Posts Tagged ‘connecting to your inner guidance’

What if we were to categorize energies the way we do drugs? We might say a particular relationship or type of experience is like ecstasy. And another set of people or experiences were more of a downer. Or, I’m not at my best when I take that medicine/act that way. But with any drug or medication, we understand that it will eventually wear off and we’ll be back to our everyday status quo. The point here is that all our emotional upheavals are just like this – but knowing that they will be naturally processed out of us can add to the speed, and efficiency, of the process itself. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: I only had a few images from dreams I had. I remember, in one image, going into my dad’s department store at night, and looking around and seeing people milling around in there and thinking that people had just come in, and were like shopping, but that nobody was running the store. 

And then I finally spot some women that do appear to be manning the counters – so that makes me feel a little better. And I even find some people in the store I know, that I talk to, that are shopping. And that was one scene.

And then another scene, I remember, is I was observing this house, and in this house, which was fairly elaborate, there was a woman guest that had come to stay, a young woman. And she had a very nice bedroom. But there was almost like a saloon door that went into the wall of her bedroom, and up a half a flight. And that was where the teenage son of the household was staying. And I think I did something which locked the doors between the room, but since it’s like a saloon door, you couldn’t lock it all the way. 

As I travel somewhere else in the house, I talk to a daughter in the family and explain to her that that particular room arrangement is kind of a recipe for disaster with this kind of wild woman next door, and this confused teenage boy – with not a good door between the two rooms. And then I know I just kept having more elaborate dreams like that, but I didn’t remember the details.

John: So what you’re doing is, you’re caught in the reverb of projection. If you could just let go of the projection, and let it all be absorbed, it would cause something different to occur. 

Your dream just reports where you’re at in relationship to how it is that you’re able to take something in. For example, as it starts off with you being in your dad’s department store, and it’s night, and that there are things going on in this depth of the department store which has an unfathomable quality to it, in order for you to handle this, you have to make those things that are there recognizable in some fashion. And that then makes it palpable for your consciousness that needs to have identification – that makes it palpable. 

In the other dream in which there is this wild-woman quality that has a connection to something so much more, that it is like a son. But the son is also in a kind of identifiable haywire mode, but the two seem to be even cut off from each other, so there’s no way of sorting that out. That, too, is an image in which there is a perception that is in play, and in place. And such perceptions always carry a delirium, because those are perceptions that have to do with a projective imagery. 

So you’re having to take this sort of thing into account, as exaggerated almost kind of nightmarish images, as a continuation from a pattern that was first introduced the night before. And, in this pattern, there was a dilemma in figuring out how to work with intensity. Intensity in terms of a spaciality.

You’re having to understand how to scope with the spaciality. And you can’t scope with the spaciality because everything has to have a Kundalini vibratory loudness to it as part of how you seek to perceive things around you. In other words, this is the news that you find important yet, in terms of your way of functioning in a projective, projected, modality. You’re not able to let it all go, which means that you have to somehow hold on to an aspect for visibility purposes. 

And this sort of doingness keeps you from just scoping into the depth of something that absorbs it all. You don’t have a proper access. You have to take all this deranged action, the woman in her way creates the son that you don’t even have proper access to, it’s on the other side of a door, causes it to have its deranged mode. 

But if you can let go of all of that, it’ll just go and go and go and go, it’ll all just absorb and get sucked right up as if it was never really real. Not really there. But you aren’t letting go of it, so you’re sitting caught in the scoped-out projection, the telescoped projection of it all, in kind of a outer sense. And even your access to something that’s a little on the inner is still contaminated with a kind of outer demeanor. 

This is a nightmare thing. This is the kind of way of dreaming of someone who does hallucinogenics or something that intoxicates them to the point where there is a deliriousness instead of a letting-go quality that goes into a stillness and a oneness.

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Dreamstate-1When we don’t quite get the realization of our dreams, in other words, complete the connection that the images are trying to encourage, we tend to dream the scenario over and over again. Here John finds himself coming upon beautiful ripe berries unexpectedly, yet as he begins to enjoy them, they seem to suddenly not be ripe anymore. This discovery takes the energy out of the initial exuberance. This is the third dream in a row where an abundance has been denied him, and it has something to do with the balance between his inner masculine and feminine energies. Has the understanding been reached? (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

John: First of all, what’s the meaning of something on the left? What’s the meaning where things are just on the left?

Jeane: It’s receptive, feminine.

John: Is it feminine? Is that what it means? Because I keep dreaming left and right, but I don’t really understand left or right.

So in this dream I take a walk from where I’m at with friends, and I don’t recall anything on the walking out. All I could say is that I probably needed to shake something off or something like that, and maybe was in my own daze, or mood, or something.

So there’s nothing memorable as I proceed out on the walk, but on the return something changes. And it changes with me suddenly noticing on the left these huckleberries. The bush is bigger than normal, and the huckleberries are perfectly ripe. And it’s rare to find huckleberries; it just was a shock and surprise. They’re usually in kind of a more isolated setting and whatnot.

And it also seemed that there was nothing to look at on the right, everything was on the left. And then from the huckleberries I went to some other berry that was black, and these berries were almost as big as an avocado or something. They were oversized, really oversized.

Well, when I saw those huckleberries they were all perfectly ripe, and I took and I stopped and had some and they were tremendous, and I was excited and exuberant and couldn’t wait to get back to be able to tell, and show, and share with others what there was to be noted. Who would have guessed?

