electricity, can spark, can flicker like light.

Quite an interesting thing in terms of wondering what one really is. And so when we go through, and we dream in all of our different ways of dreaming of things, we are still struggling with, we’re still contending with, aspects of ourselves in a bifurcated way. We’re still doing some sort of fortification, or re-fortification of identity, instead of letting it go completely still. 

So stillness gets to a letting go of all of that. Samadhi, another way of saying it, because sometimes the words that are put to the condition of what one experiences when they’re in Samadhi can sometimes be a little different informationally, is where you’re at a point in which nothing touches you. But in such a Samadhi state, and you’re walking around, you don’t necessarily usually get it and so you find yourself falling back into things.

Meaning that when you’re in a Samadhi and walking around, or Satori, a Satori that is a reflection, a state reflection, out of a condition of having hit a Samadhi, and the Satori, you kind of walk around in a nurtured way. In other words, you’re not really touched or afflicted by things, but you don’t stay that way because you eventually get consumed by the common denominators of vibrations instead of being able to keep going back, and back, and back until you are just the essence of nothingness. Who can do that?

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Perception at Play

What if we were to categorize energies the way we do drugs? We might say a particular relationship or type of experience is like ecstasy. And another set of people or experiences were more of a downer. Or, I’m not at my best when I take that medicine/act that way. But with any drug or medication, we understand that it will eventually wear off and we’ll be back to our everyday status quo. The point here is that all our emotional upheavals are just like this – but knowing that they will be naturally processed out of us can add to the speed, and efficiency, of the process itself. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I only had a few images from dreams I had. I remember, in one image, going into my dad’s department store at night, and looking around and seeing people milling around in there and thinking that people had just come in, and were like shopping, but that nobody was running the store. 

And then I finally spot some women that do appear to be manning the counters – so that makes me feel a little better. And I even find some people in the store I know, that I talk to, that are shopping. And that was one scene.

And then another scene, I remember, is I was observing this house, and in this house, which was fairly elaborate, there was a woman guest that had come to stay, a young woman. And she had a very nice bedroom. But there was almost like a saloon door that went into the wall of her bedroom, and up a half a flight. And that was where the teenage son of the household was staying. And I think I did something which locked the doors between the room, but since it’s like a saloon door, you couldn’t lock it all the way. 

As I travel somewhere else in the house, I talk to a daughter in the family and explain to her that that particular room arrangement is kind of a recipe for disaster with this kind of wild woman next door, and this confused teenage boy – with not a good door between the two rooms. And then I know I just kept having more elaborate dreams like that, but I didn’t remember the details.

John: So what you’re doing is, you’re caught in the reverb of projection. If you could just let go of the projection, and let it all be absorbed, it would cause something different to occur. 

Your dream just reports where you’re at in relationship to how it is that you’re able to take something in. For example, as it starts off with you being in your dad’s department store, and it’s night, and that there are things going on in this depth of the department store which has an unfathomable quality to it, in order for you to handle this, you have to make those things that are there recognizable in some fashion. And that then makes it palpable for your consciousness that needs to have identification – that makes it palpable. 

In the other dream in which there is this wild-woman quality that has a connection to something so much more, that it is like a son. But the son is also in a kind of identifiable haywire mode, but the two seem to be even cut off from each other, so there’s no way of sorting that out. That, too, is an image in which there is a perception that is in play, and in place. And such perceptions always carry a delirium, because those are perceptions that have to do with a projective imagery. 

So you’re having to take this sort of thing into account, as exaggerated almost kind of nightmarish images, as a continuation from a pattern that was first introduced the night before. And, in this pattern, there was a dilemma in figuring out how to work with intensity. Intensity in terms of a spaciality.

You’re having to understand how to scope with the spaciality. And you can’t scope with the spaciality because everything has to have a Kundalini vibratory loudness to it as part of how you seek to perceive things around you. In other words, this is the news that you find important yet, in terms of your way of functioning in a projective, projected, modality. You’re not able to let it all go, which means that you have to somehow hold on to an aspect for visibility purposes. 

And this sort of doingness keeps you from just scoping into the depth of something that absorbs it all. You don’t have a proper access. You have to take all this deranged action, the woman in her way creates the son that you don’t even have proper access to, it’s on the other side of a door, causes it to have its deranged mode. 

But if you can let go of all of that, it’ll just go and go and go and go, it’ll all just absorb and get sucked right up as if it was never really real. Not really there. But you aren’t letting go of it, so you’re sitting caught in the scoped-out projection, the telescoped projection of it all, in kind of a outer sense. And even your access to something that’s a little on the inner is still contaminated with a kind of outer demeanor. 

This is a nightmare thing. This is the kind of way of dreaming of someone who does hallucinogenics or something that intoxicates them to the point where there is a deliriousness instead of a letting-go quality that goes into a stillness and a oneness.

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