Now the berries were all berries that turned black and they were all different kind of berries. I mean, whatever it is that you could think of that turns black when it’s ripe, whether they’re olives, or blackberries, or huckleberries or whatever. And, to begin with, the bush would be bigger, the berries would be plentiful, all black, then the berries would be bigger. It went through the phase where the berries would be bigger like almost the size of an avocado or something, elongated – but no flavor, no flavor, which is amazing.

The huckleberries were fabulous, now all of a sudden the flavor was gone. I felt like I needed to not only pay attention as I was walking along seeing all of these different kinds of berries that have supposedly turned back, and now I’m saying “supposedly” because as I’m paying attention the berries aren’t necessarily all black anymore. They’re getting ripe, and there are not as many of them and so I can’t readily sample like I had been sampling. And, like I say, it was all to the left and there was kind of a perception that maybe there was a waterway or something that helped support that being lush over there as opposed to the right side.

So a little bit of what I wrote about it is: when I sampled them I have to wonder did that have an effect in terms of the berries, that I indulged in some fashion? Was there something to that? Actually, I think there may be something to that conceptually, but overall, no, it’s looking at it too narrowly.

What about the excitement to show others an exuberance? Well, yeah, that leads to a fulfillment, that causes something to break through. You get to the bottom and you get something out there and the aliveness then magnifies that kind of condition. But then as I progress back, having indulged a bit and then getting closer to coming back, the urgency and the excitement goes away, the aliveness goes away. In other words, what had been ripe is not ripe, they’re still ripening. You have to look hard to find any that might be edible or ripe. And so you tend to realize that there’s further to go, almost as if something has shifted from that exuberance to something that is a little more stifled.

The meaning is there is so much wonder, pent up exuberance, and energetic excitedness about life when I am not in an imbalanced way with how I feel myself. There is a lot of that. In other words, it’s like when I started the walk out I may have been in my own space a little bit, affected, or in a trance or something, and it’s only when I got turned around and started to come back having gone out there that I realized something different on the left. But when I got back it was like I come back to a different set of conditions.

The dream is also indicating that this tends to go away, in other words, this thing that I experienced, or take a step back when I indulge. Now how does one indulge? You can indulge just by being affected by something that is not quickened, that’s in a stupor or something, and you are affected or infected by it. Now, if I try to rationalize what took place this only takes me backwards.

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Evan Spellman

Evan Spellman

Here, a real-life scenario – Jeanne being nervous when John drives too fast – is used as an image for a deeper message. Part of what happens as we develop is that we come into contact and connection with energies of higher speeds. That’s a good thing, and is, in fact, what develops us (we don’t). Those speeds need to be adjusted to, and new balances need to be found. Of course, our old speeds and ways of being think that it’s scary, and put up resistance. But we have the ability to handle it. (At the end of this post there are instructions and a link to download this recording to your computer.)

Jeane: In my first dream, I’ve gone to a woman friend of mine who’s a physician, and she has to give a seminar so I’m going to go with her while she gives this presentation to a group of people.

So we drive somewhere and then we arrive there, and it feels like it’s actually outside, and there are some tables sitting there where, you know, where she’ll present. Well, then she realizes that she doesn’t have a pen that works, so I open up my purse and I have a bunch of pens but I have to find one that is the right color that works well.

So finally I do that and I hand it to her. Well then we realize that for some reason the setting we’re in doesn’t work, so we’re going to drive back more towards my home. Well, we start driving. There are other people in the car. And it feels like the trail becomes really narrow and windy alongside a river and we’re driving on it.

And she’s going so slowly I realize that she’s kind of terrified by this, so I offer to drive. Well, I take over and I drive pretty fast along this trail, even though it’s kind of windy and more like a biking or a hiking trail. I suddenly look around and I realize I’m all by myself. The rest of the car and the people that were in the car seem to have disappeared, they’re way behind me.

I guess they didn’t like me going that fast, so I go back along the trail and I find them, and then see if they want me to drive more slowly, or what. And then suddenly we’re just kind of showing up where we need to go, but I realize by that time they are probably going to be closing the office. And I’m looking like we’re close to where my home is; should we give the seminar there, or what should we do?

I’m almost suggesting to her that this time maybe we should just go get a bite to eat and forget the whole thing.

John: The scenario for the dream is this hyper reaction that you have when I’m driving, where you imagine things bipping and bopping out of the blue, and it creates this helter-skelter shattering in your nature that causes you to feel that you have to slow everything way, way, way down in order to keep yourself from losing a balance.

And so the dream you have plays with that, to try to get you to get a different sense over all of that. In a roundabout way, I’ve been trying to get you to get a different sense over all of that, but my sense over something like that has its problems, and its limitations, and the sense that I’m trying to hear in that is not necessarily the sense that you need to hear in that because I have my own little barriers with that mannerism, as well.

In other words, I don’t have the acuity necessarily in a groundedness way to be perhaps going at too great of a pace. In your particular case, you’re needing to recognize that you can go at that pace, that you can speed up at that pace, and that it’s part of a quality of being able to access, through and within yourself, that which needs to come out. In other words, the ability to be at a place on time to give a seminar, to be able to do it while it’s timely, in other words, before the time runs out. In other words, this is an important aspect to a quality of your being.

Now you do not want to recognize this as being true, and that’s why you have interjected in there someone else. But when you catch up with this quality of your being, you find out that there is no other kind of accommodation that you’re needing to make in order for this to occur, that this is all part of you.

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